under the filth

The stitches on Tang Cen's wound were quickly removed, and after the stitches were removed, Lu Sheng took him into the small villa provided by his uncle.Due to certain circumstances, it was completely dark when they set off, and when they arrived at the villa, Tang Cen had already fallen asleep leaning on Lu Sheng's shoulder.

Lu Sheng carried Tang Cen into the villa.The villa doesn't look big from the outside, but the actual interior space is very spacious.The bedroom is on the second floor, and when Lu Sheng carried Tang Cen upstairs, he could just see the layout of the whole house.

Looking around, Lu Sheng found that although the decoration style of the villa was very simple, for some reason, he always felt that the owner of this villa was not Tang Cen's uncle, but a woman.

The villa is at the foot of a mountain on the outskirts of the city, and there is a resort area nearby. It is not remote, but it is quiet enough.The suburbs surrounded by mountains and rivers are not as smoky as the urban areas, and the environment with beautiful mountains and rivers is just suitable for Tang Cen to recuperate.

The key to the villa provided by Su Yuqing, coupled with the almost perfect location and environment of the villa, as well as the subtle feeling revealed in the details, gave Lu Sheng a bad guess.But after pushing open the bedroom door, Lu Sheng put this guessing behind him.

The decoration style of the bedroom is consistent with the whole, but the habit of placing things is exactly the same as that of Tang Cen's rented apartment in London.Lu Sheng didn't know if it was specially arranged by Uncle Tang Cen, but at least he looked at it with inexplicable peace of mind.

The housekeeper came on the day Tang Cen was discharged from the hospital, and brought two suitcases, which contained Tang Cen's luggage.After moving into the villa, Lu Sheng spent the morning packing the luggage for Tang Cen. Although they were all bits and pieces, they were almost all of Tang Cen's.

During this time, Tang Cen sat quietly on the bed with his knees hugged, staring at Lu Sheng's busy back in a daze.

Just after moving into the villa, Lu Sheng and Tang Cen's uncle unanimously decided to let Tang Cen get used to it for a while, and then let him receive the doctor's treatment after he became familiar with the surrounding environment.

It took another ten days to get used to it. Although Tang Cen got used to it very quickly, he didn't speak a word since he moved into the villa.No matter what Lu Sheng said, he refused to open his mouth, occasionally nodded or shook his head to answer his questions, and never paid attention to other people.

And this problem lasted until the second week of his treatment, when Lu Sheng entered the company arranged by Su Yuqing as an intern and no longer stayed by Tang Cen's side all day, Tang Cen, who had no other choice, slowly began to communicate with the doctor.

After Tang Cen started communicating with other people, Su Yuqing took the initiative to contact Lu Sheng again.

When the call came, Lu Sheng was driving his car. Following the heavy traffic, he moved a little bit up to the viaduct leading to the suburbs. He didn't even have time to read the notification of the incoming call before he pressed the call button and the hands-free button: "Hello?"

The other party did not declare his family background, but asked straight to the point: "Are you still used to work?"

Hearing a familiar voice, Lu Sheng noticed the name prompted on the screen. He looked at the long string of red taillights in front of him, picked up the phone and stuck it to his ear: "I'm used to it, I'm bothering you. "

"It's not a big problem. You always have to think about the future when you are with him." Su Yuqing on the other end smiled lightly, sounding in a good mood, "That child is too clingy to you, I can only think of this The way to get him to communicate with the doctor is to work hard for you to run back and forth every day."

Of course Lu Sheng knew that these were all polite words, and of course he wouldn't really complain to him: "No, this job is pretty easy, and it doesn't take long to run back and forth." Compared to their job in London, Work, except for the inconvenient transportation, is much easier in other places.

"That's good." Su Yuqing asked a few more questions about work. After all, Lu Sheng completed his master's studies in a serious manner, and after coping with it with ease, he hung up the phone on the pretext of driving.

