the world in which he exists

Gu Chaoming has been self-willed many times in his life, skipping classes, not studying, and smoking... At that time, he was too young and ignorant to realize his self-willedness.Su Bing once called those self-willedness "short-term freedom". The first time Gu Chaoming felt that he was too self-willed was when he promised Lin Jianfan not to tell Lao Chen where their home was that night.

Before sending a text message to Old Chen, he had told Su Bing and Cen Xili, who were the only ones who knew where his home was, not to tell Old Chen his address.

He repeatedly emphasized that it would be strange for them to wake up and see the news the next day, Gu Chaoming thought.

Willfully agreeing to Lin Jianfan's willful request, and following his will willfully, Gu Chaoming did not have enough confidence to persuade Lin Jianfan to go home.

He is just a young man who has just turned [-]. Although he has taken care of himself since he was a child and can take good care of everything in Lin Jianfan's life, he has never been in contact with spiritual problems, and he doesn't know what to do.

He knew that Lin Jianfan was emotionally fragile and sensitive, and Lin Jianfan could think about a careless word from others for a long time.Gu Chaoming was afraid that when he was careless or couldn't help falling asleep, Lin Jianfan would run away with him behind his back, or he would do something to hurt himself in their home when he was not paying attention.Perhaps it would be safer for Lin Jianfan to be with his parents, but Gu Chaoming still willfully did not tell Lao Chen's address, and willfully stayed at home with Lin Jianfan for two days.

For two days, Gu Chaoming's cell phone was on silent, Lao Chen sent him countless messages, Gu Chaoming could only tell him that Lin Jianfan was fine now.

From the punctuation marks of Lao Chen's text messages, it can be seen that Lao Chen is getting more and more angry, and Gu Chaoming doesn't want to make him angry, but he has no choice.

After replying to Lao Chen's text message, he went back to the bedroom to look at Lin Jianfan who was still sleeping soundly on the bed, and touched Lin Jianfan's forehead to see if the fever had subsided.

It was still a little hot, and when I got up, I wanted to take Lin Jianfan to the hospital for a look, but Lin Jianfan closed his eyes and shook his head to refuse.

Lao Chen's text messages kept coming one after another, and Gu Chaoming was too busy taking care of Lin Jianfan to respond.Cen Xili and Su Bing also sent messages from time to time to ask what was going on.Gu Chaoming didn't tell them, just said it was nothing.He promised Lin Jianfan that he would not tell others.

With the continuous text messages, Gu Chaoming pulled the quilt for Lin Jianfan who was asleep, looked at Lin Jianfan's sleeping face, and smiled.

He just received a text message from Mama Lin.

"Your mother made it sound like I took you to elope, not taking you to elope, but forcing you to elope." Gu Chaoming said softly to the sleeping Lin Jianfan.

Old Chen and Gu Chaoming could still handle it, but Mama Lin, Gu Chaoming's subordinates deleted and deleted the reply messages, and the text messages they sent tried to show that they were non-aggressive and really thought of Lin Jianfan.

"Auntie, I will persuade him, and I will not harm him..."

Almost every message starts with Auntie, and every text message is a long paragraph. It seems that the more words there are, the more Mama Lin will believe him. It seems that the more words, the greater the reassurance.

During the conversation with Mama Lin, Gu Chaoming learned that because Lao Chen couldn't get through to Gu Tao, he wanted to call Qu Yingyi, but Qu Yingyi also changed his phone number and couldn't get through.Seeing that he was about to call Qu Yingyi, Gu Chaoming suddenly panicked.

He didn't want Qu Yingyi to know about it, she didn't need to.

"Auntie, my father and my mother have divorced. I don't know where my father is. My mother has remarried. I would like to ask you not to contact my mother. I don't want to disturb her because of my affairs. I also know If I do this, you will be very worried and embarrassed, but please believe me, I also want to see Fan get better, I have been taking care of him, and I will also contact you..."

Two people in one room, countless text messages and phone calls.

They seem to be isolated from the world and only exist in this hut.

I don't know whether it was Lao Chen who persuaded Mama Lin or Mama Lin herself was reasonable, but Gu Chaoming refused to let them contact Qu Yingyi, Mama Lin agreed to him, and chatted with him by message, waiting for his news.

