the world in which he exists

In order to avoid the pestering Gu Tao and the dean who caught them playing cards, Gu Chaoming took Lin Jianfan's hand and led him to run.

Running, on the way after school, on the campus boulevard.

Lin Jianfan was often held by Gu Chaoming's arm or wrist, and he could always see Gu Chaoming's tall back, covered by the sun and the setting sun.

With wind in his ears, he recorded Gu Chaoming's back with his eyes.

He is always behind Gu Chaoming, because Gu Chaoming always habitually pulls him behind him in order to protect himself when he is in danger.

But today, for the first time, Lin Jianfan took the initiative to hold Gu Chaoming's hand and run away, leading him away from that world, never to return.

For the first time, Lin Jianfan plucked up the courage to confront Gu Chaoming's father, Gu Tao, breaking through the unfamiliarity of language.

Only Lin Jianfan knew that when he was confronting Gu Tao, his heart was shaking, but he didn't want to show timidity at the critical moment.

No matter how trembling your heart is, you can't tremble in your tone.

He talked to Gu Tao in a gentle way, trying to get the same treatment, but he also knew that it was futile, and he didn't know any better way to rescue Gu Chaoming.

At the end of the day, when he knew that Gu Tao was already a mad beast and nothing made any sense, he chose his original choice.

Pull Gu Chaoming to escape, just like he used to escape with himself.

Holding his hand was like fleeing to another world.

A world full of flowers.

Lin Jianfan dragged Gu Chaoming down the stairs.He didn't know the place well, he was only afraid of Gu Chaoming's anger last time, so he asked Su Bing for the address and went there once, now he successfully took Gu Chaoming out of the community without getting lost by relying on his memory when he came here.

On the way, I also met Zhou Han who had just returned from the supermarket and was carrying plastic bags from the supermarket with his mother.

Zhou Han lowered his head to play with his mobile phone while walking, feeling someone running past him, looking back from his mobile phone.

In the gray and semi-dark sky, the time has not yet come, and the street lights have not yet been turned on. He saw the backs of the two holding hands and running.

They ran hand in hand, and into the distance they turned into two small black dots in the gray night sky.

Running by, the familiar figure, Zhou Han immediately recognized Gu Chaoming who ran past, not to mention that the mother who was walking in front of him saw Gu Chaoming being held by a boy and ran past, as if he had got a hand to chat with after dinner Information, mouth began to chatter with his son.

Nothing more than those few words.

"No one in their family is normal."

Zhou Han was sure that it was Gu Chaoming who was being led away, but he was not familiar with the one in front of him. He initially judged that it was Lin Jianfan, and he could only think of Lin Jianfan.

Hearing her mother nagging in her ear, Zhou Han asked her to talk less, but her mother was still not happy.

Zhou Han turned his head again, and the running figure behind him had disappeared, leaving only a gray and red sky.

The sunset at the end is at the end of the sky, blending with the gray of the sky to form a line of dark red.

Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan who was holding his hand and leading him to run. It was the first time he saw Lin Jianfan's back from this perspective.

protected perspective.

It turned out that he used to run with Lin Jianfan, and this is what Lin Jianfan saw.

A smile bloomed on the corner of Gu Chaoming's mouth, and he couldn't help smiling while running.The setting sun, reluctant to set, lay on the horizon and stared at them quietly.

Staring at the smile on the corner of the running boy's mouth, she finally agreed to land, descending to the sky with satisfaction, and exited the curtain.

When Lin Jianfan dragged her to run and saw Zhou Han and his mother, Gu Chaoming deliberately turned his cheek to the side, afraid that she would gossip again, but it was of no use.

Rumors will never stop where they want to go.

He is the Gu Chaoming who was misunderstood by the doctor about his relationship with Lin Jianfan in the hospital and wanted to speak out in a fair manner. He is also the Gu Chaoming who is afraid of gossip in the community.

Both are him.

Bravery and fear go hand in hand.

Really unfamiliar with the area, Lin Jianfan came here by car just to give Gu Chaoming a surprise.In the past, when Gu Chaoming came to find him and lost his way, he could tell him the way home, but now, seeing Fan looking at an unfamiliar street, he could only take him out of the community and then drag him to an empty small place. Stop in the alley.

Lin saw that Fan let go of his hand and turned around, checking Gu Chaoming's face without any scars or bloodstains, he was still not at ease.

"Shall we go to the hospital?" Lin Jianfan asked softly.

The distress wrapped in the voice was like a water polo hitting Gu Chaoming's heart.

