under the filth

Because it was arranged in advance, Tang Cen's physical examination ended soon, but it took a while to get the complete examination results.Eisen had already agreed with Tang Cen to take him around, but standing in front of the hospital gate and looking at the ground wetted by dense raindrops, the two sighed at the same time.

"Go back." Tang Cen took Eisen's hand and dragged him back to the hospital hall.On rainy days, Tang Cen would always be disturbed by an inexplicable feeling of depression, and it was the same now. He was not in the mood to play, and the bad weather made it worse.

The dense rain cast a veil on the scenery outside the hospital. Tang Cen frowned slightly as he looked at the light gray sky.

The two were very close, and Eisen quickly noticed the slight change in Tang Cen's expression, "Are you uncomfortable?"

"A little bit." Tang Cen sat on the sofa, touching the needle hole left by the blood on his wrist.The smell of disinfectant in the hospital made him uncomfortable. Although the previous physical examination was not strenuous, he was also disgusted by the feeling of being pushed and pushed out while lying on the instrument, and all the secrets of the body were exposed to strangers.

If it wasn't for Eisen's special arrangement, Tang Cen would have left long ago.

Eisen took Tang Cen's arm, pulled him into his arms, rubbed the back of his head and said, "Let's go back after taking the medicine."

Tang Cen leaned on Aisen's shoulder and closed his eyes tiredly, "Where are you going?"

I have to say that Eisen is more considerate and gentle than Lu Sheng. His shoulders are very broad, but it is difficult to lean on them with Tang Cen's height, but Eisen noticed this. It doesn't feel awkward to lean on the sofa.

Eisen patted him on the back, whispered in his ear, "Paris."

Warm breath breathed on the sensitive pinna, Tang Cen turned his head slightly, slightly staggered, but exposed his red ears to Eisen's eyes.

Eisen looked at the light red earlobe in front of him, his heart was like a cat scratching, he struggled a few times, and then couldn't help stretching out his hand.But when he was about to touch it, the nurse who had taken Tang Cen earlier stood at the end of the corridor holding two sheets, and waved to Eisen from a distance.

"What's wrong?" Tang Cen had already noticed Eisen's movements, but he hadn't moved for a long time. Tang Cen glanced at him impatiently, and found that his expression was terribly serious, so he quickly raised his head to follow his line of sight, The figure of the nurse fell right into his eyes.

Tang Cen broke free from Eisen's embrace, sat on the sofa, and asked with some embarrassment, "Should I go there?"

"I'll just go." Eisen leaned down and kissed his lips like a dragonfly, and lowered his voice to comfort him: "I'll be back soon."

Then he strode up to the nurse, who handed him the list and led him towards the end of the corridor. The backs of the two quickly disappeared in front of Tang Cen.

The nurse took Eisen to another consulting room, and as soon as Eisen opened the door, he saw the doctor who had been referring to Tang Cen before sitting there typing on the keyboard in front of the computer.

The doctor stopped his movements when he heard the sound of him entering the door, "Have you read the results of his examination?"

"Look." Eisen glanced hurriedly on the way here. He couldn't understand the numbers and pictures above, but could only look at the diagnosis results below. Except for hypotension and stomach diseases, Tang Cen's brain also Lesions appeared, but Eisen couldn't understand the details.

The doctor explained Tang Cen's situation to Eisen carefully, and then asked, "Is his mood fluctuating a lot recently?"

Eisen nodded, and finally added: "I often cry."

"This is normal." The doctor took off his mask and sighed, "Spend more time with him, it's okay to not say anything, just let him feel safe, take him out for a walk more often, to bask in the sun .”

"You should eat on time, take medicine on time, and take it even if you have side effects." The doctor tapped the keyboard while talking, moved the mouse and clicked a few times, and with the sound of the printer running, a list full of medicines was printed by the machine. Spit it out.

