the world in which he exists

There was a break in the gust of wind, and the fine snow fell. Lin Jianfan locked his arms tightly and hugged the big blue fat man in his arms.

The scarf around his neck that warms his neck is red as opposed to the blue Doraemon, but it is the warmest color Gu Chaoming gave him.

The winter day removed the sweltering heat of the summer night, and Gu Chaoming, who was wrapped in a huge doll costume, didn't feel the slightest chill.The long-lost angle of view in the headgear made Gu Chaoming bumpy, and he spoke very loudly to Lin Jianfan, fearing that Lin Jianfan would not be heard by the doll costume.

Covered by the hood for most of his vision, Gu Chaoming saw Fan Tonghong's eyes in the fine snow all over the sky, and endured the tears.

He saw Lin Jianfan rushing over to hug him.

Snowflakes fell on the top of Doraemon Yuanyuan's head, on the roof of the shelter, and on Lin Jianfan's fluffy and thick hair.

He hugged Doraemon and tiptoed to kiss Doraemon's eyes.

That was the only way for Gu Chaoming in the doll costume to see the outside world.

That night, he saw Lin Jianfan's fluffy head and handsome face through the place where Lin Jianfan kissed.

That was the first time he thought they met.

Doraemon hugged Lin Jianfan who hugged him back.

Doraemon touched Lin Jianfan's head, he didn't want to see Lin Jianfan hold back his tears.Although he used to always hope to see Lin Jianfan laughing, but now Gu Chaoming hopes that he can cry bitterly, no longer suppress, and vent everything with tears.

If Lin Jianfan wants to endure like this again, it is definitely not Lin Jianfan who went crazy first, but him.

He couldn't take it anymore.

His youth should have been shining forever, but now he puts away his own light and regards it as darkness.If the world fails him, he will make up for that disappointment by himself.He believed that even if he had been trampled on and dusted off his body, his youth would still shine brightly.

Gu Chaoming in Doraemon's doll costume made up his mind a long time ago that he wants to take Lin Jianfan together towards the future where the light that dispels the haze is shining.

Take him to see the blossoms in his name.

Doraemon prepared for this for a long time, had nightmares all night, and was "cared for" by Lao Chen.

Doraemon let go of Lin Jianfan who was hugging him, the warmth in his arms disappeared instantly, and the cold wind took the opportunity to enter.

Lin, who took a step back, saw Fan in a daze, and looked at Doraemon who let go of him.

Doraemon fumbled in his universal pocket.

Gu Chaoming took Doraemon to tease Lin Jianfan together. When Lin Jianfan was looking forward to what Doraemon would take out of his pocket, Doraemon groped for a while and took out the palm of his hand. But nothing.

There is air floating over the palm of the hand, like the wind blowing away the things Gu Chaoming took out.

Lin saw the disappointment and doubts in Gu Chaoming's plan on Fan's face, and Doraemon showed a look of surprise, "Hey, why is there nothing, what I took out?"

Exaggerated body movements, pretending to search everywhere, Doraemon seems to think of a way, stretching out his arms to make Lin Jianfan laugh with tears and so on.Lin Jianfan waited with anticipation, watching Doraemon fumble in its universal pocket again.

Fumbled and fumbled, and fumbled for a letter.

There is a wind blowing over the envelope, and the winter wind is also mild.The envelope was turned upside down, Lin Jianfan took it cautiously and suspiciously, took the envelope and raised his eyes to see Doraemon who asked him to turn over the envelope, his eyes fell on the snow-white envelope again.

Turning over the envelope, Lin saw that Fan only took a look, and the tears that he held back forced out of his eyes again.

The envelope is not fancy, and in order to write on the envelope, Gu Chaoming also specially practiced the copybook.

The words on the envelope were clean, upright and handsome, and each stroke was written extremely seriously.

There are very few words on the envelope, just fill in what should be filled normally.

Sender: Gu Chaoming

Recipient: Lin Jianfan

Sender's address: Unhappy Lin Jianfan

Recipient's address: Happy Lin Jianfan

The line of sight shifted to the zip code—it was the day they met.

The day he first went to check out the new school.

