moon illusion

At nine o'clock in the evening, Yun Zaye's figure appeared at the door of Find, and then disappeared behind the heavy door.

Mo Xun, who was standing at the bar, saw Yun Zaiye who had just entered at a glance.She put down the cup in her hand, waved at Yun Zaiye, then walked out of the bar and led Yun Zaye inside.

"any drinks?"

Yun Zaiye waved his hand, "No, I have to go back to school tomorrow morning."

"Okay then, why are you looking for me?"

Yun Zaiye, who had just sat down, was slightly taken aback, and then said, "How did you know I was looking for you?"

"Sooner or later, besides, you won't be the one who comes to the bar alone to get drunk."

"You understand other people's thoughts very well. Fengyao should be happy to tell you something?"

"It's okay, it's not too private, I should know everything, what do you want to know?"

"Have we known each other before? I mean, Qi Feng and I are far away."

Two hours later, Yun Zaiye came out of the bar.

How he drove home, he couldn't remember.When she came back to her senses again, Mrs. Yun had already walked up to her.

"This child, why did you come back so late! You have to get up early to catch the plane tomorrow..."

"It's okay, mom, I'll take a shower and rest now, and you and dad will also rest early."

Mrs. Yun wanted to say something more, but Yun Zaiye went straight upstairs.

Without further entanglement, Yun Zaye went upstairs and walked into the bathroom. After taking a shower, he turned off the light and went to bed to prepare for rest.

He didn't see that the screen of the mobile phone placed on the desk lit up for a moment, and then melted into the darkness again.

In the early morning of the next day, after Yun Zaiya had breakfast, he bid farewell to his parents and went to the airport by himself.

He didn't tell Qi Fengyao and other friends his flight time, so no one would come to see him off.

One person rides in the car, one person goes through the security check, one person waits for the plane, and the last person boards the flight leaving his hometown.

I don't know when it started, he seems to have been alone, taking care of everything around him, playing a role that doesn't suit him.

The temperature in the cabin is just right, and the sun shines in through the window, making people feel a little tired.

Yun Zaye pulled down the sun visor, closed his eyes and leaned back.

He was obviously very sleepy, but when he closed his eyes, his ears were filled with Mo Xun's words from yesterday.There is chaos, and people who are disturbed can't sleep.

"According to Qi Fengyao's words, one of you doesn't want to chase, and the other doesn't want to look back."

"He said that when he was a sophomore in high school, he went to participate in a physics competition. At that time, his goal was to surpass you in his freshman year of high school."

"At first, it seemed like it was just a rivalry between children. He didn't think too much, he just wanted to surpass your achievements. But after chasing you all the time, the relationship seems to have deteriorated."

"He mentioned before that he could go to a better school with his college entrance examination results, and his parents seemed to have chosen a foreign school for him before the college entrance examination, and wanted to send him abroad... But in order to meet you in Nanchuan, I just made a fuss with my parents, and in the end I didn’t go abroad and didn’t have a better choice.”

"His parents died, what about you? What did he say, did he just tell you that it was a car accident while traveling? In fact, what he didn't tell you was that the trip was after he and his parents had a dispute over whether to go abroad. , finally persuaded each other, as a gift of reconciliation."

"You probably know that he had a bad relationship with his parents since he was a child, and he didn't have many friends around him, and he was very estranged from everyone. So you have to know that the reconciliation between his parents and him, the first trip of their family, How important it is to him."

"If you go deeper, you are also responsible for the history of his parents."

"He chased your footsteps for four years, and finally saw you in Nanchuan, but you chose to go abroad and left him behind."

"He told me the day you were with him, you had no idea how happy he was."

"When you're not by his side, you don't know how much he misses you. How much do you miss you? That is, when he was drunk and hugged me, he called your name..."

After hearing this yesterday, he went straight home.He didn't answer Qi Fengyao's call, nor did he reply to his message.

He originally decided to take this relationship seriously and love that poor kid with more heart.

But this morning, he chose to leave without saying goodbye.

The number was blacklisted, all other social methods were deleted, and everything related to him was wiped out, including the earring on his ear.

He had a long dream last night, messy and unbearable, but it was enough to make him think clearly about the reason for all this.

He once sought out a psychiatrist and performed a memory block under hypnosis.

In that long-forgotten memory, there is a boy named Ren Zhiyuan, a trip to Philadelphia, a chaotic night in a hotel, and Qi Fengyao, who was innocent and forgotten.

Although at that time, Yun Zaiye didn't seem to know about Qi Fengyao's special feelings, but at least there was still a not-so-solid connection between the two of them.

