the world in which he exists

What Gu Chaoming waited for was not Su Bing, who agreed to have dinner together, but Lin Jianfan, who had already finished his meal and was on the phone with him just now.

The expression on Gu Chaoming's face and the phone that fell on the table all showed his surprise. Why is Lin Jianfan here?

Thinking of his weird tone when he called him, Gu Chaoming couldn't help but touch his forehead. He couldn't be called because of that phone call, right?

Seeing that Fan didn't speak, Lin walked to Gu Chaoming's table and stopped.

Gu Chaoming took out a tissue from the drawer and wiped his mouth. Seeing that Fan was still standing blankly at the table, Lin pointed to the seat opposite him and told him to sit down.

Lin saw that Fan went to the opposite side of Gu Chaoming and opened the chair. He changed out of the white sweater in the morning and wore a large gray coat. The collar of the gray coat was folded down, revealing his white neck. The shadow cast by the lights in the store cast above.

Gu Chaoming had never seen Lin Jianfan wearing this dress. When Lin Jianfan sat down, Gu Zhaoming kept staring at Lin Jianfan's exposed white neck. It was not until Lin Jianfan sat down that Gu Chaoming looked back and lowered his head. Take a sip of soup.

Lin Jianfan looked a little restrained after sitting down, as if he had uninvited self-knowledge.

His eyes moved from the table to Gu Chaoming who was drinking soup opposite, Gu Chaoming just looked away from his white neck and lowered his head to drink the soup.

Lines of sight staggered and did not collide.

The store manager came over and asked him what he wanted to eat. Lin Jianfan looked at the soup in front of Gu Chaoming and said to the store manager, "Just be like him."

"Okay." The store manager finished making soup for him.

Seeing that Fan finished ordering, Lin turned his head to look at Gu Chaoming again, only to find that Gu Chaoming was also looking at him.

Gu Chaoming's eyes are straightforward, Lin Jianfan can read the questions in his eyes without asking.

How did you come?why are you here

Lin Jianfan also asked himself before going out, Gu Chaoming said not to come, why did you come?Would this be too abrupt?But he still hung up the phone and changed his clothes to go out.

Gu Chaoming looked at him, and the shock of his sudden arrival gradually subsided. Gu Chaoming felt that the reason why Lin Jianfan came to find him was because of the phone call just now, otherwise why would he come here at night.

With no other options, Gu Chaoming still hoped that it wasn't the reason for the phone call just now.

I feel weird, let alone Lin Jianfan.

Gu Chaoming picked up the snacks bought for Su Bing on the table, took out a bunch of grilled sausages and handed them to Lin Jianfan.All he bought was what Su Bing liked to eat, and he never thought that Lin Jianfan would come.

"Do you eat these?" Gu Chaoming asked Lin Jianfan as he handed the roast sausage.

In Gu Chaoming's impression, Lin Jianfan seems to like to eat sweet things, and his favorite drink is yogurt.I have never seen him eat fried or fried food at the school gate, and usually eat in the cafeteria with Li Zhao and the others.

Thinking about it this way, Lin Jianfan is really living a healthy life.When it comes to health, Gu Chaoming thinks of Lin Jianfan's special disease that he can't lean against the window. Maybe he really has some hidden disease and needs to quit?

Seeing that Fan quickly overturned Gu Chaoming's idea of ​​quitting with practical actions, he took the sausage that Gu Chaoming handed over and said, "Thank you."

Gu Chaoming was inexplicably annoyed when he heard Lin Jianfan's thank you. What he hated most at that moment was hearing him say thank you.

Lin Jianfan likes to say thank you for everything, even a small thing.

A polite thank you made the distance between the two of them far apart.

Gu Chaoming thinks that he is really used to being rude with Su Bing and Cen Xili, and you still despise them for being polite and courteous to you.

Gu Chaoming asked Lin Jianfan: "How do you know I'm here?"

Seeing that Fan took a bite of the grilled sausage, Lin said softly, "I asked Su Bing, and he told me."

When Lin saw Fan's soup being served, it was steaming hot.

No wonder, only Su Bing knew he was here.

Speaking of Su Bing, Gu Chaoming's cell phone lit up on the table.Gu Chaoming picked up the phone and looked at it. It was a message, which happened to be sent by Su Bing.

