Happy Life [Rebirth]

Gu Tingsheng Extra Story

Geese return from the south in spring, lotus flowers bloom in summer, grain is harvested in autumn, and winter is very cold. Gu Tingsheng realized that he liked Yang Lu that year.

The moment he realized it, he didn't feel afraid, and he didn't feel that he was gay, and he never thought about what unspeakable things, such as "sex", would happen to a human being of a gender.

He started to have nocturnal emission when he was 14 years old. The object in his dream was a snow-white woman who couldn't see her face or gender. special existence.

But on this day of the year, that night when the summer rain was torrential, the body that had always existed like a doll in his dreams had turned into a thin, green and undeveloped body, his body was covered in sweat, and his palms were slippery. The naked/naked teenager's body is held in his arms.

"elder brother."

The owner of the body raised his face, his dark eyes were filled with tears, like a beast, and also like a vigilant and beautiful deer.

Gu Tingsheng was startled awake by the sound of the torrential rain. He turned sideways, and his younger brother was curling up slightly and breathing lightly. In the darkness, he stretched out his hand to gently touch his face. The boy uttered a soft whisper, and then Moved towards him, the young man was clearly still asleep, his face was already attached to his hand like nostalgia, refusing to leave.

Gu Tingsheng took the boy into his arms, bent his head like a martyr, buried the tip of his nose into the boy's shoulder, took a deep breath, and then let out a moaning sigh in the darkness.

He knew that he fell in love with his younger brother, but how strong was this liking, could this kind of liking be considered love, and how important was this kind of love compared to the family relationship between them?

Gu Tingsheng felt that he only liked her a little bit, and the affection between him and Yang Lu was more profound than the little thought he had for him.The family affection between them is the company of every minute and every second, a little bit accumulated over the years, those little, little things seeped into his flesh and blood from his skin and bones.

He is a young man with flesh and bones, every bit of him has been forged by time to cast the figure of another person.

Just like in his first 11 years, his time was his grandma, and in the next seven years, his time in his current life is his fawn.He knows better than anyone that he is afraid of being alone.

He pretends not to care, he only aspires to be a good brother, not only is he gentle in appearance, good in character, upright and kind, he also knows how to weigh the interests of a matter, as an older brother, he has a deep affection with his younger brother , and the Qisi that goes against the wishes of the world and is full of various uncertain factors, just think about it, and you will know how insignificant this point of Qisi is.

In the end Gu Tingsheng, he always thought that he just liked his little deer a little bit, and even in his opinion, this kind of liking was nothing more than a bit of whimsy that he couldn't express.

The 22-year-old Gu Tingsheng received a bachelor's degree diploma. He is gearing up, young and energetic, and enters Gu's Technology to create his own future. His Xiaolu is the person he trusts the most, and the most important person in his current life is no surprise. Come to him and become his most trusted right-hand man.

Gu Tingsheng once thought that even if his parents would abandon him in this world, his little deer would not betray him. He once firmly believed that in this world, except for Yang Lu, there would be no such a person who would be attached to and believe in him wholeheartedly. with him.

After the 26-year-old Gu Tingsheng had all the shares transferred to Yang Lu's name, he had to believe that everything he believed was absurd wishful thinking.

What's even more absurd is that when he no longer wants to see this person again, every time he walks, every time he raises his tired head from a plan at midnight, what he thinks of is that person Standing beside him, a pair of dark eyes looked at him with a kind of cold tenderness.

He should hate him, but the Qisi from that year has never really dissipated. Under the illusion of brothers and sisters, not only Yang Lu has been plotting against his shares for a long time, but also his brother has never eliminated his feelings for his younger brother. Dirty thoughts.

If he hadn't always harbored this unspeakable thought, why has he kept himself so clean for 26 years that he has never had sex with girls, why he has never slept with anyone, because his heart is so big, one person has not gone out and the other person Just can't get in.Besides, no matter how good other people are, they are not him, so he doesn't want to, so he would rather deceive himself and others, but he dare not tell him, so he deceived others and deceived himself.I just kind of like him.But our family is more important.

Gu Tingsheng didn't know how his three years passed, he was very busy, he needed to make a comeback, and he needed to receive orders, write programs and do projects to earn original funds.Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu have already abandoned him, Yang Lu, the adopted child, has become their own son, and his own son has become someone who doesn't need to be cared about.

Gu Tingsheng did not ask Yuan Mengyu and Gu Xingsong for money. His parents never existed at the beginning of his life. He never entered the world of his father and mother, so his departure was just a weightless departure. His embarrassment was still unknown, and the couple never asked about it.

