Happy Life [Rebirth]

If I don't like Gu Tingsheng, or I don't like him that much, then I should be able to objectively and fairly evaluate what Gu Tingsheng was like before he left, and what he is now when he comes back.

But people are so strange, because I like him, so it is difficult for me to be objective and fair. People's hearts are all biased. I don't even doubt that if one day Gu Tingsheng violated the law and did something bad, I am a person who can help him get rid of the crime with no conscience.

No way, the human heart is such a strange contradictory thing, it is both cold and hot, it is both ruthless and affectionate, which is incredible.

"Aren't you going to sleep?"

Gu Tingsheng closed his eyes, opened and closed his mouth and said sleepily, I watched his eyes not open, but he stretched out his hand and touched my waist all the way, then Gu Tingsheng's body curled up, his head arched against my waist In the hollow of his shoulder, he called vaguely: "Xiaolu."

At this moment, I actually felt that the tone of his calling this name was empty and sad, but I couldn't think of any reason to make him sad, so I just took it as my own illusion, because I was too cranky.

"Yang Lu—"

Lin Shuzhen's voice rang out in the room, and the ending seemed to come to an abrupt end.

I buried Gu Tingsheng's face in my shoulder, looked up and saw Lin Shuzhen standing by the door looking at me and Gu Tingsheng on the bed.

Lin Shuzhen has always walked very lightly. She usually knocks on the door before entering my room. I don't know why she didn't knock this time, and her movements are very light. If she didn't call me this time, I wouldn't know when she came over.

"Tingsheng... are you back?" Lin Shuzhen smiled, it was a subtle smile, which couldn't be called natural.

"Brother is a little sleepy." I put my hand on Gu Tingsheng's waist, and whispered back to my mother, "He came back early in the morning, and now he is catching up on sleep."

"You two..." Lin Shuzhen still had a strange expression on her face, "Really, do you two sleep comfortably like this? I'd better change the bed for your room."

"Auntie, happy new year." Gu Tingsheng turned over and woke up.

Gu Tingsheng turned over and got off the bed, there were still light red marks on his face, Gu Tingsheng rubbed his eyes, he looked a little confused when he just woke up, I also sat up from the bed, looking at such a big brother, I think he is so cute, I really want to go to touch his head and touch his face at this time, I really want to hug him.

But I have already passed the childhood period, and my body is still the body of a teenager. These actions are no longer appropriate. If the two brothers are good, there is nothing to be afraid of intimacy between the frank and frank behaviors, but I have a ghost in my heart, and I dare not act rashly after all.

I am such a person, I also hope that I can be brave, even if I fail, at least tell him and Gu Tingsheng in the previous life, there is a person named Yang Lu who loves you very much in this world.

But I'm also very glad that I never told Gu Tingsheng that I love him.I am already sorry that the last words I said to him before I died was that I was so cold, but I am also glad that the last words before my death were not to him, I love you.

If you say this, it is too cruel to the elder brother. I know him, he will definitely blame himself, and even when he needs to associate with girls and start a family with girls in the latter half of his life, when he thinks that there was a Yang Lu who just confessed to him. If he died, it would definitely become his psychological shadow.I love him because I want him to be happy, not to make him sad.

So lucky, I didn't tell him in my previous life until my death.I love him.

"Happy New Year, Xiao Gu." Lin Shuzhen smiled, and she said to Gu Tingsheng and me, "Come out as soon as you two wake up, Yang Lu's father is going to have a family meeting."

Gu Tingsheng and I sat on the sofa in the living room, Xia Chaobei sat on the sofa for one person, and Xia Wanwan sat on the couch. I saw her look strange in the past, and she was definitely not in a good mood.

"You two sit too." Xia Chaobei looked very serious. Xia Chaobei has always been a little childish, he is the kind of parent who can be friends with children. I rarely see him look so serious, so I can't help but go Look at Xia Wanwan, this matter is most likely related to Xia Wanwan.

I sat next to Wanwan, Gu Tingsheng sat next to me, the three of us occupied a row of sofas, Lin Shuzhen walked up to Xia Chaobei and stood still, the two adults looked at us three children with serious expressions.

I was very surprised, thinking what Xia Wanwan did, Xia Chaobei opened his mouth and nodded to Xia Wanwan: "Wanwan, tell me what happened first."

"It's fine, don't be so close to the enemy..." Wanwan laughed dryly, her face rather embarrassed.

