foul youth

After leaving school, Guo Zihao hurried back to his room, rummaged through the bookcase for a while, found a business card, hesitated for a while at the contact number on the card, and then took out his mobile phone and entered the number to call out.

The bell rang a few times before it was picked up. It was a girl's voice who greeted suspiciously: "Zihao?"

"En." Guo Zihao was silent for a moment, and responded lightly.

"What's the matter, listening to the voice, I don't feel like you anymore. And it's been a long time since you called." The girl asked, her voice was quiet and gentle, her pronunciation was sweet and intoxicating. Just listening to the voice, one could imagine that she must be a very A beautiful and quiet girl.

However, Guo Zihao hesitated to speak, and fell silent again with a dazed face.

The girl waited quietly without interrupting.After a long silence between each other, Guo Zihao opened his mouth lightly, but only said: "It's all right."

The girl on the phone smiled quietly and said, "I've known you for many years, but it's the first time I've seen you talk so unhappily. Do you have something on your mind? Do you want to talk to me? Are you in love?"

Guo Zihao was taken aback, could it be that he was really in love?He sighed, and fell down on the bed. The fragments of being with Xia Zhilin during this period emerged one after another, which made him feel a little overwhelmed.

"Could it be that I guessed it right?" The girl asked softly after hearing Guo Zihao's answer.

"I don't know either." Guo Zihao said.

"Then what do you want to say? Oh! You shouldn't be thinking about my feelings, right? Although we were teased and paired up by them before, we know what kind of relationship we have with each other. If you have anything, you can rest assured to me Tell me, we were good friends."

"Are you okay over there?" Guo Zihao didn't answer, but changed the topic and greeted lightly.

"I didn't get used to it last year, but I'm used to it now. By the way, it's almost 12 o'clock at home now, and it's almost 12 noon here."

Guo Zihao raised his hand to check the time, and replied, "Well, it's 11:30."

"Staying up so late, it seems that you really have something on your mind. You won't tell me that you miss me, will you?" The girl teased sweetly, and then circled the question again.

After Guo Zihao listened, he turned over with a silly smile and didn't speak.Then I just saw an extra pillow at the head of the bed.

Presumably, Sister Li forgot to take the pillow away when she changed the sheets, but this is the second time that there are two pillows on this bed, and the last time was because Xia Zhilin slept here.

Unexpectedly, the two of them already have so many common memories without knowing it. They can relate to his appearance while lying on the bed at home. The profile of him lying next to him at that time is still clear in memory. For the first time, I slept with someone else.The scary thing is that it was obviously just sleeping at that time, without any physical contact.But looking back now, there is an urge to lie on top of him.

"Are you in a daze again? What kind of girl is she? Can you tell me about it?" After a while, the girl asked tentatively without hearing Guo Zihao's answer.

girl?This word suddenly awakened Guo Zihao and brought him back to reality.This is the problem, the key is that it is not the girl who thinks of people in my heart.He suddenly became a little flustered, even a little scared, he was so flustered that he didn't want to talk any more, so he quickly said, "Jingyi, I'm sleepy, let's not talk for now."

This girl is Guo Zihao's so-called girlfriend, named Xu Jingyi.When I was in high school, because of the selection of the school girl and the school flower, I was teased by my classmates and became a pair of lovers who did not live up to their names.

Ever since they met, Xu Jingyi was still in awe of this sunny boy.However, as a recognized school belle, she was always pursued by boys, but she never took the slightest initiative towards Guo Zihao.And because of this, Guo Zihao didn't feel that Xu Jingyi liked him, and he thought everything was just a name that everyone made up.In addition, high school studies are inherently tense, and the two are still in different classes.There is very little free time, and most of it is spent in sports, so I don't take it seriously.

However, the interaction with each other is quite frequent, but every time they meet, Xu Jingyi usually shares who sent her a love letter during this period, or some similar details.Maybe it was to test Guo Zihao's reaction, but Guo Zihao knew some of those people, but Guo Zihao didn't hear the test, but he heard the so-called truth that a friend's wife should not be bullied.

