mentally handicapped life

Yi Zhihang had a long dream.

He dreamed about the past, and remembered that his father's name was Yi Shui, which sounded very nice.I dreamed of "flying a plane" on my father's head when I was a child, and my father yelled "little tiger is flying", and he just giggled on it.

I also dreamed that in the year my younger brother was born, my mother was bleeding heavily and almost failed to be rescued, but my younger brother was very healthy.It was midsummer at that time, so my father named my younger brother Yi Zhixia.

During his winter vacation in the third year of junior high school, his father fell ill and couldn't get over it. The New Year of that year was very unpleasant for the whole family.

He finished the senior high school entrance examination and knew that he had done well in the exam, so he had a good time playing, but the happiness ended abruptly on the day he received the admission notice.

Dad died that day, he fell from a tall building and fell to his death.He couldn't accept this fatal blow, so he hid his memory, and no one could find it, not even himself.

His mother took him around to seek medical treatment, but no one could treat him.Mom looked at him and sighed, but he raised his face and smiled foolishly.

His mother was getting worse and worse towards him, beating and scolding him from time to time, and his stepfather only liked Xia Xia and didn't like himself, and Xia Xia often bullied him with his friends in the village.He often wondered, what did I do wrong?

Until I met Zuo Wen.Ah, asked Zuo, the light of life, like a lighthouse, guiding his way home.The person who makes him truly feel what warmth is, the person who makes him truly taste love and being loved, the person whose every move involves his heart, the person he loves deeply.

But the moment he watched Zuo Wen fall from upstairs, his dream was also shattered.The light disappeared, and his world fell into endless darkness once again.

There is a saying that if I had never seen the sun, I could have endured the darkness.He has seen and felt the warmth and love given by the sun, and he can't bear to go back to the darkness again.

No one came to rescue him, and he didn't know how long he had been in the dark.The darkness devoured him little by little, eroding his sanity, and he felt that he was about to be tortured crazy.He wants to ask about Zuowen, and there is no time when he misses him more than at this moment. He misses Zuowen's temperature, Zuowen's touch, Zuowen's whispering in his ear, Zuowen's body, and everything about Zuowen.He forgot who he was, forgot why he was in jail, and boundless thoughts ate away at his heart, making him happy and making him even more painful.

Why do you think so?Zuo asked who? ...Ah, now that I think about it, isn't Zuo Wen himself?Once the train of thought is clear, it can never stop.He quickly thought of his parents, Zuo Yue, Zhong Gong Zhong Yang, his colleagues in the hospital, and Yi Zhihang.He remembered that it was his birthday that day, and Yi Zhihang was still holding him in his arms in the morning and was reluctant to let go. At noon, he personally cooked his favorite Sichuan food, and brought it to the hospital to celebrate his birthday.He thought that Lao Li was usually very good to the little tiger, so he could eat it together, and he couldn't finish it anyway.So he leaned on the window sill to call Yi Zhihang, and asked him to call Lao Li, but he accidentally fell down from upstairs.Hey... the brain won't break, right?

Yi Zhihang, or "Zuo Wen" at this time, was shocked again after hearing his own voice.What the hell?Why did I make Yi Zhihang's voice?Why is his own body standing beside the bed with a surprised and complicated face at this moment?So whose body is he in now?Now I don't have any strength in my body, it must be because I have been lying on the hospital bed for too long after falling down.But the strange thing is that I didn't feel any pain at all. "Zuo Wen" was surprised, and he actually lay down until his body healed?But he was lucky enough to fall from the fifth floor without falling to his death. ... No, no, no, no!He stretched out his hand to look, the ring finger of his left hand was still wearing the ring that Yi Zhihang gave him when he proposed marriage, but this hand...is not his own!I touched my face, but it wasn't my own!But very familiar... It belongs to Yi Zhihang!So is the voice, and so is the body!Could it be that he...fucking fell from upstairs and knocked his soul out of his body?Fortunately, he occupied Yi Zhihang's body undeadly? ... What the hell are these things!

