the world in which he exists

The hazy face in sight smiled, amused by himself.

Originally, there was a sentence after "I caught the wind", but Gu Chaoming thought it was too hypocritical, so he omitted it.

The omitted sentence is "That way the wind won't get into your eyes."

The person who should be made laugh did not laugh, but the person who made him laugh laughed first.

Looking at Lin Jianfan's rippling eyes, Gu Chaoming knew that his stupid tricks only made him laugh and were of no use at all.

Lin Jianfan looked at him without a smile, Gu Chaoming let go of his hands after a few dry laughs, not leaving time for embarrassment, put his hand on Lin Jianfan's shoulder and said, "You're hungry from crying, go...!"

The words that came to an abrupt end were filled with the warmth of another person, Gu Chaoming was hugged by Lin Jianfan before he finished speaking.

The sudden hug, Lin Jianfan didn't care what Gu Chaoming said, followed Gu Chaoming's arm around his shoulder, raised his hand and hugged Gu Chaoming's waist from the front.

A piece of warmth broke into Gu Chaoming's chest, and then his chin rested on Gu Chaoming's neck as if asking for comfort.

As he approached quickly, a burst of warmth brushed against his cheeks. The large gray coat was thick enough, and Lin Jianfan's body was very warm. The warmth on his cheeks had small burrs, which pierced people even before they could be touched.

Lin saw that Fan Huan hugged him, and with just a slight movement, his ears could touch each other's ears.

The ear bones were soft, and the fragile skin brushed against her inadvertently, Lin Jianfan's ears turned red when he took the initiative to hug her.

The hug came too suddenly, like a sudden heavy rain on a sunny day, which made people unprepared, and was thoroughly drenched by the heavy rain, followed by a high fever that would not go away after the rain.

Suddenly, the roots of his ears turned red, and Gu Chaoming felt that his brain was a little dazed in this cold night, like an overused mainframe—it was heating up.

Lin saw that Fan actually hugged him, and he heard his own heartbeat, beating, beating, which was very clear and chaotic.

In the bleak autumn night, two pairs of red ears, two beating hearts, and a pair of overlapping people.

Because of the face-to-face embracing posture, the hearts do not fit together, one is on the left and the other is on the right. The two hearts are separated by the physiological venous tissue and the distance of autumn wind.

Lin Jianfan was sad because of a reason he didn't know and couldn't guess. Gu Chaoming, who was hugged, tried to raise his hand and slowly go back to Lin Jianfan's waist, and hugged him back, giving him a sudden shock. Hug in response.

Lin saw that Fan was very thin, and his large coat was like an empty shell. When Gu Chaoming closed his hands, the empty shell slowly shrank to its smallest size along with his arms.

It was the first time that Gu Chaoming touched Lin Jianfan's waist, from the simple wrist to the waist, through the heavy clothes in late autumn, Gu Chaoming could not touch the temperature of Lin Jianfan's body.

In the cold night, Lin Jianfan felt the tightening of his waist and back. He leaned on Gu Chaoming's shoulders. In the black world where the sun had disappeared, he saw the crowds moving ahead, the neon lights that were constantly flashing and changing. Go to the long snack street, see the balloons that the children in the crowd accidentally let go, and see the cold wind and the boundless night.

The balloon flew into the starry night sky, the nose was so sore that it slipped into a vinegar vat, and it was connected to the heart, endless grievances erupted in this warm embrace that I took the initiative to ask for.

The neon lights in front of my eyes blurred into red, yellow, and blue light clusters, shining in the night.Sensing the slight trembling of the person in his arms, hearing his sniffing nasal sound, Gu Chaoming remained silent, maybe silence is the best comfort and companionship.

A tear fell on Gu Chaoming's shoulder at the speed of raindrops.The first tear is the forecast of heavy rain, and the forecast rain falls, followed by heavy rain.The raindrops fell on the ground on Gu Chaoming's shoulders and penetrated into the soil.

Gu Chaoming held Lin Jianfan with his left hand to support him, and gently stroked his back with his right hand, like smoothing the fur of an animal, like putting a baby to sleep.

Gu Chaoming patted it again and again, so gently and carefully, as if he was dealing with a fragile object.

The hands around the waist became tighter and tighter, and the clothes inside the hoops rubbed against the skin tightly. It was the first time that Gu Chaoming was hugged so tightly by someone, as if he was also someone who could be trusted and relied on, as if he was just comforting him like this. Already able to protect him.

Why is it so sad?A question that has plagued Gu Chaoming since the first tear he shed.Gu Chaoming thinks that he is not a strong person. He has cried many times, and most of the root causes of crying come from Gu Tao.

Until now, he has not yet grown into an adult, has not been able to stand on his own, and has not been able to protect others with his own strength. He can't even protect himself, let alone others.

