the world in which he exists

The wind and snow stopped suddenly, and the sky without snowflakes was piled up and dark, like ink poured into the sky, about to be pressed down.

It was only eight o'clock in the morning when I left home, so I didn't go out early to meet Lin Jianfan.Gu Chaoming hugged the big box he brought out from home, and got off the bus with both hands full.

As soon as I got off the bus, the cold winter wind rushed into my arms without giving me any face.Crossing the road with the suitcase in his arms, Gu Chaoming walked into a shop by the side of the road.

"Here we come." The shopkeeper looked up and saw that it was him who pushed the door, and smiled at him.

Gu Chaoming nodded, politely.

The store was not too busy, so the owner came over to look at the cardboard box Gu Chaoming was holding in his hand, pointed to the cardboard box and asked, "Just this thing?"

Gu Chaoming nodded again: "It's troublesome."

The shopkeeper smiled heartily: "What's the trouble? You young people like to do these things. Next time, show it to Auntie to see what kind of person can capture our little Gu's heart."

Gu Chaoming had worked in this store for a long time when he was in junior high school. The owner of the store knew Qu Yingyi and almost regarded Gu Chaoming as his second son.

A few days ago, Gu Chaoming asked her for help, and she readily agreed.Knowing that Gu Chaoming asked her to help, she never stopped looking.

"I'm not going to confess." Gu Chaoming said to the gossiping aunt.

"Don't be embarrassed, Auntie just opened the store, and there are only the two of us in the store, no outsiders." Auntie said.

"Not really."

"You still say no, your face is red."

"It was blown red by the wind on the road just now."

Auntie always made fun of him, Gu Chaoming wanted to put something here, but was ridiculed by Auntie one after another.

Gu Chaoming had no choice: "Auntie, don't make fun of me, I have a partner."

After speaking, he immediately went to the back to put things away, so as not to be teased by his aunt again.

Auntie was busy in the front, and looked up at the glass door. As soon as Gu Chaoming came out after putting away his things, he heard Auntie sigh: "Hey, it's snowing again. I don't know when the snow will end this year."

Hearing the sound and looking out the door, the fine snow was falling, adding a thin layer of new clothes to the white snow trampled into black by the roadside.Pedestrians on the road are in a hurry, their faces are all red from the cold.

It's snowing again.

Countless how many snows this year.

After thanking his aunt, Gu Chaoming walked to the bus stop.

A black umbrella slowly moved towards the station. Gu Chaoming held the handle of the umbrella and stretched out his hand wearing the gloves of Lin Jianfan's couple to catch a few snowflakes. The snowflakes melted on the gloves and disappeared soon.

Seeing the bus coming from not far away, Gu Chaoming didn't care about the snowflakes that disappeared from his gloves, and walked quickly to the station with an umbrella in his hand to catch the oncoming bus.

Shake the snow water sticky on the umbrella, choose a seat to sit down.After sitting in the car for a while, the heater warmed up his cold hands and feet, and Gu Chaoming looked out the hazy window.The gray sky, the fine snowflakes that keep falling.

The bus reported the name of one stop after another, and he didn't sleep well last night, Gu Chaoming was drowsy in the warm car that kept moving forward with the air conditioner on.

Getting in this car was the real way to pick up Lin Jianfan. The windy and snowy day still couldn't stop Gu Chaoming from walking.

He was so sleepy that he leaned back on the car seat for a short nap, Gu Chaoming didn't dare to sleep for too long, he was not familiar with this route, and Lin Jianfan didn't take this bus from school to Lin Jianfan's house.

Sitting on an unfamiliar bus, Gu Chaoming got up from his seat when he heard the station where he was going to get off, and an old lady got off the bus with him.The old lady was holding a cane, and Gu Chaoming was afraid that the road would be too slippery due to the snow, and the old lady would fall.

After getting out of the car, the winter wind blew mercilessly, Gu Chaoming raised his hand to adjust the scarf, hoping that the strong wind would stop.

I don't know if God heard his strong desire. When Gu Chaoming walked to the door of Lin Jianfan's house, the strong wind gradually weakened, intermittently, the fine snow stopped for a while, and then smaller and smaller snow stars fell.

The weather is like a joke.

Gu Chaoming looked up at the still gray sky, and rang the doorbell of Lin Jianfan's house.

As usual, it was Mama Lin who came to open the door, Mama Lin welcomed him into the house and was going to make tea for him to warm up.

