how should love continue

Ren Zuzu knew that as long as the elevator doors on the 13th floor were opened, what would greet him would be an unprecedented disappointment.But standing in the elevator, looking at the constantly jumping numbers, I still have a little bit of anticipation in my heart, looking forward to the little bit of warm light coming through the crack of the apartment door, looking forward to the melody of Scottish bagpipes coming from the room , looking forward to the door being opened for him before turning the doorknob, but all of this seems to be lost in a distant dream.The moment he stepped out of the elevator, he couldn't help looking at his apartment.

"Guoguang!" Almost blurted out, his heart speeded up inexplicably, and the temperature of his palm was rising sharply.Ren Zu understood that he was afraid, afraid of the disappointment that he would not be able to bear after seeing the truth.Slowly moving towards the shadow, waiting for God's judgment on him.

"Yushi, why did you come back so late?" A very warm voice crossed my ears, it was Tezuka's mother's voice.

"Auntie, why is it you? I've been working overtime today, so I've been waiting for a long time." Shinobu smiled, opened the door, and let Ayana Tezuka in.

"Where is it? I haven't been here for long. No one listens to your and Guoguang's phone calls." Tezuka's mother is a typical "good wife and mother", but her cheerful personality is quite different from Tezuka's. "Have you been very busy recently? You two are nowhere to be seen. What about Guoguang, does he also work overtime today?"

"Ah, no..." For some reason, he obviously wanted to perfunctory with "Yes, he works overtime today" or "There is an emergency in the hospital", but slipped out such an answer unknowingly.Both body and mind told themselves correctly: Tezuka Kunimitsu had disappeared in his own world, so he didn't want to deceive himself with the lie that he was still working together.But when he saw Tezuka's mother's face that resembled Tezuka's, he couldn't bear to tell her the truth no matter what.So, I added a sentence: "He is not in China recently, and went to Germany to attend an academic conference."

"Really? It's really a coincidence. I made a lot of delicious sushi today. I wanted to improve your life for the two of you, but I went abroad. Now, Yushi, you have a good fortune. It's all yours." Said As she spoke, Ayana shook the food box in her hand, her kind smile made Shinozu feel very kind.

"Thank you, auntie. Please sit down first, and I'll boil water and make tea right away." It's only been a few days, and home is no longer home. Bo layer.Sure enough, it's hard to maintain.

"You're welcome. You go and wash it first, and I'll let you into the kitchen." Caicai stopped Renzu, said with a smile, and pushed this big boy who looked very similar to her son and was the same age out of the kitchen. "Really, don't two big men know about hygiene? They make the kitchen as messy as a vegetable market."

Looking at Tezuka's mother busy in the kitchen with patience, a sour taste surged in her heart.It was hard to get to where it is today, but Tezuka gave up without hesitation.Thinking of the first time I met Tezuka's mother, I was a little embarrassed.

"Guoguang..." The inaudible voice is almost negligible in the noisy supermarket, but it is very clear to Renzu, who often plays the violin and has excellent hearing.So, when she turned around, what she saw was Tezuka Ayana's graceful and kind face.At that time, Caicai's expression could hardly be expressed with an appropriate word. Expectation, disappointment, joy, sorrow, and love were all intertwined, but her eyes were full of tears. "Sorry, I got the wrong person."

"Excuse me, are you Tezuka Kunimitsu's mother?" Almost from the first time I saw the other party, I confirmed my own judgment.If Tezuka Kunimitsu could have a richer expression, it would definitely look like this.

"Yes. Are you...?"

"I'm his college classmate." Of course Shinozu knew that Tezuka had a falling out with his family because of Atobe, so he deliberately avoided the fact that he was also a high school classmate. "My name is Yushi Ninzu. You can call me Yushi like Kunimitsu."

"Really? Time flies, it's been 4 years in a flash. He is a college student. How is he doing?" The mother's natural concern for her son was revealed at this moment.Although Shinozu does not have a strong sense of distrust of family affection like Atobe, his natural wealthy environment also makes him skeptical of the simplest family affection in the world.Looking at Aina Tezuka's love for Aiko, and remembering the silence of Tezuka Kunimitsu who was part of Wazuka's successor, Shinozu suddenly thought that maybe this is an opportunity to help Tezuka win his family and at the same time reduce his hatred for Atobe.Maybe that's all I can do for Atobe.

Shinobu groaned for a while, and then told about Tezuka's study and life in the university, and Ayana often showed surprise or joy when she heard it.After all, four years is not just a snap of the fingers, I want to ask too much, and I want to say too much.Before they knew it, they finished shopping in the supermarket and came to the street.Seeing Shinozuzu holding shopping bags in both hands, Ayana Tezuka had the illusion that her Kunimitsu had returned.The joyful and peaceful atmosphere spread in this kind of relationship that is not mother and son but looks like mother and son, and lasted to the door of Tezuka's house.Just as she put down her things and was about to leave, Caicai sent out an invitation: "If you don't mind, come in and have a cup of tea."