In the hospital, he once received a card with only a string of numbers from Zhu Shengquan. It was a special day, so special that Zhu Shengquan didn't have the courage to write other words on the card.

Maybe he thought that was romantic and that Lin Jianfan loved him, but Lin Jianfan only felt humiliation, disgust, and nausea.

He smashed the vase, and the shattered glass lay in puddles.

The vase shattered, and his nightmare was horribly intact.

How he wished that his past could be fragmented in his memory like a broken vase, so that he would not have to endure it anymore.

His patience was worth it, Lin Jianfan thought, after many days and nights of patience, he received a letter from the past to the future from a Doraemon on a windy winter day.

There was a sentence written on the envelope.

"Doraemon found Nobita,

The little prince returned to his rose,

Then Mr. Lin Jianfan, would you like to accompany me to see the world of flowers and brocades? "

I would.

Just looking at the envelope, Lin Jianfan was already in tears. Lin Jianfan nodded desperately, and the tears that he couldn't wipe away with his hands pressed down on the ground.

Doraemon signaled Lin Jianfan, who was crying, to open the envelope. The envelope was so thin that there was almost nothing there. Lin Jianfan raised his hand to wipe away his tears and opened the envelope.

There was a ticket lying quietly in the envelope, Lin Jianfan took out the ticket, the destination of the ticket made him feel afraid.

It was the city he wanted to escape from.

He escaped from that city through untold hardships, but Gu Chaoming gave him a ticket to go back?The envelope also says to go and see the world of flowers and brocades together?Is there the world he said is full of flowers?

Seeing that Fan's hand holding the ticket was shaking slightly, Lin looked up at Gu Chaoming to find an answer.

Gu Chaoming would not harm him, he knew it.

Gu Chaoming took off his hood and walked in front of Lin Jianfan, holding Lin Jianfan's slightly trembling hands, looking at each other, Gu Zhaoming said to Lin Jianfan sincerely and firmly, "Don't be afraid, I will go with you, Let's face your past together.

"I was as scared as you when I told you those words from the bottom of my heart at the seaside, so there is nothing to be afraid of, I will always be here and accompany you to overcome those fears.

I said that I want to accompany you to see the world full of flowers and flowers. I can take you to travel now, I can take you to see the sea, the river, and the mountains, but are you really happy in that way?After being happy, you will not think of the past. Will you be so happy forever?

The best way to overcome fear is to face it directly. I will give you this ticket. I want to go to that school with you and help you defeat the fear you left there. After defeating it, I will take you to see the sea, river, and Mountain, the world in your eyes at that time is a world full of flowers and brocades. "

In a passage, there are Gu Chaoming's prepared lines and Gu Chaoming's impromptu performance.In short, Gu Chaoming felt that what he said was very messy, and it was a bit different from what he planned, but fortunately he did not digress.

Gu Chaoming stared at Lin Jianfan's teary eyes and said this, staring at Lin Jianfan's eyes, the fear was taken over by tears.

"You used to accompany me to escape from my dad, now let me accompany you and escape from the past with you, okay?"

Dongfeng was moved by Gu Chaoming's gentle and affectionate words, and gradually softened.

Lin saw that Fan's eyes were red and the fear in his heart was floating, but he still nodded.

With Gu Chaoming around, he believed he could do it.

With permission, Gu Chaoming raised his hand and wiped Lin Jianfan's tears with his hand wearing a doll suit and glove.When Lin Jianfan cried when he saw the words on the envelope, he was already so distressed that he wanted to give up the idea of ​​going to Lin Jianfan's original school later and hug him.

That was just temporary comfort, he wanted to see Lin Jianfan's permanent smile.

It used to be so easy, but now it has become a luxury.

Gu Chaoming had prepared everything during the winter vacation, and Lin Jianfan could start with a nod.

Gu Chaoming took off the doll costume, took Lin Jianfan and boarded the train to that city without notifying Mama Lin.

On the train, Gu Chaoming advised Lin Jianfan to sleep for a while if he was tired. Although Lin Jianfan didn't sleep well last night, but thinking that he was approaching the city a little bit, he felt uneasy and refused to fall asleep.

Lin saw that Fan refused to sleep, Gu Chaoming held his hand and almost fell asleep by himself.The two who also didn't sleep well held each other's hands. The moving train could easily make people drowsy. Gu Chaoming forced his eyes to open a movie.

