mentally handicapped life

Zuo Yingdi's family is officially launched.

No one spoke, and the atmosphere was a little weird.

Shen Jinqiu looked at Zuo Wen who was sitting on the hospital bed with a complex and sad expression, Zuo Jianguo had a serious face, Zuo Yue was hesitant to speak, Zuo Nianhang...he didn't have any expression of embarrassment.

Zuo Wen was a little nervous.No, he was very nervous, why didn't Zuo Nianhang tell his parents that he was coming!Not prepared at all!He could barely make sense with Lao Li, but with his parents... probably they would think that Yi Zhihang was schizophrenic thinking about himself.

...But looking at them like that, they don't seem to be ignorant?

Zuo Wen tentatively wanted to pull Shen Jinqiu, but he quickly retracted his hand as soon as he stretched it out, almost forgot, the ring hasn't been taken off yet!But he thought that his parents might have already guessed, after all, he and Yi Zhihang both wore rings when they had an accident... But just to be on the safe side, let's take it off, there are enough troubles.So he secretly wanted to take off the ring.

"You don't need to pick it up, mom and dad already know." Zuo Nianhang said suddenly.

Zuo Wen was taken aback, but quickly figured it out.When I figured it out, I felt even more anxious. What do my parents think?Do you think he is perverted?Will he hate Yi Zhihang because of this?Will he attribute all the faults to Yi Zhihang? "Mom...ah, auntie, I..." Fuck!I'm running out of words!what to do!

Shen Jinqiu agreed that it was time for me to perform!So she put on a more complicated and sad expression, and said to Zuo Wen: "Don't... Director Li told us. Son, are you... really my son Zuo Wen?"

Zuo Wen took a deep breath and said, "I said yes, do you believe it?"

Shen Jinqiu immediately collapsed on Zuo Jianguo's body, with two lines of clear tears streaming down his eyes, he sobbed and said, "I've never heard such an outrageous thing in my life...child, don't lie to me...I really can't stand it Shocked, my son is still in the United States and has not woken up. You have been in a coma for more than a year, and you have been critically ill several times, and you almost failed to be rescued twice... Now when you wake up, tell me that you are my son , what do you want me to do, how..."

Zuo Jianguo put his arms around Shen Jinqiu and immediately answered: "Little... Zuo... Hey, I don't know what to call you. To be honest, if you were the only one who said about your situation, we would definitely not believe it. You said How can there be such a thing in the world? Who will believe it? But Director Li also said so...he is a first-class neurologist, we believe in him, so we are very contradictory now, what we see is Xiaohang, and we get along with each other But my son, we really... can you understand?"

"I can understand." Zuo Wen said, "Dad, Mom, I wouldn't believe it if it hadn't happened to me. It's against science, I know. But there's no scientific explanation in this world. There are too many things, don't I... I don't know how to explain how I got into Zhihang's body, and where... Zhihang went. "

No one knows where Yi Zhihang went, whether he is still in this body, whether he is still alive, and whether he has lived hard or not.

"You really look like my brother when you speak like this." Zuo Yue said after holding back for a long time.But this is what he said sincerely, not pretending, and of course the other three people thought so too.

Zuo Wen chuckled, and said, "What's like, I'm your brother." After a pause, he remembered something, so he said to Shen Jinqiu and Zuo Jianguo, "Dad, Mom, the matter between me and Zhihang..."

"We knew when something happened to the two of you, uncle... your parents are not fools, can't you turn around?" Zuo Jianguo said, "Don't think too much, we are not such stubborn people The society doesn’t tolerate you, so should we as parents exclude you? You two, stay together if you love each other, and live well.” This is what he said to his son, whether it was Zuo Wen on the hospital bed, Zuo Nianhang was still standing next to them.

Zuo Wen was excited. The secret he had been carefully guarding was suddenly discovered when he was unprepared. "Dad, Mom, thank you, really thank you." Zuo Wen said with a sore nose.

Shen Jinqiu wiped away tears, looked at Zuo and asked, "So, are you really my son? Are you?"

"Mom, I'm your son, and I'm Zuo Wen." Zuo Wen said.