"Lin Jianfan asked me where you were, and I sent him the location." Su Bing followed with a squinting smile.

The news was really timely, and everyone was already in the store when he sent it.

Gu Chaoming returned to Su Bing: "Well, I know, he has arrived at the store. Lin Jianfan has arrived, where are you?"

Su Bing professionally replied in seconds: "I'm almost there too. On the way, don't you eat first? It's fine if you don't starve to death."

Gu Chaoming ignored him, put down the phone and met Shanglin Jianfan's inquiring eyes, Gu Chaoming explained: "It's Su Bing, he'll be here soon."

"Oh." Lin Jianfan responded.

Gu Chaoming scooped up the soup and asked again: "Why don't you call me directly? Ask Su Bing where I am?"

"I...I..." Seeing Fan stammering, Gu Chaoming drank the soup and looked up at him.

Lin Jianfan met Gu Chaoming's eyes.Gu Chaoming looked at him without hostility or blame, only doubts and the softness that comes with looking at him.

Seeing the softness in Gu Chaoming's eyes, Lin Jianfan said softly, "I think you seem to be angry."

Hearing the word angry, the question in Gu Chaoming's eyes deepened, and the question in his eyes seemed to say that it wasn't him who was angry just now.

"I'm not angry." Gu Chaoming said.

Liar, he was obviously angry just now.

Gu Chaoming went on to say: "Besides, if I'm angry, you dare not call me? Is it so scary to be angry?"

Seeing that Fan was taken aback by Gu Chaoming's words, Lin quickly said, "No, no."

"Then why don't you call me and ask Su Bing directly? What if Su Bing says he doesn't know? Are you looking outside alone?"

Lin Jianfan always has a silly and fierce energy about him.

Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan who was opposite. He was holding a string of grilled sausages in one hand, the bottom was wrapped in paper towels to prevent oil from sticking to his hands, and he was holding a spoon in the other.

If you obviously don’t want to eat the sausage, you can put it back first, maybe you are afraid that you have already bitten it, and you put it back in the box if the saliva is not clean, so you keep holding it.

He is so cautious, not like facing classmates or friends, but more like a child who is a guest at someone else's house.

When I yelled at him before, he even took the initiative to apologize, but this time when I lost my temper, he came here at night to apologize again, right?If it were someone else, Gu Chaoming might not believe it, but the opposite was Lin Jianfan, he had such a "conviction", Gu Chaoming felt that he was out of ten to apologize because he was afraid of getting angry.

If this was the case, Gu Chaoming would feel even angrier.

"Did Su Bing tell you where my home is?" Gu Chaoming asked.

Seeing Fan holding the sausage, Lin nodded.

Su Bing really told Lin Jianfan, what if Lin Jianfan came to see him one day and Gu Tao happened to be at home?

Seeing that Lin Jianfan wanted to drink soup, Gu Chaoming stretched out his hand to take the half-eaten grilled sausage in his hand, if the opposite was Su Bing, he would take it and eat it directly, but the opposite was Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming didn't know Does he have a cleanliness fetish? They don't seem to be able to eat what the other has eaten at will.

Gu Chaoming asked: "It seems that you don't want to eat it, and you don't dislike me for helping you eat it."

Seeing that Fan shook his head, Lin Jian said, "You can eat."

Gu Chaoming added embarrassingly: "I think you are taking trouble, so don't waste it."

God, what did I say!

Gu Chaoming looked calm and composed on the surface, but in fact he was roaring inside.The simple movements when he was with Su Bing and Cen Xili became extremely awkward when facing Lin Jianfan.

In the past, when I went mountain climbing with Su Bing and Cen Xili, the three of us drank a bottle of water and it was all right, but now with Lin Jianfan, we have to babble and explain a lot about a sausage.

Seeing that Fan left his left hand free, Lin watched as Gu Chaoming, who was opposite him, took a few bites of the sausage he took from his hand, and threw the bamboo stick into the trash can after eating.

Gu Chaoming had finished drinking the soup in front of him, and there was still more than half of the soup in front of him. Seeing that Fan moved the soup pot in front of him, Lin began to drink the soup.

