the world in which he exists

Valentine's Day is closely connected with the beginning of the third year of high school, and we have to go to school the next day on Valentine's Day.In the third year of high school, I even saved the report on the start of school, so I started reviewing directly.

Last night, I sent Lin Jianfan, who was crying and fell asleep on his chest, home. Gu Chaoming's chest was wet. Fan crying face.

The candles were put away one by one, and Gu Chaoming hoped that his efforts could lift the curse in Lin Jianfan's heart, instead of just making Lin Jianfan cry.

Back on campus, the tense life of the third year of high school did not stop because of anyone.Lin's mother promised Lin Jianfan not to repeat her studies, but to continue her studies this semester.On the surface, he allowed him to go to school by himself, but in fact, he kept in close contact with Lao Chen, their homeroom teacher, through numerous phone calls secretly, and only prayed that Lin Jianfan could spend his third year in high school in peace and without any accidents.

Yesterday sent Lin Jianfan home, Gu Chaoming, who lived closer to the school the next morning, deliberately took a detour and waited for him at the bus stop where Lin Jianfan went to school.

Lin Jianfan went out early, and Gu Chaoming was earlier than him. When he saw Lin Jianfan approaching at the station, Gu Chaoming hid behind the license plate at the station to prevent him from finding out.

It's like when a child goes out to school for the first time, the mother at home is worried, and Gu Chaoming runs over to accompany him.

Not wanting to show his uneasiness so clearly, Gu Chaoming pretended to arrive later than Lin Jianfan, and even pretended that he came to the station because he had something to give him, not because he was uneasy.

Taking the yogurt handed over by Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan touched the yogurt in his hand and lowered his eyes to look up at Gu Chaoming. Gu Chaoming caught Lin Jianfan's eyes and tilted his head and smiled at him.

Back at school together, Lin Jianfan, who didn't even attend the winter vacation tutoring and even the final exam last year, walked into the classroom and immediately received infinite attention from the students.

After receiving the concern of many people in the class, Lin Jianfan had a slight smile on his lips.

He reaches far places he previously imagined.There is Yu Hangwei who dislikes him here, but more is the concern of his classmates, and Gu Chaoming who came to accompany him to school early in the morning.

Others smiled at him, Lin Jianfan smiled back at them.Yu Hangwei stared at him coldly, Lin Jianfan learned to ignore it, and Gu Chaoming, who was walking behind him, stared back for him.

A classmate asked him how his winter vacation was, Lin saw Fan responded with a smile, and after answering, he turned his head and looked at Gu Chaoming behind him, who was busy staring at Yu Hangwei who was giving him cold eyes.

Gu Chaoming has made so much effort for him, he should also learn to work hard.

This is not the first time he has thought this way. It is always easy to imagine, but difficult to realize.

He still likes to stay by Gu Chaoming's side, and he still has a sense of distrust when facing the class he has been familiar with for the past two years.

Lin Jianfan tried hard to reintegrate into this class with this sense of distrust, and tried hard to discover the rest of the beauty in this world.

Old Chen, the only one who knew of Lin Jianfan's past when he first transferred, tried to talk to Lin Jianfan and called Lin Jianfan to the office.This year, Lao Chen did not, nor did these things happen.Lao Chen only keeps in touch with Lin's mother, and he is afraid that if he asks Lin Jianfan to go to the office too much, he will put more pressure on Lin Jianfan.

Lao Chen was no different from usual. He still started school with a small speech of "Don't think it's still on winter vacation, get me back to reading", and then gave some notices, and then started the class.

There was nothing different from usual, no one could see that Lao Chen was actually very concerned about the person in his class who needed special attention - Lin Jianfan.

In class, Lao Chen didn't mention Lin Jianfan's name, and when get out of class was over, Lao Chen briefly mentioned Lin Jianfan's leave of absence and missed classes, so he had to make up for it.

Lin Jianfan nodded to express his understanding.