After saying thank you, Gu Chaoming turned around, the door of Lin Jianfan's room opened a small crack, Lin Jianfan stood behind the door and slowly poked his head out.

Seeing the expression on his face, Gu Chaoming seemed to be saying, "Why did you come here?"

Gu Chaoming looked at the clock in Lin Jianfan's living room.

It's a little past nine o'clock, and it's not too late.

Looking in the direction of the kitchen, Mama Lin was washing teacups in the kitchen, Papa Lin was still not at home, Gu Chaoming walked to Lin Jianfan's door and looked at Lin Jianfan who was waiting for him in the crack of the door.

Opening the door, Lin saw that Fan Li was standing by the door and did not leave.

Gu Chaoming just arrived, turned around and closed the door, with a pair of arms around his waist, and a piece of warmth on his back.

Lin saw Fan's head pressed against Gu Chaoming's back, and his arms hugged Gu Chaoming's waist tightly: "I had a nightmare yesterday."

I couldn't tell my mother, and I didn't want to see my mother's worried expression, so I could only push my mother back to the room to sleep.Repressed feelings and fears are always about finding a home, and that home must be reliable and trustworthy.

In the past, the home of Gu Chaoming's feelings and fears was the forest in his heart, while the home of Lin Jianfan's feelings and fears was him.

It was the boy who promised him that he would take him out to play today.

Lin Jianfan woke up early, and the heavy dream did not allow him to sleep for a while.Woke up from the dream of having Gu Chaoming at six o'clock in the morning, and didn't get up until eight o'clock.

It's not that I'm lazy, I just don't want to worry my mother.

Waking up early is also afraid that his mother will see his nightmares from the time he sleeps less.

Only Gu Chaoming can make him tell everything.

After closing the door, Gu Chaoming touched Lin Jianfan Huan's hand on his waist. Instead of comforting Lin Jianfan and saying "it's okay", what he said was: "Didn't you say that dreams are always reversed?"

"I also dreamed about you yesterday, and I had a good dream." Lin Jianfan said again.

Gu Chaoming imitated Lin Jianfan's persuasion and said: "Then the dream will come true."

Sweet dreams have come true because I waited until you came to pick me up and I hugged the teenager of my dreams.

Hearing the sound of the living room door opening, Lin Jianfan was already standing by the door and waiting.Gu Chaoming walked into the room after talking with his mother, no one else, Lin Jianfan couldn't help hugging him anymore.

After enduring all night, I finally saw him and wanted to hug him, thinking that I couldn't control it.

Gu Chaoming turned around and hugged Lin Jianfan, wanting to comfort him with a hug and help him drive away yesterday's nightmare.When Gu Chaoming turned around, Lin saw that Fan's hug was getting tighter and tighter, and wanted to hug him and cling to him for peace of mind.

The two hugged silently in the quiet room, Gu Chaoming bowed his head and kissed Lin Jianfan's hair.

When kissing Lin Jianfan's top, Gu Chaoming suddenly smelled the peach fragrance in the air again.

He remembered.

He knew why he could smell a peach scent every time.

On the TV at night, the youthful and ignorant Gu Chaoming surrounded the TV, while Qu Yingyi sat on the sofa and told him not to make trouble.

Qu Yingyi pulled him back to the sofa, and the scene of the male and female protagonists kissing on TV made Qu Yingyi blindfold him, but Gu Chaoming still saw it through the gap between Qu Yingyi's fingers.

Gu Chaoming remained silent.

The peach-flavored hard candy in his mouth was chewed into pieces.

Taking a deep breath, the nostrils are filled with the aroma of blended peaches.

Recalling the peach fragrance that he had forgotten when he was a child, Gu Chaoming raised the corner of his mouth and kissed Lin Jianfan's head again.

The short-term dependence, hugging each other tightly, the arms are stained with each other's body temperature.

Mama Lin's knock on the door suddenly sounded amidst the quiet embrace.

The two were forced to separate by a knock on the door. Gu Chaoming opened the door, and Mama Lin stood outside the door with brewed tea and snacks.

"I'm afraid you didn't eat, so I prepared some more snacks." Lin Ma walked into the room with a plate and put it on the table.

"Thank you, Auntie." Gu Chaoming said.

"Then you guys talk first, I'll go out first." Ever since she began to believe that Gu Chaoming was not "the second Zhu Shengquan", Mama Lin was very relieved of Gu Chaoming.