The doctor handed the drug list to Eisen, pointed to one of the above and said: "This type of drug has a small probability of causing alcoholism symptoms, but his addiction to smoking and alcohol is very strong. Alcohol and nicotine will aggravate his condition, and the intake must be controlled. Intake, quit slowly, you must be careful not to indulge him."

Eisen nodded knowingly. Tang Cen's situation was worse than he had imagined, but it seemed that it was still under control, which made Eisen slightly relieved.

However, the doctor did not give him a chance to comfort himself, and said frankly: "His illness has been delayed for a long time, and the original living environment has caused serious psychological trauma. It is very difficult to heal completely. At this stage, only Adjusted as much as possible."

"He has the habit of self-harm, and he may not show it now, but you still have to pay attention." The doctor took out his business card from the drawer and handed it to Eisen, "This is my business card, you can call me if you have any questions. As time permits, I will come back for another review next month."

"I know, thank you." Eisen took the business card, nodded to the doctor, and left the consulting room with the medicine list.

By the time Eisen finished taking the medicine and went to pick up Tang Cen, it was already past lunch time, so Luka had no choice but to drag them to have a simple lunch in the hospital cafeteria.The food in the hospital cafeteria is not unpalatable, but the taste of the nutritious meal can only be so, if you swallow it whole, you will be full.

Luca accompanied the two of them after lunch, looked at the sky outside, and touched his nose in embarrassment. It was rare for a friend to come, and he felt a little sorry when he encountered so many things, "I'll take you back to the hotel."

The rain outside was getting heavier and heavier, and Eisen didn't refuse, and even cheekily proposed: "You wait for me downstairs later, I'll pack up and take us to the station."

"Do you think I'm your exclusive driver!" Luca sat on the driver's seat and patted the steering wheel twice, "Why are you leaving in such a hurry?"

"There's something wrong with the company." Eisen lied without blushing, and Tang Cen, who was sitting beside him, couldn't tell whether the words were true or not for a while, so he looked up at him more.

Eisen squeezed his hand, hinting silently.

Tang Cen curled his lips, but didn't speak wisely, listening to Eisen and Luka's bickering silently.

Great relationship.Tang Cen evaluated silently, but felt a little envious in his heart.He used to look forward to having such a friendship, but after 30 years of searching, he finally got nothing but injuries, and he seemed destined to miss it.

Although the decision was hasty, the speed was much faster than before. When they arrived at the station, Eisen quickly took Tang Cen into the car.Maybe it was because of being overworked from running around these days, Tang Cen fell asleep leaning on Eisen's shoulder as soon as he got in the car, and was only awakened by Eisen's shaking when he was about to arrive at the station.

Compared with the sudden heavy rain in Switzerland, the sky in Paris was clear, and the large sunset glow dyed the city a warm orange color. It is the season of late summer and early autumn, and there is a hint of warmth in the air.

When they returned to the apartment, the afterglow of the setting sun shone in Tang Cen's bedroom, warming the whole room and dispelling the haze in Tang Cen's heart.

While Tang Cen was still immersed in the joy brought by the sun, Eisen took out a towel and a change of clothes from the closet, stuffed them into Tang Cen's hands, and pushed him into the bathroom, "Just came back from the hospital, take a shower quickly .”

Tang Cen listened to the voice from outside the door, looked at the things in his hand, and took off his clothes in command.

Turn on the shower, and the warm water hits the body, flowing down along the lines of the body.Tang Cen raised his head and combed his wet black hair back with his hands, the water droplets falling on his face blurred his vision.

After flushing under the shower for a long time, Tang Cen didn't turn off the switch until he completely washed away the smell of disinfectant water from the hospital.

The bathroom was filled with moisture, and the small space was hazy, and the cracks on the mirror that Tang Cen had smashed earlier were also blurred by the mist.Nothing can be seen clearly in the mirror, only the white vapor attached to the surface.

