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When Li Jin came to his senses, he was already standing under the ginkgo tree.

Zheng Heen has been very busy recently, and has been dragged by Joey to do experiments.Li Jin spends a lot of time alone, consciously or unconsciously, he puts his camera on his back and wanders in the garden.Also always linger near the European style pavilion.

Looking at the gloomy sky, he tried to concentrate and thought for a long time before he came to the conclusion that he was masturbating himself.Worry and anxiety slowed down his mind, making him think about that person every second, wondering how Zhong Liang was doing, why he became so skinny, and even looked light in a coat.

He just wanted to see why Zhong Liang still appeared in front of him, causing his calm mood to stir up waves again.

After leaving, shouldn't Zhong Liang be better?After finally cleaning the mark, I have no connection with myself, shouldn't I be more free?

Why feel sorry for a heartless person?

Li Jin never imagined that in this life, he would taste the pain of losing a loved one twice, no one wants to taste the third time.

So what are you worrying about now?Zhong Liang is not doing well, shouldn't he be happy?That person left without a word of explanation, leaving behind his body, his love, his soul, leaving only his broken body...

After finally taking a step out of despair and desolation, Zhong Liang is like a huge barrier, preventing him from moving forward again.And like a germinated seed, it contained the power to break through Li Jin's defenses.

Li Jin didn't know whether to be happy or worried.

It's all like a dream...

Li Jin's eyes were a little stinging from the wind.He blinked, and when he opened it again, he found that friend had come, squatting in the old position, staring at Li Jin.

Li Jin let out a breath, and walked to his old position and squatted down.

The two were silent, as if observing the melting of the snow.

After an unknown amount of time, the sound of the guitar on the opposite side sounded faintly.Li Jin's whole body trembled, and his heart beat faster.

He wondered endlessly in the melody whether Zhong Liang was as attached to this place that no one cared about as he was.Looking at another world through the mottled fence, looking for someone to cuddle with...

Then, Li Jin lowered his head and curled up, the bushes completely covered his tall body.

He dared not expect any more.Joey is right, terminal phobia.He couldn't see a glimmer of hope beyond the finish line.

That friend rarely swayed with the rhythm, his eyes sparkled, and he looked very excited.

Li Jin watched his antics, but couldn't laugh, so he asked in a low voice, "What are you doing?"

"Someone is singing."

Li Jin was stunned, "Only someone is playing the guitar."

The friend didn't answer his words, but still had a great time playing with himself.

A few minutes later, the sound of footsteps suddenly came from the opposite side, stepping on the snow.

Li Jin was startled, and instinctively wanted to hide, but there was nowhere to hide.

I only heard a childish voice, "Brother! They are also here!"

Li Jin felt even more ashamed, and left without thinking about it.

A cold voice came from afar, cold and heartless, "Serena, I'm sorry, I'm leaving first."

"Brother..." the child called out and wanted to keep him, but the man seemed to have left quickly.

The child stood there bewildered.

Li Jin stood up stiffly little by little, as if straightening his spine one by one.I don't know when, the pheromones that should attract each other become repulsive and cannot exist at the same time.

He walked behind the child, and through the iron fence, the child turned his head vigilantly, the enthusiastic shout just now seemed to be an illusion.

Li Jin took a step closer, unaware that his eyes were a little dark and scary, the child subconsciously took half a step back.

"Is your name Serena?" Li Jin said softly.

The child nodded in fear.

"Hmm..." Li Jin frowned, fiddling with the camera unconsciously with his fingers, as if he had made up his mind and said, "You...can you tell me, that brother...how did you look just now?" ?”

Serena thought for a while, "It seems a little sad..."

Li Jin raised his head sharply, looking in the direction where Zhong Liang left, and the inexplicable pain in his heart began again, as if it had become a habit and could not be relieved.

With difficulty, he called Serena who wanted to leave, "Would you please wait for me for a while?"

Under Serena's blank gaze, Li Jin paced around a few times, squatting under the ginkgo tree, scraping away the thick fresh snow.The snow at the bottom had been frozen hard, Li Jin, with his bare hands, dug away the snow mixed with mud bit by bit until he dug a small hole.After rummaging back and forth in the pit for 10 minutes, turning the surroundings into a mess, he finally found a complete, slightly withered ginkgo leaf.

Li Jin scolded himself angrily in his heart, but gently stroked the soil on the leaves with his hand, and handed it to Serena through the fence.

Serena looked at his red fingers, retreated even more resistively, and folded her hands behind her back.

Holding the leaf, Li Jin stretched his wrist forward and passed through the narrow gap in the fence. He hesitated, "Can you please give this leaf to the brother who plays the guitar? Do you know where he is?"

Serena scratched her head in doubt, but did not respond for a long time.A second before Li Jin changed his mind and mocked himself to withdraw his hand, he nodded, took Ye Zi and turned around.

"Wait!" Li Jin called him again, "Please don't tell him I gave it to you. Thank you!"

