mentally handicapped life

【Chapter 30】

"Zuo Wen, your mental condition is not very good."

"How long have you been like this? Just today, right? To be specific, it started when you found out that Yi Zhihang became you again."

"And then? He was disobedient, how did you feel at that time?"

"How do you feel after he's gone? What's your mood?"

"What was your mood before he took the condom and threw you? What was your mood after being thrown?"

"How did it feel then?"

"How did you feel afterwards?"

……

Doctor Zhang sighed, looking as expected, and said: "You have a tendency to be depressed, have you discovered it yourself? You come back next year, I have to give you a comprehensive examination, and then Make sure you have depression."

Captain Zuo Nian exhaled, rubbed his face, and said, "No need to check, I don't have depression, I just feel a little tired. Zhihang is fine, and I'll be fine."

"It will take time for him to recover. If you don't treat it in time, it will only get worse." Dr. Zhang said.

"I see, I will pay attention." Zuo Nianhang turned his head and glanced at Zuo who was sleeping soundly on the treatment bed after finishing the hypnosis in the back room and asked, "He still needs someone to take care of him, I won't fall down."

After a depressing year, Zuo Nianhang led Zuo Wen non-stop to make amends to Zhong Yang and his wife.

The musician is still the clean and tidy musician, with nothing on the surface, but sees tears and sorrows in his heart, and his heart is not easy for Dr. Zuo!

Zuo Wen was a little embarrassed, he didn't know what to say, ah, he didn't even know how he messed up.

"Apologies." Zuo Nianhang glanced at Zuo Wen and said.

Zuo Wen immediately said as if awakened: "I'm sorry, Yangzi, on your wedding day I..."

Zhong Yang burst out laughing and said, "What a show, it's Xiaohang's face, but Zuo Wen is the one talking."

"Ha, ha ha." The musician also laughed with his wife, halfway through the laugh he realized that he didn't know what he was laughing at, so he turned a corner and said, "You two are quite alike, both handsome and suave. ..."

"Get out!" Zhong Yang covered his face, and said to himself two hundred and five, this turn makes me feel embarrassed for you, can you feel it?

"The height is about the same." The musician insisted that the embarrassment was over.

Zuo Nianhang laughed, and answered, "Yeah, you're only half a finger shorter than me." The musician immediately gave him a brother. You are very good. I admire your eyes very much.

"Okay." Zhong Yang pulled the fidgeting Zuo and asked, "You are not to blame for the wedding, which one of us is with whom. We are planning to go on our honeymoon in a few days, so why don't you two go out to play too? But let me say first, you are not allowed to come with us."

Zuo Wen inexplicably remembered the chaos on Valentine's Day, and couldn't help shivering.

Zuo Nianhang is considering the feasibility of going out to play, maybe Yi Zhihang will come back as soon as the environment changes and the atmosphere relaxes?

Zuo Wen shuddered again, looked at Zuo Nianhang vigilantly, and said, "Don't even think about it."

Zuo Nianhang snorted and said, "You have to go, I won't beat you up."

Zuo asked: "..."

Zhong Yang: "..."

Musician: Brother, I admire you for being like this!interesting!

When he got home at night, Zuo Wen was about to take a bath, but Zuo Nianhang grabbed him, which made him shiver subconsciously.

Zuo Nianhang stepped up and hugged him from behind, whispering in his ear: "Why are you nervous, if I really want to do something to you, will you be safe until today?"

fuck me? ... well too.I think Zuo Wen felt uncomfortable every time he faced Zuo Nianhang alone since Valentine's Day.I can't beat it, and I can't drive it away. It's just heartbreaking.If he can't be provoked, he can always hide, Zuo Wen simply hides in the study and draws when he has nothing to do, holding it back for a day.Fortunately, Zuo Nianhang probably found out with his conscience, he stayed outside and didn't bother him all the time, and he slept in the living room at night and didn't kill him, otherwise...he would just commit suicide.

"I just want to discuss with you where to go. A change of environment will also help your illness. Where do you want to go, eh?" Zuo Nianhang rubbed Zuo Wen's neck lightly.