After Lao Chen finished speaking, Lin Jianfan told the students that they could change their seats slightly when school starts today.

"Anyone want to change positions?" Lao Chen asked on the podium.

Originally, it was best not to change the position of the third year of senior high school. It would not be of much use to change the position after the second semester of the third year of high school, and it was not Lao Chen's original intention to transfer the position.

It was Gu Chaoming who called him who persuaded him to transfer his position.Gu Chaoming's winter vacation can be described as "fulfilling". He met his mother, went to see Lin Jianfan at Lin Jianfan's house every day, and even called Lao Chen to ask him to change Lin Jianfan to his table.

"This..." This position is a bit difficult to change. They are about to graduate, who wants to change positions?

Old Chen was thinking, but Gu Chaoming came up with a plan for changing his position.

"I've already talked to Lin's mother about changing seats, and she agreed, saying that Lin Jianfan is fine sitting in the back, and I can take care of him if I sit next to him. I can take care of him, and I can also study with him. Cen Xili changed to Lin Jianfan's seat, and Su Bing was sitting behind him, the two of them knew each other well..."

Before calling Lao Chen, Gu Chaoming had proposed to change places with Lin's mother. After Lin's mother agreed, Gu Chaoming would ask Lao Chen again.

During a winter vacation, Gu Chaoming did many things that he didn't have to do, many things that he didn't tell Lin Jianfan.

Colluding with Lao Chen, Gu Chaoming was the first to raise his hand when Lao Chen said to change positions on the podium.

"Teacher, I want to sit with Lin Jianfan," Gu Chaoming said with a smile, and pretended to play tricks to keep his intentions from being too blunt. "I want to take care of the sick students in our class."

"Are you willing to be at the same table? There is also Lin Jianfan." Old Chen looked at Gu Chaoming's current tablemate, Cen Xili, and then at Lin Jianfan.

Cen Xili wanted to change positions for some reason, Lao Chen looked at him, and he looked at Gu Chaoming who raised his hand.

Gu Chaoming gave him a look, and Su Bing, Lin Jianfan's back table in the front, heard that Cen Xili could switch over, and desperately gave Cen Xili a look of "Xili, Xili, come quickly".

Cen Xili nodded in confusion, Cen Xili nodded, Lin Jianfan also nodded.

Li Zhao was a little bit reluctant to be replaced at the same table, but Su Bing, who was at the back table, was so happy that he wanted to run over to help Cen Xili move the table.

Now it's all right, Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan sat at the same table, Xi Li also came over, Su Bing thought about it, and quickly raised his hand: "Teacher, teacher, I want to sit with Cen Xili!"

Change tablemate again?Li Zhao's deskmate changed from Lin Jianfan who had been sitting with him for more than a year to Cen Xili, and will he change again in an instant?

Li Zhao glanced back at Su Bing's tablemate, and Su Bing quietly said to him, "What are you waiting for? Quickly raise your hand and say you want to sit with Shi Cancan."

Li Zhao turned his head to look at Shi Cancan again, Shi Cancan noticed that his gaze turned to him, Li Zhao immediately turned his head and said to Su Bing, "No, no!"

"Coward!"

Lao Chen was still adjusting his seat on the podium, and some other students raised their hands to adjust their seats, and Su Bing made a fuss again.

Su Bing wanted to raise his hand for Li Zhao, but Li Zhao pushed him down. Lao Chen glanced at them and reminded them.

Looking at their film in this way, it is too noisy, it should be changed.

The seats in the class have been slightly adjusted, all of which are voluntary.With Su Bing's unremitting efforts, Li Zhao moved to a position closer to Shi Cancan, Su Bing and Cen Xili were at the same table, Lin Jianfan got rid of his front table and Yu Hangwei moved to Gu Chaoming's side.

"Don't thank me, brother?" Su Bing helped Li Zhao change his position, and said with his hand on Li Zhao's shoulder.

Li Zhao opened Su Bing's hand: "Thank you ghost."

