under the filth

He Xiu was not curious about how Tang Cen walked out of that room and stood under the sunlight again.Although such symptoms are very rare, after reading the information, He Xiu also understands the general idea, what he wants to know now is other things.

He Xiu has long seen that the relationship between Tang Cen and Lu Sheng is not like that of ordinary couples, but more deformed: "Did he not mention breaking up with you?"

Tang Cen shook his head: "No, not once."

Just like what Lu Sheng said, "If you want to break up, you should mention it." Tang Cen was the only one who mentioned breaking up from the beginning to the end, and Lu Sheng never took the initiative to mention it or agreed to it from the beginning to the end.

"He is not my doctor, but I selfishly put all the pain on him, and he has no obligation to bear it." Tang Cen would wonder from time to time, if he put such pressure on Lu Sheng, would Lu Sheng really feel that way? Blame yourself.

Probably complained too, that's why what happened later.

Looking back now, Tang Cen realized that there were no elders around him at that time, even now.The only difference is that the person sitting in front of him has changed from Lu Sheng to He Xiu.

"My father never came to see me, and neither did my uncle. Maybe they all look down on me for getting involved with him."

Only a doctor can see him without prejudice.

Tang Cen's hands rested on the quilt, revealing his chiseled wrists. His pale skin was divided into two halves by a glaring scar.

However, He Xiu's gaze did not fall on his wrist, but drifted to his neck, and the slightly long, soft hair cast a shadow between his neck.

He stared at the small patch of shadow and asked, "What happened then?"

Lu Sheng accompanied Tang Cen out of the first dark period. For many years after that, Tang Cen believed that his original choice was not wrong, but the reality gave him a resounding slap in the face.

"He cheated." Tang Cen said calmly the fact that he had been tortured to the point of bruises all over his body, because to this day, he no longer cares about Lu Sheng's betrayal, and the heart that was once beating alive has long since disappeared. No feeling.

He Xiu was surprised that he couldn't see a trace of grief on his face. He thought that Tang Cen should love Lu Sheng deeply, although he always believed in his heart that he only accepted Lu Sheng for the sake of healing.

Putting the stack of medical records in his hand on the bedside table, He Xiu straightened out his thoughts before asking, "Why?"

Tang Cen laughed lowly. At first he thought that Lu Sheng cheated because he was tired of taking care of him constantly, but later he realized: "Probably because of the bad nature of men."

It was only in the third year after Tang Cen returned to China that he came out of the narrow darkness, but he did not fully recover.When Tang Cen walked on the unsheltered sidewalk, he would occasionally feel a little bit of fear, but only occasionally, he gradually became like a normal person.

Tang Cen knew that it was impossible for him to live decadently in a corner all the time, and when his condition improved, he slowly began to pick up the knowledge he had left behind.It wasn't until Tang Cen got used to the life exposed to the sun that Su Yuqing arranged for him to work in his company. At that time, Lu Sheng had already accumulated enough experience to resign from the company and start his own business.

It is always difficult to start a business from scratch, and it is not an easy task to pick up the work that has been broken for many years.But whether dealing with people under the pressure of social fear or working overtime all night, for the two people who have survived the darkest period, it is not a torment, but a little tired of coping.

When Lu Sheng returned to the villa after a day of socializing, he just opened the door and saw Tang Cen lying dead on the sofa in the living room.He walked up to Tang Cen, stretched out his hand and pushed the person who was about to fall asleep on the sofa: "Go to bed and sleep."

A strong smell of tobacco and alcohol made Tang Cen reluctantly opened his eyes: "Are you back?" When he saw clearly that the person standing in front of him was Lu Sheng, he moved his head to make room for him.

As soon as Lu Sheng sat down beside him, Tang Cen put his head on his lap: "I'm so tired, let me lie down for a while."

"How's work?" Lu Sheng drank a lot of wine at the wine table, and on the way back, he opened the car window to blow in the cold air for a while, but his clothes still smelled a little.

Tang Cen wrinkled his nose, turned his back to him, and muttered unhappily: "It's okay."

"Uncle's assignments are not high or low, but there are always people who don't like me parachuting on top of them." Tang Cen's fingers drew circles on Lu Sheng's knees.Everything is difficult at the beginning. Tang Cen, who has just joined the company, is physically and mentally exhausted from the work of the past two days, and he has to devote his mind to dealing with those messy interpersonal relationships.

There are endless temptations from all sides, and Tang Cen really doesn't understand why these people have so much energy to fight each other: "They always think that I'm just a pretty vase."

Lu Sheng sighed, put his hand on Tang Cen's shoulder, and stroked it slightly twice.

Tang Cen's uncle was always eccentric. When he first joined the company, he was just an intern. Tang Cen became the leader of a small department as soon as he joined the company.He parachuted over the heads of the old employees like this, and he would inevitably be attacked and tempted by others.