"Zhihang, Zhihang, you look at me, you look at me." Zuo Wen sat on the bed and supported Yi Zhihang's shoulder, something was wrong, he was very wrong. "Is there any discomfort? Headache? Body pain? Huh?"

"Zuo Wen" was still immersed in the shock and hadn't recovered. The Zuo Wen in front of him was exactly the same as the self in his memory, his demeanor and movements, if this person is Zuo Wen, then who is he?And what is this man's name?voyage?He is Yi Zhihang? ...That's right, he is now occupying the body of his little tiger...What the hell!Has he started talking about feudal superstition as a doctor?

"Mirror, give me a mirror! Go get me a mirror!" He really couldn't stand the weird situation now.

Zuo Wen was surprised but he didn't want to get to the bottom of it. If everyone is awake, there's nothing worth looking into.So he put Yi Zhihang on the bed and went out to find him a mirror.

"Zuo Wen" let him finish fiddling with himself, anyway, he doesn't have much strength now.

Zuo Wen went out and came back quickly. There are so many nurses in the hospital, and there is always no shortage of mirrors.He came back with a small cosmetic mirror and called Lao Li.

"Zuowen" sit on the bed and hold a mirror to look left, right, up and down, everything is not my own, everything is Yi Zhihang's!If he really occupied Yi Zhihang's body like blood, where did Yi Zhihang go?Will he be exiled in this world because his body was seized?Or was he... dead?That's why I have the opportunity to occupy his body? "Zuo Wen"'s chest heaved violently, and he couldn't believe that he would have such a day of overturning his views.

"Zuo Wen" put down the mirror, looked at Lao Li after a moment of silence, and said, "Lao Li, I want to tell you something, which may bring important discoveries to your neurology department, and may shock the entire medical profession." Do you believe it?"

Lao Li was surprised for a moment, but quickly said, "Say it."

"I suspect..." "Zuo Wen" cleared his throat, and continued: "I suspect that I have occupied Zhihang's body. Don't jump to conclusions, I'm not crazy, I know who I am."

Old Li Xin said you know what a fart.

"Remember the day I fell from upstairs? I guess your memory is not that bad, you must still remember. I suspect that fall knocked me out, that is... the soul out of the body? This is so fucking bullshit I know. But it happened, how do you think that explains it?"

"Do you think you are left asking?" Lao Li asked.

"En." "Zuo Wen" replied seriously.

"Then who is he?" Lao Li asked, pointing to the left.

"Zuo Wen" frowned and thought for a while, and said, "I think it may be so, don't you say that people have three souls and seven souls? I was thinking that although I was knocked out, it is very likely that only part of it came out. , the rest remained in the original body, now, it’s him.” “Zuo Wen” looked at Zuo Wen again, and said, “Really, Zuo Wen? So we are essentially the same person, that’s right. Bar?"

Zuo Wen didn't speak, he was already stunned, he didn't understand what kind of nonsense Yi Zhihang was talking about. ...Could it be that Yi Zhihang was seriously stimulated by his falling from the building? ! "Old Li!" Zuo Wen was anxious.

Lao Li made a stop motion and said, "Go out first, I have something to say to him."

After Zuo Wen went out, Lao Li checked Yi Zhihang first, and after making sure that there was nothing wrong with his body, he chatted with him for more than two hours.Zuo Wen walked back and forth in the corridor for more than two hours.

When Lao Li came out again, his face was heavy, and he had long since disappeared talking and laughing with Yi Zhihang in the ward.He sighed, and said, "Zuoer, Xiaohang may... have a split personality."

"What did you say?" Zuo Wen's heart was beating wildly, split personality?What the fuck? ? ?

Lao Li sighed again, and said, "You saw it too, he regarded himself as you. Oh, all his physical indicators are normal, I checked. When I was chatting with him inside, I closed my eyes and If the voice is replaced by yours, it is simply you. I guess it was because you fell down the stairs and stimulated him. He probably thought you were dead and couldn’t accept it. He simply separated you to imply that you were still alive. "

"But I'm still alive! He sees me and still thinks he's me?" Zuo asked anxiously.