Xia Chaobei didn't show any face at all. He looked at Wanwan and said, "Xia Wanwan, please explain what you have done."

Wanwan turned her head to look at Gu Tingsheng and me, and laughed dryly again. She coughed and said, "It's rare for my sister to get up early today, and it's rare for my sister to do the paper, and there happens to be a math problem that I don't know. Dad is passing by. I miss Dad. Anyway, I graduated from a junior college and studied accounting, so I called over to ask a question, and then..."

"...Then a love letter fell out of the paper."

"I don't know who wrote it." Wanwan curled her lips, "There are typos, and it doesn't even belong to the name. Someone is playing a prank—it must be."

"Dad!" Wanwan frowned, "Someone must be playing a prank, please don't be so close to the enemy, besides, it's normal for junior high school students to fall in love now, you..."

Wanwan closed her mouth, and Gu Tingsheng and I also understood what Xia Chaobei wanted us to come out for, he wanted to educate us.

"You think this is normal?" Xia Chaobei raised his voice.

He frowned tightly: "Where is it normal? How old are you guys? What do you know at the age of 45 and [-]? Falling in love is like playing house, and you waste time and delay your studies. Let me ask you, girl, do you know?" What's the point of falling in love?"

Xia Wanwan: "Isn't it just that I saw the right thing, and then I went out to watch a movie and go shopping, and then hugged and kissed..."

Xia Wanwan didn't dare to say anymore, Xia Chaobei's expression was serious just now, but now it's covered with dark clouds, Xia Chaobei roared: "Yes, kiss and hug, girl, boys don't suffer no matter what, But girl, this is fucking taking advantage of my daughter!"

I want to help my forehead, Dad, not to mention that my sister doesn’t have a boyfriend yet, but in the future, if someone wants to kiss her, it seems like you’re going to start beating her up, I’m really pinching for Xia Wanwan’s future boyfriend sweat.

"...I don't have a boyfriend yet!"

Xia Wanwan also yelled, and she couldn't help muttering again: "Besides, isn't it normal for male and female friends to behave like this?"

"Wanwan." Lin Shuzhen said, her voice was gentle, but her voice carried weight. She looked at Gu Tingsheng and me again, and called our names, "Xiaolu, Tingsheng."

Gu Tingsheng replied obediently: "Auntie, tell me."

"Ah Bei, don't worry, just speak slowly." Lin Shuzhen put one hand on Xia Chaobei's shoulder.

Xia Chaobei closed his mouth, Lin Shuzhen looked at our three children, her eyes were calm, her tone was flat: "I'm not opposed to falling in love, this kind of thing is normal, and the romance in school days is still very beautiful, but the premise Yes, who of you can tell me what liking is, and who can tell me how to grasp the degree of falling in love?"

After Lin Shuzhen finished asking, she paused for a minute, Wan Wan opened her mouth, unable to speak, Gu Tingsheng lowered her eyelids and fell silent.I think Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei are making a big deal out of a molehill. It’s okay to talk about their love in school days. If they succeed, it’s a good relationship, and if they fail, it’s also a scene in youth.

But think about it again, Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei are parents, their standpoint is different from mine, parents always care about their children for their own good, I think maybe I think too simple.

"Like is not necessarily a very beautiful thing." Lin Shuzhen opened the mouth, "You are still young, sometimes you don't really understand what liking is, I have no objection to your falling in love, but I do not know what liking is , just out of curiosity, because I fell in love on the spur of the moment."

"Responsible for yourself and for others." Lin Shuzhen rubbed her head, "You may think that we two adults are making a fuss over a molehill, but to be honest, Xiaolu and Tingsheng, you two are boys, so I don't worry too much. But Wanwan, you have to be responsible to yourself, in short, I don't recommend nor favor your dating in junior high school."

Wanwan: "High school...is it enough?"

"If it doesn't affect your studies." Lin Shuzhen smiled, "If you're sure you like it, you can try it."

I was surprised, I didn't expect Lin Shuzhen to be so open-minded.

"You junior high school students are too young, what can you understand when you are still in the developmental stage of the fourteenth five-year period?"

Lin Shuzhen added that Xia Chaobei's face was still calm, and he said sinisterly, "Girl, you can't do well in high school either."

"... I can't do it?" Xia Wanwan jumped up, pointing sideways at me and Gu Tingsheng, "Then they can do it?"