After Tang Cen came out of the shower, he glanced around the bedroom. The suitcase was still squatting pitifully in the corner, but Eisen was nowhere to be seen.Tang Cen wiped his hair and walked out, only to find Eisen in the living room.He was flipping through some badly rolled papers, and he was so focused that he didn't notice that Tang Cen had already walked in front of him.

Sitting on the single sofa next to Eisen, Tang Cen bit his lower lip and whispered, "Eisen."

Eisen was reading the instruction manual for the medicine, and when he heard Tang Cen calling him, he hurriedly put down the instruction manual in his hand, "What's wrong?" His emerald green eyes looked at Tang Cen, it was just a simple movement, but those eyes were like jewels Transparent and full of affection.

"It's nothing..." Tang Cen turned his head away, he saw his own face from Eisen's eyes, the ugly appearance was reflected in those beautiful eyes, staining the clear water.

Tang Cen's appearance was too weird, Eisen sized him up for a long time, as if confirming something, and asked after a long time: "Is there anything you want to tell me?"

"Hmm." Tang Cen, whose mind was exposed, didn't feel embarrassed, but felt a sense of relief. There were many things he wanted to say but didn't dare to say. Now that Eisen took the initiative to ask, Tang Cen suddenly gained confidence after getting permission. .

"Wait a minute." Eisen re-rolled the paper on the table, and when he stuffed the rolled paper into the medicine box, Tang Cen realized that he had been reading the instructions of the medicine.

After stuffing all the instructions into the corresponding medicine boxes, stacking the medicine boxes together, and cleaning the table, Aisen turned around and faced Tang Cen, "Okay, just say what you want to say, I'll listen on."

Eisen prepared so solemnly that Tang Cen swallowed the words that were already on his lips.He didn't want to hurt Eisen with those vicious words again, but if he didn't speak out, when the unresolved emotions broke out in the end, it would inevitably hurt him.

In a dilemma, Tang Cen finally blurted out: "Is there any wine?"

Before today, Eisen didn't know how serious Tang Cen's alcohol addiction was, but after seeing the whole process of the follow-up visit, Eisen also got a glimpse of it from Tang Cen's few words.But after waiting and waiting, the first sentence he finally got was Tang Cen asking him for a drink. Eisen couldn't control the expression on his face for a while, and gritted his teeth with a distorted face: "Tang Cen, are you a drunkard?"

But it can't be blamed on Tang Cen, he is not a brave person, and after the only vigor is exhausted, he is so timid that he needs to use alcohol to strengthen his courage.He is too dependent on alcohol and nicotine, which has become a subconscious reaction of the body, even avoiding all the realities that must be faced when sober without alcohol paralysis.

Eisen knew that if Tang Cen couldn't drink tonight, he would miss this opportunity to confess, and the gap between them would only grow wider in the future.After brushing his hair twice, Eisen got up and searched in the kitchen, and finally found an unopened bottle of wine, "Is red wine okay?"

Tang Cen nodded, stretched out his hand to pick it up, and when he was about to touch the wine bottle, Eisen withdrew his hand suddenly, "Just this time, next time there won't be any."

"Okay." Tang Cen knew that this was definitely not the last time, but on the surface he obediently complied.

This red wine has no cork and no corkscrew, just unscrew it and drink it.Tang Cen unscrewed the bottle cap, poured a large glass into the glass, and before waking up enough time, he picked up the glass and poured it into his mouth.

Tang Cen's bold way of drinking gave Eisen a headache. It was the first time he saw someone drinking wine as water.After Tang Cen downed two cups in a row, Eisen couldn't help but stop him, "Don't drink so fast, how can you taste it like this?"

A gulp of bitter wine slid down his throat, and the alcohol seeped into the organs through the blood, paralyzing the nerves.

Tang Cen put down the wine glass in his hand, propped his hands on his knees, and pressed his forehead against his forehead, "I can't tell whether the wine is good or not, and I never can."

"I just...wanted to get drunk."