He was very tough on Su Bing, and when he came in front of Shi Cancan, Li Zhao was so cowardly that he only dared to peek at her a few times when he passed by Shi Cancan.

Su Bing shook his head and laughed at Li Zhao, and went to Cen Xili's table to help Cen Xili move things. Lin Jianfan had Gu Chaoming to help him move.After putting away the things and sitting next to Su Bing, Cen Xili heard Su Bing tease Gu Chaoming, who came to help Lin Jianfan to get things: "I only hear the newcomers laugh but not the old ones cry."

Gu Chaoming just ignored him, rewarded Su Bing with a kick and walked back to Lin Jianfan.

Carrying things through the aisle, Gu Chaoming smiled when he saw Lin Jianfan sitting beside Cen Xili in the original seat of Cen Xili.

Lin Jianfan sat beside him, and he would not let the past happen again.

He took the things and walked over to put them on Lin Jianfan's table. Gu Chaoming moved his seat and sat down. He turned his head and smiled and said to Lin Jianfan: "Sit at the last table and study hard. I have to study hard so that I can work hard." over you."

Gu Chaoming smiled brightly, Lin Jianfan looked into Gu Chaoming's eyes, he saw his own reflection in Gu Chaoming's eyes, and saw a future full of flowers and flowers.

Classwork in the third year of high school was intense and boring, and the class time took up most of the day. Gu Chaoming was serious in class, even if Lin Jianfan switched to him, he could only give Lin Jianfan some small surprises after class or during lunch break.

Gu Chaoming has no specialty, if he wanted to make Lin Jianfan happy during the lunch break, the first thing Gu Chaoming thought of was origami.

I once gave origami to Lin Jianfan in class, when they were not in the third year of high school, and Su Bing's senior sister had not yet graduated.

At noon, Lin saw Fan lying on the table to catch up on sleep. When he woke up, he saw a pile of cardboard and some folded origami on the table.

In the past, the origami was still torn from the homework. This time, Gu Chaoming bought special origami and learned several new folding methods.

Lin saw Fan lying on the table playing with the origami doll that Gu Chaoming made for him.

Gu Chaoming's fingers danced skillfully in Lin Jianfan's eyes. Lin Jianfan lay on the table with his chin resting on the back of his hand and stared at Gu Chaoming.

Just staring at Gu Chaoming's fluttering fingers, he climbed up along Gu Chaoming's arm to Gu Chaoming's neck, his eyes caught Gu Chaoming's neck and climbed up to Gu Chaoming's face, Gu Chaoming's eyes looked at the table.

The sense of light in the afternoon diffused around Gu Chaoming, just like when Lin saw Fan Chu came to class and met Gu Chaoming in the toilet.At that time, Gu Chaoming was also covered with the same light as now.

At that time, it was the light coming in from the windows behind, but what about now?

A folded little rabbit was sent to Lin Jianfan who was staring at him in a daze: "I'm a little rabbit, and I saw a handsome guy, wow, the handsome guy is so handsome, ahh, the handsome guy just smiled."

Lin Jianfan smiled cooperatively.

Gu Chaoming once said that he is good at coaxing people, Lin Jianfan took the bunny that Gu Chaoming had folded and thought that Gu Chaoming was even better at coaxing people.

A piece of colored origami becomes so interesting in his hands, and a piece of origami can also make him laugh.

Not long after, the rabbit in his hand hadn't had enough fun, and a rose was delivered to his eyes.

There are so many people in the class that it is difficult to say, when Gu Chaoming sent out the roses he folded, he only said softly to Lin Jianfan: "What I said on the night of the tour is what I want to say now."

You are a unique rose.

Holding Rose Lin and seeing Fan raise his head, Gu Chaoming is always smiling.

Seeing Fan holding the rose in his hand, Lin Jian grinned and gave Gu Chaoming the same smile.

The two smiled face to face, seeing Lin Jianfan's smile, Gu Chaoming's eyes were sore, and tears were hidden behind his eyes.