Just like in the beginning, just as in the beginning he had always been the one who was outcast.

According to Gu Tingsheng's own philosophy of life, life is destined to have ups and downs. The important thing is to understand that the one who can defeat yourself is always yourself. When you really lose your spirit and hard work, that is your life real death.

There are 360 ​​and five days in a year, if a person's life is a hundred years, [-] days, who knows whether you lived [-] days or only one day, and then repeated the remaining days.

Gu Tingsheng is not willing to admit defeat, nor is he willing to repeat his short but long remaining life like a walking corpse.

When he has gone through these four years, recalling these four years, he will also admire the self in those three years from the bottom of his heart. It was a very difficult time, work, work!Money, money!These nouns filled that period of time. He was getting thinner and thinner until he became a bamboo pole. His daily sleep was reduced to six hours. But compared to the uncertain future, what was more frightening was that he still missed him. From gnashing of teeth to tossing and turning, from hatred to longing to forgiveness.

He thought, as long as he is strong enough, it doesn't matter if he is greedy, as long as he is strong enough, he can trap him by his side.

Those three years were slow and hard to live in. When the three years passed, Gu Tingsheng returned to Gu's Technology again. Compared with the last time he left in embarrassment, his return this time is probably the return of the king.

With this in mind, and with the thought of seeing him again, Gu Tingsheng straightened his back and came to the director's office. When he saw that person, the years seemed to be very lenient to him. He was already 26 years old, and it was when he left in embarrassment. age here.

But this person's face was the same as the year he left, and he still looked at him with those dark eyes, which probably contained a kind of cold tenderness that he didn't even know.

Gu Tingsheng and him had a lot of tentative conversations with each other, and finally Gu Tingsheng told him, I will not send you to prison, but you have to come back to me, because I am an older brother, and you are like this because I have not taught you well .

What Gu Tingsheng said made him feel ashamed because of his grandeur. What was he thinking in his heart? The hatred of the past three years was crushed to nothing by the increasing thoughts. He was afraid of being lonely, and what was even more frightening was that he was alone by his side. Only then can he get rid of the loneliness that has followed him like a shadow since childhood.

Gu Tingsheng thought, because he is my younger brother, the one we grew up with and spent our youth together.And I kind of like him.

Gu Tingsheng blinked, the sound of an ambulance came, someone touched his face and body, someone said to him: "Don't give up, sir, don't give up your life, you are a hero, you saved lost a young life..."

But the voice became more and more blurred, Gu Tingsheng's brain returned to the present world for a moment, and then a line of tears came out of his eyes.The tears rolled down his cheeks onto the asphalt road.

Gu Tingsheng thought, at that time, he must have been like this when he died.

That day, the darkest day in his life, after he finished those high-sounding words, he saw his little deer shed a line of tears, he stretched out his hand and told him: "Little deer, don't cry."

These were the last words he said to him while he was alive.

Yang Lu died that day, and until many days later, ten days, 20 days, one month, two months, half a year, one year, his assistant, his partner, and everyone who could be called his friend treated him Say, go see a psychiatrist, Mr. Gu.

He knew that he must be mentally ill, because he knew it the day Yang Lu died, the day this person left, the day this person died, he left with some of his belongings.He thought that those things should be part of his heart, part of his feelings, and all the joys of the rest of his life.

Since he left, there has been no joy in life.

Since he left, he knew that he was no longer a complete person.

I just kind of like him. 30-year-old Gu Tingsheng, sitting on the floor next to the French window in the living room of the small western-style building where he grew up with that child, he thought so.

It has been 19 years since I met that child, but the memory of his first encounter with this person named Yang Lu is not only vague and forgetful, but becomes clearer every day, as long as he closes his eyes, it is as if it is right in front of him .

He remembered that he was sitting here, the little child raised his head, and those eyes looked at him vigilantly and cowardly with the eyes of a young animal.Gu Tingsheng closed his eyes, and leaned his head weakly against the glass of the floor-to-ceiling window. It was raining outside the window. He heard the sound of the torrential rain hitting the glass like impetuous drumbeats, and he also heard the rumble of thunder outside the window.

He was afraid of thunder. On the first thunderstorm day when he came here, he ran to the child's bed in embarrassment. From then on, every thunderstorm day, he covered his ears with his hands and told him, brother, I am by your side. .

How cruel.he thinks.

This person is so cruel, he filled his whole life, and then he left in a hurry without any warning, even without saying goodbye, saying that time is a good medicine for healing, when the heart is sick, time that never stays will take away the pain in the heart pain.