"Auntie," Lin's mother put away her snacks and was about to leave the room, Gu Chaoming called to stop him, "I want to take Fan out today, is that okay?"

"Go out?" Mama Lin turned around and asked.

Gu Chaoming nodded, Lin Ma looked at Lin Jianfan who had been sitting by the bed and hadn't spoken a word. Lin Jianfan had never been out of the house after being sent home by Gu Chaoming. Lin Ma looked at Lin Jianfan and knew that she shouldn't be like this. Knowing that Lin Jianfan also wanted to go out to get some air.

I shouldn't be like this, I shouldn't deprive my son of his freedom like a gangster, he should also go out on vacation like an ordinary seventeen or eighteen-year-old child.

But she was worried, Zhu Shengquan had already appeared, when he thought there was still a kind-hearted classmate.

All the past made her haggard, fragile, and vulnerable.She could no longer bear another blow from Lin Jianfan.

You are just using good excuses for him to protect your own fragile heart. Lin's mother often reflected in her heart when she saw Lin Jianfan's locked door.

She could feel that Lin Jianfan believed in Gu Chaoming.Can I hand over Jian Fan to him, and let him take Jian Fan back to his previous appearance?

Mama Lin glanced at Gu Chaoming who was inquiring. Gu Chaoming was a tall, polite and sunny boy.

Lin Ma felt Gu Chaoming's sunshine from the inside out, although Gu Chaoming himself didn't feel it at all, he just wanted to make himself less irritable.

Mama Lin looked at Gu Chaoming, who was a bit stiff at first glance: "Okay, you can take him out to play."

It was beyond Gu Chaoming's imagination to get Mama Lin's permission so easily, and all his preparations to persuade Mama Lin were useless.

Lin Ma's quick agreement was not only unexpected by Gu Chaoming, but also by Lin Jianfan.

After staying at home for dozens of days, Lin Jianfan never dared to bring up the door, because he was afraid that his mother would not let him, even though he felt silently depressed at home.

He has been watching the heavy snow outside from the window of the room, and even the psychologist has come to treat him.

Now that he agreed, Lin Jianfan stood up boldly and asked, "Mom, can I stay at Gu Chaoming's house for one night today?"

Lin Ma's quick agreement surprised Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan, and Lin Jianfan's words shocked Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan.

"To Gu Chaoming's house?" Mama Lin asked for confirmation, pointing to Gu Chaoming in Lin Jianfan's words.

Gu Chaoming was in a state of shock and bewilderment.

"I want to go to his house to play." Lin Jianfan said.

Go to Gu Chaoming's house to play?Go to the home that Gu Chaoming didn't tell anyone after he disappeared?Like the home of their secret base?

As soon as Lin Jianfan mentioned Gu Chaoming's home, Lin's mother remembered the time when Lin Jianfan disappeared, Gu Chaoming didn't tell them his home address, and she kept sending text messages to Gu Chaoming.

Gu Chaoming finally sent Lin Jianfan back, didn't he?Mama Lin looked at Gu Chaoming again.

Gu Chaoming was even more cautious, Lin Jianfan's words made his heart suspend.

Jian Fan believes him very much, doesn't he?Lin's mother thought that seeing Fan was willing to go, and with Gu Chaoming's company every day, Lin Jianfan's mood improved significantly.

You believe him yourself, don't you?In a short period of time, Mama Lin asked herself.

"Okay, come back early and don't cause trouble for others." Mama Lin tried to tell her like an ordinary son visiting a classmate's house.

Hearing Mama Lin's answer, Lin Jianfan burst out laughing.Seeing Lin Jianfan's smile, Lin's mother stared for a long time.

At home, she has never seen Lin Jianfan smiling like this at this moment. She can feel that seeing Fan is really happy from the heart, not just superficial, born to make them happy.

Shouldn't Jian Fan be treated as a special child?Shouldn't he be suspended from school?Shouldn't he use friendly classmates and a beautiful world to let him understand that the world is not only muddy in the past, but also has a bright future waiting for him?

Lin Jianfan's smile made Lin's mother fall into deep thought.

She used to take Lin Jianfan too closely because of the past, and she herself knew that it was wrong.She resigned to be a housewife, half of which was companionship and the other half was surveillance, fearing that Lin Jianfan would be hurt again.

