moon illusion

Just when Qi Fengyao was so anxious that he was about to bald the hair on Mi Xiu's head, he finally received a message from Yun Zaiye.

It was a voice that lasted half a minute. After clicking on it, it was Yun Zaiye's clean and gentle voice——

"No. Everyone is doing their own struggle, so don't admit defeat no matter what. You are often unconfident, afraid that you will not be as good as many people, and have a little inferiority complex, but I think you are the best, no matter what Okay. I want to tell you that you really don’t have to be a very good adult. Your kind and childish appearance is actually very cute. You will become a little confused when you make a mistake, and it’s cool when you insist on your choice seriously. Don’t think about it too much Play cool, the whole universe is cold enough, what's really precious is something warm."

And I want to tell you that the love I give you is the bottom line, when you don't even like you, I will love you.

This second half was swallowed by Yun Zaye into his throat, crushed into pieces in the night.

This is the strongest person he has ever met, and the person he wants to protect the most.

He has a cavity of joy, which can be given to this person without reservation.But he couldn't, because he knew too clearly that this person didn't want it.

It would be great if he was more pitiful, if he was more helpless, if all the people around him abandoned him, if there was nothing in his world to enter, that would be great.

I can walk into his life as a savior.At that time, he could only stare at himself, he couldn't help but cherish it.

In the next second, Yun Zaiye was taken aback by his morbid thoughts.

It shouldn't be like this, why would I think so?

But really, Qi Fengyao, as long as you say you need me now, I will definitely rush to your side to accompany you without stopping.

When will you need me?

Yun Zaiye was a little annoyed, and he was more blaming himself.If I am better and more capable, I can help him more.

As if sensing his intentions, the phone on the table vibrated.

After clicking on it, it was a message with only four words, but it was enough to make Yun Zaiye ecstatic.

Qi Fengyao: I want to see you.

Half an hour later, the two met in Mo Xun's Find, and Mo Xun took them to Qi Fengyao's exclusive booth. By the way, he thoughtfully gave him a glass of ice water and a glass of mojito, and then returned with the tray in his arms. bar counter.

From a distance, Mo Xun looked at the two people sitting opposite each other in the booth, and felt relieved like an old mother inexplicably.

Sure enough, that's how it is when you get older.Mo Xun looked back, lowered his head and continued to focus on the bill in his hand.

The atmosphere in the booth was slightly awkward.

Both of them almost drank the cups in front of them to the bottom, before Qi Fengyao opened his mouth to break the weird silence.

"I'm sorry to call you out so late." Qi Fengyao took the cup in his hand and twirled it twice, the water droplets on the cup wall slipped down the back of Qi Fengyao's hand.

"It's okay, it's a great honor." Yun Zaiye took a sip of the wine in front of him and nodded, "If you hadn't asked me out, I wouldn't have had the chance to taste Boss Mo's craftsmanship."

In fact, after sending out the message, Qi Fengyao regretted it.

At that moment, he really wanted to see Yun Zaiye, but he only wanted to see him.

He didn't think about what the two of them would say or do after they met, but he opened his mouth and issued this invitation as soon as his brain got hot at that time.

Fortunately, Yun Zaiye found a seemingly innocuous topic.But it's just what Yun Jae-ye looks like.

"You... come to the bar to drink ice water?"

Very good, cloud · stepping on thunder little expert · in the wild.

However, it is also a good opportunity to let him see how unbearable, how dirty, and how contemptible he is.

When Xiang Yun confessed all these things, he would probably change his view of himself.

By then, I should give up.

Thinking of this, Qi Fengyao immediately broke his mouth, "Because drinking will make me lose control. I was drunk twice, and those two times were very bad memories."

"Would you like to hear it?"

Hearing Qi Fengyao's question, Yun Zaiye raised his eyes and looked at the eyebrows of the person opposite, "If you are willing to speak, then I will naturally listen."

Hearing this, Qi Fengyao laughed instead, "It's not necessary, just listen to it casually."

Just as he was about to speak, Mo Xun, who had been watching from a distance, happened to come over and put a new glass of wine in front of the two of them.

"Use it slowly." Mo Xun took the replaced two cups, smiled and turned to leave.

Seeing Mo Xun's figure gradually disappearing into the lights of the crowd, Qi Fengyao spoke slowly.

"One of the two mistakes was her. It was the first time I came to this bar. I was not sure about some things and I couldn't see the person I had in mind, so I came here to find some pastime."

