the world in which he exists

A slight wind blew by, bringing a burst of birdsong in the sky.

Lin Jianfan stood outside the prison, looking up at the endless blue sky.Strands of clouds dotted the horizon, and there were no birds in sight.

The breeze blew away Lin Jianfan's hair on his forehead, and he raised his hand to wipe his non-itchy nose.

Su Bing knew that he was nervous and looking forward to it. Su Bing himself was also nervous, and so was Cen Xili who was waiting beside him.

Today is the day Gu Chaoming was released from prison.

Lin Jianfan waited nervously, making many small movements.

Finally on this day, Lin Jianfan was surrounded by a sense of unreality just like Gu Chaoming who suddenly received the news of Gu Tao's death.

The day has really come.

His teenager will come out of there soon, no need to be restrained anymore, he can walk in the sun with him, lie on the sofa and read the same book together, sleep together, eat together, and do everything he wants to do together .

His handpicked pieces of furniture are finally getting another owner.

Lin saw Fan nervously touching his hair blown by the wind, the breeze was infected by his nervousness.The breeze picked up gradually, forming gusts that lifted hair.

Lin Jianfan stared closely at the door that Gu Chaoming was about to come out of.

That door opens.

His teenager is back.

The wind blows, the clouds disperse, the leaves sound, and the old man returns.

The moment Gu Chaoming's figure stepped out of that door, Lin Jianfan walked towards Gu Chaoming quickly.

He saw him.

Saw his boy.

His juvenile smile is still bright, and the galaxy in his eyes is not extinguished.

Lin saw that all Fan's nervousness of waiting disappeared the moment he smiled at Gu Chaoming, and turned into a pool of spring water that diffused into his cognac heart.

Speeding up, speeding up, speeding up again, he ran in front of Gu Chaoming, hugged Gu Chaoming, and put his chin on Gu Chaoming's shoulder as before.

"Welcome back." Lin Jianfan hugged Gu Chaoming who was officially returned to him from this moment.

He has never been a strong person, he will only take the most stupid way when he encounters problems.For this reason, he jumped from the third floor, leaving scars all over his body, but he learned to be strong, and learned to happily spend the long nine years without Gu Chaoming's company.

In these long nine years, he has tried his best to accumulate happiness, and only by becoming a factor of happiness, can Gu Chaoming bring him more happiness after he is released from prison.

He will always remember that Gu Chaoming once said to him: "Your happiness is nameless, but mine is famous because you are by my side."

He wanted Gu Chaoming to be happy forever, so he had to be by Gu Chaoming's side forever.

I want to accumulate all the blessings in my life.

When I see you, I will tell you little by little.

But I have only one good luck,

I have to repeat it to you.

That event was meeting you.

When Lin Jianfan misses him, he often thinks of him stepping backwards, waving to him in the sun as a farewell, but Lin Jianfan remembers it very deeply.So much so that when he was bullied, and when he thought of him falling asleep, Gu Chaoming always appeared backwards and waved at him.

The first time Lin Jianfan met him, on the campus after school, Lin Jianfan remembered very clearly.In the summer breeze, he did the same, waving his arms and saying goodbye to him.

It's the same in the dream, he always likes to wave his hand when he backs up, as a farewell gesture, but this time Lin Jianfan caught him, and he hugged him.

Gu Chaoming's waving arm was not to say goodbye, but to tell him: "I am here, I am back."

Because Nobita is waiting for Doraemon to come home.

Doraemon is back home.

As Lin Jianfan expected, Gu Chaoming was unwilling to follow Qu Yingyi back to her home. After Gu Chaoming hugged and chatted with Su Bing and Cen Xili, Lin Jianfan took him home.

back to their home.

For the first time this home has had its other male occupant.

When opening the door with the key, Lin Jianfan looked back at Gu Chaoming who was following behind him, and Gu Chaoming also looked at him.

Seeing that Fan raised the corners of his mouth and smiled at him, Lin turned around and inserted the key to open the door.

Just seeing a corner of the house through the opened door, Gu Chaoming has already seen many memories belonging to them.

Those memories made Gu Chaoming want to back down a little. Seeing that Fan looked back and saw that he hadn't come in yet, Lin turned around and took Gu Chaoming's hand, leading Gu Chaoming into their home.