"You are a girl." Xia Chaobei raised his voice, "You will suffer, I still don't understand the idea of ​​adolescent boys, Xia Wanwan, let me tell you, you have to go to university, no, you can find a job after you work. Boy friend!"

Xia Wanwan pointed at Gu Tingsheng and me who were lying on the ground for no reason: "This is sexism!"

After finishing speaking, Xia Wanwan ran back to her room, Xia Chaobei stood up and chased after her, Lin Shuzhen also hurriedly chased after her, and shouted from behind: "Abei, speak well, don't get angry! Wanwan, open the door, Don't lose your temper!"

Gu Tingsheng and I were the only ones left in the living room. Gu Tingsheng looked at me, and I looked at him. Both of our eyes were expressing an emotion—it was nothing.

Then I laughed, couldn't help it, and laughed, Gu Tingsheng also bent his eyes, and his mouth curved into an arc, the two of us looked at each other, showing each other silly smiles.

"Do you have someone you like, Xiaolu?"

Gu Tingsheng leaned on the sofa, his body relaxed, I didn't answer him, he continued: "That's right, you are only 12 years old, you can understand what liking is, Xiao Lu, auntie is right, liking is not necessarily A beautiful thing, teenage boys..."

Gu Tingsheng lowered his voice: "Some thoughts are very dirty."

I didn't understand what Gu Tingsheng meant. I looked at him very strangely. I didn't understand what he was talking about. Gu Tingsheng lowered his head: "Sexual impulse, adolescent boys have very strong sexual impulses, and it is almost impossible for them to avoid feelings for the person they have a crush on." Obscenity, it's dirty."

I didn't expect Gu Tingsheng to talk about this. I thought liking wasn't necessarily good, it meant breaking up, making noise, questioning each other, jealousy, hysteria, and hard work.I like Gu Tingsheng, but I can't get a response, so I often say to myself, forget it, Yang Lu.

Unrequited love is a very hard thing, people are always greedy, even if it was just a secret love at the beginning, just give silently, tell yourself silently to treat him silently, but people are such greedy creatures , how can you be satisfied if you don't get what you pay?

So liking this kind of thing is hard work.

"Do you have someone you like?" I went to look at Gu Tingsheng who bowed his head, the winter sun reflected on his hair,

"Yes, I have."

Gu Tingsheng said softly.

At this moment, I heard something broken, with a bang, and I also heard a loud "boom, boom, boom" sound in my heart, because the chest cavity became empty in an instant, so the heart The beating sound echoed very clearly.

"Who is it?" I thought I couldn't control my facial expression, but in fact I smiled and said jokingly, "Is it...Chen Funfen?"

After I finished speaking, I lowered my head, even if I could laugh, but could my eyes hide from Gu Tingsheng? My heart was so flustered that I was about to die, then there must be a kind of sadness in my eyes that was at a loss for what to do.

If people see it, they will say, are you going to cry?

"No." Gu Tingsheng answered me, "I can't tell you who it is, but I do have someone I like."

"We have to wait for him to grow up." Gu Tingsheng laughed. I pretended to be dazed and wiped my eyes. The eye sockets were dry. It was strange. I thought my eye sockets were full of tears, but Actually it is dry.

"Brother." I raised my head and looked at Gu Tingsheng. I saw a smile on Gu Tingsheng's face that hadn't been retracted. This smile was joyful, but it was a kind of joy that made me look very sad.

I originally wanted to say, do you know what liking is at this age? Don’t be stupid. You don’t understand at this age. We should study hard now, try hard to get into a good high school, then get into a good university, and then work to make money. We've grown up, we've got responsibilities...and then we're eligible to start a family.

But the 15-year-old Gu Tingsheng, his smile is a kind of deep sorrow, his smile is both happy and sad, I have seen such a smile in the mirror countless times.

Whenever I think of Gu Tingsheng, when I think of him, I look in the mirror, and the person in the mirror smiles like this.

So I put away what I was about to say, changed my words in a hurry, and told Gu Tingsheng: "Brother... It's hard work to like."

"But if I don't like him, it will be very painful for me." Gu Tingsheng lowered his head, he refused to look at me, he just said that.

Who is it?

I made such a voice almost questioning in my heart, I am with Gu Tingsheng every day, who else besides me besides me, who made him like him so deeply, and made a 15-year-old boy show such an expression.

"He makes you sad." I forced a smile, "Then don't like him, brother, life is short, don't waste it on things that make you sad, okay?"