"Is the company going well recently?" Tang Cen turned to look at Lu Sheng, and both of them saw the faint blackness in each other's eyes.

"It's okay." Lu Sheng pinched the (soft) flesh on Tang Cen's cheeks, "It's not a big deal to start a business at this age, but compared to other people, you always lack a little experience. Those old men are just looking at you Uncle is willing to cooperate with me only because of his face."

Of these two talented students who came back from the UK, one is knowledgeable but has no connections, and the other has connections that the former does not have, but does not have the energy to give it a go.

Tang Cen lay flat on Lu Sheng's lap, staring at the ceiling in a daze.The overhead light was dazzling, Tang Cen put his hand on his forehead to block the light from above.

He lay down for a long time, Lu Sheng even thought he fell asleep just like that.

After feeling that his legs were starting to go numb, Lu Sheng was about to wake him up when Tang Cen said, "I have to work overtime tomorrow, so I might come back later."

Lu Sheng held Tang Cen's hand on his forehead: "You... can you do it?"

"Okay, uncle will be here tomorrow." Tang Cen sat up and adjusted the posture of his hands at the same time. Lu Sheng's fingers passed through his fingers, and his hands were clasped together.

Lu Sheng lowered his head and glanced at the hands they were holding. Tang Cen's hand was very cold, and there was an icy temperature coming from where his fingers touched.Lu Sheng raised his other hand, stroking the dark spots under his eyes back and forth with his fingertips: "Do you want me to pick you up?"

Tang Cen shook his head: "No need, uncle will send me back, you go to bed early."

"Okay." With Su Yuqing here, Lu Sheng wasn't worried about any accidents, but now that Tang Cen had Su Yuqing's help, he had come out of the shadows, and Lu Sheng always felt that Tang Cen was getting farther and farther away from him.

It is a good thing that Tang Cen can become independent, but Lu Sheng gradually felt a little empty in his heart.

"I'm going to take a shower." Tang Cen turned over and got off the sofa, he went straight upstairs without seeing the strange look in Lu Sheng's eyes behind him.

By the time Lu Sheng washed up and went to bed, it was already twelve o'clock at night, and Tang Cen was already wrapped in a quilt and fell asleep on one side.But even though he was wrapped in a thick quilt, Tang Cen was still very thin when viewed from behind.

Lu Sheng pulled away a corner of the quilt, and just as he lay down, he heard Tang Cen turning over: "Did it wake you up?"

"No." Tang Cen muttered a few words, and naturally squeezed into Lu Sheng's arms, "Go to sleep."

Tang Cen's body temperature was low, and Lu Sheng didn't know if it was a physical problem or because of illness: "Ah Cen, when we earn enough money, let's buy a house of our own."

Tang Cen, who was already about to fall asleep, suddenly opened his eyes when he heard his words, but kept his original posture without moving.

"Okay." He lay in Lu Sheng's arms, and there was no sadness or joy in his voice.

Although Tang Cen was very satisfied with such a life, since it was what Lu Sheng was looking forward to, he was willing to follow Lu Sheng and follow in his footsteps.

In the second year after returning to daily life, and the tenth year of their relationship, Lu Sheng's company began to develop upwards, and Tang Cen was convinced by his subordinates. The two moved from a villa in the suburbs to a high-end apartment in the most prosperous area of ​​the city center. inside.

But some people are like this, they can share the suffering but not the happiness.

As Tang Cen said later, even Lu Sheng, who was once "dedicated and affectionate", still has a man's inferiority in his bones.

Lascivious, promiscuous.

After Lu Sheng became famous, he began to look for targets at the wine table where drinks were exchanged.Every night when Tang Cen stayed up all night to catch up with the progress of the project, he lingered on double beds in different hotels, having sex with strange men and women.

During the day, he woke up on the bed at home, and exchanged gentle and long good morning kisses with Tang Cen, but at night he kissed other people with the same lips that had kissed Tang Cen, and teased other people's bodies with the hands that comforted Tang Cen, even though He is completely ignorant of these people who have committed themselves to him for their own benefit.

But Lu Sheng and his partners kept all of this a secret. When Tang Cen didn't know about it at first, he was even worried about whether Lu Sheng would be overworked because of the company's affairs.

Although those men and women who kept leaning on Lu Sheng thought about taking Tang Cen's place, they all stopped thinking about it after being reminded by Lu Sheng, and none of them dared to provoke Tang Cen.

But paper can't cover fire, even though Lu Sheng tried his best to conceal it, Tang Cen finally learned about it from other people.

Tang Cen no longer remembers what flashed through his mind when he heard the news and saw the pile of photos, but he clearly remembered the expression on his uncle's face at that time.

Ridiculous and clear, as if he knew this would be the result from the beginning.