"This will be our home from now on." Lin Jianfan said to Gu Chaoming, holding Gu Chaoming's hand.

our home.

Familiar and unfamiliar words.

Familiarity is in what Lin Jianfan always said, and he often said that in the third year of high school. Strangeness is in that he really has our home with Lin Jianfan in the future.

Gu Chaoming looked around, he saw many life breaths of Lin Jianfan.

A coat hanging on a hanger, a book with a bookmark on the coffee table...

He saw many lives involved in Lin Jianfan's new life.

On the wall is Lin Jianfan's graduation photo, and a commemorative photo of Lin Jianfan and his roommates.Lin Jianfan told him about his roommates, three very noisy boys, and the photos of Lin Jianfan and Lin's mother traveling...

He also saw many of himself.

The photos of him playing ball, the photos of him sleeping on the table, the photos of him chatting with Su Bing outside the corridor, the photos of him in the canteen...

In this room, there are many, many him.

As soon as Gu Chaoming entered the door, he saw the red scarf on the coat rack, his heavy blanket, and Lin Jianfan smiling at him.

The seventeen or eighteen-year-old him on the photo wall is different from the grown-up him standing in front of the photo wall, and he is the one Lin Jianfan loves.

Gu Chaoming walked to the photo wall made by Lin Jianfan, and walked to the youth he could never regain, and Lin Jianfan stood behind him.

Seeing photos of himself one after another, as if flipping through his youth again, Gu Chaoming held back his tears, his heart was too easily touched.

His youth turned into Lin Jianfan's waiting, Gu Chaoming turned around, Lin Jianfan was still smiling at him.

He walked over to Lin Jianfan who was waiting for his whole youth.

He kissed the boy's lips, he hugged his boy.

The teenagers who came to the fantasy future of the third year of high school hugged each other, they kissed, they exchanged each other's breath, and they sank into deeper kisses one after another.

The atmosphere was right, one after another deeper kisses, the exchange of breath became anxious, and everything fell into place.

The atmosphere, emotion, air, and furniture all muffled shyly.

Only Gu Chaoming.

Only Gu Chaoming let go of him inappropriately at the right time, and walked away inappropriately at the right time.

Gu Chaoming walked to the edge of the sofa and sat down. His anxious breathing stopped, and the ambiguity in the air had not disappeared. Gu Zhaoming touched the soft sofa: "The sofa is very soft. Su Bing always said that our sofa is too hard."

The embarrassing tone of voice and the inappropriate topic, all showed Gu Chaoming's retreat in front of Lin Jianfan.

Unable to proceed to the next step.Seeing the emotions evoked by the photos on the photo wall, I couldn't help but touch my lips, which seemed to have crossed the line.

But they are clearly a couple.

But he is his boyfriend.

But he flinched.

Lin saw that Fan seemed to understand what Gu Chaoming was thinking, but he didn't seem to understand.

Seeing that Fan walked up to Gu Chaoming and sat down, he leaned his head on Gu Chaoming's shoulder as before: "I bought ribs, I have already learned how to make sweet and sour pork ribs, I won't miss it like you did on your birthday, it must be very good Eat, I'll make it for you."

Gu Chaoming tilted his head to the side, his ears touched Lin Jianfan's fluffy hair, and he said, "Okay."

Having studied cooking for several years, Lin Jianfan has been proficient in working in the kitchen at mealtimes and can cook good dishes.

Gu Chaoming stood at the door of the kitchen and looked at him. It turned out that this is what it feels like to watch someone he likes cook for him outside the kitchen.

Gu Chaoming wanted to go in to help, but Lin Jianfan asked him to sit down. This time, he wanted to do everything by himself, so that Gu Chaoming could see what he had learned in the past few years in the kitchen.

Bowls of delicious dishes were served on the table, Gu Chaoming looked at the dishes in front of him, he didn't know what he was thinking.

Mixed flavors, complicated and unspeakable.

Lin Jianfan picked up a piece of sweet and sour pork ribs with chopsticks and put them into Gu Chaoming's bowl, blinking and said, "Try this quickly."

Lin Jianfan was waiting for his chef Gu's comment.

The taste of sweet and sour pork ribs is not the taste of "black charcoal" at the beginning, nor is it the delicious taste he imagined, but the taste mixed with sadness and tears.