Under her surveillance, Lin Jianfan was still hurt, but he also had friends who were willing to visit him every day regardless of the wind and snow.

Shouldn't I do that again?

Could it be that my own kindness makes Fan feel that home is not a place where he can be free?

Mama Lin had sensed it a long time ago, and had asked her heart to heart, but she had never dared to face the answer.

Lin Jianfan's smile was evidence that forced her to face it.

Mama Lin sighed inwardly, as if she had let go of something, she felt a little more relaxed in her heart, she smiled at Lin Jianfan who was smiling: "Tell Mama when you go out, Mama is going out first."

Mama Lin walked out of the room and told Gu Chaoming to eat more snacks before going out.

Close the door with a bang.

Separate the joy inside the door from Lin Ma's tears falling silently outside the door.

"Why do you want to go to my house?" Mama Lin went out and Gu Chaoming walked up to Lin Jianfan and asked.

"Did you miss me? Want to stay with me longer?" Gu Chaoming asked with a playful smile in front of Lin Jianfan.

Lin saw Fan hammering him: "You still ask if you know."

Gu Chaoming covered his chest: "Hey, ancestor, are you using so much energy? I'm also fleshy."

Seeing Gu Chaoming's gesture of covering his chest, Lin saw Fan was so frightened that he quickly withdrew his hand and asked Gu Chaoming how he was doing.

He didn't use much force, he didn't know whether to use such force to hold an egg.

Lin Jianfan worriedly pulled away Gu Chaoming's hand covering his chest, and Gu Chaoming rubbed his face: "I'm lying to you, why are you so easy to deceive..."

Why are you so easy to deceive?There is another sentence at the end, Lin saw that Fan couldn't hear it, so he was too anxious to hear it again.

The latter sentence was blocked by Lin Jianfan on Gu Chaoming's lips, making it disappear from Gu Chaoming's mind at once.

Gu Chaoming couldn't keep his lips free, and stared at Lin Jianfan who was close at hand and closed his eyes.

Lin Jianfan is very anxious recently, whether it is emotional or desire, Gu Chaoming can feel it.

Lin saw that Fan didn't speak eloquently, but was in a hurry. Gu Chaoming seemed to hear his depression and see his anxiety in his hasty style.

Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan, and answered his anxiety with peace of mind, and his darkness with brightness.

The kiss was over, but Gu Chaoming was still hugging Lin Jianfan who was panting, as if he had just returned from the snowstorm outside the house, as if he had returned to his embrace after traveling for a long time.

Such a hug is just to tell Lin Jianfan.

Don't give up, there is still someone waiting for you, not waiting for your return, but waiting for your warm embrace.

I just want to tell him that you are not useless in this world, and your hug is the end of my journey home after the storm.

Gu Chaoming hugged Lin Jianfan: "Don't look back, look forward."

Although I can't help you get justice with all my strength, I can still use my warm hug to make you smile again.

Lin Jianfan in his arms burst into beautiful tears one after another.He embraced Gu Chaoming's arms, with his head pressed against Gu Chaoming's chest, tears were in his eyes, Lin Jianfan did not allow them to bloom on the floor.

Saying goodbye to Lin Ma and taking Lin Jianfan out, walking on the way to the station, the process was so smooth that Gu Chaoming felt that the snow on the roadside was fake, and Lin Jianfan beside him was also fake.

The journey was still long, and after getting on the bus, Gu Chaoming advised Lin Jianfan to lean on his shoulder and sleep for a while if he was sleepy, and he would wake him up at the stop.

Like Gu Chaoming, he didn't sleep well last night. Lin Jianfan leaned on Gu Chaoming's shoulder and fell asleep peacefully.Gu Chaoming looked at the snow outside which was so small that he couldn't see it, then looked at Lin Jianfan on his shoulder, stroked Lin Jianfan's head, and straightened Lin Jianfan's hair.

The bus was about to arrive at the stop, and Gu Chaoming woke up Lin Jianfan softly.Seeing that Fan walked away from Gu Chaoming's shoulder, Lin saw that he sat up and was still not fully conscious, and there were circles of red things around his neck.

He took a closer look at the red scarf he had given to Gu Chaoming, with Gu Chaoming's body temperature on the scarf.Lin saw Fan sitting on the seat with a scarf on, his nose buried in the scarf on purpose, smelling Gu Chaoming on the scarf.

This scene was seen by Gu Chaoming, who smiled silently and took him out of the car.