But it has been a long time, one year and 37 days have passed, the wound in his heart has not healed, but it is getting bigger and bigger. Every day he can feel countless cold winds coming in from the opening in his heart, and those winds are blowing in his heart. Howling, he heard the empty echo, he thought, so his heart was already empty.

Only then did Gu Tingsheng suddenly realize that Yang Lu's departure only took away a part of his heart, but now he understands that Yang Lu has taken away his whole heart.

He had already left this world with Yang Lu on the day of Yang Lu's death. His life was [-] days. He died on that day, and he buried himself together on that day. Repeating that day every day after that.

Gu Tingsheng told the psychiatrist: "I am in pain. As long as I open my eyes, I will be in pain. If I live in such pain every day for the rest of my life, then let me die. I don't understand why I have to repeat such a painful life."

What the psychiatrist said, he couldn’t remember, he brought home a lot of medicine, he took it, his head became muddled, the pain seemed to disappear, but the happiness never came, he turned into a walking dead, he lived The only task of going down is just for one person to remember that there is a person named Yang Lu in this world.

The 29-year-old Gu Tingsheng began to devour the Gu Group, and then he discovered that the things involved in the Gu Group's collateral group had stood on the opposite side of the law, smuggling drugs, guns, and what is even more admirable is that these belonged to Gu The company under the name of Gu is so deeply hidden, it is like the shadow of Gu, on the surface Gu is involved in culture, media, film and television, real estate, e-commerce and portal communities, but in the dark there are still a number of companies registered under Gu's name, which is different from the Gu family. These industries do not interfere with each other, as if they are two unconnected industries, and even the employees and management of the company are two independent systems.

But the accumulation of huge monsters is already deep, if Gu Tingsheng wants to eat all of them back, he has no doubt that he will be swallowed into the abyss with no bones left.

Fortunately, these industries are separate and independent, with clear distinctions. Even the accounts are two separate sets. Except that they belong to the Gu family and have no connection. Of course, Gu Tingsheng is willing to break up these illegal industries. The parents who have always been strangers have both jumped out. Gu Tingsheng only knew about these industries. The reason for this was Yuan Mengyu's matchmaking, and Gu Xingsong watched Zhuangda coldly.

Gu Tingsheng couldn't understand why Yuan Mengyu did this, and he also couldn't understand what benefit Gu Xingsong would do him by watching Gu's approaching the abyss like this.

This is the property that Gu Xingsong's father left to Gu Xingsong. Gu Tingsheng and Gu Xingsong have no father-son relationship, but he also wants to inherit and develop the Gu family from the bottom of his heart, and wants to see it grow stronger and more brilliant.He didn't understand the meaning of Gu Xingsong's actions, and he didn't understand that he watched Yuan Mengyu destroy the Gu family like this, did he ever feel guilty in his heart.

Gu Tingsheng believed that Yuan Mengyu and Gu Xingsong could only be explained as crazy, but Gu should not be buried with them because of their madness.

Gu Tingsheng cut off these industries with his own hands, and sent Yuan Mengyu and Gu Xingsong to prison. Yuan Mengyu yelled at him like a lunatic, called him a bastard, cursed him with gritted teeth, and then told him with a distorted smile that Yang Lu Why listen to us, why are you willing to do things for me? It turns out that little bastard lied to me and you from the very beginning.Do you think he was doing it for the shares in your hand? He was doing it to get you out of the Gu family. He approached me to find the document that I asked you to sign.

Gu Tingsheng!Yuan Mengyu laughed. In your year, I told you that there was a share transfer agreement. I urgently needed to bring it to justice. You signed your name without any hesitation. It was actually a Hai/Luo/Yin The signing of the smuggled document, your good brother Yang Lu did not know where this document came from, he came to Gu’s to find this document, he destroyed this document, the drug/lord who did not receive the goods Zhao Hongbing, the senior executive, was killed by Zhao Hongbing's daughter.

Gu Tingsheng!Yuan Mengyu screamed, "I can't get happiness, and you can't get it either. Do you think I can't see it? You like Yang Lu, don't you? If he dies, you will get depression, so go die too!"What is the use of your life, the person you love the most gave his life for you, why do you still live in this world!

The prison guard pressed Yuan Mengyu to leave, and the sound of cursing turned into Yuan Mengyu's crying again. Gu Xingsong watched Yuan Mengyu's curses from the beginning to the end without saying a word. He just glanced at Gu Tingsheng when he left. He covered his mouth and coughed in the wind. The back of the person who left was hunchbacked and embarrassed, and the sideburns were already white.