"That was the first time I met Mo Xun. She also had a lost lover. By accident, we went to the same bed and did things that shouldn't have happened between us. Fortunately, she never mentioned it later, but We also became confidants inexplicably because of the same illness and sympathy for each other."

"It's ridiculous, why don't you talk?" Qi Fengyao twitched the corners of his mouth as if mocking himself, and picked up the water glass in front of him.

At this moment, Yun Zaiye didn't even bother to think about the absurd behavior of the two strange men and women when they met for the first time.

His mind was full of Qi Fengyao's words just now, "the person in my heart", "she also has a lost lover".

It's really strange, I know every word clearly, but why can't I understand it when I put it together?

Someone in his heart?Is that his lost love?

When the gap reached his gaffe, Yun Zaye frantically took out a pack of cigarettes from his jacket pocket, and lit one as naturally as possible.

"I don't think it's ridiculous. It's a normal thing. It's just a way for two people who have also lost their lover to seek comfort when they are frustrated."

"Is that so?" Qi Fengyao suddenly laughed, "Then you might as well listen and see if this other mistake is also normal and correct."

"When I first entered Nanchuan, I met my assistant classmate. She always took special care of me, and I naturally understood the reason. In fact, the two of them didn't even open their mouths. They just came together naturally, as if they were just playing around."

"But I didn't expect it. I really took it as a joke, but she didn't think so. In another bar, she tried to get me drunk, and then the same irreparable mistake happened."

"This is not the most ridiculous thing. What's even more ridiculous is that all my responses turned out to be under the influence of alcohol, and I regarded her as the person I like."

The two people at both ends of the table sat silently facing each other.

One tore open his own bloody wound to show off to others, while the other was struggling in his own feelings.

After a long time, Yun Zaiye put out the cigarette butt in his hand and put it in the ashtray, and said, "It's not your fault, it's her insistence on going her own way, and you are just drunk with alcohol, it's not your fault."

"Heh." Qi Fengyao let out a sneer from his nose, "It turns out that your ability to accept is so good. Then, is there anything abnormal in your eyes?"

"No." Yun Zaiye did not pause this time, and immediately replied, "Normal or not is a subjective judgment of one person. In fact, there are 76 billion people in the world, and there are 76 billion kinds of normal."

Yun Zaiye is serious, probably due to the influence of his professional studies, his tolerance is indeed very high.

He can accept people who are different from his three views, he can tolerate people with eccentric personalities and bad tempers, and he can accept all people who do things that are too extreme, as long as they do not violate laws and disciplines.

But this is just him, not Qi Fengyao.

Hearing Yun Zaiye's answer, Qi Fengyao became inexplicably angry.

"Yun Zaiye, look up at me. I always feel that no one can fully understand me, see my bad nature, my dark side, my extreme and hysterical buried under the gentle surface."

"I feel like a schizophrenic, like a weirdo, like a psycho! While suppressing my pessimistic emotions and complaints, I also want to make myself look sunny and approachable."

"You don't know how much I want to suffer from depression! In this way, I can have some reason for being lonely, and I can also have some reason for my abnormal behavior. What's wrong with self-harm! Cutting my wrist is nothing more than a little more blood! Don't say I am insane crazy talk

... Yun Zaiye, you know, the most absurd people are sober. "

Probably because of the grievance and pain that had been accumulated for too long, Qi Fengyao finally took advantage of the dim light and ambiguous atmosphere to burst out all the emotions buried in his heart!

You probably don't know about Yun Zaiye.Falling in love with someone is like catching fire, burning your heart and lungs.What hurts, what is hot, what I long for, what I fear...is all about you.

Yun Zaiye, who was sitting opposite, just quietly looked at the hysterical Qi Fengyao in front of him.

Inopportunely, he thought of Bai Lang's words: If you really get to know and get in touch with this person deeply, maybe this person is completely different from the feeling you had for the first time. feel...

no i have.Yun Zaiye said silently in his heart.

I still have that heartbeat and love him as much as ever even after learning about his dark side.

After Qi Fengyao calmed down completely, Yun Zaiye spoke slowly.

"Little friend, are you a little greedy? I've told you once, why do I have to tell you again in person?"

"Since you are so greedy, then I will make an exception to satisfy your greed once! You have to remember clearly that you will not be confident, afraid that you will not be as good as many people, and you will also feel a little inferior because of some trivial past events. But I will Think you're the best, whatever. Everyone has their own struggle, so don't give up no matter what."

In an instant, Qi Fengyao was like a punctured balloon, sitting on the sofa and suddenly deflated.