Serena has already run away quickly.

...

Serena has handed over the leaves several times.

Zhong Liang twirled the ginkgo in his hand, lost in thought.From time to time, the leaves are held up to the light, and the texture on them is carefully examined.

He asked Serena where it came from.

Serena bit her lip and remained silent.

In fact, you don't need to ask him to know the answer.

At this time of year, there was not a single leaf falling in House Hospital, and all of them were buried under the snow.And the only ginkgo growing nearby is the nursing home next door.

Zhong Liang asked again, "Are these leaves hard to find? How long did it take?"

Serena probably thought of something, nodded vigorously, "Well, it will take a while."

Zhong Liang was silent, and carefully held the leaf in the palm of his hand, and brought it back to his collection.

He still plays the guitar on the bench under the tree every now and then, only playing but not singing.He couldn't see the scene behind the bushes from his angle, and he restrained himself not to look at it, not even letting Serena see it.

But the child is used to being naughty, even though he is introverted, he still likes to wander around, Zhong Liang can't control him.He can only tell Serena, even if he sees someone on the other side, don't tell him.

He was afraid that his fleeing appearance would be too ugly, the frequency of appearances would be too deliberate, and the means of disguise would be too clumsy.

Every time the child showed a different expression, he couldn't help leaving early again and again, and then received the leaf from Serena, and his heartstrings trembled uncontrollably.

What does the ginkgo leaf represent?Zhong Liang stared at the clean yellow leaves quietly sandwiched between the pages of the book, puzzled.

Today is still the same old time and old place.

Serena watched the bushes for a while, then turned around and extended an index finger to Zhong Liang.

Zhong Liang immediately stopped playing the piano, his fingers crossed together.Only then did I realize that for so long, I had been staring at Serena with unrealistic expectations.

He felt that his thoughts were extremely absurd, and he was obviously disheartened, but he unconsciously pictured the figure of that person in his mind, imagining that he was behind the iron fence, listening to the guitar quietly with the corners of his lips curled up, the sun shining His deep eyebrows.And when it came to the look in the eyes, the last time I saw it was too strange, it instantly brought him back to his senses, and he felt a sharp pain in his chest.

Standing up uncontrollably, he saw Serena's encouraging eyes, but he couldn't move.Pursing her lower lip, after all, she was more curious than rational, and took a few steps to the bush.

The pavilion of the nursing home opposite was very bleak, and it took so long to see his true face, Zhong Liang didn't even bother to observe.

In the next second, he involuntarily stood on tiptoe and pressed his hands on the iron fence.Looking down, there was a person squatting on the ground opposite, and the two looked at each other through the iron fence. The atmosphere was a little delicate.

Zhong Liang coughed unnaturally, as if the words buried in his heart were hard to say, but at this point, he could only bite the bullet and say, "Excuse me...the person...who often comes with you..."

The man showed two rows of white teeth, and smiled a little naively, "I don't know."

Zhong Liang lowered his eyes to hide his disappointment, and was about to leave when the man said again, "Give up."

"What?" Zhong Liang turned around abruptly, startling Xiao Wei who was beside him.

"If you don't get tired of sticking a hot face to a cold butt for so long, you're just crazy! The other party knew it, but deliberately hung him up. Aren't those two people crazy! Hahahahaha!" The man laughed wildly, unable to hold on Those who lived fell down and rolled on the snow.

Zhong Liang's face was extremely ugly, and his dark eyes were directed at that person.

The man continued to laugh unconsciously, wiping the tears seeping from the corners of his eyes.

Zhong Liang gritted his teeth, secretly cursing himself as crazy.He went back to the room angrily and called Wang Haodi.

"Uncle Di, I want to be discharged from the hospital." He could no longer be so intoxicated.

Indulging in the illusion that that person is still there, making unnecessary and ridiculous expectations, delusional that that person is still waiting in place.

"Ah Liang, what's the matter? Dr. Joey said, it's not enough..."

"I don't want to be here anymore."

Wang Haodi paused, and said softly, "Good boy... I didn't take the medicine on time last time, so the discharge time was delayed again, and there is no way... You cooperate with the treatment in the next few days, and I will go to the doctor explain..."

Zhong Liang hung up the phone almost maniacally.He wanted to smash all the furnishings in the room, to make the oppressive place a bit strange, to make him forget that Lijin lived next door, and forget about those embarrassing and pitiful past...

He kept torturing himself in his head, unable to calm down for a long time.

Is he the only one who is so miserable and confused?

He took out the necklace on his chest and opened the cover of the pendant, revealing the gentle smiling face of the woman inside.

He couldn't lie to himself, probably a long time ago, he had forgiven the necklace, because he believed in his heart that one day, something would come back.

But some things can't go back.

The orange cat hid, Li Jin gave up, and he was no longer complete...

He could only choke in a low voice, clutching the necklace tightly to his chest, and resting his forehead on the book with ginkgo leaves on the table.