"I've thought about this before." Gu Tingsheng still lowered his head, I couldn't see his face, so I could only listen to what he said.

"I think it's painful to like this person, especially after he's gone, I'm walking on the road and seeing people and cars passing by, I wonder if he's in the crowd, is he in the next In a passing car."

"When I go home and turn on the light, I watch TV and think, does he like this program, no, he probably doesn't like entertainment programs, so I change channels, one by one, thinking about each one, Will he enjoy watching this. But he's not around me at all."

"When I go to bed at night, I say to the air around me, good night, and tell myself that I can stop thinking about him when I fall asleep, but I see his back in my dream. He looks at me from afar With one glance, I have been running in the direction of his departure in my dreams throughout the night."

Gu Tingsheng raised his head, he looked at me, my heart tightened, a line of tears fell from his eyes, he said to me so sadly: "I think about him when I walk, I think about him when I eat, I think about him when I work I still miss him from time to time, even when I am sleeping and dreaming, I am chasing his back... Xiaolu, I feel very painful, I feel that my heart is extremely painful, every day I pass, not only I am not forgiven, the sin even It's all increasing!"

"Big brother!"

I jumped off the sofa, Gu Tingsheng had already bowed his head, he arched his body, he held his head in pain and choked up and repeated: "I am in pain, he made me suffer, but without him I suffer even more! "

"Brother..." My chest rose and fell violently, I stepped forward and hugged him, stroking his back and hands over and over again, "Brother, don't do this, don't do this, just say the painful words, Just tell me, okay, don't hold back in your heart, tell me, I won't laugh at you."

Brother, seeing you like this makes me feel very sad.

To make matters worse, Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei came to the living room when Gu Tingsheng was crying. They were startled by Gu Tingsheng, and Lin Shuzhen even said something like this: "Tingsheng, do you want to see the psychiatrist?" ?”

On the seventh day of the lunar new year, Lin Shuzhen was supposed to patrol the store with Xia Chaobei, but she had time to spare, so she took Gu Tingsheng to the Sixth Affiliated People's Hospital to see a psychiatrist, and I accompanied her.

The result of the examination was mild depression. The doctor prescribed medicine, and introduced an independent outpatient psychological counselor, who suggested that Gu Tingsheng go to regular psychological counseling.

After Lin Shuzhen left the hospital, she took Gu Tingsheng and me to the location of the counselor introduced by the doctor. According to the address, we went to a high-end office building near the city center.

Lin Shuzhen was a little speechless: "This place can also see a doctor?"

Gu Tingsheng was exceptionally silent today. I already knew that he had a history of mental illness. Even if I didn't know, I wouldn't mind, but obviously Gu Tingsheng would mind if Lin Shuzhen knew.

"Brother, my mother is very nice." I quietly took Gu Tingsheng's hand and smiled at him, "She has read a lot of books, she has always been friendly, she is truly kind, you know it best. "

"I know Auntie is very nice."

We got on the elevator, Lin Shuzhen looked back at Gu Tingsheng, and smiled at him: "What are you two talking about, are you praising me?"

Gu Tingsheng looked at Lin Shuzhen and thanked in a low voice: "Aunt Lin, thank you."

"Thanks for what?"

"This matter, if I call my parents." Gu Tingsheng took out his phone and was silent for a second, "I guess, no, no need to guess, I'm sure they won't come, they will just ask the assistant to come over or give me Make money, and then tell me, Tingsheng, mom and dad are very busy, you have to be sensible, are you depressed? If you want to open some money yourself, I will give you an extra sum of money this month. You can invite a classmate to go out for fun. Not depressed anymore."

"Maybe they just don't know how to love you..." Lin Shuzhen swallowed, and I saw her trying her best to save the face of her family-born parents, "After all, your parents provided you with a good life."

"But when I'm sick, they will only send an assistant." Gu Tingsheng smiled, "It's okay, I understand, you have to be sensible and obedient. Mom and Dad are also working hard, I know that."

Lin Shuzhen fell silent. When we got out of the elevator, everyone arrived at the front desk. The lady at the front desk gently took us to sit on the sofa in the hall, asked about the situation, and then took out the information form and asked Gu Tingsheng to fill it out.

Lin Shuzhen said at this time: "Tingsheng, you are a good boy. I thought about it. If you don't want to be sensible or understand your parents, then be a wayward child and tell your parents, tell them, what you want Not assistants, you want them to come and be with you."

