how should love continue

It turns out that you had already made your decision at that time. It turned out that you planned to use this method to fulfill the glory of my uncle.So the scenes from the past came like a tide:

Fuji said: "Tezuka, for Atobe, how much do you have to give up?"

"This is my business," Tezuka said.

I said:"……"

"Okay, got it," Tezuka said.

……

Tezuka said, "Yeah."

……

Tezuka said, "I listen to you."

Father said: "In three years, you can make Tezuka Kunimitsu no longer Tezuka Kunimitsu!"

I always thought that as long as I keep climbing, I can put the whole world under my feet; as long as I want to, I can control everything, but I forget that when I keep climbing, loneliness will follow me; the result of controlling everything is to deprive others of the right to say no .In the field of love, Guoguang, did you see my loneliness and my desire for power before I did?Just because of love, I forgot that I was also a man and was willing to lie under me; just because of love, I ignored the family's opposition and forgot the taboos of society.People say: "People who are persistent often don't care about the consequences, and people who are persistent don't know how to weigh gains and losses." Guoguang, when you are attached to your relationship with me, are you ready to die?While learning to be perfect, keep losing yourself; while reaching a compromise, keep wasting the essence until you die!Why, I, who was immersed in love and romance, never found out?It turns out that my love is not only the source of your happiness, but also the rope that kills your life.It's a pity that I woke up too late, and there was no room for change.If I have to choose between you and love, I will choose you without hesitation, even if the future can only live in memory.So, learn to be indifferent; so, learn to be cruel!

"Do you need my uncle's help with your tuition for next semester?" Atobe's tone seemed to say, "Hey, beggar, come and eat!"

"No need." Seeing his lover's 180-degree change inexplicably, Tezuka was a little hurt.Although he told himself with certainty that Atobe was just a young master's temper, and he didn't mean to look down on him at all, but his heart still hurts.

"Desperate to face and suffer, really worthy of the style of a poor student."

Tezuka tidied his schoolbag silently, walked past Atobe calmly, and closed the door gently, just like the scene when he walked out of the study every night, but he never looked at Atobe again. glance.Atobe, who was left in the study, just looked at the closed door with resentment, but the lightly biting lower lip revealed his sadness.

Standing in front of the bedroom window, looking at the straight corridor in the manor, it was silent, only the street lamps were still waiting for Ye Guiren to arrive.Atobe was a little anxious. His Kunimitsu would come back late every day, busy with part-time jobs and earning tuition for the next semester.He has lost weight recently, and his hands hurt a little when he was hugged at night. He should ask the housekeeper to cook some nutritious food to nourish him.But he doesn't seem to be at home for dinner anymore?What is the work so tiring?Which capitalist squeezed his country so much?Damn it, he was just a bit off-beat last time, and he really refused to ask for his money.If this continues, even if you are exhausted, you will not be able to earn so much tuition.Maybe, I didn't think thoroughly enough a few days ago, so I came up with a plan to unilaterally stop.If he doesn't give up, I have the confidence to continue walking with him.Well, even if my uncle is wrong, if we talk to him tonight, there will always be someone who will bow his head first.

The thin figure finally appeared in sight, and the shadow stretched so long.The moment Tezuka raised his eyes, Atobe subconsciously hid behind the curtain.He knew that he couldn't see himself from such a distance, but he was still afraid of seeing those clear and firm eyes.The love between the two can never return to its original purity.

"Are you back?" Atobe leaned on the luxurious big bed, maintaining the posture of a queen lying on her side and pretending to be calmly flipping through "Kafka", looking at the tired Tezuka from time to time.

"Yeah." Putting down her schoolbag casually, she walked into the bathroom.This has become a pattern for the two of them to get along with, and this pattern has only recently formed.Too lazy to talk, too lazy to quarrel, and even begrudged to look at each other.

Waiting until Tezuka walked out of the bathroom, Atobe was thinking about how to tell him about this matter, didn't he promise to give him happiness?Didn't you mean to give him the whole world?Because I really love him, I want to save him at all costs.Atobe knew that he had always been the leader in the relationship with Tezuka.Although he had made up his mind to end with him before, Tezuka's persistence made Atobe hesitate again: maybe there is a balance between his domineering and Tezuka's tolerance, which is enough to support this paragraph. The seemingly gorgeous love, maybe the situation is not as bad as I thought, maybe it's just my own overthinking... Try again, after all, it's not easy for me and Tezuka to get to this day.Even though the real reason why I want to let go is because of Tezuka, but my desire to be with him forever has never changed.

"My uncle wants to talk to you." Tezuka wrapped around Tezuka who had just gone to bed like an octopus.

"Jingwu, I'm tired."

"If you're tired, you don't have to go to work." Saying that, Atobe put his arms around Tezuka from behind, and put his right hand into his pajamas.In Atobe's view, no language in the world is enough to express all his love, only body language can.Only by contacting with the body and perceiving by the soul can two independent people fully achieve the final fit.

"Don't make trouble. Jingwu, I'm really tired today." Tezuka pressed the hand that kept cruising on him.

"It's been a long time since I hugged you." A little shameless, a little coquettish, this is Atobe's last resort to express his apology.

"Tomorrow."

"No, I can't wait anymore." The guilt Atobe accumulated just now disappeared in an instant, and it is absolutely unforgivable that someone dares to bargain with him Atobe Keigo.One turned over and sat on Tezuka, looking down at him.With a slight reluctance, Tezuka looked at the angry Atobe.With a slight sigh, he let go of Atobe's hand.

"If you want to do it, come on!" Tezuka slowly closed his eyes, and unbuttoned the pajamas with his own hands, exposing his fair skin to the air, exuding a sad beauty.Atobe stared blankly at Tezuka's movements, as if cold water was pouring over his head and face.Have you come this far yet?

It is he who is compromising and I am grabbing, and history repeats itself countless times before. Perhaps the personality that has been deeply rooted in the bone marrow cannot be changed throughout his life.I can't tolerate this almost sacrificial heroism, it really should end!

"If you don't want to do it, just get out of here." As he said that, he threw himself off the bed together with the quilt.Since then, there has been a white Italian plush carpet next to Atobe's bed.