Lao Li explained: "Listen to me, Xiaohang already formed this consciousness when he was in a coma, so he hid his master personality, and weaved your object personality, and when his personality was formed, he also Just wake up and continue to live as you, do you understand? Even if he wakes up and sees you, he won’t think you are you, can you understand? He is already you. But these are all my guesses, after all I'm not an expert on this."

Zuo Wen digested Lao Li's words for a long time, and suddenly felt extremely powerless and tired.he thinks.give up?impossible. "Then how do you think I can get him back?" Zuo asked.

Lao Li patted Zuowen on the shoulder and said, "Zuoer, he can't be stimulated anymore, don't provoke him. I don't suggest you continue to communicate with him in your own capacity. His personality is not so well established. You If you talk to him too much, he will suspect that it may go to extremes and become more serious, you know? I have an old friend who is a psychiatrist. I will give you his contact information later, and you can take Xiaohang to diagnose it. Come on, hurry up."

"Okay. Lao Li, thank you, really." Zuo Wen said.

"It's okay, it should be."

Zuo Wen lingered in the corridor for a long time, cleared his mind, took out his mobile phone and dialed the home number. "Hello? Mom, is Dad at home? Zuo Yue is here too, right? It's summer vacation. You all come over and listen, I have something to discuss with you. Well, Zhihang woke up."

After hanging up the phone, Zuo Wen stayed in the corridor for a while, caressing the ring on the ring finger of his left hand, and took it off cruelly.

When he entered the ward again, Zuo Wen had returned to normal.He moved a chair to sit in front of Yi Zhihang, just looked at him and didn't speak.

"Zuo Wen" also put down the mirror and stared at Zuo Wen for a while, then smiled: "It's kind of weird to see your own body dangling in front of your eyes."

"I'm not you." Zuo Wen said.

"What?" "Zuo Wen" didn't respond.

"I said," Zuo Wen approached him, "I'm not Zuo Wen, you are. There is no separation of parts as you said, you are you, complete. I am Zuo Nianhang, your twin brother. "

"What the hell?" "Zuo Wen" couldn't believe it, "I've lived for so many years, why haven't I heard that I have a twin brother? Don't fool me, when I just woke up, I saw... Where's your ring?"

"You read it wrong." Zuo Wen sat back in the chair and shook his left hand, "I don't have any ring on my hand, I'm single."

"You're not me, why did you call me Zhihang when I just woke up? Looking so anxious?" "Zuo Wen" asked in disbelief.

"How did I know that you were the Zuo Wen who occupied Zhihang's body before you woke up?" Zuo Wen retorted.

"How do you know Zhihang? Zuo Wen is so unscientific to believe me so quickly?" "Zuo Wen" pressed on every step of the way.

"I trust Director Li. As for how I met Zhihang...it's just a coincidence. I cheated him of 2000 yuan four years ago. It can't be considered cheating. At that time, I just failed in my business and lived on the street penniless. I just wanted to find someone to borrow money to make a comeback. Just happened to meet Zhihang who came out with the money to show off to others. Do you understand the truth that there is no business without profiteering? Such a good opportunity is not for nothing." Zuo Wen said calmly.

"Why is it such a coincidence that you just went to Zhihang's village?" "Zuo Wen" doubted.

"It's such a coincidence, fate. Originally, I wanted to pay him back when I came back this time, but I didn't expect him to stay at the original house long ago. It took me a long time to find out from Uncle Fan in their village that he was A doctor named Zuo Wen took him in in this hospital, and it was you. I came to look for him, and I didn’t expect to recognize him by the way. I was also surprised that I was your younger brother. But you saw it yourself, We are so similar. I thought that since I found my relatives, why should I stay adrift, so I stayed. Zhihang has been in a coma, and I feel guilty for him, so I have been here to accompany him all the time. As a result, today When you wake up, you will become your virtue." Zuo Wen said without changing his expression.