Zuo Wen stiffened his body and moved his head aside, sullenly said, "Let go of me first."

Zuo Nianhang obediently let go.

"Nianhang," Zuo Wen turned around and patted Zuo Nianhang on the shoulder, "I really don't want to go. I'm not Zhihang, at least not now. I really treat you like a younger brother, you've always been like this, I I can't face you."

Zuo Nianhang's anger came up all at once, brother shit!Who the hell is your brother!But... hold back!Can't help it is depression!Both of them have to be cowardly!

"Go, I want to go." Zuo Nianhang adjusted his mood, looked at Zuo Wen pitifully and said softly, "I won't do anything to you, can't I promise not to touch you?"

Zuo Wen frowned in embarrassment, and said in his heart that it wasn't a question of whether you would touch me or not, it was that I would be fucking disgusting when I was with you, brother!

"When did I really touch you?" Zuo Nianhang immediately said more pitifully.

Zuo Wen looked at Zuo Nianhang's pitiful appearance, and sighed: "Okay..."

Zuo Nianhang's eyes lit up, and his tone became cheerful: "Then where are we going? Where do you want to go? The weather in China is still cold, shall we go to Hawaii?"

Zuo asked: "..."

"Huh? Don't you want to go? Then where do you want to go? Australia? Italy? New Zealand? France..."

Zuo Wen interrupted Zuo Nianhang by raising his hand, and said, "It's fine, you decide. Just don't bump into Yangzi and the others."

"Okay." Zuo Nianhang said happily.

……

Finally went to Australia.After getting off the plane, the two went straight to the hotel they had booked, and they were so fucking tired after sitting for 12 hours!Zuo Nianhang originally wanted to sneak into Zuo Wen's room to rest with him, isn't it said that people are the easiest to develop relationships when they are traveling... Well, Zuo Wen gave him a stare.

After resting for a long time, Zuo Nianhang knocked on Zuo Wen's door uncontrollably, and dragged him straight to the beach. Sydney in March is a good time for autumn, with sunny beaches, beauties and wine, and the mood of the two is indeed much more relaxed than when they were in China.

Zuo Nianhang sat on the recliner and looked at Zuo Wen who had just come ashore after swimming, and couldn't help rolling his Adam's apple.This little boy has been exercising really well.

Zuo Wen walked over and lay down on the chair, and said lazily, "Look at me, why don't you go swimming?"

"You look good." Zuo Nianhang said.

Zuo asked: "..." Mom sells batches, so I shouldn't talk too much.

"I remember you couldn't swim before." Zuo Nianhang said again.

Zuo Wen chuckled, squinted his eyes and said, "Zuo Nianhang, you treat me as Zhihang again?"

Zuo Nianhang raised his eyebrows, and said indifferently: "You are Zhihang in the first place."

Zuo Wen sighed softly, and just about to say something, Zuo Nianhang immediately grabbed the conversation: "I'm going for a swim, don't go."

"I'm not leaving." Zuo Wen said.

The sea breeze was blowing so comfortably that Zuo Wen fell asleep without realizing it.In a daze, I felt itchy all over my face and body, as if something fluffy was scratching everywhere.Dimly opened his eyes, fuck it!Almost scared him a big somersault.Seeing that he was awake, the face magnified several times in front of his eyes moved away with a smile, and Zuo Wen saw clearly that it was a hot beauty with black hair and black eyes, who was waving at him with a feather.

"Hi, @#%$&..." The beauty smiled and said wow, and then she understood Hi, ah, this English has degenerated... No, he is Yi Zhihang in essence, he can't speak English very well normal……

"Sorry, I...Idon'tu...understand..." Zuo Wen tried hard to find words to piece together a sentence, wanting to express beauty, I don't understand what you're talking about, but I can't fucking say it, can you understand? ?