Mama Lin is a reasonable person, but it also depends on what kind of person the other party is.If Gu Chaoming was not sincere, but was like Lin Jianfan's class teacher who refused to admit his mistakes and was tough with her, Lin's mother would be even stronger than before when she went to the teacher's house to beat the teacher.

She also sat at the desk dignifiedly and worked, but what happened made him have to take inappropriate methods to protect his son.

There was an incident where Zhu Shengquan sent flowers and Lin Jianfan went crazy. Lin's mother no longer believed in any so-called classmates and friends, so Lin's mother never believed in Gu Chaoming. Lin Jian was wary of Fan when he returned home.She was afraid that Gu Chaoming was just a "good friend" on stage, and she was afraid that Gu Chaoming would harm her son.

Until Gu Chaoming told her not to contact Qu Yingyi, Mama Lin received a long text message again.Old Chen told her that Lin Jianfan and Gu Chaoming played very well at school, and that Gu Chaoming was also a very good child. What Old Chen said only made Lin's mother think that Old Chen lied to her to appease her. All her friends are potential "Zhu Shengquan" in her eyes.

The flowers that Zhu Shengquan sent back then were still the vases she put in beside the hospital bed by herself.

She once ignored Lin Jianfan's appeal for help, and only advised him to get along with his classmates.She once inserted Zhu Shengquan's flowers into the ward without understanding.The many mistakes she made made her realize that she didn't care enough about her son. She made two mistakes, and she didn't want to make the third time, so she was very aggressive towards Gu Chaoming until she saw that Gu Chaoming told her not to tell him Lin's mother relented a little.

Maybe the boy who took his son away from him was really as sensible as old Chen said, and would really take good care of Lin Jianfan as he said.

Should I trust him?What if he is pretending?What if he becomes the second Zhu Shengquan?

A long and sincere text message won a little trust from a mother who cared most about her son, just a little.Lin Ma didn't completely trust Gu Chaoming when they talked, but she couldn't help it, but she also hoped that her son could make friends who really took care of him as described in Gu Chaoming's text message.

Lin Jianfan not only needs maternal love, but also friendship.

Mother Lin suspected Gu Chaoming, but also hoped that he was really Lin Jianfan's best friend, and that he could bring Lin Jianfan back to her.

The parents were anxious, the teacher was anxious, and Gu Chaoming faced all the accusations and questions, while the client slept comfortably on the bed all morning and woke up at noon.

Gu Chaoming didn't want him to see so many caring text messages, it would only make Lin Jianfan blame himself even more. Gu Chaoming took his mobile phone away, but Lin Jianfan didn't ask for it after he woke up.

"Want to eat? If you don't have an appetite, I'll make porridge and eggs." Gu Chaoming brought pajamas for Lin Jianfan who woke up to put on.

Gu Chaoming touched his forehead, it was not as hot as in the morning, so he felt relieved.

Lin Jianfan didn't even need to stretch his hands. Gu Chaoming raised his hand to help him put it on. When he was pulling the zipper, he heard Lin Jianfan say, "Am I really like a child who can't take care of himself now? I need you to give me the clothes." I wear."

"Wear it well so you won't catch a cold..." Gu Chaoming turned around and took his pants for him.

Seeing Fan shrunk his nose and laughed, Lin saw, "I've already caught a cold, so I'm not afraid of catching a cold..."

Hearing Lin Jianfan's laughter behind him, Gu Chaoming turned his head.

Lin saw Fan's smiling face. He was sitting on the edge of the bed, wearing the padded jacket he put on, his hair was messy just after waking up, and he was smiling foolishly.

He smiled.

Obviously wept so hard yesterday.

Gu Chaoming was ready to take care of the silent Lin Jianfan, but Lin Jianfan just woke up and was still sitting on the bed and smiled at him.

Gu Chaoming didn't know what to do for a while, he hoped that Lin Jianfan's smile was not to make him worry, but because he really felt comfortable when he said those words to him yesterday.

He didn't know what kind of Lin Jianfan he was, but Lin Jianfan's smile really easily gave him the illusion that Lin Jianfan was still the same Lin Jianfan from before.

After being with him, before meeting Zhu Shengquan, the willful Lin Jianfan in front of him.

Lin Jianfan who got up did not choose to eat, but chose to drink porridge and eat eggs. Gu Chaoming asked him to eat more, and asked him if he wanted to continue to sleep after eating?

