the world in which he exists

The moonlight outside the window is very bright, and the earth is a silvery white water.The curtains were closed tightly, and the water-colored moonlight could not flow into the room from the window.The interior is the darkness that Gu Chaoming is familiar with. In his previous home, he often woke up in the middle of the night to see the moonlight sneaking in in the dark night.

He didn't pay attention, he only paid attention to the dream that woke him up.

Just before today's dream became reality, he grabbed Gu Tao's neck, and the crowd of onlookers in the dream formed a ball.

He woke up in a panic and fled.

The reality ending is different from the dream, Gu Chaoming wonders if he should be lucky?

He didn't have bloody palms in the real taxi.

In the dark night of the new room, eyes with tears closed and opened again, looking at the phone screen that was about to go dark after hanging up the phone in his hand, Gu Chaoming seemed to make his next decision, got up from the bed, took the hair dryer and plugged it in. The power dries damp hair.

After drying, I turned on the light in the room and clicked on the phone book.

A dial rang in the lighted room.

It wasn't a cold mechanical female voice that responded to him, the other end of the phone answered it quickly.

It was Lin Jianfan's usual speed of answering his phone calls.

"Hey?"

Gu Chaoming did not answer.

"Chaoming?" Seeing that something was wrong with Fan Lin, he carefully called his name.

It was still quiet with no one answering, Gu Chaoming was thinking about how to speak.

He just, just really wanted to talk to Lin Jianfan.

He just, just felt so scared, so lonely.

Just now he hung up Lin Jianfan's phone and closed his eyes. What happened on the way home was like a dream, a bloody nightmare he had before, but after waking up from the dream, he didn't see Lin Jianfan's face close at hand. Didn't hear Lin Jianfan say to him: "Dreams are always reversed."

He just really wanted to hear Lin Jianfan talk, and wanted Lin Jianfan to be by his side.

It was already dark outside the window, and the moonlight stuck to the glass window shamelessly and told Gu Chaoming: "It's already very late."

He just wanted to talk to Lin Jianfan.

He finally spoke for his own "selfish desires" regardless of the time: "See Fan, can you talk to me?"

"What's wrong?" Lin Jianfan asked.

Gu Chaoming's abnormal behavior and words made Lin Jianfan, who was holding the phone, flustered.

In the past, he rarely saw Gu Chaoming showing weakness. Gu Chaoming was always sunny and cheerful, which made him think that Gu Chaoming should be like this.

Sitting in the last row of the classroom, talking nonsense about his Gu family's crooked reasoning, with a smile on the corner of his mouth, and bright eyes.

Gu Chaoming in his heart should be like this, but recently he can always see Gu Chaoming's tears and bleeding wounds.

His sunny boy seemed to be devastated and changed. Lin Jianfan held the phone and heard Gu Chaoming's choked words, imagining the suffering he had suffered, Lin Jianfan's heart couldn't help but throbbing.

The young man who used to comfort him with a smile and said to help him catch the wind is now choking up in the middle of the night. Lin Jianfan just wanted to run out of the house, and the next moment he ran to Gu Chaoming's side to accompany him, comforting him like he used to comfort himself.

Calling Gu Chaoming in the middle of the night didn't feel too good. After talking a few words, he heard that Lin Jianfan's voice seemed to be deliberately lowered so that no one could hear him. Gu Chaoming knew that he must be sleeping.

The phone call was already an interruption, Gu Chaoming hurriedly concluded: "It's all right, I'm hanging up, you go to bed early, hearing your low voice, everyone must be asleep at home, you go to bed early too, good night."

Gu Chaoming’s last sentence was spoken at a normal speed and intonation. Everything sounded so normal. The last sentence of “good night” was even lighter than usual. It would never make people imagine that the person who said such a brisk “good night” had no expression on his face. A little lightness in "good night".

In Lin Jianfan's impression, Gu Chaoming's bright eyes were no longer bright, only streaks of red blood were entwined, and the eye sockets were red from tears.

Hearing Lin Jianfan's voice, the panic floating in his heart seemed to find a landing point and rest.

The room where the phone was hung up returned to its original tranquility, to its original silence.Gu Chaoming's arm holding the phone hangs down, as if he has lost his support, he lies back, and the bed behind him catches him.

The roof of the new home has no trace of moisture. Gu Chaoming lay on the bed and stared at it for a long time. He didn't know what he was looking at, and he didn't know whether his consciousness had wandered away.

He only suddenly felt a little cold, the coldness spreading from his heart.He didn't know what panic looked like, but he could always feel it by his side.

Gu Chaoming blinked and stared at the clean and whitewashed roof and raised his arms, as if to catch the light on the roof, the shadow of his arms fell on his face.