Gu Chaoming didn't like to go to the hospital, and he didn't want to see Lin Jianfan worried, although he would be very happy to see Lin Jianfan worried about himself.

Gu Chaoming still put on his usual hippie smiling mask, and said to Lin Jianfan: "What kind of hospital do you go to at night, isn't it going to the food festival?"

Gu Chaoming took out his mobile phone to check the time: "It's still too late, I have to send a message to Su Bing and the others, they have sent so many messages to ask us."

Gu Chaoming smiled and turned over the phone screen to show Lin Jianfan.

On the screen of the mobile phone, Su Bing and Cen Xili both sent a lot of messages to the two who had lost contact suddenly.

A series of messages were displayed on the screen. For the first time, Lin Jianfan pushed Gu Chaoming's phone willfully: "Leave them alone, tell them that we are not going, and I will take you to the hospital first."

At this moment, in such a situation where his body was injured, Gu Chaoming was still in a good mood to think that Lin Jianfan's willful appearance was cute.

"Okay, listen to you, then ignore them." Gu Chaoming typed quickly and typed "We have something to do, so we won't go."No matter how Su Bing replied, Gu Chaoming turned off the phone.

"Will this be a bit bad? You should tell them something." Lin Jianfan didn't know that Gu Chaoming had returned to Su Bing, and after a moment of capricious temper, Lin Jianfan felt that what he just said was inappropriate. You shouldn't bother how Gu Chaoming gets along with his friends.

Hearing Lin Jianfan's words, Gu Chaoming looked at his worried face.Seeing that Fan is still the good boy who is always worried about others, Lin sees that if he doesn't get back to Su Bing, Su Bing will have problems with Gu Chaoming.

The self-willed and worried look made Gu Chaoming just want to pinch his worried cheek.

"It's okay," Gu Chaoming said jokingly, "The two of them, we can't talk about it, they will definitely say bad things about me behind my back, don't worry, bad things will inevitably happen."

Lin saw that Fan was so serious, but Gu Chaoming was so playful and smiling.

Lin Jianfan looked up when he heard Gu Chaoming's joke, and there was a little blame in his eyes: "When is it, are you still joking?"

Seeing Fan's serious expression without a smile, Lin couldn't laugh because of Gu Tao.

"Why are you so stern? I already told them that we're not going, don't worry," Gu Chaoming finished explaining, stretched out two index fingers to poke Lin Jianfan's cheek, and raised the corner of Lin Jianfan's mouth, "laugh Just smile, don't put on a straight face."

"Too serious, life will be difficult." Gu Chaoming said.

Pressing his finger against Lin Jianfan's soft cheek, he forced a smirk on Lin Jianfan's face.

In the gray air, Lin Jianfan's eyes suddenly turned red after hearing Gu Chaoming's words.Gu Chaoming raised the index finger at the corner of Lin Jianfan's mouth to stop, and once again blamed himself for not being able to speak.

"Alas, what's the matter?" Gu Chaoming poked Lin Jianfan's cheek with his fingers and touched Lin Jianfan's red eye sockets.

"It's okay." Seeing Fan raised his hand and wiped his red eye sockets, Lin shook his head with a strong look, expressing that he was fine.

Gu Chaoming touched his cheek: "I'm just talking casually, life is not difficult at all, how can it be difficult to live with you?"

Gu Chaoming explained eagerly, fearing that if one of his words was inappropriate, Lin would cry when he saw Fan.

"If you feel sorry for me, just tell me, don't shed tears, I will also feel bad when you shed tears." Gu Chaoming kept stroking Lin Jianfan's red eye sockets with his fingers, as if he wanted to make the redness around Lin Jianfan's eye sockets hard It was stuffed back, as if wanting to suck away the blush around Lin Jianfan's eyes with his fingers that kept touching.

Seeing Fan sniffling, Lin lowered his head slightly and said, "Am I useless? A grown man only knows how to cry."

"Who says boys can't cry anymore? It's not a girl's privilege to cry. Boys don't flick their tears, but they don't flick them. It's okay." Gu Chaoming began a series of comforting words, and he He didn't want his boy to feel that he couldn't do anything, he just had a softer heart than others.

"Besides, I have cried too. Everyone has cried, regardless of gender. This is a normal emotion..."

Everyone has cried.

When he said this, Gu Chaoming remembered the evening when Lin Jianfan accompanied him to the hospital for the first time. He kept laughing to stop crying, and remembered the night when he dragged his luggage and ran away from home. Weeping in the street.