"I want to watch some TV." Lin Jianfan said to Gu Chaoming, who was cleaning up the dishes, while rubbing his full belly.

"Well, look first, I'll come over to accompany you after I finish washing the dishes."

Lin Jianfan turned on the TV and nestled on the sofa and pressed the remote control, while Gu Chaoming secretly looked at him on the sofa while washing dishes in the kitchen.

Lin Jianfan looked the same as before, even the station he chose was the same, if there was no what happened yesterday, Gu Chaoming would not be able to see any flaws.

After washing the dishes and washing hands, he went to the room and took out a blanket to cover Lin Jianfan who was watching TV. He sat beside Lin Jianfan and watched yesterday's replay with him.

The blanket was big enough to cover the two of them. Gu Chaoming covered himself with the blanket, and then pulled the blanket for Lin Jianfan that didn't fall off.

"It's really warm." Lin Jianfan said.

"Of course, such a thick blanket." Gu Chaoming said while helping Lin Jianfan pull the blanket.

"I'm talking about you." Lin saw Fan sitting beside Gu Chaoming shoulder to shoulder, getting too close.

Under the warm blanket, Lin Jianfan took the initiative to hold Gu Chaoming's hand tightly, clasping his fingers tightly.He leaned on Gu Chaoming's shoulder in the closest way.

The floor-to-ceiling curtains were drawn tight, and they didn't know the weather outside the window. A door and a curtain separated them from everything outside.

Lin Jianfan just held Gu Chaoming's hand, held his heart and sat on the sofa watching TV with Gu Chaoming.

Under the blanket, the bodies of the two approaching each other, Gu Chaoming thought that persuading Lin Jianfan to go home in this atmosphere would not irritate him.

Gu Chaoming slightly lowered his head to look at Lin Jianfan who was leaning on his shoulder.Hands stroked his hair.Gu Chaoming's voice softly called his name like the warmth under a blanket: "See Fan."

"En." Lin Jian Fan responded, looking at the TV instead of him.

"You said you didn't want to see your parents worry about you, but if you don't go home like this, it will make them worry even more." Gu Chaoming said.

Gu Chaoming has never been a person who is good at persuading people. He can only speak when he is talking to others, and he has to use his brains to organize his words to persuade people.

"I know." Lin Jianfan said.

Lin saw that Fan's sudden answer blocked all the words Gu Chaoming wanted to say later, and Gu Chaoming had to skip the middle step and ask him directly: "See Fan, shall we go home?"

"Okay." Lin Jianfan looked at the colorful colors on the TV, he didn't look at Gu Chaoming, what he said was good.

Lin Jianfan was simple and direct to make Gu Chaoming feel weird, but he couldn't help it.He didn't dare to speak bluntly to Lin Jianfan like before, and didn't dare to tell him directly that he didn't need to do that in front of him because he didn't want to see Lin Jianfan smile at everyone.He was afraid that his disobedient mouth would lose control and say something that would burden Lin Jianfan.

First persuade him to go home, let his parents feel at ease, and then slowly think about the next step.

When Lin Jianfan didn't agree, Gu Chaoming didn't have the confidence to persuade Lin Jianfan to go home.Lin Jianfan agreed without hesitation, but Gu Chaoming felt that he had not done what he wanted to truly persuade Lin Jianfan to go home.

He is tangled, he is melancholy, he is at a loss.

Lin Jianfan promised him that he would go home, but he didn't know what to do to answer.

It seemed that bad luck came suddenly, but within two or three days, the life he thought could be so sweet in the future came to an abrupt end without warning.

Gu Chaoming tried his best to adapt to this sudden stop, trying to find a way to face a fragile Lin Jianfan in this sudden stop.

There was fine snow floating outside the invisible window, and the two of them were clinging to each other inside the curtains, as if they were keeping warm, or they seemed to be warming each other because they were afraid that the other would be cold.

The blanket was warm enough. Gu Chaoming had a busy day, taking care of Lin Jianfan and dealing with the teacher and Lin's mother. At the beginning of the show, Lin Jianfan leaned on Gu Chaoming's shoulder. After the show, Gu Chaoming fell asleep on Lin Jianfan's shoulder.