"Sorry, lady, he'sagay." Zuo Nianhang walked from a distance and said.Zuo Wen looked at Zuo Nianhang, and suddenly felt that he was surrounded by holy light, like a holy warrior in golden armor, even his image was much taller, mighty, charming and handsome.Sure enough, is he so graceful, Zuo Wen and thought proudly.

The beauty said something again, Zuo Nianhang immediately smiled and said, "Yeah, I'mhishusband."

The beauty showed a regretful expression, said goodbye to them and left.

"What did you tell her?" Zuo Wen asked impatiently as soon as Zuo Nianhang sat down.It seems that I still have to learn English, Zuo Wen thought.

Zuo Nianhang took a sip of beer and said, "I didn't say anything, just said you were gay."

Zuo asked: "Oh."

"I also said that I am your husband."

Zuo asked: "!" What a radiance!What saints!fart!

"What kind of expression do you have? I am Yi Zhihang's husband."

Zuo Q: I have no fu.ck to say.

……

The two stayed in Sydney for a few days, and went to all the places they needed to visit. Although they didn't feel Yi Zhihang's intention to come back, Zuo Nianhang's mood was indeed much better. At least there was no disagreement. Get angry.

On the night of arriving in Venice, Zuo Nianhang rarely got drunk.I don't know what this guy is happy about. He ordered a bottle of red wine during the meal, and the bottle was dry when the cap was removed. One bottle was not enough for two bottles, so he got drunk.

Zuo Wen carried the dizzy Zuo Nianhang back to the room, threw him on the bed and wanted to leave, Zuo Nianhang seemed to have a sense and grabbed him, muttering: "Don't go..."

Zuo Wen struggled to withdraw his hand, but Zuo Nianhang grabbed his waist from behind, "Don't go..." Zuo Nianhang said.

"Nianhang, you're drunk, get a good night's sleep, okay?" Zuo Wen tried to break Zuo Nianhang's arm, but his strength was inferior to others, he couldn't break it, damn it.

Zuo Nianhang slowly got up and knelt on the bed, turned his head to the left and put it on his shoulder, and said, "Don't go, son of a bitch..."

Zuo Wen turned around with difficulty, and coaxed, "Okay, okay, I won't go, come and lie down, lie down and sleep, okay?"

Zuo Nianhang ignored him, cupped Zuo Wen's face with both hands, and asked with some doubts: "Are you back?"

"Yes, yes, I'm back... um!" The idiot kissed him again!Ah, my own cheap mouth!

Zuo Nianhang gnawed Zuo Wen's lips hard, as if he wanted to eat his stomach, and murmured indistinctly: "Come back...well, it's good..."

Zuo Wen tried his best to dodge, almost throwing up. "Well... Nianhang, calm down, um...fuck, vomit..." I'm sorry, he couldn't help it.

Zuo Nianhang stared blankly at Zuo Wen who pushed him away and went straight to the bathroom, climbed out of bed and staggered to the door of the bathroom, saying, "You are so disgusting to me now..."

Zuo Wen vomited for a long time but did not spit it out, rinsed his mouth, and said to Zuo Nianhang: "I am not Zhihang, at least not yet, as I said before. Zuo Wen, I am you, you know. Think about it What does it feel like to kiss yourself, don't you feel sick?"

"But you are Yi Zhihang..." Zuo Nianhang lowered his head and whispered.

Zuo Wen sighed, walked over and rubbed the back of Zuo Nianhang's neck, and said, "I'm sorry, Zuo Wen. I know you're suffering, so bear with it, okay? Hmm? I promise you, I will cooperate with the treatment well and treat it Return it to you, okay?"

Zuo Nianhang said with red eyes, "Really?"

"Really." Zuo Wen patted Zuo Nianhang on the shoulder, "I want to understand, after all, I am him, why do I still fight with you? I admit, I really don't want to disappear, but I don't even want to let Zhihang is gone. I want him back as much as you do, okay?"

Zuo Nianhang hugged Zuo Wen and said, "Thank you..." He was really grateful.

Zuo Wen smiled, patted him on the back, and said, "I should thank you, and I thank you for Zhihang, for letting him meet such a wonderful you."