I took a breath. At this moment, I was full of hatred for Yuan Mengyu and Gu Xingsong. I also thought that it was their lack in Gu Tingsheng's childhood that caused Gu Tingsheng's depression.

Until I saw a psychiatrist, the psychiatrist's surname was Meng, and he charged [-] per hour for a consultation. Gu Tingsheng had a lot of money, so he talked with Dr. Meng for more than an hour and paid for two hours.

Lin Shuzhen was sitting with me outside, drinking water all the time, and couldn't help but lower her voice to complain: "Xiaolu, you might as well be a psychiatrist in the future, this is a typical industry that makes huge profits without investment and only relies on knowledge to make money ah."

"It's still very technical." I told my mother tactfully, "The lady at the front desk seems to have heard it."

Lin Shuzhen quickly sat upright, and then went to get a glass of water to drink.

When Gu Tingsheng was born, Dr. Meng talked with us. He took the scale made by Gu Tingsheng, and the conclusion he got in the hospital was mild depression.

Dr. Meng bluntly said that it is not serious, but just let it develop. If severe depression is likely to cause the patient to commit suicide.

Lin Shuzhen was startled, and her face turned pale. My ten fingers were twisted together, and my heart started again, making thud, thump, thud—a very loud sound.

I really want to take this disease instead of him, never have I hated Gu Xingsong and Yuan Mengyu more than this time.I want to tell them, if you don't love him, then give him to me.He is so good, he deserves the parents who treat him like jewels, the upright and kind friends, and the best people in the world to be with him.

Dr. Meng: "However, I don't think the patient has suicidal tendencies. This is a good sign. After careful inquiry, Gu Tingsheng's lack of family affection caused his lack of security. After all, when we humans were young, a healthy family can create a normal emotional system."

"Yes, his parents are not very responsible." Lin Shuzhen sighed, "Dr. Meng, you must help this child. He is about to take the senior high school entrance examination. There can be no problems at this juncture."

"Come once a week for psychological counseling." Dr. Meng finally asked Gu Ting about his business, and Gu Tingsheng agreed.

Later, Gu Tingsheng followed this doctor for three years of psychological counseling. What I didn't know was that Dr. Meng overturned the original conclusion. Gu Tingsheng's depression did not come from his parents, but from a person who died in his memory.

One year later, Dr. Meng knew the name of this person, and Gu Tingsheng confided his heart to him. The person was Yang Lu.

But now I don't know about it at all. I, like everyone else, thought that Gu Tingsheng's depression was caused by the absence of his parents when he was a child.

At the beginning of June this year, three days before the senior high school entrance examination, the school suspended classes for junior high school students. They could choose to come to school for self-study or stay at home.

I feel that studying in the classroom has the most atmosphere, and I still get up early and go to school with Gu Tingsheng as usual.

When we arrived at the classroom, one-third of the students came, including Xiang Linlin and Zhang Yueyang. They sat together. When Zhang Yueyang saw me and Gu Tingsheng, he called us: "Yang Lu, Gu Tingsheng, come and sit here." .”

The desks and chairs in the classroom have been emptied. There used to be stacks of textbooks and exercise books on each desk in this classroom. Now these things are gone. The classroom looks empty and tidy, but it is clear that this is The first separation in youth is coming.

Graduation from elementary school is the farewell of children, graduation from junior high school is the first farewell to youth, graduation from high school is the end of the world, and when you graduate from university, youth is gone.

Gu Tingsheng and I sat behind Zhang Yueyang and Xiang Linlin. At [-]:[-], Xu Meihui came to the classroom. At this time, half of the class was scattered in the classroom. At [-]:[-], there were several other students in the middle. The subject teacher came over and turned around.

At eight o'clock, Xu Meihui stood on the podium, took the roll call list, and patted the desk. The class fell silent, and Xu Meihui looked at us: "Students, the teacher will take a roll call."

"Zhang Yueyang." Xu Meihui clicked on the first name on the roster.

"Here." Zhang Yueyang returned loudly.

"Jiang Shaoyang."

"Here." The boy replied.

"Chen Binfen."

"Here." The girl's voice was clear.

"Xiang Linlin."

"Here." Xiang Linlin responded swiftly.

……

"Gu Tingsheng."

Xu Meihui clicked on Gu Tingsheng's name, Gu Tingsheng responded, I sat up straight, Xu Meihui put down the roster and looked at me: "Yang Lu."