Shen Jinqiu immediately rushed over and hugged Zuo Wen, and said: "It's okay, it's okay...we don't care who you are with, as long as you come back, just come back. Xiaohang... Let's think of a way, we will always There is a way. Now that your younger brother is back, Mom really has no regrets."

Zuo Wen glanced at Zuo Nianhang and said, "Mom, why have I never heard of this younger brother?"

Shen Jinqiu let go of Zuo Wen, and showed the sad expression before, even Zuo Jianguo frowned, with a look of sadness coming from it.

From Shen Jinqiu's sad narration and Zuo Jianguo's supplement, Zuo Wen got a general understanding of Zuo Nianhang's tragic experience.This guy is really miserable, he was hypoxic when he was born, he was finally rescued, he was carefully offered by his ancestors, but when he was discharged from the hospital and went home, the situation was too messy, so he lost it.Shen Jinqiu almost went crazy. He searched for a long time but couldn't find it. He was so desperate that he never mentioned his little son again.

At that time, Zuo Nianhang came to the hospital to find Zuo Wen at the address given by Uncle Fan. The doctors and nurses saw the sudden recovery of "Zuo Wen" and said they wanted to find Zuo Wen as soon as they came, thinking he was crazy.Zuo Nianhang was curious and said he was looking for Yi Zhihang, so he found the ward, met Shen Jinqiu, recognized his relatives, took a paternity test, and didn't run away.

Zuo Wen tried hard to digest it, but still found it unbelievable, what the fuck? ? ?Are you writing a novel? ? ? ... But it doesn't look like his parents are lying to him, let alone lying to him.

"So he's really my brother?" Zuo Wen asked after a long silence.

Zuo Jianguo and Shen Jinqiu nodded wildly.

Zuo Wen had nothing to say.

After staying in the hospital for a few more days, Zuo Wen was finally allowed to leave the hospital.Zuo Nianhang forcibly lived in his house on the grounds that he was still weak, but he was only allowed to sleep on the sofa.Zuo Wen warned Zuo Nianhang not to touch anything in the house, especially the study room.

We can't go to the hospital anymore, except for Lao Li, who would believe that he is Zuo Wen?

Or learn how to draw a little tiger?This will also make him feel closer to the little tiger.

Drawing is quite difficult.

The little tiger has been lying down for too long, his body has become weak, and his muscles can no longer be seen. He has to exercise hard, and when the little tiger comes back, he will be given a perfect body.

……

Lao Li gave Zuo Nianhang a name and phone number, which was the psychiatrist.He first went to the doctor privately to explain Zuo Wen's situation, and then tricked Zuo Wen over for an examination on the grounds that he had recovered Yi Zhihang.

When taking a bath at night, Zuo Nianhang covered his face with one hand to prevent his voice from leaking out.Although covered by the sound of water, he still didn't want the person outside to hear anything.The diagnosis during the day also wiped out the last hope in his heart, and what the doctor said made him exhausted physically and mentally.

"The patient's condition is much more serious than that of patients who have just suffered from schizophrenia. He does not have a transition between the successor personality and the main personality. When many patients first get sick, the successor personality can generally be aware of the existence of the main personality. In other words, "Zuo Wen" should be able to know that "Yi Zhihang" exists in his body.But he didn't realize it, he thought he was "Zuo Wen".When I hypnotized him just now, I didn't wake up "Yi Zhihang" at all, which shows that his separation has been very comprehensive. "Yi Zhihang" has forgotten his identity and has been completely replaced by "Zuo Wen". "

"This is difficult to cure, or we have no cure at all. Because these personalities are independent and autonomous from each other, and exist as a complete self. There are more than 100 examples of split personality in the world. None of the cases were cured. There were only cases of staying in one personality for a long time until death. Some remained in the main personality, and some were successor personalities. Most of them spent their whole lives switching between different personalities. Their lives are like this It's broken, and a lot of these patients are in pain."