It was these hands that pinched Gu Tao's neck, and Gu Chaoming's raised arm trembled slightly.

"Let go!"

"Speak up if you have something to say."

"Do not impulse."

The crowd pulled his arm. The crowd was more enthusiastic than the crowd in his dream. The crowd in his dream surrounded him with dark smiles on their faces. No one showed up. His butcher knife was inserted into Gu Tao's body.

Gu Chaoming didn't know what he was going to do, or should he go to sleep?He was a little tired, but he couldn't sleep at all, and his nerves were tense with panic.

All the organs and blood in the body were hollowed out, and Gu Chaoming felt like an empty shell, filled with panic.

The problems in the dark can be solved until the sun rises the next day.

Maybe when you wake up the next day, the panic will hide itself.

Gu Chaoming looked at the bright lights on the roof. He didn't know how long he had been lying on the bed, but he felt cold under his feet.

The panic behind Gu Tao's neck controlled Gu Chaoming. After being reminded by the cold soles of his feet, Gu Chaoming thought that he should not catch a cold.He is alone at home, no one can take care of him, he has no capital to catch a cold.

His hands and feet were already cold, Gu Chaoming turned his head to look at the cold mobile phone in his hand, and then turned his head to look at the drawn curtains.

Like a criminal who was afraid of being discovered by others, he pulled all the curtains in the house tightly, as if no one would know that his hands had been on his father's neck.

Gu Chaoming sat up and had to study tomorrow. He planned to go to bed and wait for the dark night to digest the panic all over his body.

Standing up from the bed, there was a doorbell in the living room.

"Ding dong."

Hearing the doorbell from the living room, Gu Chaoming walked to the living room where the lights were not turned on.

The curtains of the floor-to-ceiling windows in the living room were drawn tight by him as soon as he got home, and the furniture in the living room could still be seen clearly in the night. Gu Chaoming didn't turn on the light, so he walked to the door against the darkness of the living room.

"Who?"

Who is the big night?Who will ring his doorbell at night?

Gu Chaoming's eyes suddenly widened behind the door in the darkness, and the hand that was already on the doorknob, which was about to open the door, stopped.

It was the first time someone rang the doorbell so late after he moved here, and it was the night when he met Gu Tao. Due to various strange factors, Gu Chaoming could only draw one conclusion - Gu Tao.

How does he know I'm here?

He came with a taxi?

The blood all over his body froze in an instant, and Gu Chaoming remembered the night of "Hundred Ghosts Walking in the Night" when he was a child. At that time, he opened the door innocently, and when he opened the door, a group of female ghosts pulled their little ghosts.

Time has passed but the environment has not changed at all, it is still at night, and it is still outside the door, but the demon outside the door has become Gu Tao, and Gu Tao alone is better than all the "female ghosts" and "little ghosts" in childhood.

Gu Chaoming's heart suddenly fell, and he fell as quickly as weightless, and he could still hear the whistling sound of the wind in his ears when he fell.

Gu Chaoming checked his pocket for cash, fearing that Gu Tao would go crazy in his new home.

There is nothing in the pocket of the comfortable clothes, and the mobile phone is still thrown on the bed.Gu Chaoming wanted to open the door, and pretended not to be at home, but he had already made a noise just now, but there was no answer from outside.

did not hear?Usually Gu Tao will definitely reply when he hears it.

Any foul language is possible, it would be strange not to answer.

Maybe Gu Tao will knock on the door again in the next second, Gu Chaoming doesn't want to make noise to the neighbors, let alone there is a newborn baby on the opposite side.Gu Chaoming was afraid that Gu Tao would go crazy, and if Gu Tao went crazy, the whole building would not be able to sleep.

The blood was cold along with his hands and feet, Gu Chaoming's heart was beating wildly, he was afraid it was Gu Tao, the darkness in the living room turned into Gu Tao's accomplices who kidnapped him, making him unable to go anywhere.

In order to prevent Gu Tao from outside the door from finding out, Gu Chaoming choked his throat and shouted in a different voice: "Who is it? Ring the doorbell at night to keep people from sleeping?"

With a loud shout, the person outside the door replied as if they had just heard it: "It's me."

Upon hearing this voice, Gu Chaoming's falling heart was caught by a pair of big hands, and the darkness around him loosened the rope that kidnapped him and fled.

Gu Chaoming opened the door almost immediately after hearing the voice, and saw Lin Jianfan who was carrying a medicine box outside the door, heaved a sigh of relief, as if someone told him that it was all fake after hearing a particularly bad news .