He told Lin Jianfan that there was nothing wrong with crying, it was human nature, but he himself endured human nature, always resisting not crying, and refraining from crying in front of others.

He told the crying Lin Jianfan that it was normal to cry, and he wanted Lin Jianfan to know that there was nothing wrong with crying in front of him, there would be no blame, only comfort.

Because he knows how uncomfortable it is to hold back crying when he is sad, and also how lonely it is to have no one to accompany him when he is in pain.

It's floating, it's falling, Gu Chaoming has tasted both, and he doesn't want Lin Jianfan to taste it too.

Let Lin Jianfan taste it, it was his own fault.

Being persuaded by Gu Chaoming's non-stop words, Lin Jianfan didn't cry, but his reddened eyes took back the pain.

Gu Chaoming's mouth was almost dry, and he smiled gratifiedly when he saw Lin Jianfan's eyes returning to normal.

Gu Chaoming embraced Lin Jianfan who had his red eyes closed: "Let's go, reward you, and buy you your favorite yogurt."

As long as you don't cry, you will be rewarded. Lin Jianfan struggled at first and said no, but Gu Chaoming was so strong that he forced him into a nearby small supermarket.

In the supermarket, Gu Chaoming took out one of Lin Jianfan's favorite flavors that he noticed, showed it to Lin Jianfan who was standing aside, and said braggingly, "I remember which one you like to drink this time."

When he was doing odd jobs in a small supermarket, Lin Jianfan came to visit him in the store. Gu Chaoming forgot the yogurt he said he drank recently. Since then, Gu Chaoming has been remembering, observing, observing the yogurt Lin Jianfan likes to drink taste.

Forgot when he told Lin Jianfan the joke "Do you like me?" He also remembered it, lying on the bed, thinking about it for several nights.At that time, he really only said it as a joke, but Lin Jianfan never thought that he would always remember it.

He always remembered that he always had himself in his heart, and Gu Chaoming shrugged his shoulders excitedly while lying on the bed, and pulled up the pillow to cover his face.

After taking the yogurt handed over by Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan bit his lower lip in embarrassment when Gu Chaoming directly said that I was paying attention to you.

The lights in the supermarket are very bright at night, and the plastic packaging on the shelves reflects the weak light. Gu Chaoming smiled triumphantly in the bright light of the supermarket, handed out the yogurt, and then closed the freezer door triumphantly.

After paying the bill and walking out of the supermarket, Lin Jianfan took the yogurt and asked Gu Chaoming again how he was and if there was any pain.

Of course Gu Chaoming wouldn't talk about the pain, he was used to enduring it and not saying it.

"Really don't want to go to the hospital?" Lin Jianfan asked.

"No, look, I have injuries on my face, right?" Gu Chaoming raised his hands and placed them around his face in a flower shape.

"You hide it, I can't see it." Lin Jianfan whispered.

"I didn't tuck it in," Gu Chaoming said as he touched the collar, but missed the zipper. He hated that he was wearing a sweater instead of a jacket. Gu Chaoming opened his arms and said, "Look, I opened it."

"You are poor."

"Hey," Gu Chaoming ran to Lin Jianfan with his arms open, and Lin Jianfan was forced to stop.

"Why?" Lin Jianfan asked while holding the yogurt.

Gu Chaoming shook his open arms: "I want to hug."

A 1.8-meter tall man acted like a baby and wanted to hug him. Gu Chaoming approached step by step. Lin Jianfan pushed him away: "It's still on the street."

"Didn't you promise me last time in the hospital?" Gu Chaoming still refused to take back his hand.

"That depends on the situation. There are people on the side of the road." Someone from the side of the road has already looked over, and Lin Jianfan avoided the eyes of others.

"Then I'll take you to a place where no one is around." Gu Chaoming took Lin Jianfan's hand regardless of the eyes of passers-by.

Lin Jianfan took Gu Chaoming for a run once, and after escaping from that house, he regained his familiar perspective again.

In the darkened night, Gu Chaoming dragged him to run, ran through unfamiliar streets, and ran into alleys, ignoring the eyes of others.

The boy runs in the dark night, accompanied by the sound of the wind, and the starry sky.

Running in and through unfamiliar alleys, Gu Chaoming finally stopped, and the crowded alleys in front of Lin Jianfan suddenly opened up. Not far away was a long river in the dark, with street lamps dotted along the river bank, stretching straight to the sky.

Gu Chaoming took Lin Jianfan to the river bank where he often sat and avoided Gu Tao, and took him to the river bank where there was no one at night.