He wanted to hug Lin Jianfan, hug Lin Jianfan who finally laughed.

Lin Jianfan felt that the pain of being with Gu Chaoming in the past was compensated, and Gu Chaoming wanted to say that he was too.

Past efforts have finally paid off.

He kept working hard and constantly enlightening Lin Jianfan just for Lin Jianfan's smile.

Now he's heading in that direction.

Can't do anything in the classroom, Gu Chaoming began to worry, anxious to make the time pass faster and go home for dinner sooner.

Waiting anxiously, time passed more slowly, and finally waited until school was over. Gu Chaoming quickly took Lin Jianfan home, and completed the idea he wanted to complete at noon as soon as he started.

Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan from behind, and carried him to the living room. The moment he hugged Lin Jianfan, he was eager to grow up.

Urgently want to be alone, want to wrap Lin Jianfan in his arms to protect him well, don't need to cover up, don't have to endure all the time.

He wanted to go back to their home with Lin Jianfan every day.All the housework is thrown to him, he cooks, Lin Jianfan watches TV, he washes the dishes, Lin Jianfan eats, even wayward Gu Chaoming will pamper him.

Willfulness is what Gu Chaoming most wants to see in Lin Jianfan.

He wants to live under the same roof as Lin Jianfan, without heavy study, without complicated troubles, just the two of them, he hugs Lin Jianfan to sleep, takes a bath with Lin Jianfan, on the bed, on the sofa, in the bathtub, The kitchen has left their mark.

Now they are just teenagers, and they are just students who stay in school for half of the year and don't know anyone except teachers and classmates.

They are about to graduate, and they are getting closer to their desired future step by step.

Apart from the good expectations for the future, Gu Chaoming also understands that there will definitely be setbacks in the good future.

They will eventually reach out to more people and a wider world.In that world, among those people, there are many people who are better than him, and many people who are more upward than him.

Gu Chaoming knows that he is just a small speck of dust floating in the world, and in the vast world, Lin Jianfan will meet better people who are thousands of times better than him, who can shine among thousands of specks of dust glowing people.

He doesn't have the strength to compete in front of those people. The only thing he can compete with is that he met Lin Jianfan earlier than them, and competes with Lin Jianfan's love and trust for him.

It's not that he has no confidence in Lin Jianfan's love. The moment he was with Lin Jianfan, he already knew that he would never let him go, and he also believed that Lin Jianfan's love for him would never change.He just wants to make himself better, so good that he even takes it for granted that Lin Jianfan loves himself.

Thinking of this, Gu Chaoming, who wants to grow up quickly, has enough motivation again.

After eating together and going back to school, neither of them told Lin's father and Lin's mother the address of Gu Chaoming's home—their nest.

Lin Jianfan went home for dinner with Gu Chaoming every day, and Gu Chaoming felt that Mama Lin seemed to be aware of it, but Mama Lin didn't say anything.

The wind of winter brought the news of spring. There was something that happened before. Lin's mother promised Lin Jianfan to go to school in the morning, but someone had to pick her up at night.

Lin Jianfan did not object, and Gu Chaoming sent Lin Jianfan to the car every day after evening class.Mama Lin said to send him home, but Gu Chaoming didn't want to expose his and Lin Jianfan's home, so she kept rejecting Mama Lin's kindness.

Not only was he afraid that Lin's mother would know the address of their home, but Gu Chaoming was also afraid that Lin's mother would feel that he would not be able to live alone if he knew that his parents divorced and did not live with his mother, and his father didn't know where he was. Tell Lao Chen about it.That would cause a lot of trouble, so Gu Chaoming simply told Mama Lin that his father had returned home and that he didn't live alone.

He sent Lin Jianfan to the car again, and waved to Lin Jianfan by the window.As the car started, Lin Jianfan's gaze was still glued to the car window, watching Gu Chaoming's figure getting farther and farther away.

It was like this every time, Mama Lin drove the car and didn't say anything when she saw it.