Opening the door and seeing Lin Jianfan in the corridor, Gu Chaoming's highly nervous hand slipped from the doorknob.His heart fell into the soft cloud, Gu Chaoming was like a balloon that was deflated, and his highly tense nerves were finally relieved.

Gu Chaoming didn't give Lin Jianfan outside the door a chance to speak, so he stepped forward and hugged him tightly.

Lin Jianfan's waist was tightened with both hands, and Gu Chaoming liked to rest his chin or cheek on Lin Jianfan's neck when hugging.

With his arms tightened, Gu Chaoming kissed Lin Jianfan on the back of his neck near the protruding bone, which he visited late at night, as if he was celebrating, but also as if he wanted to draw peace of mind from Lin Jianfan.

The tension and panic in my heart turned into surprise and relaxation the moment I saw Lin Jianfan, as well as great joy.

Lin Jianfan, who was hugged, did not speak. After opening the door, he did not see clearly whether Gu Chaoming was injured. Gu Chaoming hugged him, and Lin Jianfan could feel Gu Chaoming pulling his hug With such momentum, his chest almost hit Gu Chaoming's chest.

Lin saw that Gu Chaoming was half-embracing with Fan's hand that was not carrying the medicine box, and gently patted Gu Chaoming's back, feeling the movement of Gu Chaoming on the back of his neck.

The kiss on the back of the neck went all the way down and another kiss fell, but Gu Chaoming's hands tightened on him peacefully and did not make any other movements.

The kiss on the back of the neck made Lin Jianfan itchy, Lin Jianfan was not worried about what Gu Chaoming would do to him, he was more worried about Gu Chaoming's injuries.

What did Gu Tao do to Gu Chaoming to make Gu Chaoming call him after the phone call with him and say, "I just want to talk to you."

On the way, I thought about countless scary thoughts, I just wanted to reach Gu Chaoming as soon as possible, fearing that if he was one step too late, Gu Chaoming's life would be in danger.

Things weren't as bad as he'd imagined, at least on the surface.

"Okay," Lin Jianfan patted Gu Chaoming's back lightly, as if coaxing a child, "Let's go in, don't catch cold at night."

Gu Chaoming nodded in his arms, slowly let go of Lin Jianfan, looked at Lin Jianfan's face, the corners of his mouth were raised for a long time tonight, he touched Lin Jianfan's cheek, and stroked Lin Jianfan's ear with his fingertips, Softly said to Lin Jianfan: "You go in first and I will close the door."

Lin Jianfan obediently walked into Gu Chaoming's new home with the medicine box in hand, Gu Chaoming followed, and when he closed the door, he paid special attention to whether there was anyone outside.

The medicine box was placed on the coffee table, and Lin Jianfan walked into the living room and stood in front of the coffee table waiting for Gu Chaoming to come over. Lin Jianfan asked him worriedly, "Are you not injured? Let me see."

Gu Chaoming walked to Lin Jianfan's side, took Lin Jianfan's hand and touched his body everywhere: "How is it, they are very strong, are you okay?"

When Lin Jianfan didn't come, Gu Chaoming was so nervous that he drew the curtains, and when Lin Jianfan came, he had this heartless, hippie smiling face again.

"What happened?" Lin Jianfan asked.

"It's nothing, I just missed you, why are you here?" Gu Chaoming still refused to say, he didn't hear Lin Jianfan sighing slightly in his heart.

On the day he came out of the dean's office, Lin Jianfan also didn't know what Gu Chaoming was thinking. Gu Chaoming came out and hugged him. Lin Jianfan only knew that he was very unhappy, but what was Gu Chaoming thinking and what was he unhappy about? What, he doesn't know.

It was the same this time, Gu Chaoming hugged him, but he still didn't know why.

Gu Chaoming didn't talk about Lin Jianfan, so he didn't ask, and he said it when he wanted to say it. After all, there are some things in his heart that are really difficult to say to others.

Lin Jianfan didn't force him.

"It's fine if you don't get hurt."

He also brought a medical kit, just because he was afraid that Gu Chaoming would be injured.

"Scared you?" Gu Chaoming asked.

"No," Lin Jianfan shook his head, "I'm just afraid that your father will beat you."

"I met him on the street, but nothing happened, I ran away." Gu Chaoming omitted the most important part in the middle.

Nothing happened when I met Gu Tao, so why did my voice choke up when I was on the phone?

Gu Chaoming discovered the loophole of his lie, he wondered if the clever Lin Jianfan had discovered it.Lin Jianfan didn't point out his flaws, or he didn't want to expose them.

In short, Lin Jianfan didn't chase after him to ask what happened, he only cared about his boyfriend.

Tomorrow I still have to study, and it was an order to go to bed early, Gu Chaoming asked Lin Jianfan: "Are you going back today? If you go back, I will take you back. Boys should be careful at night, especially you are so handsome."