"Once the successor personality is formed, he will strongly resist all efforts to eliminate him. Therefore, I cannot eliminate "Zuo Wen", otherwise his mental state will only get worse and worse.I need to find the identity of "Zuowen" and "Yi Zhihang", integrate them, and make the switching between them operate like a normal emotional change, which will take time. "

"Although the patient keeps saying that he wants to get "Yi Zhihang" back, he subconsciously resists it. This has something to do with "Yi Zhihang" deliberately hiding himself, so don't believe what he said. The key now is to be able to recover. Awaken "Yi Zhihang" in hypnosis. "

"The patient's nerves are very fragile now. He was mentally impaired due to stimulation before, and he was hit again without recovery. He can't perform more intensive treatment except hypnosis for the time being. The way you are choosing now is very good. This is in We call it fusion therapy in psychology. It is to deceive and induce catharsis with good intentions. Is he actively drawing now? Let him draw, this can help him.”

"The problem that people with split personality are most afraid of is memory fragments, that is, genetic disorders will disturb the brain and cause memory loss. "Zuo Wen" has a certain understanding of "Yi Zhihang"'s memory and personality, although he I don't think I am "Yi Zhihang", but at least I recognize the existence of "Yi Zhihang".This is a good thing.Because once "Zuowen" forgets, "Yi Zhihang" may never come back, which is what we don't want to see. "

"I don't know if you've noticed, but Zuo Wen looks like you, but he doesn't look like you.His speech and behavior, including the way of thinking, are exactly the same as yours, but he is sensitive and suspicious, and he is full of thorns when dealing with imaginary threats.He is also very cunning, and will do everything possible to prove that he is "Zuo Wen".For example, he is very good at making excuses. He has no memory of many things about "Zuo Wen", but forcibly fabricated that he lost his memory due to falling from a building and hitting his head. This is because he refused to admit that he is "Yi Zhihang" Performance.Also, he has symptoms of depression. "

……

out of breath.It was like being locked in a cramped space with no way out and suffocating.

why?Once or twice, not enough?Yi Zhihang was scared to death that time, and Yi Zhihang's coma also made him uncomfortable for a year and almost got depression, now?Haha, Yi Zhihang just disappeared, disappeared, and turned into him Zuowen!But when he asked Zuo, he could only carefully accompany and coax him as Zuo Nianhang, as a younger brother.

Physically and mentally exhausted.

"Fuck." Zuo Nianhang said softly.

When Zuo Nianhang came out of the shower, Zuo Wen was sitting on the sofa and fiddling with his mobile phone.

Zuo Wen looked at Zuo Nianhang who was wiping his hair, and said, "Are you using my phone?"

Zuo Nianhang paused, and said, "Take it back if you want it, and I'll buy another one."

Zuo Wen put down the phone casually, "No, I'm using Zhihang." After speaking, he was about to enter the bedroom.

Zuo Nianhang stopped him: "You seem to reject me? Did I rob you?"

Zuo Wen stared at him for a few seconds, and said, "I always feel that you want to replace me, and you want to compete with me."

Zuo Nianhangxin said who the hell wants to replace whom. "You think too much. I am who I am. I don't want to replace anyone. I just want to take care of you."

"You? Take care of me?" Why does it sound so awkward?

"I'm your own brother. You're still weak, I'll take care of you, it should be." Zuo Nianhang said.

Zuo Wen has nothing to say, Yi Zhihang's body is indeed very weak now, and he was in critical condition several times when he was in a coma, Zuo Wen was really afraid that one day he would not be able to hold on anymore.

Zuo Nianhang stretched out his hand, originally wanted to touch Zuo Wen's head, reached out in the air and turned a corner, patted Zuo Wen's shoulder, and said: "I really don't mean anything to you, you don't have to be on guard all the time. Me. Have you taken the medicine?"

"What kind of medicine is that?" Zuo Wen glanced at the unlabeled small white bottles on the coffee table. He didn't know the medicine, how dare he take it?

"Health care medicine, for strengthening the body." Zuo Nianhang said.Patients are not allowed to know they are taking antidepressants, doctors have warned.

"Why is there no label?" Zuo Wen asked suspiciously.

Zuo Nianhang rubbed the center of his brows and said, "This medicine is different from general health medicine. You are a doctor yourself, and you can feel it after taking it. Can you stop making me look like I'm going to poison you to death?"

"Then go and eat one," Zuo Wen said.

Zuo Nianhang immediately picked up the medicine bottles one by one without saying a word, poured out one and ate them.

"...I'm sorry." Zuo Wen said.

Zuo Nianhang finished eating the last one, and said, "It's okay, are you relieved now? I'll get you a glass of water again, it's your turn to eat."