The relationship between the two children was beyond her expectations.

No matter how good the relationship between classmates and friends is, Mama Lin could not have imagined that it would be so good.

It's not that Gu Chaoming is kind to Lin Jianfan, Lin Jianfan will also make Lin's mother feel that her son is responding.

Gu Chaoming would come to see Lin Jianfan every day in the winter regardless of the wind and snow, and Lin Jianfan would rely on him and stare at his figure by the car window.

Lin Ma peeked at her son in the back seat. He and Gu Chaoming were not like friends, but more like a bond.

A special bond.

Lin's mother just felt that when she returned home and stared at her son's back as he entered the room, she didn't ask any more questions.

She dared not ask.

She lived up to the trust of Fan once, and chose to trust their head teacher. That wrong distrust made her unable to ask as much as she used to.

Walking into the room, Lin Jianfan didn't notice his mother staring at his back.Lin Jianfan dug out his homework and carefully took out the origami that Gu Chaoming gave him today in his schoolbag.

Origami is easily crushed in a schoolbag. Lin Jianfan put the origami in the outermost pocket and protected it when he returned home, but a Pikachu was still crushed.

Gu Chaoming likes origami, Lin Jianfan is like collecting Gu Chaoming's origami, every time Gu Chaoming gives him origami, he will put it in a box.

Today's origami included his favorite Pikachu, but unfortunately it was crushed. Lin Jianfan sat on a chair and carefully pulled the deflated Pikachu away bit by bit.

Be careful, the folded paper is very fragile, Lin Jianfan pulled it a little harder, and Pikachu cracked a seam.

Lin saw Fan's fingers pause, as if his heart had been torn apart, and hurriedly tried to make up for it.In a hurry, he seemed to see a lump of black things inside Pikachu, like words written with a black pen.

After confirming again and again that it was written by Gu Chaoming, Lin Jianfan tried to take apart the Pikachu that Gu Chaoming had folded, and spread out the origami that he had torn apart.

A small line of writing was written on the creased yellow origami paper.

"Look forward, don't look back."

What he once said on Gu Chaoming's birthday.

is now written on this yellow origami paper.

Lin Jianfan thought of something, took the box he specially used to store the origami that Gu Chaoming gave him, and unpacked all the origami that Gu Chaoming gave him during this period of time, Lin Jianfan discovered that each piece of origami There are words written by Gu Chaoming to him.

Sheets of colored origami piled up on the table, and Lin Jianfan read them one by one, like reading a letter written by Gu Chaoming.

Reading letters is like physical labor. It used up most of Lin Jianfan's strength. After reading all the letters, Lin Jianfan propped his hands on the table, tears lingering in his eyes, he tried his best to hold back but a drop fell on the yellow paper Crack a slit in origami.

"Look ahead, don't look back."

It says so on the yellow origami paper.

Gu Chaoming is too bad, his lacrimal glands are too fragile.

Then look forward, don't look back.

Lin Jianfan tidied up the origami on the table, folded one by one and put them in the box.Clean up the origami on the table, clean up your mood, and clean up your past.

In the past, Lin Jianfan thought that there was no light ahead, and it was always dark. Later, he saw Gu Chaoming who had been waiting for him for a long time in the endless dark corridor. Gu Chaoming smiled and stretched out his hand to him with the light of the rising sun.

His lips opened and closed, and he was saying, "Don't be afraid, I'm with you."

He held the hand that Gu Chaoming extended to him, and he would run forward, leaving the past behind, never looking back.

That night he had a dream. He dreamed of the Grim Reaper. The Grim Reaper was dressed in a black robe, not the cold and cruel appearance in the movie. The Grim Reaper sat down and had a long talk with him.

Death asked: "Don't you want to see me? You have called me many times, so I am here, and I will take you away. Come on, child, the world is ugly and not worth staying."

Lin saw Fan opened his mouth looking at the god of death.

He said: "The water is really cold, but there is a boy who is very warm, I am reluctant."