Gu Chaoming was still in the mood to joke.

"I won't go back." Lin Jianfan said, he had already decided when he came.

"Sleeping here?" Gu Chaoming asked.

"Can't you?" Lin Jianfan asked while sitting on the sofa wearing Gu Chaoming's winter slippers. The slippers were a bit big, and they rattled when walking in the living room.

"It's not impossible," Gu Chaoming said, and added a guilty conscience, "Don't worry, I won't do anything."

Lin Jianfan turned his head to look at Gu Chaoming beside him, and when he heard his words, he wanted to grab the pillow on the sofa and smash Gu Chaoming's head.

He played with Gu Chaoming and Su Bing, quietly listening to their bickering and learning a lot of words between them.

The pillow hit Gu Chaoming's head, Lin saw Fan's face was slightly hot and said, "My head is full of rubbish."

"Is it because I'm young and aggressive at 17?" Gu Chaoming grabbed Lin Jianfan and smashed his pillow.

"You are a pervert yourself, don't push it to your age."

Gu Chaoming grabbed the other end of the pillow and pulled hard, Lin Jianfan threw himself into his arms.

A boyfriend suddenly jumped into his arms, bowed his head and chest was Lin Jianfan's soft hair top, Gu Chaoming bent his arms to hug Lin Jianfan in his arms, this posture could easily lift him up.

Before picking it up, Lin Jianfan raised his head with his hands on the sofa, Gu Chaoming saw Lin Jianfan's face, and thought of Lin Jianfan saying that he was a pervert just now, Gu Chaoming immediately raised his crooked hand as a gesture of surrender: "Yourself" Throw yourself into your arms', I'm not a pervert."

Seeing that Fan looked up at Gu Chaoming speechlessly, he grabbed the pillow in his hand and pressed it on Gu Chaoming's face who "surrendered".

Gu Chaoming yelled, "Murder your husband!"

Shouting a few words, Gu Chaoming withdrew his arms in a gesture of surrender, his face was still pressed by the pillow, relying on the feeling that his palms were dragging Lin Jianfan's legs, he stood up vigorously and hugged Lin Jianfan.

The body flew into the air, and Lin saw that the pillow in Fan's hand fell to the ground without grasping it firmly.

"It's getting late, go to bed." Gu Chaoming carried Lin Jianfan to the bedroom.

Lin Jianfan in his arms didn't struggle, but his eyes didn't look at Gu Chaoming unnaturally.Gu Chaoming tried his best not to laugh like an idiot, and tried to make himself look normal.

After walking a few steps, Lin Jianfan grabbed Gu Chaoming's sleeves tightly, and Gu Chaoming, who was trying to hold back, couldn't help showing a smile.

Walking into the room where they took a nap last time, Gu Chaoming put Lin Jianfan on the bed and slept on the other side.

Lie on the bed and turn off the lights, Gu Chaoming stroked Lin Jianfan's hair in the dark with his finger: "Go to sleep."

Lin saw that Fan hadn't closed his eyes yet, so Gu Chaoming joked with a smile, "You want me to teach you how to sleep?"

Seeing that Fan shook his head, Lin saw that Gu Chaoming asked again: "Can't sleep? Or do you want a goodnight kiss?"

"Pervert." Lin Jianfan said.

Gu Chaoming laughed a few times, Lin Jianfan suddenly opened his arms, and the quilt was arched by Lin Jianfan's open arms.

The smile on his face stopped, Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan's open arms.

He understands.

The big smile changed to a smile on his lips, and Gu Chaoming moved his body closer to Lin Jianfan.

Seeing Fan's open arms lowered, Lin hugged Gu Chaoming like last time.

The skin under the quilt is close to the skin, and you can hear each other's breathing. Gu Chaoming said that if he can't do anything, he can't do anything. He leans into Lin Jianfan's arms and closes his eyes.

The temperature in the quilt at night was higher than that of taking a nap at noon. Gu Chaoming pressed close to Lin Jianfan, closed his eyes, and the rising temperature made him start to imagine the future.

When they are admitted to university in the future, they will also rent a small house to store their daily necessities, such as pairs of toothbrushes, pairs of towels, couple slippers... they get up together to go to school during the day, and sleep next to each other at night like they are now.

Just thinking about it, the corners of Gu Chaoming's mouth curled up.

Even if he had the nightmare of killing Gu Tao again tonight, when he woke up from the nightmare, Lin Jianfan would say to him: "Dreams are the opposite."

Then all the nightmares are not to be feared.

He leaned against Lin Jianfan's arms and thought, how nice.

The future, and the present.