Gu Tingsheng forgot how he left that day, he took a step and knelt on the ground, he lowered his head, it was raining, and there were many raindrops on the ground, he thought, so, so it is so.He covered his mouth, the rain became more and more dense, and countless raindrops fell on the ground and made shallow dots. From then on, it rained every day in his world, and it never stopped.

Half a year later, on the day when the drug was stopped, his expression was quiet, his eyes were not as gentle as before, but steady and indifferent. Everyone congratulated him that his depression symptoms had been relieved, and he could try to stop the drug.

Gu Tingsheng also thought, his illness is cured, he has accepted the fact that there is no such person as Yang Lu in this world, and also accepted that this time another person left, he is destined to spend the rest of his life alone.

It's just so lonely.he thinks.

When he went for a walk in the park in the evening according to his habit, Gu Tingsheng saw a truck rushing towards him, and saw a four or five-year-old child in front of the front of the car. Everyone knew that rushing over now would definitely kill him. Was he really so brave and kind? The only one who can bravely sacrifice for another life... Gu Tingsheng couldn't do it, but he still rushed over.

Now Gu Tingsheng is going to die.Hundreds of millions of neurons in the brain began to die tens of thousands in an instant, he closed his eyes, and the memories of his life ended here.

When he closed his eyes, there was darkness, and gradually there was light in the darkness. A child raised his head and looked at him like a young animal.

I just kind of like you.Gu Tingsheng thought of it at the end.

Actually lied to you.The last neuron in Gu Tingsheng's brain also began to wither.

Actually, I love you.He stopped thinking.

This is the last time Gu Tingsheng thinks in his 31 years of life, and his life has come to an end.

His name is Gu Tingsheng, he was 31 years old in his life, he has a younger brother, and he loves him.

On the third day of junior high school, Gu Tingsheng came back. He returned early in the morning to the second floor of the building facing the street where our family lives. The first floor is a restaurant, which is still closed for Chinese New Year.

Now there is no ban on guns in Jincheng, and there is no smog in the sky. From the beginning of the New Year's Eve to the third day of the new year, the sound of cannons is heard everywhere every day. .

When we went home after firing the cannons, everyone was so shocked by the sound of the cannons that they didn't feel sleepy, so that they slept very late every day during the New Year, and couldn't get up until eleven or twelve o'clock the next day.

On the day when Gu Tingsheng came back, I have no memory of the exact time. He had the key to my house, and Lin Shuzhen treated him like his own child.

At that time, I was wrapped in a quilt, and even the back of my head was covered with the quilt, only my face was exposed. I felt someone entered the room. Amidst the rustling sound, I felt the bed sink, and someone got on the bed , the quilt was ripped off.

I thought it was Xia Wanwan, turned around and muttered, "Sister, you'll go to write the paper when you get up."

I finished speaking, and soon I heard a short laughter, it was the voice of a teenager, my head was still in a daze, I had subconsciously moved away, the quilt was lifted, and I got into the hot air by myself In the warm blanket.

"Go to sleep." Someone took me into his arms on the single bed, there was no way, I thought, this bed will have to be changed sooner or later, it is really inappropriate for Gu Tingsheng and me to sleep on such a single bed.

I vaguely thought that the body acted before the brain, and the brain was still in a hazy sleepiness, but the body was already in the arms of this boy.

"Big brother!"

A few minutes later, I opened my eyes, and I woke up with a rush of excitement from the soles of my feet to the top of my head. The first thing I saw was the dark sweater, and just now my face was pressed against this thin chest. .

I looked up and saw a white and thin jaw. The owner of the jaw gave a vague "hmm", and Gu Tingsheng said to me vaguely, "I'm a little sleepy."

"Go to sleep."

I replied to Gu Tingsheng, and after I finished speaking, I moved a little away from his embrace, and there was a distance to see his face.

I am in the morning of late winter, maybe it is seven o'clock, maybe it is eight o'clock, anyway, the sky is already bright, I look at Gu Tingsheng's face in the sunlight, I think maybe it is my illusion, why do I feel that Gu Tingsheng has lost weight, Maybe it's because I miss him all the time.

Always miss someone, put him in your heart, always worry about whether he is not by your side, eat well, wear well, sleep well, even if you know that he is a child of a rich family, he doesn’t need you to worry at all, he will be taken by others Well looked after.

But this is liking, that's what liking a person is like, always thinking that no one in the world can treat him so well except myself.