The dark, bloody rainy night, the dim light in the kitchen, the burning and scorching smell of the flesh burned by cigarettes...

Gu Chaoming's life is composed of these, but he is glad that he has Su Bing and Cen Xili by his side, and he also has a mother who loves him, although he knows that a large part of it may be self-imagination and wishful thinking.His mother has always been the object he wanted to protect since he was a child, and he also thought it was his responsibility, his obligation, but he didn't seem to be able to do it once in all these years, as if he couldn't stop that demon once.

The war broke out, the demons roared, and he was fledgling, unable to protect the people he was supposed to protect.

The danger is approaching, but he can do nothing, Gu Chaoming hates being powerless the most, his resistance to Gu Tao is like a punch that hits the air, soft and without echo.

Gu Tao was not by his side, he was hiding in Gu Chaoming's subconscious, Gu Chaoming didn't want to think about him anymore, he followed the crying man in his arms with all his heart.What exactly is the reason for crying?Gu Chaoming couldn't answer, the person in his arms went from suppressing his voice at first to crying loudly now.

Gu Chaoming frowned, Lin saw that Fan's choking and trembling were like a knife, not stabbing, but cutting across his heart one by one, there was no pain that pierced his heart and lungs, but the pain of being declared Ling Chi.

The person in his arms was crying until he trembled, his nose kept shrinking, as if crying from the depths of his throat, the clothes on his shoulders were already wet, Gu Chaoming kept touching him, and also hugged him tightly, hoping to give him a sigh of relief. Enough response, so that his confession will not fail.

He has tried the feeling of failure, from being full of hope to falling straight into hell, the change in an instant, he didn't want Lin Jianfan to try it.Gu Chaoming imagined how uncomfortable he was, trying to make himself feel the same. He patted Lin Jianfan on the back, and said to Lin Jianfan in a tone he was not familiar with: "It's good to cry."

He is not very good at comforting people, learning the platitudes of comforting people.

"When you cry, you will find that nothing is worth making you so sad."

Gu Chaoming began to blame himself for why he ranting against Su Bing so smoothly, and when he comforted others, he couldn't search the web like a computer without Internet connection.

Gu Chaoming was stumbling and stumbling with comfort, and while he was organizing his words, choking and trembling constantly, he finally heard Lin Jianfan speak.

"Guoguo." Seeing two words murmured out of Fan's throat, Lin shrunk his nose.

Gu Chaoming finally heard Lin Jianfan's words, like a traveler trapped in the desert saw a green leaf, and ran towards the location of the green leaf.

"Guoguo? What's wrong with Guoguo?" Gu Chaoming asked.

Lin saw Fan just sobbing.

Gu Chaoming stroked him and then asked: "What's wrong with Guoguo, can you tell me? Huh? I won't tell others."

Gu Chaoming knew that crying people are the most likely to break down emotionally, so he didn't dare to be too eager.The comforting hand on Lin Jianfan's back was slowly raised, and instead he touched his exposed warm neck. His hands were cold, but he hoped to warm him.

"I'm here, talk to me."

Maybe it was the calming effect of the coldness, or maybe it was the comforting effect of his stumbling words, Lin Jianfan suddenly calmed down, he put away his crying, and stared at the front.

"Guoguo is dead, dead. Do you know? Guoguo is dead. It has been with me since I was a child. When I go to study, it will see me off at the door of the house. When I come back, it will be the first to come out to pick me up. I When I was sad it would come and lick my face, but he died."

Lin Jianfan's words were full of tears, but also unimaginably calm.The sudden calmness of the person in his arms frightened Gu Chaoming. Lin saw that Fan's emotions were too different. He was crying just now, but now he was surprisingly quiet.

It's not a normal emotional transition, it's two extremes.The emotions were too upside down. When Lin Jianfan was crying bitterly, Gu Chaoming hoped that he would be calm, but looking at the calm Lin Jianfan now, Gu Chaoming felt that it would be better to let him continue to cry.

According to Lin Jianfan's statement, Guoguo should be a dog of his family.Gu Chaoming has never raised small animals, so he doesn't know much about the relationship between humans and animals, but he guesses that Guoguo is extraordinarily important to Lin Jianfan.Its owner would cry so sadly after it passed away. If it hadn't passed away, I don't know what it would do, would it circle around the crying Lin Jianfan, or squeeze into his arms and lick his tongue? Face?

"It's okay, anyone will leave, you and I will also leave after decades, it's just sooner or later, so you don't have to be so sad, and Guoguo certainly doesn't want you to be so sad."

Lin Jianfan gave a soft "hmm" after hearing this.

Gu Chaoming did not continue to comfort him, he just remained silent.

He was waiting until Lin Jianfan really put away his tears and calmed down.