Zuo Wen went to bed after taking the medicine. Zuo Nianhang guessed that he was about to fall asleep, so he quietly slipped into the bathroom and lay down on the toilet. I can spit it out.

After vomiting for a long time, Zuo Nianhang felt that his bile was about to be spit out, and it should be almost done.Just about to call it a day, Zuo Wen's voice suddenly sounded behind him: "What are you doing?"

Zuo Nianhang was so frightened that he almost stuck his head into the toilet, and immediately put on a painful expression and said, "Stomach...stomach hurts."

Zuo Wen immediately stepped forward to support Zuo Nianhang, seeing that his complexion was indeed very bad, and there was a layer of cold sweat on his forehead, it didn't seem like he was pretending. "Why do you have a stomachache? Does it matter? Do you have stomach medicine?"

Zuo Nianhang looked at the undisguised worried expression on this thoughtful face, and in a daze, he hugged Zuo Wen.Ah, finally met him.

"What are you doing?" Zuo asked to push him.

Zuo Nianhang didn't let go, buried his head into Zuo Wen's neck, and said sullenly: "I'm fine, I'll be fine in a while. Let me hug you for a while, I haven't felt it for a long time."

Zuo Wen's heart suddenly softened, and he thought that this guy must have suffered a lot outside, and he probably didn't feel any family warmth, so he didn't move.After a while he couldn't help it anymore, and said, "Isn't healed yet? You didn't rinse your mouth or wash your hands."

Zuo Nianhang smiled lightly, and said, "Then you go back and take a shower, and let me hug you for a while."

Zuo Wen's life has become monotonous and fixed.He learns Yi Zhihang to paint, and while painting, he finds that painting can calm him down, so he starts to spend every day painting and exercising.Hypnosis every once in a while, in fact, he didn't think it was useful, at least so far, he didn't feel the existence of Yi Zhihang in his body at all, and he didn't remember what happened during the hypnosis process at all when he woke up.But going is better than not going, no one wants Yi Zhihang to come back more than him.He also took most of the pile of health medicines, combined with exercise, and when winter came, his body was no longer weak, and he went to climb the mountain with Zuo Nianhang.

Occasionally, because I miss Yi Zhihang, I can't restrain my impulse.

Zuo Nianhang applied for a one-year leave to take care of Zuo Wen. The hospital knew about his situation and approved it without saying anything.He accompanies Zuo Wen to draw and exercise every day, and occasionally goes out to meet Zhong Gong Zhong Yang.Zuo Wen originally asked him why he didn't go to work, but he made up an excuse to abdicate to let Xian be fooled by it. Zuo Wen asked him what company he was, and he casually said a small advertising company to get over it.

Zuo Wen let go of his guard against Zuo Nianhang.

Christmas is here.

Zuo Wen stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows looking at the Christmas tree, and said to Zuo Nianhang beside him: "I gave this to Zhihang. He had never seen a Christmas tree before, and he liked it very much at first sight, so I asked Zhong to buy it together." Here it is. When he got home and saw the tree, he was so happy, so did I..."

"You miss him." Zuo Nianhang said.

Zuo Wen paused and said, "I really want to."

Me too.Zuo Nianhang said in his heart.

In the evening, the two had a casual meal. For Zuo Wen, without Yi Zhihang, any festival would be superfluous.

Zuo Wen took an hour break after eating and went out for a run as usual, and Zuo Nianhang also accompanied him as usual.Zuo Wen said long ago that he doesn't need to accompany him, Zuo Nianhang didn't listen, Zuo Wen didn't bother to argue with him anymore, this child lacks family care, so he should be more tolerant.

After running and taking a shower at home, Zuo Wen suddenly wanted to draw, so he went to the study.The study room was turned into his studio on the first day he picked up the paintbrush, and the single bed that Yi Zhihang slept on was later moved to the living room to let Zuo Nianhang fall asleep.

Zuo Nianhang lay on his side on the bed and looked at the twinkling Christmas tree opposite, and said, "Merry Christmas, the little tiger with its teeth and claws in the study."

Merry Christmas to the wounded wolf in the living room.

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Continue the day after tomorrow~

About split personality, this chapter is very clear.