"Zuo Wen" still didn't believe it, so Zuo Wen added: "If you still have doubts, you can ask your parents, ask Zuo Yue, and see if I am lying to you. Is it interesting to lie to you?"

"Zuo Wen" didn't answer, but asked sharply: "Since you are my younger brother, then tell me, do you know why you can't be by your parents' side?"

Zuo Wen clicked his tongue and said, "Zuo Wen, do you usually hate it so much? How can Zhihang bear you? If you want to know this, you can ask your parents, I don't want to mention it."

"Zuo Wen" stopped talking. After a while, he fixed his eyes on Zuo Wen and said, "Zuo Nianhang, right? Such a name?"

"Coincidence." Zuo Wen spread his hands, "I used to be called Gu Nianhang, and I was picked up by the orphanage. Now that I have found my family, of course my name is Zuo Nianhang."

Although "Zuo Wen" was still skeptical, he had nothing to say.

Zuo Wenxin said, "Small man, you still dare to come to me, the right lord, to act wildly in your position?"

"Zuo Wen" digested himself for a while, and then said, "Do you know where my own body is?"

Zuo Wen immediately talked nonsense without flushing, "Mom and dad said that they broke down, had multiple fractures all over their body, and became a vegetative state. The domestic hospital couldn't cure them, so they sent them to the United States for recuperation."

"Zuo Wen" was stunned for a while, and said, "Then how long have I been lying down? My whole body is sore and weak, at least two or three months?"

"One year." Zuo Wen said expressionlessly.

"One year?!" "Zuo Wen" immediately raised his voice, but he couldn't raise his voice much, "I've been lying in bed for a fucking year?!"

"To be precise, it is one year, one month and 13 days." Zuo Wen thought for a while and said.

No one spoke again.

"Zuo Wen" picked up the mirror and looked at it again, frowned and looked at the face in the mirror.This is the face of the person he loves so much, why is it him? "Zuo Wen" feels that he is too confused and confused now.

"I want to get Zhihang back." "Zuo Wen" said looking at his face in the mirror.

Zuo Wenxin said, just waiting for your words, I love you so much, and sure enough, even if it is your split personality, I still haven't forgotten to love you. "I think so too." Zuo Wen said.

"Zuo Wen" immediately raised his eyebrows that had just relaxed, and said in a bad tone, "You?"

"Why, I have to pay him back." Zuo Wen said.

"Just give it to me." "Zuo Wen" said.

Zuo Wen sneered: "For you? Are you Yi Zhihang? I have to apologize to him himself and ask him to say forgive me, can you?"

"Zuo Wen" clenched his teeth, his cheek muscles bulged, and said, "Zhihang is not that kind of stingy person, he will forgive you, you don't have to be so persistent."

Zuo Wen leaned forward, and said word by word: "I want to listen to him, kiss, talk, talk." After speaking, he blinked his eyes.

"Zuo Wen" said in his heart that he used to look like this when he was playing a rascal, and he really thought he was a criminal. ... What the hell, this is Zuo Nianhang, not Zuo Wen!

Zuo Wenxin said that it turned out that he usually had this expression when he was embarrassed by Yi Zhihang, and it was quite amusing.

After another moment of silence, Zuo Wen looked at his phone, it was seven o'clock.So I stood up and said, "Are you hungry? What do you want to eat? You are recovering. Eat something light and have some nutritious porridge. I'll buy it for you."

"Zuo Wen" was stunned for a moment, and said, "You really resemble me."

"Of course, we are twins." Zuo Wen said.

The next day, Zuo Jianguo brought his wife and children to the hospital, and Zuo Wen just finished lunch for Yi Zhihang and walked to the ward.Zuo Jianguo stopped him, and the four colluded with each other about the details to be discussed later.

After muttering, Zuo Wen said: "Dad, Mom, don't go in yet, I'll send the food in for Zhihang first, and I have something to tell you when I come out later."

"Hey, okay, go in, we'll wait for you at the cafe opposite." Zuo Jianguo said.

Zuo Wen went in and came out quickly. When he reached the cafe and walked towards Zuo Jianguo and the others, he felt a little nervous and his palms were sweating.