It's hard for Yun Zaiye to imagine that he has been silently chasing someone for four years.How does it feel to leave suddenly?

How did Qi Fengyao feel when this person appeared in front of him again, but he no longer remembered him?

Even if it takes ten thousand steps back, even though Qi Fengyao can forgive his various actions, he can't forgive himself for having such an unclean past.

He is the coward, who dare not explain, dare not face, and has no way to solve all this.So in the end I chose to leave without saying goodbye.

At this moment, Qi Fengyao was running around Nanchuan's campus.

All day yesterday, Yun Zaiye did not reply to his message.Until today, he found that he had lost all the contact information about Yun Zaiye. In this era, as long as he cut off these, he would never be able to contact this person again.

Qi Fengyao was running to the dormitory area for psychology majors, he had to ask Yun Zaiye's friends if they still had Yun Zaiye's contact information.

Although the scope has been narrowed down to a dormitory area, for a person like Qi Fengyao who doesn't live on campus, there is still no way to find Yun Zaiye's roommate.

At this moment, another voice came from the side.

"Fengyao?"

Qi Fengyao, who was looking for someone, turned his head immediately, and then met the eyes of the visitor.

It's Meng Yuan.

Qi Fengyao paused, but still greeted him.

"Why did you come here?"

"I'm here... to find someone."

"Oh." Qi Fengyao looked up at the sign in the dormitory area, "Psychology? Are you here to find... that person?"

"...Forget it, don't count, find his roommate."

"Then do you know the place? Do you need me to help you?"

Although the two had conflicts before, a long-term cold war ensued.

But when they met again, there seemed to be no estrangement.As if the two had never been separated, they never mentioned the tacit understanding between the two before, and only focused on the present and the future.

Fortunately, Ye Zixuan's good popularity helped at this time, and the title of Director of the Social Association was also well known among the freshmen.

After finding the dormitory, Qi Fengyao and Meng Yuan walked up the stairs.

Standing at the door, Meng Yuan motioned to wait for him in the corridor, and Qi Fengyao knocked on the door and walked into the dormitory.

Fortunately, school hasn't started yet, and all three of them are in the dormitory.

Seeing Qi Fengyao, the three of them were taken aback for a moment, and then quickly welcomed him in.

"Why did Fengyao come here? Did Brother Yun ask you to come here?"

Bai Lang pulled out a chair, took a glass of water and brought it over.

"No, he didn't ask me to come. I'll just ask you if you've seen him."

No matter how unintelligent they are, they can tell that there is a problem between the two.

"Brother Yun, is today's flight back to school?"

Chen Chen, who had been silent all this time, suddenly said.

"Hey, yes!" Ye Zixuan came over and patted Qi Fengyao on the shoulder, "Maybe he forgot to tell you, the phone will definitely not work right now, it will be fine tomorrow, don't worry!"

"No." Qi Fengyao sat on the chair and shook his head, "He deleted all my contact information, I can't find him."

Now the silent person was replaced by the remaining three people.

In their concept, Yun Zaiye would never do this.

Although there is no one who is particularly close to him, Yun Zaiye seems to treat everyone around him with the same kindness and dignity.

Not angry, not mean, not tit for tat, not to walk away.

After a long silence, Ye Zixuan still spoke first.

"Ji Ye called me yesterday, and it was about Mo Xun's phone number. Do you think... he went to Mo Xun?"

Hearing Ye Zixuan's words, Qi Fengyao stood up abruptly, then froze in place again.

If Yun Yun asked Mo Xun's contact information, then he probably went to her.And with Mo Xun's understanding of herself, she must have told all the stories.

Now that this is the case... what else is there to worry about?

Anyway, nothing changed.

After coming out of school, Qi Fengyao didn't know where to go, so he staggered and finally walked to the bar.

If not, just go in and ask.It's not that he wants to redeem something, but he just wants to ask about Yun Zaiye's reaction when he hears about his bad past.

Open the door and walk in.

Mo Xun raised his head from the bar, and then met Qi Fengyao's eyes full of thoughts.

In a trance, Mo Xun suddenly felt that time went back to yesterday.

Today's Qi Fengyao, and yesterday's Yun Zaiye gradually merged into one person, appearing in front of Mo Xun.

Before Mo Xun walked out of the bar, Qi Fengyao walked over quickly.

"Did he see you yesterday?"

"Yes." Mo Xun nodded and looked at Qi Fengyao.

"Did he hear those things? How did he react?"

"What do you mean? If it's about your crush, then he blames himself. If it's about me and you...then he didn't hear it."