Thus, Xiao Xu became Xiao Zuo, and Xiao Zuo became frequent coming and going.Slowly, Shinozu knew that Tezuka Ayana would go shopping every week, so he would often accompany him; Shinozu knew that Tezuka’s father liked to play Go, so he would accompany the old man to play a game when he had time; Shinozu knew that Tezuka missed his parents, so he would often bring some Food at home for him.It's just that with the deepening of understanding, Ren Zu suddenly discovered that the relationship between Tezuka Kunimitsu and his parents is far from easy to repair as he thought.Tezuka's persistent and almost stubborn personality has completely inherited Tezuka Kuniharu, so no one is willing to give in when it comes to the relationship with Atobe, even if Tezuka is scarred by this relationship, even if Tezuka Kuniharu Qing gradually accepted the love between the same sex.Because the first party to make concessions is undoubtedly acknowledging that the other party is right, so if you don't want to compromise or admit defeat, you can only stick to your own position.Therefore, for so many years, it was just the mutual walking between Cai Cai and Shinozu.

When she returned to the living room after washing her feet, Cai Cai had already taken care of everything.Seeing her holding a teacup and standing in front of the photo of herself and Tezuka, Shinobu was worried whether she could accept the scene of her son kissing a man.Although Tezuka's parents gradually began to understand their son after Atobe, understanding and seeing with their own eyes are two different things.

"Youshi and Guoguang are really harmonious together." Caicai heard the noise and didn't take her eyes off the photo.

"..." Is it harmonious?It is not known, but at the time, it should not be considered harmonious. The wandering photographer who took this photo once commented: This photo reveals calm despair.Yes, quiet despair indeed.That was the only conflict between me and Tezuka in the past 8 years, and the time went back to the early morning of October 10th in my junior year.

In the middle of the night, Ren Zu suddenly woke up from his sleep.I don't remember what kind of dream I had, but I just vaguely saw a figure going away. No matter how I shouted or chased, I couldn't get close. In the end, I could only watch the other person disappear from sight.Subconsciously reached out and touched the side, no one!All of a sudden, all drowsiness disappeared.Immediately got up, only to find that the bedding around her was the same as before going to sleep, untouched.The flickering light of the TV from the living room proved that the person was still there.He secretly gave a sigh of relief, fortunately, he is here!

Walking out of the bedroom softly, what he faced directly was the back of Tezuka in the darkness and the yellow and green balls that kept appearing on the TV screen.It turns out that you still can't forget tennis!He poured himself a glass of water and handed it to God Tezuka.Then, sit down beside him. In the 04 Ambassador Cup Finals, Swiss King Federer vs Russian Tsar Safin, a classic, a classic that can never be replicated.That year, Safin did not return from injury until the second half of the season, but he won several championship trophies with incredible strength and reached the year-end finals all the way.Almost perfect performance until meeting Federer.In the best-of-five match, the two scored 2:2 in the first four games, and the fifth game also dragged into the tie-break. The scores rose alternately, which made everyone who watched the game excited. Until the end, Federer won A beautiful counterattack won the game.Although the long game ended with the victory of the king and the defeat of the czar, what everyone remembers is not only the winner, but also the loser. It is the two people who jointly created a myth: the biggest tie-break score in the history of tennis .This can't help but make Renzu think of the battle between the two parts of the third country, the same king, the same process, and even the same situation.It turns out that you are missing your past in this way.

"If Safin didn't make that double fault, what do you think will happen?" The hoarse voice was extraordinarily sexy in the dark.

"I never knew that Tezuka Kunimitsu was a fantasy-loving person." Time is such a good thing, it can make us forget some things we want to forget, and it can also make us fall in love with things we didn't love before.I don't want to think about why I care so much about Tezuka at this time, it seems that it is not because of jealousy, I have never been jealous of anyone because there is no classic moment between me and Atobe; it seems that it is not love, I and Atobe I have put an ellipsis on it as early as when I graduated from high school, and I don’t want to delve into it. I don’t want to explore all the things that consume brain cells.I deliberately chose to ignore, but forgot that there is more than one party involved in the picture, and perhaps the other party is the source of my uneasiness.

"Are you free tomorrow? Let's go to church together!" Tezuka put down the remote control, and the score was fixed at 6:6. "Remember to turn off the DVD after finishing."

"Hey, is this an invitation?" Looking at his leaving back, Shinozu realized that Tezuka rarely acted with him, even though they had been under the same roof for 4 years at that time.

"You can choose to refuse." The cold words were without any emotion.