Waking up in a daze at meal time, Gu Chaoming blinked, the TV was still on when he was awake, sat up and found that Lin Jianfan was still watching TV, looked at the time again, touched Lin Jianfan's hands and feet, It wasn't cold under the blanket.

"Why don't you wake me up? Don't you feel hungry if you only drink a little porridge a day? I'll cook first. Don't watch TV. After watching it all afternoon, go and rest. Does your head feel better?"

Lin Jianfan only answered a series of questions with a nod.

Gu Chaoming got up to cook, covered Lin Jianfan with a blanket and walked into the kitchen.

For dinner, Lin Jianfan ate all the food that Gu Chaoming packed for him with special cooperation. Although it was not much, it also made Gu Chaoming feel more relaxed.

Lin Jianfan, who cooks all the dinners, likes to eat dishes. In the morning, Gu Chaoming got up very early and went out to buy enough ingredients for a few days, because he didn't know when he could persuade Lin Jianfan to go home.Unexpectedly, as soon as he said it, Lin Jianfan promised him to go home.

At the dinner table after eating, Lin Jianfan regretted it.

"Can I stay here for another day tomorrow?" Lin Jianfan asked after dinner.

Gu Chaoming was taking away the bowl in front of him to wash, when Lin Jianfan saw the bowl he had finished eating, he had a whimsical idea and said, "It's my reward for finishing this bowl of rice."

Gu Chaoming put down the dishes in his hands, looked at Lin Jianfan's face and said, "Are you planning to use this method to delay when you go home tomorrow?"

"Didn't you say you wouldn't tell them? You also said you would stay with me, do you want to go back on your word?" Lin Jianfan's eyes suddenly became lonely.

Gu Chaoming didn't dare to say that he could hear the meaning of acting like a baby in his words, for fear of provoking him.With the coquettish words coupled with a lonely expression, Lin Jianfan firmly grasped Gu Chaoming's weakness.

"Then stay one more day tomorrow, but you must go home tomorrow." Gu Chaoming gave in and took a step back.

"The morning after tomorrow, you said one day." Seeing Fan raised his chin, Lin looked at Gu Chaoming coquettishly.

Lin Jianfan doesn't like others to say that he is acting like a baby, but he likes to act like a baby to Gu Chaoming unknowingly, and he likes this unique right of a boyfriend.

Once again succumbing to the power of coquettishness, Gu Chaoming promised Lin Jianfan: "Okay, don't push it anymore, the morning after tomorrow will be the morning after tomorrow."

Seeing that Fan repeatedly nodded vigorously.

Gu Chaoming laughed at him: "You still nod so hard when you have a cold, are you dizzy?"

Seeing Fan, Lin shook his head again.

Watching TV at night like in the afternoon, Gu Chaoming urged Lin Jianfan to go to bed, Lin Jianfan was still watching the TV in the afternoon, Gu Chaoming was afraid that he couldn't take it anymore, so he lifted the blanket and dragged Lin Jianfan back to the bedroom.

After turning off the lights in the living room, it was dark, and Lin Jianfan was reluctantly "taken" by Gu Chaoming to the bed and covered with a quilt to sleep.

"If you say I am a dictatorship, you are the one who is a dictatorship. You are not allowed to watch TV." Lin Jianfan said.

Gu Chaoming kept the night light on, lay beside Lin Jianfan and hugged him, touched the top of his head to see if it was still hot: "Yes, I am in charge, so go to sleep."

"I do not."

"Huh?" Gu Chaoming was surprised.

Suddenly self-willed, Gu Chaoming pinched his ears: "Be obedient."

"I think..." In the dark room, under the quilt that kept the body temperature of the two of them, Lin Jianfan's leg was forcefully inserted between Gu Chaoming's.

Sensing the movement under the blanket, Gu Chaoming's heart skipped a beat, and his eyes widened in disbelief.

"Don't make trouble, you go home tomorrow, your mother will be suspicious when she sees it." Gu Chaoming patted Lin Jianfan's leg under the quilt, but Lin Jianfan didn't take it back.

"It's the day after tomorrow, not tomorrow. My mother won't find out." Lin Jianfan said relentlessly.

Not only did it not retract, but the outstretched legs were still rubbing against Gu Chaoming's legs.

"Don't make trouble." Gu Chaoming endured, his face quickly turned red in the dark night.