"Dad, Mom." Zuo Wen sat down opposite them, and Zuo Yue was fiddling with his cup beside him. "Zuoyue is a senior at the beginning of school, and he is an adult. So I should confess some things to you." He stopped and took a sip of the lemonade in front of him, Zuo Wen cleared his throat, and continued: "You may also You guessed it, I...He Zhihang, we've been together for three years now. I...I love him very much. I didn't say it before, just because I was afraid that you wouldn't be able to accept it. Dad, Mom, I... am gay ."finally!Speak out!

Shen Jinqiu's tears fell instantly, Zuo Jianguo hugged her hard, and said to Zuo Wen: "We already know, but we didn't expect that you have been together for so long."

Shen Jinqiu choked up and said, "Son, mom respects you. In fact, mom used to wonder how you and Xiaohang could be so good. But... two big men, mom never dared to think about that. Until last year... ..." Speaking of this, Shen Jinqiu's tears became more violent, "Last year you... both of you had an accident, and your father and I saw... saw the rings on both of your hands, so I dared to guess, you two Maybe we are together." Blowing his nose, Shen Jinqiu continued: "At first, your father and I were quite unacceptable, two big men, what does it sound like to be together. I often think, why is it my son? ? Then I won’t be poked into a sieve by someone’s spine? Who can bear it? We know that homosexuality is not a disease, but... just can’t accept that this happened to my son, do you understand?”

Zuo Wen nodded slightly.

"You didn't know that you were lying on the hospital bed all day long. Your mother looked after Xiaohang tremblingly and wiped tears secretly, but it made me feel so distressed." Zuo Jianguo said.

Zuo Wen felt even more guilty.

"Zuo Wen," Shen Jinqiu took Zuo Wen's hand, and said, "Later we also figured it out. We live our lives comfortably, not for others to see. You can definitely see that your dad and I like it very much. Xiaohang, treat him like your own son, you don’t even know who to hate if you want to. And he’s a child, you’re the one who seduces him, isn’t he..."

"Mom—" Zuo Wen called out, which made sense.

Shen Jinqiu squeezed Zuo Wen's hand, and said, "So son, if you want to be together, just be together. Parents don't stop, there is no right or wrong in love. Now that he is awake, parents are very happy. You can see that He also loves you very much, because you have split into another you, but I heard that this disease cannot be cured..."

"Mom..." Zuo Wen was a little excited. He didn't expect that his parents would not be angry at all, and he could come out so smoothly, and he didn't expect that his parents would be so open-minded and support his love.

Shen Jinqiu thought for a while, and then asked: "Son, Mom wants to know, when did you find out that you like men? After you met Xiaohang?"

Zuo Wen recalled, and said: "No. It was in the first semester of the second year of high school. At that time, learning wood carving was also to divert attention. Mom, I was born like this, not because I met Zhihang. I have no choice. "

Shen Jinqiu frowned, and choked up again: "It's been so many years... why didn't you tell the family earlier, child, how uncomfortable it is to be alone for so many years, if you had said earlier, I wouldn't always be nagging you It's about friends. No matter how bad your parents are, they are still your parents. Can you still dislike you just because you like men?" Wiping away tears, Shen Jinqiu said again: "Besides, your grandson here has nothing to think about. There is no such thing as Zuo Yue What about it, Zuo Yue? Is your girlfriend still talking?"

Zuo Yue: Mom, your mood changes so fast, can you concentrate on talking about my brother coming out of the closet?

Zuo Wen also let out a long breath at this time, and really felt much more relaxed.

"Okay." Shen Jinqiu patted the table, "I've finished what I need to say, let's go quickly. I'm going to see Xiaohang. I haven't seen him alive for a year."

"Mom, he is not Yi Zhihang now, he is your son, ask Zuo." Zuo Nianhang said.

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Fuck I feel like I'm getting crazy writing this meme.

ps: It will be updated every other day from tomorrow, every two days, so it will not be updated tomorrow, but will be updated the day after tomorrow.