After all, the two ended up as friends until graduation.When the college entrance examination was about to take place, Xu Jingyi used the excuse of going to the United States to study, and finally tested Guo Zihao's reaction.Guo Zihao still couldn't hear the meaning of the temptation at all.The United States is good, and the developed countries are a little bit better than the domestic ones.His English is good, and his family is rich, so it is only natural for him to go to the United States for further study.Retaining it has become a delay in one's future, which is a sin.All that came out was blessings.

Until now, Xu Jingyi really went abroad to study, and no one knew what was in her heart.Although I haven't seen her for so long, the feelings in my heart have faded, but I still feel a little throbbing when I think about it.When I received a call from Guo Zihao just now, I accidentally tried it out, jokingly asking if I missed myself.Hearing Guo Zihao's innocent smile and not speaking, in fact, he still felt a little sweet in his heart.

Now that I have been silent with him for so long, but suddenly the call is about to end like this, I can't help but feel a little disappointed.He said sadly: "It must be a very beautiful girl. This is the first time I heard that you are in love. When I was in high school, I was alive and kicking every day. Thinking about it, I feel like I hurt you. Everyone thought I It's your girlfriend, but I didn't dare to chase you. Well, since you don't want to say it, I won't force you. It's too late in China, so go to bed early, good night. "

After hanging up the phone, Guo Zihao lay quietly on the bed, but didn't want to sleep.The reason why I came back was to make this call.When the school was separated from Xia Zhilin, Xu Jingyi suddenly thought of this.So I want to make a phone call to feel it, and see if I feel moved.But it's strange, Xu Jingyi is obviously a very nice, beautiful and gentle girl, and we've known each other for so long, why doesn't she feel anything at all?Am I really in love with Xia Zhilin?Do I really like boys?But when I saw those boys in the class, I obviously didn't feel it. What's wrong?

In retrospect, it seems that I have had a similar feeling last year, only slightly, but isn't this friendship?Obviously it's friendship!It should be friendship, how did it become like this?These questions kept circling in his mind, but he couldn't find the answer.

And in school, Xia Zhilin was lying on the bed at the moment, although he didn't toss and turn, he couldn't fall asleep.The whole person seemed to have lost his soul, lying flat motionless, his eyes staring at the ceiling without focus, but his expression was so calm that no emotion could be seen.

Recalling that when get out of class was over just now, I left so resolutely, and suddenly felt a little regretful for my behavior.But so what if he didn't do this, and he didn't have any retention after he left, let alone keep up.However, when I think about it, I still feel so lost and a little uncomfortable.It seems that there are some things that I long for very much, which are clearly in front of my eyes, so close, but I can't grasp them no matter what.

Is it possible that two people are born like this?Xia Zhilin touched the cell phone resting on his chest, now that it was the only thing left that made him feel at ease, at least it made him feel that it had existed before.

But thinking about it, I should blame myself for being too selfish, too greedy, and too self-indulgent.Thinking back to last year, Guo Zihao clearly said that he had a girlfriend, but he was immersed in his kindness to him, even if he didn't mention it, he would enjoy it and would not reveal it.

Maybe it's right to end here. I used to emphasize to myself that friendship is friendship, but now I feel like I'm deceiving myself.It was simply that I deliberately seduced him, and I felt so shameless.In fact, I have liked him since the first day I went to Beijing, it was all about admiration, all about infatuation, where there was still friendship.If this continues, I won't talk about long-term family problems, social pressure, etc., but when his girlfriend shows up in the future, how I should deal with it is beyond my expectations.

Xia Zhilin just stared blankly at the ceiling, allowing all kinds of pressure beyond the traditional to concentrate in his brain, constantly releasing energy, making him breathless.I don't know how long I stayed there, how long I analyzed, until I finally made a silent decision, and then I fell asleep in a daze.

Guo Zihao, thank you so much for being so kind to me, and thank you for giving me this phone.I will definitely keep it well and never let it be knocked.Even if it is too old to be used in the future, I will keep it in a good collection.But I have made a decision, I will explain everything to you from now on, and then we will end this relationship, so that you can live a normal and happy life with your girlfriend.I don't know how you will look at it in the future, and I don't know how to face you in the future, but no matter what the relationship becomes, I sincerely wish you all the best, health, happiness, and happiness.