After eating the well-cooked sweet and sour pork ribs made by Lin Jianfan nine years later, tears were hidden in the eye sockets, causing the eye sockets to turn red, revealing its existence in front of Lin Jianfan who was waiting for his evaluation.

Lin Jianfan is not a person who can persuade others, and he hasn't made any progress in a few years.He thought that he could calmly comfort his roommate when he was broken in love, but facing Gu Chaoming with red eyes, he couldn't say a word.

He just followed Gu Chaoming's eyes, lowered his head and put a piece of sweet and sour pork ribs into his mouth.

Gu Chaoming's first dinner home ended in a quiet atmosphere.

Lin Jianfan felt that this would not work. He used to have Gu Chaoming who took the initiative, but now Gu Chaoming retreats.

Didn't you promise yourself that you will make up for Gu Chaoming's retreat with your advancement?So what are you doing now?In the past, when you retreated, Gu Chaoming accompanied you without hesitation, what about you?

Lin Jianfan looked at Gu Chaoming who was beside him. Gu Chaoming had bubbles on his hands and was washing a bowl with a dishcloth.

Gu Chaoming washed it for the first time, and he washed it for the second time.

Gu Chaoming washed a bowl and handed it to him. Lin saw that Fan hadn't taken the bowl, so he took a step closer to the body that Gu Chaoming couldn't get closer to. He raised his head.

Raising his head and approaching, Gu Chaoming retreated.

Looking down at Lin Jianfan's approaching face, Gu Chaoming took a step back without making a sound.

Without making a sound, Lin Jianfan's heart collapsed and roared.

Gu Chaoming rejected him.

The man who said he would love him forever rejected him.

Lin Jianfan stood where he was, Gu Chaoming saw the expression on Lin Jianfan's face, and felt guilty and remorseful as he clenched the bowl in his hand that Lin Jianfan had not taken.

Seeing Gu Chaoming's expression, Lin saw Fan smiled, and he just smiled and walked back to the pool without saying a word.

silence.

Quiet silence.

Quiet.

Silent quiet.

After washing the dishes in peace and silence, Lin Jianfan boiled hot water for Gu Chaoming to take a bath.

Lin Jianfan took out the pajamas bought for Gu Chaoming in the room and handed it to him, watching him go into the bathroom, Lin Jianfan sat on the sofa in the living room and waited.

While waiting, he cleared up the mood disturbed by Gu Chaoming's retreat, and when Gu Chaoming came out of the shower, Lin Jianfan picked up his pajamas and walked into the bathroom ignoring Gu Chaoming's words.

Gu Chaoming knew that he had made him angry.

Sofa sent away his master, Lin Jianfan, and welcomed his other master, Gu Chaoming.

Gu Chaoming sat on the sofa and meditated.

He looked at the cover of the book that Lin Jianfan hadn't finished reading on the table.He also didn't want to make Lin Jianfan angry, he didn't want to reject Lin Jianfan, that was the person he wanted to hold in his arms day and night for nine years, how could he refuse.

But he did that, he felt that he should do that, he felt that he should do that now.

Now he shouldn't delay Lin Jianfan anymore, like what Lin Ma said, don't be so selfish.

He no longer has the impulsiveness, nor the boldness, and he is no longer a teenager, and he no longer looks at problems with the eyes of a teenager.

As a young man, whoever caused Lin Jianfan to be injured, he would never end with anyone.The current him, while thinking of walking hand in hand with Lin Jianfan into the future, feels like a person like himself...

He loves him, that's why he refuses to do that.

Lin Jianfan opened the bathroom door and went to the living room after taking a shower, and saw Gu Chaoming sitting on the sofa in the living room in a daze.Lin Jianfan wiped his hair and walked to Gu Chaoming's side, and kicked Gu Chaoming's leg to make him sit over.

There was still a lot of space on the other side of the sofa, Gu Chaoming was sitting on the corner of the sofa, Lin Jian Fan kicked him to let him sit there just because he wanted to sit next to him.

Needless to say the obvious carelessness, both of them knew it well.

"Gu Chaoming!" Lin Jianfan sat in the seat vacated by Gu Chaoming, with a towel on his head, and called out his name.

Lin Jianfan called his name to tell him not to move further back, he couldn't sit in such a big empty seat alone!