The wind on the river bank was a little stronger than usual, but fortunately the weather was getting warmer, and the slightly stronger cold wind at night was not worth mentioning.

"I used to come here to sit often." Gu Chaoming took Lin Jianfan's hand and walked to the steps by the river bank to sit down.

The green leaves of willow trees withered in winter by the river are drooping and fluttering in the breeze.When I was young, I heard my mother say that someone would fall in love by the river, but I didn't expect him to bring Lin Jianfan here today.

"There's no one here, let me give you a hug." Gu Chaoming on the steps by the river bank was like a bastard on the top of his head, and he could only be satisfied if he got close to Lin Jianfan.

"Then give me a hug." Lin Jianfan was unnaturally shy when he came to a place where no one was around.

The cool night wind strokes the green willows by the river, strokes the calm river surface, and strokes the young man's heart that is just about to move.

Gu Chaoming stretched out his arms and hugged Lin Jianfan into his arms, hugging him tightly.He regretted why he chose to wear a sweater today. If he was wearing a jacket, he would be able to unzip Lin Jianfan and wrap him in his jacket.

The yogurt was set aside, cold by itself.Lin Jianfan slowly stretched out his hands to hug Gu Chaoming back, wrapping his arms around Gu Chaoming's broad back.

"Have you considered not living with your father?" Lin saw Fan's chin resting on Gu Chaoming's shoulder.

"I've thought about it." Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan even more tightly.

He never thought about it, he also escaped, but life made him return to that home again.

"He will come to school to look for me, and trouble me in all kinds of ways."

"Then why didn't you call the police?" Lin Jianfan asked.

"It's useless, and..."

Gu Chaoming stopped, he didn't want others to know that he had such a father.

The ugliness cannot be made public.

The arrogance of the 17-year-old boy cannot be separated from the sensitivity of adolescence. There is not only a passionate desire for love, but also an extreme concern for other people's eyes.

He has been paying attention to the strange eyes and words of his neighbors for 17 years. He just wants to block those eyes and words in the community and not let others know.He was even afraid that if other people knew that his father was Gu Tao, and knew that he had the terrifying thought of killing his father, would anyone be willing to be friends with him, would they treat him like the people in the community? He pointed.

Lin Jianfan felt Gu Chaoming's avoidance, he never reported to the police in this area, and telling Gu Tao that there was a phone recording at Gu Chaoming's house was just to intimidate Gu Tao.

"That can't keep your dad like this..."

Lin Jianfan helped Gu Chaoming think of a way, but found that the way he thought was not reliable.

"Then I'll try to move out." Gu Chaoming said when Lin Jianfan was racking his brains to find a way.

After being brought home by Gu Tao, he also thought about renting a house outside, but thinking that he would be brought home by Gu Tao in the end, he never did it.

Recently, Gu Tao went home frequently and asked for money frequently. Gu Chaoming felt that he could no longer hold on, and his aversion to returning to that home soared on the original basis.

He hated and was afraid of going back to that home, he hated going home and seeing Gu Tao, it was a daily nightmare.

When leaning against the desk in the room, Gu Tao's waving arms dangled in front of his eyes, Gu Chaoming's desire to escape became more and more intense, Lin Jianfan gave him a gap in his accumulated emotions, and gave him the courage to escape from Gu Tao Decide.

"Su Bing helped me find a house before, I can ask him, and you can come over in the future." Gu Chaoming said.

Lin Jianfan nodded: "Then I'll wait, if he pesters you again in the future, you have to tell me."

"Okay." Gu Chaoming buried his forehead into Lin Jianfan's neck, absorbing the heat from Lin Jianfan's body.

Gu Chaoming rubbed against Lin Jianfan's neck, and the hot air from his lips breathed on Lin Jianfan's skin.The air in the cold night wind suddenly became restless, Gu Chaoming's nose rubbed all the way up, Lin Jianfan's face turned red from Gu Chaoming's dawdling neck to the top of his head.

Fortunately, there was darkness as cover.

Lin saw that Fan took a step back, the friction on his neck disappeared, but the burning breath in the wind did not change.

Gu Chaoming didn't speak, he saw Lin Jianfan's blushing face and his flustered movements and smiled.

"I don't know what to do." Gu Chaoming said.

"I know." Lin Jianfan curled his lips.

Gu Chaoming smirked, opened the yogurt lid and drank a big mouthful of yogurt.