He didn't want this trip to be like Lin Jianfan's bitter hatred for that city, he hoped to create an atmosphere for Lin Jianfan like traveling with him, to bid farewell to the pain of the past.

This is the most risky and brutal method, and it is also the most effective and fastest method that Gu Chaoming can think of.

The train brought them closer to Lin Jianfan's past, and Gu Chaoming's adventures and hopes.

The light and comfortable atmosphere that I worked hard to create disappeared at the first step in that city.

In the slightly cold winter wind, the dry air breathed into Lin Jianfan's nasal cavity, which was the first warning this city gave him.

Seeing that Fan sneezed when he got out of the car, Gu Chaoming helped him pull up the scarf to cover his mouth and nose, so as to keep out the cold air.

I told my mother that I wanted to sleep at Gu Chaoming's house, but I just wanted to spend a day in Gu Chaoming's company with Gu Chaoming's company just like the days when he "disappeared".Lin Jianfan never thought that he was not covered with the warm thick blanket of Gu Chaoming's house, and that he would set foot on this land again.

Back in the city where he lived, Lin Jianfan wanted to lead the way after getting off the car, but Gu Chaoming led him through the city as if he had lived here.

Gu Chaoming inquired about the route very carefully, and learned about the school's location, school closing time, whether it is a holiday, and so on.

Gu Chaoming knew that he was stupid and road-crazy, and he was someone who could still get lost in the city where he had lived for 17 years, so he checked the location and route again and again, I don’t know how many times he checked, and he was still flustered when he actually went on the road.

Walking on unfamiliar streets and seeing strange people, Gu Chaoming felt the feeling of Lin Jianfan's first visit to their school and the city he lives in now.

Everything is strange, the wind in the air and the weeds on the roadside are all strange.

Walking through an unfamiliar street, feeling Lin Jianfan's nervousness beside him, Gu Chaoming was even more sure that he was heading in the right direction.

Already seeing part of the school's buildings, Lin Jianfan beside him was so nervous that his breathing became more and more rapid.There was no one around by the school wall, Gu Chaoming held Lin Jianfan's hand tightly to give him the strength to face it directly.

The palm was held, Lin Jianfan looked up at Gu Chaoming, Gu Chaoming nodded to him with a smile.

Like in a dream, only in the dream will Gu Chaoming appear in the same scene as the building behind him.

There have been countless dreams, and the dreams are full of Gu Chaoming's figure.He always carries light all over his body, he is the symbol of light, take him to escape from the school behind him, and tell him who is about to jump from the rooftop: "Don't give up, I will wait for you in the future."

Are countless dreams of saving yourself going to become reality today?

Gu Chaoming was more skillful than Lin Jianfan and led him to the back door of the school, hugging his legs and letting him turn over.

"How do you know this can pass?" Lin Jianfan, who turned over, asked Gu Chaoming who jumped off the wall.

It wasn't like this when he was in school.

Gu Chaoming smiled and said nothing.Gu Chaoming wouldn't tell Lin Jianfan that he had searched all the school's post bars, forums, and Weibo, searching for all kinds of news from the students' speeches.A quick understanding of this school will inevitably lead to reports about Lin Jianfan's incident, as well as discussions among some students, some of which were speeches made by Lin Jianfan when he did not leave the school.

Some said he was self-inflicted, some said he was shameless, and some even said that he made money by taking color photos. All kinds of rumors were like a feast of gossip.

In the feast, people can get admission tickets by talking about Lin Jianfan's words without saying anything, and those who don't talk will not be eligible for admission.Someone shakes the red wine in the glass and tries to be the most outstanding protagonist in the banquet. What they drink is the red wine, but what they spit out is sewage that would be considered dirty by the sewer.

Gu Chaoming closed the webpage angrily. He kept all these from Lin Jianfan, and it was impossible to mention them to Lin Jianfan.

After successfully entering the school, Lin saw that Fan's ability to pretend to be calm was too clumsy, and Gu Chaoming saw through it at a glance.Gu Chaoming's effort to calmly comfort him was too clumsy, so Gu Chaoming simply gave up, took Lin Jianfan's hand directly, turned around and told him with a smile: "It's okay, I'm here."