He jokingly said to Lin Jianfan as before: "You made my clothes wet from crying, you have to wash them for me."

"It's not an idol drama, and I still do laundry. Anyway, it's black, so I can't tell." His voice was a little dry after crying. Being able to bicker with him like this, it seems that his mood has improved a lot.

Now that his mood suddenly improved, Gu Chaoming changed his method and returned to his usual mode of complaining: "I found that you can cry better than a crying bag."

Lin Jianfan defended himself: "I didn't!"

"Obviously there is, and you don't feel ashamed to cry on the street now? There are so many people watching, I knew I would use my mobile phone to record it."

"How dare you!" Seeing that Fan had cried for a while, Lin felt confident enough to argue with him.

"Do you think I dare?" Gu Chaoming asked with a grin.

Threatened by Gu Chaoming, Lin saw that Fan didn't make any more noise, so he tapped his chin on his shoulder in a fit of anger.

With this childlike temper, Gu Chaoming couldn't laugh or cry.

Seeing that Lin Jianfan had returned to normal, Gu Chaoming breathed a sigh of relief, turned his head quietly, and leaned close to Lin Jianfan's ear, feeling the slight warmth in his ear, and smiled where he couldn't see it.

"Thank you." The close ear suddenly heard Lin Jianfan's voice, infinitely amplified, clean and clear, flowing down the river, and flowing into Gu Chaoming's heart to form a nest of clear pools.

His ears are sensitive, and when he received Lin Jianfan's breath gushing out from his nose, it was itchy, as if there were feathers scratching, which made Gu Chaoming's cold hand resting on his neck move up to stroke Lin Jianfan's fluffy hair.

Running your fingers through the hair is a touch of anticipation.Gu Chaoming stroked Lin Jianfan's head without saying a word, Lin Jianfan also learned to be silent, the two were speechless for a moment, only touching hair.

Gu Chaoming asked him when he had touched enough: "Xinjin crying bag, have you cried enough?"

Lin Jianfan retorted stubbornly: "I am not."

Lin Jianfan said, in order to prove that he is different from the crying bag, he let go of Gu Chaoming.

Gu Chaoming looked at his still flushed eyes, and continued to tease him: "Who are you?"

Lin Jian saw the corners of Fan's mouth curled up suddenly, and he smiled brightly, a smile that could light up the night.

Sudden crying and sudden smile, Gu Chaoming pierced him: "Crying and laughing at the same time, it's not like smiling can cover up the fact that you just cried."

Gu Chaoming took out a tissue and carefully wiped Lin Jianfan's red eye sockets a few times to wipe off the tears left behind. He didn't know whether it was distressed or teasing: "Your eyes are swollen from crying, no matter how much you cry How can we live if we can cry so beautifully?"

Gu Chaoming wiped away his tears and handed him the tissue.After receiving the crumpled tissue, Lin Jianfan whispered, "I don't look good."

"Hey, don't be humble."

"I do not have."

"Then you are beautiful without knowing it."

Lin Jian Fan was speechless.

Gu Chaoming took a step closer and took his hand: "Let's go, you beautiful little beauty who doesn't know it, brother will take you to eat."

Gu Chaoming still wanted to go forward, but Lin Jianfan behind him shook off his hand. Gu Chaoming turned around and saw Lin Jianfan's unwilling expression in the dark night.

Thinking that Lin Jianfan didn't like his touch, Gu Chaoming raised his hands in a gesture of surrender, pursed his lips, tilted his head and smiled: "No, no."

Then he played his teasing and vicious nature, smiled and stepped aside, like a welcoming lady: "You go first, you go first."

Seeing that Fan still didn't leave, Lin looked at Gu Chaoming and asked, "Is what you said this morning still worthwhile?"

"What in the morning?" Gu Chaoming was puzzled.

What did he say this morning?Recalling every word he said in the morning, and following the joke he made with Lin Jianfan just now, Gu Chaoming thought of the agreement he said in the morning that "if the other party gets angry at the joke, I can't forget it".

it is this?Gu Chaoming asked him, Lin Jianfan nodded.

"Ah? So you were angry just now?" Gu Zhaoming really couldn't see it. The anger was born of air, Gu Zhaoming didn't notice it at all.

Anger can be so silent, and thinking about it is something Lin Jianfan can do.

"Are you still angry now?" Gu Chaoming asked.

Lin Jianfan shook his head.Gu Chaoming really thought it was funny and confused, Lin Jianfan nodded and shook his head in front of him, there was a hint of cuteness in it.

"I'm not angry anymore, let's go eat." Gu Chaoming said.

Since Lin saw that Fan wouldn't let him lead him, Gu Chaoming respected him and turned around and walked forward after he finished speaking.

He didn't look back, Lin saw Fan stretched out half of his hand and put it down again.

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