"Where is this place?" Seeing that Fan was not familiar with the place, Lin got out of the car and looked around.

Back to the place where he had visited once in the morning, Gu Chaoming took Lin Jianfan across the road, and dragged Lin Jianfan to a place where he had already stepped on a shelter from the wind.

The strong and sometimes small wind is blocked outside the wall, but there is still a cold wind blowing from the front that cannot be resisted.

The conditions were poor, so Lin Jianfan had to be taken to a shelter where there were no people.Originally, he planned to take him to his aunt's shop and use any reason to comfort his classmates, but the aunt asked left and right and thought he was confessing, so Gu Chaoming had no choice but to choose another location.

Old Chen said that he didn't pay attention to tutoring, and he spent most of his mind on these things, how could he pay attention to tutoring?

"You wait here for me, I'll go buy something to eat." After Gu Chaoming finished speaking, he was afraid of revealing his secrets and immediately ran away with Dongfeng, leaving Lin Jianfan alone with a head full of question marks that Dongfeng couldn't blow away.

The winter wind is gloomy and cold, even if the cold wind blows at the shelter.Hiding in a little, blowing a little less wind, the scarf around the neck is as burning as its red color.No matter how thick the cotton clothes are, they cannot match the warmth of the red scarf around the neck.

That was Gu Chaoming's temperature, like a ball of fire, like a beam of sunshine.

Lin saw that Fan lowered his head and buried half of his face in the scarf, where his temperature merged with Gu Chaoming's.He wanted to go to Gu Chaoming's house, but Gu Chaoming took him to this unknown place.

Gu Chaoming must have had his intentions in bringing him here, Lin Jianfan looked up at the gray sky that seemed to be crushed down, the surroundings were gray, and the air was also gray.

Lin Jianfan never doubted Gu Chaoming, but Gu Chaoming had been there for a long time.Lin saw Fan and others seemed to be abandoned in the gray air.

Seeing that Fan's face was buried in the scarf, Lin wanted to shrink into it when he suddenly heard a muffled voice calling him.

Lin saw Fan stuck his head out and walked towards the source of the sound.

No matter what, Lin Jianfan could tell that it was Gu Chaoming's voice.Gu Chaoming called him in a muffled voice, Lin saw Fan walking out of the shelter, a gust of winter wind slowly blowing across his cheeks, freezing his ears.

Seeing the person who made the muffled voice, Lin Jianfan stopped in his tracks and stopped not far from Gu Chaoming.

It shouldn't be Gu Chaoming, it should be Doraemon.

A Doraemon stood in front of him, like that extremely hot summer night on the first day they first met.

That summer night, the T-shirt was wet with sweat, and a child asked him innocently: "Why is there no Nobita in Doraemon?"

He saw him picking up children from the hot doll costume, and he helped him pick up leaflets helplessly in the crowd.

At that time, he was world-weary and let it go.

At that time, he was violent, manic, and disobedient.

He resisted violently, but fell into a warm embrace.

Lin Jianfan pulled him back when he was on the verge of losing his mind, and pulled him behind him to protect him when facing Gu Tao.On the birthday beach, the sun is so bright that it can penetrate everything in the world.

They yelled at the seashore.

"Go to hell!"

He once pulled him by the sea and said, "You are my sun."

Lin Jianfan is the sun in his life.

In such a back and forth life, being able to see Lin Jianfan is the reason for him to look forward to life, but in his unknown world, his light has already been scarred, and the person who made him still look forward to life is actually Live in a hell more miserable than him, waiting for his salvation.

Wearing Doraemon's doll costume, Gu Chaoming stopped on the spot and looked at Lin Jianfan and said, "You know what? I wish I was Doraemon so that I could have a time machine and go back to that time. to protect you."

Throughout the winter vacation tutoring, Gu Chaoming has been thinking of ideas to let Lin Jianfan understand the importance of him to him and cheer him up.

An idea cancels an idea and puts it on paper.

Lin saw that Fan's eyes were red, and the tears opened in his eyes again.

"But I'm not Doraemon, and I don't have a time machine, and I can't go back. I can only protect you now. Are you willing to give me this chance?"

Would you like to give me this chance?

Like a marriage proposal "Will you marry me?"

Seeing that Fan didn't nod or shake his head, he answered in the affirmative with firm steps.

He rushed over and hugged Doraemon who belonged to him alone.