This is the first time for Gu Chaoming to visit this school that he has been inquiring about for half a month. There will never be a second time, and neither will Lin Jianfan. He will bring Lin Jianfan here to solve all the difficulties at once.

Following the route in memory, Gu Chaoming walked to the teaching building seen in the pictures on the Internet. Gu Chaoming held Lin Jianfan's hand even tighter. This is where the nightmare started.

Most of the classrooms were empty. Gu Chaoming knew which class and classroom Lin Jianfan was in, and Gu Chaoming knew everything about Lin Jianfan thoroughly. He even saw the unsightly photos that someone posted.

Famous quotes are hung on the stairs of the teaching building, which is similar to the design of all schools.Gu Chaoming led Lin Jianfan to the front as if he was on an adventure in a haunted house.

Step by step up the stairs walked in those miserable days.Gu Chaoming is the warrior leading him, he looks around in a panic but still pretends to be calm.

He even remembered which section of the stairs he was caught by a classmate who grabbed his hat and cursed at him, remembered which turn he went downstairs to run exercises, and was deliberately squeezed into the corner to step on his shoes, and remembered which floor he was on, and it was raining from upstairs. paint water and hear their laughter.

One flight of stairs can carry so many painful memories for him, Lin Jianfan felt that he was going crazy, but he still pretended to be calm in front of Gu Chaoming.

He didn't tell Gu Chaoming or his parents about many, many little bullyings, because compared to the scandals that were well known in school, these were not hot spots.

Is there nothing wrong if there is no explosive point?Poke your head first and then slap you, because the slap is heavier, so poking the head is not wrong?

Some things are wrong from the start.

School violence is also divided into severity, but the word violence is originally a wrong start.

Just walking up the stairs, Lin saw that Fan's red and swollen eyes were filled with fear and panic after crying, but as soon as Gu Chaoming, who was walking in front, turned his head, he saw a standard smiling face again.

You are really good at fake smiles, Gu Chaoming wanted to tell Lin Jianfan.

Gu Chaoming's eyes are very sharp, he can dissect Lin Jianfan's smile, like a doctor who is good at surgery.He could distinguish Lin Jianfan's smirk and judge Lin Jianfan's panic.The third kind of smile from Lin Jianfan that he wanted to see the most was resisted by Lin Jianfan's fake smile.

Gu Chaoming only took Lin Jianfan to the teaching building and did not dare to take Lin Jianfan to other places. He was afraid that if he went to too many places, he would not be able to control Lin Jianfan and would make Lin Jianfan hurt himself.

Wanting to make a quick decision to reduce the harm, Gu Chaoming led Lin Jianfan into the corridor. The doors of the classrooms in the corridor were closed, and Gu Chaoming couldn't open the door, so he could only wait and see from the window.

Walking to the door of Lin Jianfan's class, Gu Chaoming stopped.He turned his head, and Lin saw that Fan had already looked into the window.

Inside the window was the place where his nightmares gathered, the place where his favorite yogurt smell could not suppress the darkness, and the place where laughing demons gathered.

Lin Jianfan's gaze was fixed on the classroom inside the glass window. His gaze seemed to show that he was not afraid. Only he knew that it was the darkness that was attracting his eyes and he was not allowed to move away.

The desks and podiums, blackboards and chalks in the quiet and deserted classrooms are all common school equipment, which seems to be nothing special.

There's nothing special about them, it's just the people who use them that make them special.

It is something special in Lin Jianfan's heart that will never be forgotten.

The classroom inside the glass window is a replayed movie, wide open windows, ugly words on the desks and desktops, exaggerated laughter, knocked down desks, and a corner of the photo in the book.

The person who jumped from the window.

"boom."

A blood-red flower bloomed in the garden downstairs.

There are countless panicked faces upstairs.

Goodbye.

He was lying in the flowerbed with a smile. He said goodbye to himself and the world. At that time, he thought he was going to die, but the world brought him back to life and made him meet Gu Chaoming.

Gu Chaoming waited for him at the interface between the future and the present, and he stood at the place where the light source came to pick him up and let him put down the burden on his back before taking him to see the blossoming world behind the light source.