After eating the roasted sausage, Gu Chaoming sent Su Bing a message to urge him: "Why haven't you come yet, the day lily is cold three times."

Su Bing: "Why don't you see Fan there to accompany you?"

Su Bing said he would be there soon, Gu Chaoming put down his phone and looked at Lin Jianfan.

Lin saw that Fan was very obedient when he was eating. The large gray coat set off his thin wrists, which looked even whiter under the light.

Lin Jianfan's facial features are exquisite but not feminine, and more between feminine and yang, a kind of beauty that is just right and neither.

Gu Chaoming remembers seeing him sit down once, his legs crossed like an obedient child, extraordinarily peaceful and well-behaved, but the next second he opened his legs manly as if thinking of something, opened his legs and sat down like a tough guy Then, Gu Chaoming couldn't help laughing when he noticed this detail.

Maybe Lin Jianfan paid more attention to this aspect because he was said to be unmanly by others because of his too handsome face, but he still couldn't change his innate cuteness and politeness like his father.

Gu Chaoming met Lin Jianfan's father once, a man who was equally well-mannered, with a clean suit and decent manner, a completely different world from Gu Tao.

Most of Lin Jianfan's temperament comes from the teaching and love of his family.

Gu Chaoming secretly stared at Lin Jianfan's face. His eyelashes were very long, and his clean eyes under the eyelashes noticed Gu Chaoming's peeking eyes. After blinking a few times, a smile filled his eye sockets.

Lin saw that Fan was very clean, and his appearance and temperament complemented each other, but his previous pleasing behavior did not match his appearance and temperament, like ink on white paper.

"Is this your supper?" Gu Chaoming asked.

Lin Jianfan smiled and held the spoon: "Forget it."

After finishing speaking, he added: "But I also eat a lot, my digestive system is good, and my dinner has already disappeared."

Because Gu Chaoming asked him "Have you had enough for dinner?" after being silent on the phone before, he chose to remain silent, so when it comes to having a full dinner, he still thinks he is very blatantly defending himself.

Lin saw that Fan’s concealment that he thought was indistinct was actually very obvious, and Gu Chaoming immediately understood what he meant in the extra sentence added later. Qian Hui's words gushed out again, and jumped straight out.

Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan who was drinking soup: "Lin Jianfan."

"Huh?" Lin Jianfan raised his head and saw Gu Chaoming's no longer so casual face.

Gu Chaoming said solemnly: "If you have something to say in the future, just say it directly, don't beat around the bush like this, can you? Think I can't hear it? Don't lie and say that you won't refuse me because I asked you to have dinner together. You are not full. No one will believe your lies. I am not a child. I must have someone to accompany me to eat. I will not force you. You don’t have to be so jealous of me. You have something to say in front of me. You can say it directly, you don’t need to be ignorant of rejection like those in our class. You said no to them all, just tell me directly that I ate it, and you don’t have to just because I called you, it becomes your obligation , you don’t have to please others, it will make me more comfortable to speak frankly.”

Gu Chaoming gathered what he wanted to say into a long paragraph, but after finishing a long paragraph, he still felt that he hadn't expressed what he wanted to express in his heart.

After all, the words do not convey the meaning.

Gu Chaoming said this without a break, and held it in his heart for a whole evening.

When he took the sausage from Lin Jianfan's hand and had to explain it to him before eating, Gu Chaoming felt that maybe he was too self-indulgent, and the relationship between them hadn't reached the level of being able to speak out as he said. , but only his outspokenness about Lin Jianfan's flattery.

Lin Jianfan was shocked by Gu Chaoming's sudden words, and forgot to put down the spoon in his hand hanging in the air.

Gu Chaoming looked into his eyes, looked at Lin Jianfan's clean pupils, at that moment Gu Chaoming was very afraid that it was his own sentimentality.

Too many things happened, too many things broke his understanding of the world and his original life.

In the past 17 years, he always thought that under Gu Tao's fist, it was his mother's forbearance and persistence to prevent him from becoming a single-parent family, but the reality told him that his mother hadn't broken free from Gu Tao's shackles, and now she fled in a hurry .

It's not that his mother doesn't love him, it's just that he doesn't love him as much as he thought.He thought that the person who loved him the most and had the closest relationship with him actually had her own life in a world he didn't know.

