i don't want to die again

Just when Xu Shunian started to run wildly, a gust of cold wind blew past his ears, accompanied by an inaudible sigh, as if someone was breathing in his ear.

The hairs all over Xu Shunian's body stood up, and he didn't dare to look back, so he ran all the way to the downstairs of the dormitory. When he saw a few male classmates who came back with their shoulders hooked, the tight string in his heart relaxed.

Seeing that they were about to enter the gate of the dormitory, Xu Shunian hurried to follow. Hearing the lively chatting and laughing of his classmates, he held his chest and let out a long breath.

When going up the stairs, I was afraid, and didn't dare to think if I encountered something dirty.

Those classmates entered the corridor on the second floor, but Xu Shunian's dormitory was on the fifth floor. When he walked up the quiet stairs again, he couldn't help but look around with lingering fear.

When he walked to the middle of the third and fourth floors, he seemed to feel something behind his ears, and the tentacles were sticky. He thought it was the cold sweat that he was too afraid to shed, but when he looked under the light of the corridor, he found that his hands were sticky. Stained with dazzling red.

Xu Shunian yelled out on the spot, and almost collapsed on the stairs with his legs limp.

Fortunately, he subconsciously supported the railing and did not fall down. At this time, a classmate stuck his head out in the dormitory near the stairwell and looked around. Seeing Xu Shunian standing on the stairs alone, he whispered: After saying "Crazy", he retreated and closed the door.

At that moment, Xu Shunian felt that this classmate who suddenly appeared and broke the silence was very kind and lovely.

And when he looked at his hands at this time, they were clean and there was nothing unusual about it. It seemed that what he saw just now was just a hallucination, but Xu Shunian was quite sure that he was not delusional.

When he returned to the dormitory, he was still in shock. After opening the door, he saw that the three roommates were all awake, and they were sitting in their seats playing games or watching movies.

Hu Fei was holding his iPad in his hand, knowing that Xu Shunian hadn't looked back recently, and continued to play games like no one else, only the opposite Qi Ye looked back at Xu Shunian, as if he wanted to say something, seeing that he was out of his mind, He turned his head back again.

Xu Shunian also sat back in his chair in silence, rested for a few seconds, and then began to pack his things and prepare for sleep.

After lying on the bed, Xu Shunian didn't fall asleep for a long time. Thinking back on what he saw today, he even wondered if he was insane and had hallucinations.

Is it possible that I went to the mountains to commit suicide because of a mental disorder?Or is it that what I encounter now is related to my experience in the mountains?

In fact, after seeing that he had left such a suicide note, he was found back safe and sound, but he lost a lot of memories. Xu Shunian was a little puzzled about this, but he couldn't remember anything now, and he didn't know what happened at that time. What exactly happened to me.

Compared with having a mental disorder, Xu Shunian would rather see a ghost.

Early the next morning, Xu Shunian didn't get up until late. When he got out of bed, everyone else in the dormitory had gone out.

He still plans to go to the library today, because the only thing that can make him feel at ease now is almost only studying. When he is completely immersed in it, he will stop thinking about other things and temporarily forget all his troubles.

But whenever he looked at the mirror in the bathroom alone, he felt palpitations for no reason, and he hardly dared to lift his eyes, always feeling that some terrible picture would suddenly appear there.

After timidly washing up, Xu Shunian immediately packed up his things and prepared to leave the dormitory.Before leaving, I suddenly thought of something, took out the notebook from the cabinet, stuffed it into the backpack and took it out together.

Xu Shunian has a lot of classes today, from noon to 08:30 in the evening, only a period of time for eating is free, but he feels very fulfilled, at least staying in the classroom with his classmates, he will feel very satisfied A sense of security.

The evening course is an elective course open to all majors. There are a lot of people in the class, and it is in a quite large lecture hall.

Xu Shunian waited in the classroom after a hasty dinner. As the class time approached, the surrounding became more and more lively, but he never looked up, because he knew that no one would talk to him.

When I was in the library in the morning, I flipped through a few pages of the notebook I found in the closet before. The thick one was full of diaries written by Xu Shunian.

After reading only a few articles, he felt that the original self was paranoid and depressed, almost to the point of morbidity. He often lost his temper at others and loved to blame himself. It's all kinds of entanglements that don't care about the other person's feelings, so it's not surprising that everyone is keeping a respectful distance from him now.

Fortunately, as far as Xu Shunian is concerned, all of that is like the past. He only wants to live a good life in the future. The purpose of reading these is to understand his own experience so that he can adapt to school life as soon as possible.

Only 2 minutes before the class started, the classroom gradually became quiet. Xu Shunian spread out the books and notebooks, held the pen in his hand, looked up at the teacher who was adjusting the machine on the podium, and was ready to attend the class.

At this time, the two classmates who hurried into the classroom were particularly conspicuous.

Xu Shunian looked at that tall and handsome boy for a while, just out of the reasonable reaction of normal people, no matter who sees this kind of outstanding person, he will be willing to take a second look.

But for some reason, several people around seemed to deliberately turn to look at Xu Shunian's reaction, and found that when he looked at the boy, he also showed an expression similar to grabbing a bag.

Xu Shunian subconsciously withdrew his gaze, and when he was wondering, he heard the two pass by the aisle, and the person behind whispered: "Lu Zhan, there are two more places over there."