Lin Jianfan's sudden willfulness brought sudden heat, Gu Chaoming struggled to maintain his rationality and pulled Lin Jianfan away, but Lin Jianfan never seemed to be obedient tonight.

The temperature of the palm is always colder than the skin covered under the clothes. The icy cold that runs on Gu Chaoming's skin and under the clothes under the blanket does not deprive Gu Chaoming of his own heat, but instead stimulates a flourishing heat.

Gu Chaoming grabbed Lin Jianfan's hand that was walking on his body, looked at Lin Jianfan's face in the dark night: "What are you doing?"

"I..." Lin saw Fan hesitating, his face blushing.Hei Ye tried to make Gu Chaoming see clearly, but Lin Jianfan's eyes made him see clearly.

Gu Chaoming looked at the fluttering figure in his arms.

What did he just see?

Gu Chaoming hurriedly stared into Lin Jianfan's eyes, wanting to confirm.He thought it was his own illusion, but the facts were in front of him.

Lin saw tears in Fan's eyes!

Lin saw Fan was crying!

Lin saw that once Fan cried, Gu Chaoming had nothing to do, and the rejection turned into a tighter hug.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying again?" Gu Chaoming asked.

"I just have a cold and my eyes are uncomfortable." Lin Jianfan said.

"Liar."

"I didn't," Lin Jianfan's head was pressed against Gu Chaoming's chest, and the heat of his words and breath rushed into Gu Chaoming's pajamas, "You are a liar, you ask me why you know it, and you ask me what I am doing when you know it. You think about it too, and you still tell me not to make trouble."

Gu Chaoming lied, but his body did not lie.

"you……"

Gu Chaoming couldn't finish his sentence, because Lin saw that Fan took his lips, his breath, and his reason.

The two breaths are entangled, entwined.

Tangled together.

Intertwined with Gu Chaoming's inner sin.

When he couldn't help but respond to Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming's mind was clearly clear, and his chaotic breathing didn't take away his clear mind.

Is that why he promised Lin Ma to persuade Lin Jianfan to go home?Without any concentration, casually, Lin Jianfan's parents worriedly agreed that Lin Jianfan would go home one day later, and still accept everything Lin Jianfan offered at night?

Seeing that Fan Xiang never understood his thoughts, Lin saw that he grabbed his neck and ran wildly on his lips.

Gu Chaoming pulled Lin Jianfan away, grabbed Lin Jianfan's hand and held it: "Don't do this now, go to bed first, okay?"

"Why?" Seeing Fan's tears welling around his eyes, Lin saw, "Why not now?"

"Why are you crying? There's no need to cry because I rejected you," Gu Chaoming wiped Lin Jianfan's tears away with his fingers, "I just think that if we continue now, we will be sorry for your mother, and we are not in a hurry, we And in the future, I will explain it to your mother, so stop today and let go of my rigid mentality, okay?"

"No more." Lin Jianfan said.

"Nothing?" Gu Chaoming asked.

"It's because you promised my mother to persuade me to go home and protect me, so you can't let go of your promise to my mother tonight, right?" Lin Jianfan asked.

Gu Chaoming attaches great importance to other people's promises, Lin Jianfan understands.

Lin sees Fan's heart is fragile, and Gu Chaoming understands it.

They understand each other.

"It's okay. If I don't tell her, she won't know. You said you would protect me and you would protect me. You said you would take care of me and you would take care of me. You didn't break any promises. Besides..."

Lin Jianfan blushed a bit: "Besides, this is not bullying, but I am willing. I bullied you and forced you. You can sue my mother for bullying you."

When it came to the end, Lin saw Fan himself laughing, and he put his head against Gu Chaoming's chest to listen to his heartbeat.He silently listened to Gu Chaoming's heart, as if talking to Gu Chaoming's troubled Kan'er, he said with a smile: "I'm really happy to be with you."

A simple sentence, with a smile, the sweet words reached Gu Chaoming's ears and decomposed into half sweet and half sour.

Gu Chaoming stroked the back of Lin Jianfan's head distressedly.

Lin Jianfan raised his head and looked at Gu Chaoming: "Go and tell my mother that I bullied you, and treat it as an additional reward for me to finish eating that bowl of rice today, okay?"

Gu Chaoming looked helplessly at Lin Jianfan's watery eyes, raised Lin Jianfan's chin, arched the quilt with his body, and fulfilled his additional reward.