"Here." I answered her.

"There are 47 students in the class, and the whole class is here." Xu Meihui smiled, very happy but also sad, "Although I have only taken you for one year, and as the first time to take care of graduates, I still have many shortcomings. Sometimes when I look at you, I think you are really a bunch of annoying little brats, but now that we have to part, I feel very sad."

"I feel like I haven't gotten along enough with you."

Xu Meihui laughed again, and Zhang Yueyang shouted: "Teacher Xu, we haven't gotten along enough with you!"

Under the podium, many students booed and echoed Zhang Yueyang. Xu Meihui watched these students making a fuss for a while with a smile, and she clapped her hands to signal everyone to be quiet.

"I'm a person who likes to talk big, but it's actually not a good habit."

Xu Meihui turned her back and wrote a line on the blackboard - never give up.

Then she turned around: "Today I will explain a truth and give it to you."

"Before I tell you cruelly, the passing of the high school entrance examination just means that you are one step closer to the high school entrance examination." Xu Meihui glanced at the whole class, "The high school entrance examination is more cruel than the high school entrance examination. The cruel thing is not that if you fail the high school entrance examination, you will not do well In the future, the cruel thing is that after the college entrance examination, when you go to university or enter the society, you will find children from wealthy or powerful families. It is easy to get the wealth or status that you may not be able to achieve even if you work hard for a lifetime."

"For many people, the college entrance examination is the first or only opportunity to change their lives. Many people—I mean the common people and the poor. The college entrance examination is very important to me and most of us, but For people with outstanding family backgrounds, the college entrance examination is just a game, since their birth, their starting point—their starting line is the end point most people pursue.”

"Classes have always existed, and the inherent class at the top is determined to be unable to catch up in a lifetime since birth." Xu Meihui sighed self-deprecatingly.

"The high school entrance examination may not be worth mentioning compared with the college entrance examination, but I once told you that the most important moment is always the present moment, don't dwell on the past, you can look back but not indulge, you can fail but not give up—— There are very few things that a person has in this life. If you give up one thing, you will have one less thing. When you give up one thing, it will become a habit. Then you will find that you have given up everything. At that time, you have given up all of you. Mirror, you in the mirror, can you still recognize who it is?"

"So stick to yourself and never give up." Xu Meihui exhaled, "The future will be very hard, but also very beautiful. More importantly, the future belongs to you. The teacher has no other requirements for you, only hope Never ever give up lightly."

There was a burst of applause in the class, and I went to look at Gu Tingsheng amidst the applause, and Gu Tingsheng also looked at me, and he suddenly said to me: "Even if you let go, I won't blame you, because it's hard work."

I don't understand what Gu Tingsheng said to me, but my heart twitched violently in the applause, and there was a continuous pain from my fingertips connected to my heart.

Teacher Xu said on the podium that he would never give up, but Gu Tingsheng told me how to let go if it is very hard. He will not blame me.

The first day of the senior high school entrance examination began on June [-]th, and there were a total of two days of the exam, including language and mathematics, a comprehensive political examination paper, and a comprehensive physical, chemical, and biological examination paper.

At [-]:[-] on June [-]th, the last exam ended. Gu Tingsheng and I took the exam at the same school, but in different exam rooms.

I used to take exams at school, and I checked them once, and there was still enough time, so I would hand in the papers in advance, but for this senior high school entrance exam, I sat until the last minute, and checked each exam paper more than twice.

When the bell rang, everyone stood up, and the invigilator collected the papers. Our group of candidates left the examination room, and the outside was full of heat.

The classrooms in the examination room are air-conditioned, which is much better than Jincheng No. [-] Middle School. I walked towards the gate of this school. I made an appointment with Gu Tingsheng, Wanwan, Dad, and Mom to meet under the third sycamore tree at the gate. .

Walking on the road, my mind miraculously forgot what I had been tested for the past two days. I raised my hand to cover my eyes, thinking that the sun is so bright today, and the sun is very blazing.

I heard the cicadas chirping again, and I thought this summer must be hotter than last year.By the time I walked out of the school gate, my mind had diverged to the point that it was said that Jincheng No. [-] Middle School would install air conditioning this summer, but it’s a pity that we won’t be able to enjoy it even after we graduate.

Then ten meters away, under the third sycamore tree, I heard Xia Wanwan calling me "Yang Lu!" She shouted very loudly, and the girl's voice was very clear and pleasant.