Lin Jianfan turned his head to look at Gu Chaoming, who was laughing at him, and the gentle night wind blew up Lin Jianfan's bangs, exposing Lin Jianfan's forehead.The spring breeze brushed against Lin Jianfan's cheeks, and the light moonlight fell on his face.

Seeing such a beautiful scenery while drinking yogurt, Gu Chaoming couldn't help reaching out to touch Lin Jianfan's eyebrows, and lied that there was something dirty.

A reason that has not changed for a hundred years.

Fingers touched Lin Jianfan's eyebrows falling into the moonlight, whether it was the cold moonlight or the warm sunshine, it was the foil and embellishment on his face.

Gu Chaoming caressed Lin Jianfan's eyebrows, dangling the yogurt in his hand, and pressed a chest that was as warm as the sun into his arms.

Gu Chaoming was hugged by Lin Jianfan, Lin Jianfan's head rested on his ear, and his hair rubbed against his ear, making his ear itchy and reddish, this feeling went all the way along Gu Chaoming's itchy ear Gu Chaoming felt itchy.

Lin Jianfan hugged without words, Gu Chaoming put his fingers on the yogurt box, and he heard Lin Jianfan's laughter in his ear.

Like snow, falling softly on his heart.

"I like you."

A nighttime confession was carried into Gu Chaoming's ear with the moonlight and breeze.

"I know, me too." Gu Chaoming said.

"Then I...then I..."

Seeing Fan's eyes drifting in the dark as he spoke, he slowly loosened his grip on Gu Chaoming's neck, picked up the yogurt in his hand, and took a sip as if to cheer himself up. The taste of yogurt filled his mouth.

Backed up a little, and hugged Gu Chaoming's neck again.

Lin Jianfan's kiss came suddenly and urgently, it was a possessive kiss, a crazy kiss, an unskilled but ferocious kiss unique to teenagers, like a predatory beast.

The beast grabbed Gu Chaoming's sweater collar, put his arms on Gu Chaoming's shoulders meekly, and wrapped around Gu Chaoming's neck, making Gu Chaoming fit closer to him.

Ferocious as a beast, gentle as a white rabbit, the ultimate fusion of the two, Gu Chaoming tasted it in Lin Jianfan's sudden kiss.

Seeing Fan's toughness, Gu Chaoming could only cooperate. When he was kissed forcibly at the beginning, Gu Chaoming's brain melted into a ball like the yogurt he drank.He gradually felt that the taste of yogurt in his mouth was getting weaker and weaker, and what he got was shortness of breath.

Gu Chaoming had the taste of yogurt in his mouth, Lin Jianfan's favorite flavor.Seeing that Fan tasted it to his heart's content, Gu Chaoming was completely dominated by him, as if he had finished listening to a piece of music in his mouth, the beginning was quick and the end was soft, and the musician's hands moved with the music, fierce and docile.

Lin saw that Fan had finished playing the music, but the listeners felt that they were not enjoying themselves enough, and wanted to steal the yogurt left by the musicians on their lips.

Gu Chaoming is a gentle thief.He stole gently and quickly, not as fierce and long-lasting as Lin Jianfan. With just one click, he successfully stole the leftover yogurt from the corner of Lin Jianfan's mouth.

Gu Chaoming smiled heartily after stealing the yogurt from the corner of Lin Jianfan's mouth. Lin Jianfan didn't know how he could smile so heartily after such a quick and fierce kiss.

It is the wind that blows the white curtains of the classroom in midsummer, with the smell of summer heat.

After the kiss, Gu Chaoming let go of Lin Jianfan, and Lin Jianfan's smile was all over his face, no matter how full the moon was, it was not as bright as Lin Jianfan's smile at this time.

Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan's bright eyes with a smile, and the starlight flowed in them, surpassing everything in a single stroke.

Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan's eyes falling into the moonlight and laughed. He seemed to see a world full of flowers in Lin Jianfan's eyes.

Lin Jianfan looked at Gu Chaoming's eyes and smiled, his eyes turned into crescents.

They each see the blossoming world in each other's eyes.

In the dark night, in the cold wind, Lin Jianfan looked at Gu Chaoming's eyes and finally realized the warm spring in March that is often written in the poem.The spring breeze blows the willows, the willows hang down the river bank, and the river bank connects to the earth.Some people say that where the spring breeze blows is the color of spring, Lin Jianfan looked at Gu Chaoming, at Gu Chaoming in front of him.

Without the spring breeze, the Gu Chaoming in front of him is better than all the colors of spring.

After the kiss, Gu Chaoming said with a smile that surpassed Chunchun: "I accept the surprise you gave."