Lin Jianfan moved to Gu Chaoming's side, the bath towel on his head fell on the sofa, Lin Jianfan didn't bother, he leaned close to Gu Chaoming, and sat with his arm leaning against Gu Chaoming's.

The light in the living room was shining overhead, and two black shadows fell on the sofa, one was Gu Chaoming, and the other was Lin Jianfan who was approaching.

The approaching shadow leaned towards the other shadow, and raised his hand to grab the retreating shadow.

"I'm in front of you now, we're still together," Lin Jianfan held Gu Chaoming's face and spoke forcefully to Gu Chaoming.

The rising tone seemed to be fierce to Gu Chaoming, and then fell down after rising, as if begging Gu Chaoming: "It's all over, there is a new beginning, look forward, don't look back, okay?"

Looking at Lin Jianfan who was fierce and gentle in front of him, maybe he had changed and become weaker, or maybe he had exhausted all the frivolity of his youth when he grew up, Gu Chaoming suddenly couldn't open his mouth.

Lin sees that Fan is poor at persuading and comforting people, and can only use kisses to express that you are no worse than others, and can only use kisses to express that I love you.

Lin Jianfan suddenly pulled up the hem of Gu Chaoming's pajamas, covered Gu Chaoming's head, and kissed Gu Chaoming's lips through the thin summer clothes.

Lin Jianfan let go of him, the clothes fell down, and Gu Chaoming saw Lin Jianfan's face that did not move away.

Four eyes facing each other.

The atmosphere was ambiguous and sad, the touch on the lips was very light, as light as a leaf falling, as if a gust of wind passed by.

Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan's face, Lin Jianfan didn't smile at him, Lin Jianfan looked at him with straight eyes.

The shadow that was just pulled moves, the shadow that was just pulled pulls the other shadow, and the two shadows meet.

The proper atmosphere returned, the anxious air returned, and the atmosphere of exchange returned, only the retreating Gu Chaoming did not return.

Instead of the retreating Gu Chaoming, it was Gu Chaoming who took the initiative when he was a teenager.

Gu Chaoming, who took the initiative, kissed him and looked at Lin Jianfan who was kissed by him and refused to close his eyes with tears.

Why are you crying?Why don't you close your eyes?

Because I am happy, because I am afraid that when I close my eyes and open them again, I will find that it is just imagination.

Lin Jianfan laughed when he was in high school, and Lin Jianfan cried when he grew up.Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan tightly, and tightened his arms to Lin Jianfan.

Without waiting for Lin Jianfan to guide him, he picked up Lin Jianfan and walked towards the bedroom.

When he was young, Gu Chaoming talked a lot, and he had no problem with Su Bing. In the bedroom, he was afraid of his pain and would talk to comfort him, but when he became an adult, Gu Chaoming talked a lot when he lost his youth. Still as gentle as possible.

Lin Jianfan panted and said, "Didn't you call me sweetheart before? I want to hear it again."

Gu Chaoming propped up his arms and looked at Lin Jianfan who was under him with a blushing face. Lin Jianfan's eyes were not blurred, but with anticipation, his smile mixed with the tears in his eyes.

Gu Chaoming's heart softened at once, he slowly lowered his body, and leaned against Lin Jianfan's ear, his Adam's apple twitched, and the heat filled his ears, Gu Zhaoming called softly: "Little sweetheart."

Surrounded by Gu Chaoming's body temperature, Lin Jianfan had a good night's sleep.

After waking up, touch the empty bed next to you, turn your head and look at the bedside table, leaving only a post-it note.

"The noise of making breakfast is too loud, so I won't do it. I looked at your refrigerator, you are not a person who doesn't take care of your body, and I don't need you to eat well and take care of yourself. Your self-disciplined life makes me It’s not easy to write anything. If you have nothing to write, just write some clichés.

I wish you good health, peace and joy for the rest of your life.

——Gu Chaoming. "

People on the side of the road walked quickly, and there were also leisurely old people walking, and there was an old man fishing by the pond.

Gu Chaoming looked at the shore for a while, but he didn't see any fish hooked.

The summer morning sun climbed onto Gu Chaoming's back beside the stone fence on the river bank, and Gu Chaoming was waiting for the fish to take the bait on the bank with the old man who had been fishing in the morning.

Someone is calling him, he hears a gasp, he turns his head.

He turned his head in the sunlight.

saw his sun.