Lin saw Fan's palm touching the upper window glass, it was cold, Gu Chaoming turned his head to look at him.

He knew that Lin Jianfan was talking to his past self.

The glass was cold, but Lin Jianfan still touched it for a long time.Gu Chaoming looked at the classroom inside the window, the hand on the glass window suddenly disappeared, and the people around him suddenly ran away with their backs to him.

Seeing that Fan was running fast and in a hurry, Lin saw that Gu Chaoming's reaction couldn't keep up.

A second ago, he was looking at the classroom in the window, and found that there was no one around him. Gu Chaoming immediately followed Lin Jianfan who ran away.

Thinking that there should be no danger just going to the teaching building, and there is nothing that can hurt Lin Jianfan.Gu Chaoming found out that he could turn into the school through the back door, but no matter how much he checked, he still couldn't know that there was a problem with the lock on the roof of the teaching building.

It was a secret that only they knew. Lin Jianfan, who was dragged to the rooftop to teach him a lesson, also knew it by accident, but Gu Chaoming, who followed him, didn't know it.

The stairs on the roof are places he is familiar with, and he has run up these stairs many times.

Running up is like jumping off the building, and it is the pace of standing on the edge of the roof and not daring to jump off.

Rolling down the stairs was their so-called lesson, knowing that there was a problem with the school roof lock was "told" by those who taught him a lesson.

With exaggerated laughter, he was kicked down the stairs again, leaning his back against the wall at the corner of the stairs, watching them unscrew the door leading to the rooftop.

The dark staircase was instantly filled with light, and the door leading to the roof was facing him.On the stairs, like a door to heaven.

Sunlight fell on his battered body through the door leading to the balcony.He was forced to fall through the gate to heaven, and he saw the rooftop for the first time, and it became a place where he hesitated many times afterwards.

It seemed that the secret was well hidden, and the school still didn't know there was a problem with the roof lock. Lin Jianfan stepped on the stairs leading to the roof.

Gu Chaoming was overwhelmed by the school's twists and turns.

I don't know when there was no one behind him. Lin saw Fan slowly stepping up the stairs leading to the roof step by step. He had been running for the previous section, and this step slowed down for some reason.

An entertaining movie was shown in the stairwell leading to the rooftop.

He is the protagonist.

Everyone else is a supporting cast.

The protagonist is always huddled in the corner, and the laughing boys and girls on the stairs are reflected in his pupils.

The protagonist runs fast, as if being forced, and after a while walks down again with heavy steps, as if giving up.

Lin saw Fan stepping up a flight of stairs. He remembered that he was wearing a pair of sneakers that day, which his grandma bought for him.The old man heard other people's grandsons say that young people's shoes are real and fake, and the competitive grandma foolishly refuses to make mistakes in these areas, and even if she doesn't understand, she listens to the grandson who loves shoes and asks him to help buy them.

It is not filial to jump out of the window wearing the shoes bought by grandma.

He became that unfilial grandson.

Stepping up the stairs again today, he is wearing ordinary sneakers.He is not a person who is very particular about shoes, and he blames these shoes for being too heavy, making his steps extra heavy.

He walked slowly on the first flight of stairs, and when he reached the last few steps, Lin Jianfan stopped, and the door to heaven was in front of him.

Lin Jian Fan stopped where he was and looked at the closed door, looking, looking.

The door leading to the roof is an indifferent bystander, it is silent, it is calm, and it will never be indifferent.

Lin saw Fan walking up the last few flights of stairs, holding the doorknob, twisting it, and the cold winter wind blowing in his face, messing up his hair.

The sky was not bright, it was gray, and there seemed to be billowing dark clouds.A thin layer of snow was covered, and when they got off the car, the snowflakes were falling one after another, and it has not stopped until now.

Lin Jianfan walked up to the roof and left his first footprints on the smooth thin snow.

Step by step, the soles of the shoes were stained with snow, and there were a series of footprints behind him.

The strong wind blows, the familiar hesitating place, the memory rushes to my face.

Mom, I really can't hold on anymore, why don't you come?

Will there be light in the distance?Or is it still dark?

I haven't had yogurt today, I can't die.