He is afraid of those unexpected things, afraid that it is just his own wishful thinking, and afraid that he cares too much about another person.

He cringed and crouched in a corner, annoyed by Lin Jianfan's lie that he was "not full".

After saying this passage, Gu Chaoming seemed to analyze the fear in his heart, and then quietly integrated it into this long passage.

With so many people in the class, Gu Chaoming only hoped that Lin Jianfan would treat him sincerely.

Because he knew that he had included Lin Jianfan in the dividing line of friends, but Lin Jianfan's ingratiating lie seemed to say: "You are no different from others."

"We are just ordinary classmates."

Just ordinary classmates.

Knowing that he told Lin Jianfan bluntly to tell Lin Jianfan not to please others, Su Bing and Cen Xili said that he spoke too bluntly.

Could it be that since then he has been meddling in other people's affairs and being self-indulgent, and Lin Jianfan is just cooperating with him to flatter him?

The night was dark, and the hero and heroine on the TV hanging on the wall of the store finally met again after various misses.The two passed by at the airport, telepathic, each turned their heads and left their luggage and ran towards each other across the vast crowd.

The time has passed and the tight embrace is speechless, only tears are rolling in the eyes.The heroine is crying like pear blossoms and rain, a super long slow-down rotation shot, accompanied by a sad theme song is even more tear-jerking.

The shopkeeper sighed and sighed: "Lovers will eventually get married."

The notes of the theme song floated in people's hearts one by one. After the hug, the hero and heroine choked up and told each other their love and regret for many years.

The plot was so complicated that it was a big hit point and ushered in the climax of the plot. Gu Chaoming didn't even listen to a single note. Gu Chaoming stared at Lin Jianfan in front of him. After he finished speaking, the two looked at each other speechlessly .

Lin Jianfan seemed to be startled by his uninterrupted words, Gu Chaoming could see his clear pupils dilated after hearing his words, and he could see more clearly under the light above his head.

Lin saw that Fan raised his eyes to look at Gu Chaoming, and only took one look. Gu Chaoming's eyes were so direct and hot that he dodged them.

Seeing Fan looking away, Lin lowered his head slightly, holding the soup ladle in the earthen pot with his hands unnaturally looking for something to do, and slowly stirring the remaining soup in the soup pot in circles .

The soup spoon swirls across the bottom of the pot, and the ingredients in the soup swirl.Lin Jianfan lowered his eyes and stared at the soup he had stirred. In the blink of an eye, his fan-shaped eyelashes fluttered, bringing emotions that Gu Chaoming couldn't understand in his eyes.

After a few months, after a few months of acquaintance, Gu Chaoming's academic performance has improved, and he is no longer confused. Compared with when he first started school, he has changed a lot, but he still can't understand the emotions in Lin Jianfan's eyes people.

Gu Chaoming felt that no matter how high his IQ was, the expression on Lin Jianfan's face was still a puzzle he couldn't solve. What's more, his IQ was not enough. He couldn't solve one or two expressions on Lin Jianfan's face. Watch him stare down at the soup in the crock.

The clips of the heroes and heroines on TV telling how they missed each other continued, and the air pressure on Lin Jianfan’s side became quiet for a moment, like a vertical cliff, like a silent avalanche.

After a long silence, neither Lin Jianfan nor Gu Chaoming made a sound, one stared at the soup on the table, and the other stared at the person staring at the soup.Neither of them moved or spoke, as if they were cut off from this conversation, only the slowly cooling soup was stirring.

Did I embarrass him by speaking too bluntly?Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan who was silent on the opposite side and thought.

"Lin Jianfan?" Gu Chaoming tried to call him, but saw that his shoulders trembled slightly, his fingers curled up and tightly held the handle of the spoon, and the soup pot was choppy.

Gu Chaoming noticed his strangeness and called him again, but Lin Jianfan didn't respond.Gu Chaoming reached across the dining table between the two of them and lightly knocked down his hand holding the soup spoon, Lin Jianfan raised his head to look at him.

Facing Lin Jianfan's raised face, Gu Chaoming couldn't help breathing, his brows were furrowed, and his whole heart was twisted.

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