I looked up and saw Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei waving at me, I took two steps forward, and beside them was a boy in a black T-shirt who was looking up at the branches of the plane tree, which was pressed down very low, He stretched out his hand and touched the palm-sized sycamore leaves.

I walked over, each step getting faster and faster, when the boy looked down at me, he smiled at me, I ran, Lin Shuzhen and Xia Chaobei were smiling, Wanwan opened her arms, but forgive me, sister, I Skipping past her sister, she rushed into Gu Tingsheng's arms, hooked his neck, and rested her head on his shoulder.

I looked at the 15-year-old Gu Tingsheng, the previous life had overlapped with the present life, and I saw the Gu Tingsheng who was waiting for me day after day, standing under the parasol tree at the school gate.

The sun shines on his young face through the branches and leaves, his beauty makes me intoxicated and I don't know where to go.

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This summer vacation, Xia Wanwan, Gu Tingsheng and I all finished junior high school and are about to enter high school. At the same time, Gu Tingsheng celebrated his 16th birthday in July, and I also celebrated my 13th birthday.What is more embarrassing is that the day after Gu Tingsheng's birthday is an appointment to have a psychological counseling session with Dr. Meng on Friday.

During the summer vacation, Wanwan worked part-time at the restaurant on the first floor to earn pocket money. Gu Tingsheng and I didn't play crazy this summer vacation. In fact, we lived a very ordinary life.

Every week I accompany him to do psychological counseling, and we stay in the bedroom for the rest of the day.Lin Shuzhen changed to a double bed with two half-person-high pillows piled up on the bed. Sometimes we wiped the floor to make sure the floor was clean, so we took off the pillows and piled them on the ground to lean against the bed. The two of us sat on the ground and leaned against each other. Pillows, sometimes the two of us cross our legs and put our laptops on our knees, Gu Tingsheng is writing code, and I am writing novels.

In April, "A Letter to Angel" was released, and the sales were beyond my expectation. It turned out to be very good. Thinking about it, "Legend · Good Fiction" magazine itself sold very well, and the inside pages of their books and magazines were crazy publicized Squid even pretended to be a reader and wrote a sensational post-reading review, which was then published in the magazine's good book selection column.

Sometimes the two of us turned off the computer, we would read books, read magazines, or do nothing, chatting quietly.

Gu Tingsheng didn't talk much, and I didn't talk much either. The two of us just talked one after another, and I couldn't remember what we said afterwards, but as long as I listened to his voice, I felt very happy.

Sitting on the ground that day, I fell asleep leaning on Gu Tingsheng's shoulder. The air conditioner was turned on in the room. The boy had a strong firepower, and the temperature was adjusted to [-] degrees. After falling asleep, it was very cold. Lean on your body.

I didn't sleep deeply, and my skin was in contact with the air-conditioning in the room, and I felt cold, but I felt a hotness inside, a heat that disturbed me.

I said "cold" vaguely, there was a voice through the fog in my ears, someone came to support my knees and hands, I felt warm and dry skin, smelling good, my cold skin subconsciously pressed against it.

The cheeks were attached to the warm skin, the arms were also attached to the warm skin, and the skin around the waist was exposed from the hem of the clothes, so I couldn't help but keep getting closer to this body.

Subconsciously, I didn't recognize this body, it was more like a ridiculous dream, but subconsciously, I knew that this body was what I longed for, and I also knew that this body made me feel safe.

"Hot..." I said again.

What was the inaudible boy's voice saying, I hugged this person tightly, I suddenly wanted to cry, I choked up in my dream and told him: "You also make me suffer."

Then I felt the hands holding my waist pause for a moment, and then a breath came from my ear, the breath was hot, and the panting sound became more and more serious. Someone asked me: "Why did I make you suffer?"

I don't know, I thought, all I know is that you make me suffer, but why, I don't remember, it's just a dream.

So holding this person, all the exposed skin was stuck to his body in a panic, I felt the sweat slipping from my forehead, from my back, and slid down my back into my waist.

I was in so much pain, and finally all the heat was concentrated in the lower body, where it became hard and tight, and it became itchy, and it became uncontrollable, and I straightened up, and I felt relieved towards this body body rubbed away.

A hand stretched in, and the hot breath in my ear became hotter and hotter. Finally, I felt that the earlobe entered a warm and humid space, and something slippery and soft slipped over the earlobe, and my lower body felt a piece of