Guoguo...

Is everything going to be fine if you jump down?

Everything started because of me?

Is it that if I disappear, the pain of the parents will disappear?

Short-term pain is worse than long-term pain. After I disappeared, the pain was gone.Gu Chaoming also doesn't need to worry about him so carefully and carefully, and doesn't need to visit him every day.

He can prepare for the college entrance examination and go to the university he wants to go to with peace of mind.

All because of him.

in case……

If you jump down again...

Not the third floor, not the window sill, but...

Lin Jianfan unknowingly walked to the edge of the roof, leaving a string of footprints behind him.

"Doraemon finds Nobita, and the little prince returns to his rose. Will Mr. Lin Jianfan accompany me to see the world full of flowers?"

"Turn around you and you are mine."

"Go to hell!"

"You are very good, much better than you think, you know? Maybe others think you are not good, but in my heart you are the best."

"You said you were happy to see me, and I want to say that I am too."

"Just think about me if you have nothing to do."

"Don't be afraid, I'm here."

"Do you like me?"

Yes, I like you, and I would like to see the world of flowers and flowers with you, but... I don't seem to like myself enough.

The past was shown in my mind, when I walked up the stairs, the hero of the movie was me, and when I walked to the rooftop, the hero of the movie was replaced by Gu Chaoming, who had just turned into Doraemon and brought him here.

When Lin Jianfan was immersed in the past and didn't pay attention, the hero of the movie finally stepped onto the rooftop.

Tears fell through time and space, one drop fell on the bricks downstairs in the past, and one drop fell into the big red scarf.

The scarf is bright red, which is Gu Chaoming's color in his life.

Bright Hong hugged him from behind, desperately pulling him away from the rooftop.The red fireworks were hot, burning Lin Jianfan's skin, and Lin Jianfan fell into his scorching heat.

A trail was left on the snow, and Gu Chaoming turned over Lin Jianfan only to find that Lin Jianfan's eyes were red and swollen, and the sticky snowflakes on his face were melted by tears.

Gu Chaoming was stunned, as if seeing Lin Jianfan who was hesitating on the rooftop in the dark life that he could not participate in in the past.

How much he wanted time to send him to the side of Lin Jianfan in the past, let him hug him, let him meet him earlier.

Time cannot be reversed, but it can still be cherished now.

Before Gu Chaoming had time to comfort Lin Jianfan, Lin Jianfan turned around and saw his face, and immediately threw himself into his arms, grabbed him with both hands and cried bitterly, and said hoarsely: "Why, why do I work so hard to please others? Bully me, am I not supposed to be born in this world?"

Gu Chaoming's heart ached to burst.

Gu Chaoming hugged him fiercely, comforted him, kissed him, and told him: "Everything will be fine."

"Is life really going to get better?

"Will do."

"Will anyone like me?"

"Life will get better. Everyone likes you, and I will love you too. Even if life doesn't get better, I will love you and love you forever. Can you live because of me?"

When he jumped out of the window for the first time, he was surrounded by endless ridicule and urging, and when he jumped for the second time, he was surrounded by Gu Chaoming's warm embrace.

The wind was whistling in his ears, and Gu Chaoming said to him: "It will get better, even if life doesn't get better, I will always be nice to you. I used to want to commit suicide when I was in Tianqiao, but when I think of you, I feel like I'm a bit reluctant, so can you be reluctant for me once?"

Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan tightly, his arms strangled Lin Jianfan almost out of breath.Gu Chaoming wanted to rub him into his body and protect him with his own flesh and blood, but even so he was afraid that he would not be able to protect him.

Gu Chaoming was helpless, he didn't know who to throw his fist at.He was afraid, afraid that he was immature and unable to protect him.

He was not afraid that Lin Jianfan would leave him, but he was afraid that Lin Jianfan would suffer. He couldn't see his perfect young man suffering any more.He frowned slightly, and Gu Chaoming felt that his heart was about to be broken by him.

It was the first time Gu Chaoming fell in love with someone, and it was the first time he classified others into the category of lover.Su Bing understands him best, knowing that once a person like him is defined, he will never change, no matter how bitter it is, as long as that person smiles, it is sweet.