Xu Shunian froze, and tightened his fingers holding the pen.

Lu Zhan, this name is very familiar to him, because it has appeared many times in the suicide note and diary, so when he heard this name, he thought of it.

But now Xu Shunian is unfamiliar with it. He didn't know what the owner corresponding to this name looked like until just now.

But Xu Shunian heaved a sigh of relief, and let go of his original worries about it, because he was always worried about whether the obsession, the obsession that he could only understand through pale words, would continue to affect him life.

But the glance just now reassured him that he was indeed as dazzling as in the description, but at this moment Xu Shunian only felt that he was just a passerby who caught a glimpse of him, and he would definitely be regarded as a wonderful person in the future. Strangers in their own lives.

Xu Shunian even felt that as long as there was no disturbance when facing that person, then he would be able to calmly deal with all the troubles left by the past.

After two classes, Xu Shunian packed up his things, and instead of waiting until the end to leave, he walked directly to the dormitory amidst the crowd.

After leaving the teaching building, the flow of people gradually dispersed in all directions. Xu Shunian deliberately took the long detour back to the dormitory. When he passed the wide open space in front of the library, he suddenly felt as if someone was following behind him.

The fear from last night came to his mind again, and Xu Shunian quickened his pace without thinking too much on a conditioned reflex, and sprinted forward at a speed comparable to that of an Olympic race walker.

Just when he was wholeheartedly trying to avoid the sound of footsteps following behind him, he didn't notice a slightly recessed floor lamp under his feet, and when he stepped on it, he fell to the ground in a five-body posture.

When he fell straight down, he also saw a pair of eyes in the bushes in the flower bed next to him, looking straight at him in a similar posture.

Xu Shunian's back felt a chill immediately.

I saw a pale face facing his direction through the gap between the branches, and the wet and sticky long hair blocked most of the face. Even so, Xu Shunian still felt that the expression on that face was very strange, and that The eyes that stare at him firmly are also very penetrating.

Xu Shunian didn't even bother to scream, so he straightened up and ran with a blank face.

After turning around a small forest, there was an open space in front of the gate of the dormitory area. Xu Shunian was so frightened that he almost lost his wits, so he dared to stop to catch his breath.

When he slowed down and walked towards the gate, someone grabbed the schoolbag behind him.

Reflexively, he wanted to break free and run away, but he heard a boy complaining impatiently: "Running so fast at night, are you in a hurry to reincarnate?"

Xu Shunian was stunned, and when he turned around, he saw a familiar handsome face, but before he could react, the boy grabbed his backpack and dragged him into the shade of a tree next to him.

After arriving at this hidden corner, the boy immediately let go of Xu Shunian's backpack strap, and kept a distance of three steps away from him, with a trace of unconcealable disgust in his eyes.

At this moment, Xu Shunian's heart was still beating non-stop, because he was really frightened just now, and after being dragged aside, he realized that the boy in front of him seemed to be that Lu Zhan.

Seeing the boy gasping for breath, Xu Shunian suddenly thought, could it be that Lu Zhan was actually following behind him at first?

It's just that this person should avoid him, why did he take the initiative to find him, Xu Shunian couldn't help showing some doubts.

Lu Zhan glanced left and right, as if checking whether anyone would notice this place, and after confirming it, he turned to look at Xu Shunian, lowered his face and asked straightforwardly: "Did you take my jade token?" ?”

Xu Shunian was taken aback for a moment, and couldn't help frowning when he recovered. Thinking of what he was wronged just yesterday, he felt a sense of anger in his heart, but he restrained himself, looked up at Lu Zhan calmly, Firmly said: "I am not a thief."

Lu Zhan looked at his serious and indifferent expression, and his eyes flashed with surprise. After a pause, he stopped using such an aggressive tone and said as calmly as possible: "When I went to the swimming pool last week, I changed I put my clothes in the locker, and put the jade badge in there, but when I came back, the jade badge was gone, and someone said that I saw you going in and out of the changing room..."

Xu Shunian was in a bad mood, and his tone was unconsciously a little aggressive: "I took it because I went in and out? Then you asked all the people who went in and out there at that time? Or did you suspect me alone? Labeled as a thief?"

Lu Zhan was at a loss for words, he didn't know what to say for a while, and was a little bit taken aback.

This person in front of him used to always come over to show his presence regardless of the occasion, and he did a lot of unacceptable behaviors, which once made Lu Zhan very annoying, but now Lu Zhan feels that his expression and behavior are a bit strange, even It's a bit like a different person.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Xu Shunian knew he had guessed it, and didn't want to say anything more, so he lifted the strap of his backpack, walked straight past the boy who was taller than him, and left without looking back.

Lu Zhan turned his head and looked at Xu Shunian's back in doubt, a little puzzled. In fact, he didn't think that Xu Shunian took his jade medal simply as a theft, but thought that this person had come up with some new method to get rid of it. To entangle himself, but judging by his attitude now, it seems that he is really not the one to take the jade medal.

This is a bit difficult. If it was just a simple jade token, he would not be so anxious. The main reason is that it was given to him by his grandfather when he was a child.

Lu Zhan couldn't help but frowned with a headache, showing a distressed expression.

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