After hanging up the phone, the traffic started to move. Lu Sheng tightened his grip on the steering wheel. Looking at the familiar scenery in front of him, he let out a long sigh.

Although Tang Cen's situation has improved, he is only a short distance away from collapse.He only communicated briefly with the doctor and Lu Sheng. Most of the time every day, he was alone in the corner, hugging his knees in a daze, and no one knew what he was thinking.

Tang Songyuan left Tang Cen with deep wounds, and Tang Cen could not get rid of the cognition of the past 26 years in his subconscious. He always felt that he was still the mouse hiding in the gutter.

Even when facing Lu Sheng, Tang Cen didn't dare to strip himself completely, even if the two had done it countless times and had the closest connection.

Because whenever Tang Cen went from darkness to light or touched sunlight, Tang Cen would always vomit uncontrollably.During the first six months after moving into the villa, every time Lu Sheng came home, he had to carry Tang Cen out of the darkest corner of the bedroom.

Although Tang Cen did not resist communicating with the doctor, he only had a very high tolerance for Lu Sheng in terms of physical contact.So even a doctor doesn't stay by Tang Cen's side all the time.After the side effects of the drug, the effect was very good. From the second month on, Tang Cen's condition gradually stabilized. Most of the time, the doctor was just insurance to prevent Tang Cen from committing suicide.

Although some problems are not obvious, they do exist.

Every weekend is the doctor's rest time. Usually there are only Lu Sheng and Tang Cen in the villa during these two days, and that day was no exception.

Lu Sheng was awakened by a strong sense of hunger. He picked up his phone to check the time and found that it was almost noon.He gently opened Tang Cen's arm, and went downstairs carefully. After rummaging through the refrigerator and freezer, he found that there were not many ingredients left.

Lu Sheng, who was used to cooking by himself in the UK, was tortured by canteens and takeaways after returning to China. He went back to the bedroom, poked Tang Cen's face lightly, and changed his clothes when he saw that he didn't respond.

"I'm going out to do some shopping and I'll be back in two hours."

Lu Sheng left a note on the bedside table and went out. He was in a hurry to go out, but he didn't notice the curtains that were not fully drawn, nor did he notice Tang Cen who was pretending to sleep on the bed.

Hearing the sound of the door closing downstairs, Tang Cen sat up after lying on the bed for a while.He picked up the note on the cabinet and read it for a long time before his dull brain understood the words on it.

His fingers slowly tightened, and he crumpled the paper into a small ball. Tang Cen raised his hand and threw the paper ball out.The light ball of paper drew a parabola in the air, hit the wall, bounced back to the floor and rolled twice.

Tang Cen stood up, walked to the wall and squatted down slowly, staring at the small ball of paper on the ground.He often behaves like this, but no one can understand it, even he himself doesn't understand why he does it, he just acts according to his subconscious thoughts.

Behind Tang Cen, the curtain lifted a small corner, and a ray of sunlight fell on the wall.

At noon, a ray of light passed through the gap in that corner, reflected straight on the wooden floor, almost breaking in front of Tang Cen's feet.Tang Cen's attention quickly shifted from the ball of paper to the bright light. He stretched out his hand repeatedly, testing the edge of the light with his fingertips, but he didn't dare to touch the dazzling spot.

After repeated probing, Tang Cen accidentally touched the shining wooden floor, and immediately felt a burning pain from his fingertips.

Suddenly retracting his hands to hug his chest, Tang Cen curled up backwards, his back against the wall trembling slightly.The skin that rubbed against the wall through the cloth quickly turned red, and a burning sensation that was stronger than the illusory pain in his fingers came from his back, but Tang Cen kept holding his hand and kept shrinking into the base of the wall. Standing, trying to avoid the ever-approaching sunlight.

"Ah Cen!" Lu Sheng saw this scene when he came back, he didn't care about anything else, he rushed to the corner and hugged Tang Cen out.

Putting him on the bed, Lu Sheng patted his back and comforted him, "It's okay, I'm back."