To put it nicely is affectionate, another word is paranoid.Paranoid people are most afraid of deep affection, but Gu Chaoming has both, and they are all towards Lin Jianfan.

When Gu Chaoming saw Lin Jianfan standing on the edge of the roof, he was really scared. He had never been so scared. He had never been so scared when Gu Tao slashed at the door with a knife.

What he fears most is losing him.

"It's okay, they won't come after us, there are only two of us here."

Gu Chaoming spoke hurriedly, not allowing himself to give Lin Jianfan any chance to speak, he was afraid that if he stopped, he would hear Lin Jianfan say that he didn't want to live.

Gu Chaoming had no choice but to be powerless. He could only tell Lin Jianfan how beautiful the world was and how much he loved him over and over again.

"It's all over, it's okay, I'm by your side."

Seeing that Fan had no chance to interject, Lin felt Gu Chaoming's panic.

Gu Chaoming's panic is called fear of losing him.

He doesn't like himself, but Gu Chaoming likes him so much.

He used to think that everything would be fine if he committed suicide and died, but now as long as he has you hugging and comforting him, everything will be fine.

Gu Chaoming was so anxious that he almost shed tears, Lin Jianfan turned and touched the corner of Gu Chaoming's eyes.

"I'm fine, I'm just...just...suddenly..."

Before he finished speaking, he stammered, Lin Jianfan didn't know what he was going to say, he bumped into a chest, Gu Chaoming hugged him tightly.

Lin saw Fan's chin resting on Gu Chaoming's shoulder. It was winter, the winter wind was howling, and his eyes were dim with tears, but he looked at the scorching sun, and saw the scorching sun slowly rising in the gray sky.

After leaving school, Lin Jianfan was in a hurry to go home. Gu Chaoming prepared two things, one was to reserve a room, and the other was to go home at Lin Jianfan's request.

After returning home, Gu Chaoming bought a sleeper ticket specially. It was already pitch black outside the car window. There was no sunset or river reflection. Seeing Fan lying on the car window and looking out the window, Lin asked, "Everything will be fine, right?"

On the way home, Gu Chaoming kept looking at him, thinking about how much he had suffered, Gu Chaoming felt distressed.

A seed cultivated by indifferent and violent soil is still blooming in front of him. Even if the rainstorm comes, he will cover his roses in a flower cover and use his body to protect him. Like a thorn, the wind is like a knife.

"Everything will be fine." Gu Chaoming said.

He once wanted to kill, but now he saved a person and gave a person life light and meaning.

Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan's cheek and kissed him, then arched his neck: "Thank you for overcoming the past hardships and coming to my side."

Life will get better, and we will get better, just like wounds always heal, and if they don't, I'm willing to be the blood scab on your wound.

Lin Jianfan held Gu Chaoming's hand all the time, and getting such a warm answer from him, Lin Jianfan touched Gu Chaoming's face that was rubbing against him.

The train returned bit by bit, taking him back to his favorite city.

From unfamiliar to familiar, Gu Chaoming was by his side in that city.

Gu Chaoming was too exhausted to plan for him to let go of his past plans these days, so he endured it and fell asleep on the way home. He lay on Lin Jianfan's lap, and Lin Jianfan carefully looked at his sleeping face.

"My name is Gu Chaoming, the retrospective Gu, the sunny morning, the bright Ming."

Gu Chaoming briefly introduced himself.

Lin saw Fan caressing Gu Chaoming's face, Gu Chaoming lived up to Qu Yingman's expectations.

He finally became his rising sun, illuminating his future.

"Lin Jianfan, I hope I can see a world full of flowers."

Their names bear the expectations of their parents, and this small expectation is not worth the cruelty of the world, but they work together to build a world with bright sun shining and flowers blooming.

They used to be in different abysses, but they reached out to each other, hoping to take each other away from the darkness with their incomplete selves.

Lin saw that Fan returned to his favorite city, where he was also bullied for helping others, maybe it was just jumping from one abyss to another, but there was light under the abyss to support him.

Leaving the city in his memory, leaving the school in his memory, Lin Jianfan woke up the sleeping Gu Chaoming to get off the car.

His voice is soft.

The cold and darkness are far away, but you are the warmth within my reach.