Zuo Nianhang also laughed, let go of Zuo Wen, leaned against the door frame, and said, "Are you boasting?"

"Yes." Zuo Wen said.

Zuo Nianhang closed his eyes and said, "Hey, I'm dizzy, help me to rest on the sofa for a while, and don't touch you. When you say that, I feel awkward too."

Zuo Wen helped Zuo Nianhang to the sofa, poured him a glass of water, and went back to the room. Zuo Nianhang rubbed his temples and recalled the scene just now. The feeling that he had been oppressed for a long time finally got better.

I don't know what other people think, but Zuo Nianhang thinks that feelings are the same as eating chili peppers.Some peppers choke your mouth, but you don’t feel anything in your stomach when you eat them; and some peppers, you can’t taste the spiciness at all when you eat them. There is a fire burning.

Yi Zhihang is the kind of heartburning pepper that quietly erodes his internal organs bit by bit, making him invisible, and he can be pulled at Yi Zhihang's mercy.

Look, the person living in Yi Zhihang's body said that Yi Zhihang would come back, so he was happy, so happy that he wanted to have another bottle of wine.

Zuo Wen's feelings are actually quite complicated. Although he knows that he is Yi Zhihang in essence, and his personality at this time is actually Zuo Nianhang, but when he thinks that once he disappears, Zuo Nianhang will occupy Yi Zhihang from now on. I can't help but feel sullen that my pet dog that I have raised for many years has been robbed.

Yes, pet dogs, pet dogs, this is also the place that makes Zuo Wen uncomfortable.Since his personality is Zuo Nianhang, is his feeling equal to that of Zuo Nianhang?Did Zuo Nianhang also raise the little tiger as a pet dog?Zuo Wen actually felt quite guilty about treating Yi Zhihang as a puppy, and he didn't know how Zuo Nianhang felt.I also want Zuo Nianhang to take good care of Yi Zhihang, but I don't want Zuo Nianhang to really get Yi Zhihang... It's quite contradictory.

……

After staying in Australia for a month, Zuo Wen wanted to go back to China.The two of them just celebrated Yi Zhihang's birthday briefly, after all, the protagonist is not there.Zuo Nianhang also realized that it was a daydream to call Yi Zhihang back by changing the environment, so he packed his luggage and went back to the country with Zuo Wen without any hesitation.

When Dr. Zhang saw the two of them again, he was obviously taken aback. He said that it would be good for both of them to go out and relax, but he really didn't expect them to be so good.

The treatment has also gone much smoother, Zuo Wen has figured out a lot more than before, which is a surprise, and it has greatly helped his treatment.

After leaving the hospital, on the way home Zuo Wen finally couldn't hold back and asked Zuo Nianhang: "How do you feel about Zhihang...?"

Zuo Nianhang paused holding the steering wheel and said, "I love him."

"You...don't treat him as your own son?" Zuo Wen asked.

Zuo Nianhang raised his eyebrows and said with a chuckle, "He's my son of a bitch."

Zuo Wen thought about it for a while, but said straight: "Pet. Didn't you keep him like a pet dog?"

Zuo Nianhang frowned and said, "What pet dog? He's a little wolf dog."

"I mean……"

"No." Zuo Nianhang interrupted him, "He is my lover, my closest person, the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. What's on your mind? Are you embarrassing me?"

Zuo Wen stopped talking because he was a fabricated personality by Yi Zhihang, so in fact his thoughts were all Yi Zhihang's own thoughts?Hmm...it's really possible. "I think," Zuo Wen said, "Zhihang regards himself as your pet dog."

Zuo Nianhang raised his eyebrows again and said, "What do you mean?"

"It's not interesting, because that's what I think." Zuo Wen smiled self-deprecatingly, "I think he is my pet dog. It’s a guilty thought, now that I think about it, isn’t my thought that his thought.”

Zuo Nianhang said melodiously: "So he thought so... Tsk, he really is a little fool."

"Who are you calling a fool?"

"Yi Zhihang is a fool."

"..."

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