"What happened next?" He Xiu sat on the chair and clasped his hands.He knew everything about the scar on Tang Cen's wrist, and also deduced the root cause of his illness, but he still didn't know the reason for his affair with Lu Sheng.

Tang Cen's symptoms are very special, which has a lot to do with his childhood experience. He Xiu has seen many patients, but this is the first time he has seen Tang Cen's symptoms.

"I don't really remember, it seems that it took me a long time to get out of that room." Tang Cen really doesn't remember what happened when his illness worsened for the first time. Forget this memory of wandering between shadows and sunshine over and over again.

But He Xiu obtained a series of materials from Tang Qian at that time, almost all of which were records made by the doctor during the treatment, and there were not many parts about Lu Sheng.So even if Tang Cen couldn't remember, He Xiu could still learn what happened at that time.Judging from the results of the treatment at that time, it was indeed Lu Sheng who accompanied Tang Cen out of the darkness.

From the first time Tang Cen walked out of the bedroom, he was no longer in a state of daze all day long. Lu Sheng and the doctor could occasionally find Tang Cen nestled on the single sofa reading a book in the study.Lu Sheng didn't know how much he had seen, but at least it was a good start.

Although still taciturn, when Lu Shengwo was working in the study on weekends, Tang Cen either sat quietly by the side, staring at the files on his computer screen, or opened the curtains on one side and sat on the other side. Looking at the sun-drenched side in the shadow of the side.

Britain rarely has such sunny days, so every time it is sunny, whether in the dormitory or the apartment, Tang Cen will sit by the window and take a nap in the sun.But now he can see the sun almost every day, but Tang Cen can't avoid it, he can only hide in a dark corner and peep.

No one wants to be mentally ill all the time, and no one wants to be viewed in a different light all the time.Tang Cen is afraid of socializing and also afraid of the sun, but Lu Sheng can see that Tang Cen still longs to return to the original normal life track, standing in the sun and talking to people fearlessly as in the past, and even spending time with him. Living a nine-to-five life.

Lu Sheng didn't know when he would see that gentle and steady Tang Cen again, but maybe he wouldn't make him wait too long.

Tang Cen's wrist recovered very well, except for some soreness in rainy days, there were almost no sequelae left, but the ugly scar did not disappear.Lu Sheng didn't dare to touch the bed even when he was about to lose control, he was afraid of hurting Tang Cen.

Lu Sheng found that Tang Cen, who had become cowering due to illness, would only unconsciously reveal all his emotions, whether it was pain or pleasure, when he went to bed, as before.

Medicines for depression can cause a decrease in (sexual) desire, but Tang Cen would pester him to indulge in wanton sex when Lu Sheng occasionally demanded too much, so abnormal that he couldn't see the gloom in his daily life at all.Only at that time, Lu Sheng could see a few gleams of light from Tang Cen's watery eyes.

It was also because Tang Cen, who was indulging in (passion) lust, was so special that Lu Sheng came up with such a method.

Tang Cen's first contact with Sunshine was forced by Lu Sheng.

Lu Sheng secretly opened the curtains a little, and when he was pulling Tang Cen indulgently in the early morning, he pressed him down and forced him to face the ray of sunlight falling on his body.

The eyes blurred by the wet liquid could not see the scene in front of him clearly, Tang Cen could only vaguely see a split dim light falling on his waist.He knew it was sunlight, but his legs were hanging around Lu Sheng's waist and his shoulders were being pressed down. Tang Cen tried his best to hold on to the bed twice but couldn't break free from Lu Sheng's shackles.

Tang Cen watched in vain as the sun climbed up from his waist to his abdomen bit by bit, and there was burning pain from the part of the skin where the sun fell. "Lu Sheng!" Tears flowed uncontrollably, but Lu Sheng on his body didn't have the slightest intention to let go of him.

In the aftermath of the climax, Tang Cen reached out and grabbed the piece of light that fell on the bed sheet.