[First-year student] I am not him

I've never seen Kongphop get so angry, I forgot how to react for a while, and could only stare at him blankly.

He was the first to calm down.

Perhaps because he was afraid of being laughed at by Jay, he took a few deep breaths and let me go again, but his anger obviously hadn't subsided yet.

"Think about it first!" Kongphop's voice was full of depression.

I was pushed back on the back of the chair by him, and seeing his cold side face, I couldn't help feeling flustered.

From the time we met to the present, Kongphop has almost never lost his temper with me, and perhaps it is because of this that I selectively ignore the stubborn side of his character.

He was originally like a wolf, full of aggression all over his body, but he almost never revealed his true nature except between the beds.

I knew clearly at first that it was because I loved me, but maybe it was because the emotional ups and downs of the whole day were so great that I even lost my original steadfastness.

I know he is angry now, but I don't even know how to comfort him.

Because all I have left in my head is a mess.

Judging by his reaction just now, he should still love me.

What about Nuan Nuan?

The white moonlight in his heart has returned, is he really not shaken at all?

Nuan Nuan has suffered too much, if they really love each other, shouldn't I be more sensible and walk away quietly?

What about the days and nights we spent together all these years?

I hardly dare to imagine, if there is no Kongphop, what is the meaning of the rest of my life.

These messy thoughts are like balls of thread scratched by a cat, and they are completely blocked in my mind, which makes people completely confused.

I don't even know where I should start tidying up.

All the way back, the wind and lightning.

If it wasn't for worrying about the speed limit, he might be able to drive the car soaring.

His face was naturally calm as well, and it seemed to make people feel heavy in their hearts.

Finally arrived at the garage downstairs, for the first time, he walked quickly towards the elevator without waiting for me.

Looking at his stiff back, I couldn't help feeling a little bit of grievance in my heart.

Obviously, I even thought about breaking up, but just being treated so indifferently, I can no longer accept it.

If Nuan Nuan still loves him, can I really give in?

Just thinking about it makes my heart throb with pain.

I took a deep breath slowly and followed him to the elevator.

Although he didn't speak, he has been pressing the door button and waiting for me.

Just looking at his tiny movements, I couldn't help but feel sour in my nasal cavity.

Over the years, I have gotten used to being taken care of by him everywhere, even the pink panna cotta, which he makes seems to be several times better than the bought ones.

If in the future, his tenderness can only be directed towards another person...

I leaned weakly on the elevator wall, I have experienced too much heartache in the past day, and now it seems to be numb.

But even the numbness can create a shaky sense of unreality.

I can't help but close my eyes tiredly.

But it was only a few seconds before the elevator's beep woke me up again.

I opened my eyes, Kongphop had already stepped out first, took out the key of the apartment, and opened the door.

Even if it's just a temporary rental, the inside of the door is the place I've always called home.

Even the shoe rack in the entrance was picked out by the two of us together.

Kongphop has some literature and art in his bones that are very inconsistent with his personality, and he pays great attention to the details of life.

Because living with him, my quality of life has also improved a lot without knowing it, very delicate.

But in the future, I don't know if I can still call this place my home.

The thought in my mind shocked me instantly.

Kongphop's back was facing me, and that figure seemed to leave my side at any moment.

For such a long journey, he never said a word to me again.

Almost subconsciously, I stepped over in two or three steps and hugged his waist tightly from behind.

Kongphop stopped changing shoes and called me: "Arthit?"

Since graduating, he has been consciously avoiding the title "senior".

According to him, it is to be able to become a person who can protect me from wind and rain as soon as possible, so we should also pay attention to the title.

I laughed at him for being childish.

But in fact, he has already done it.

By his side, I am used to being the one who is protected, no matter what step he takes, I seem to accept it with peace of mind.

And among these peace of mind, his every move is embedded in the deepest part of my heart.

If you want to pull it out, you will probably only be dripping with blood.

Between me and him, the person who is the most inseparable is obviously me.

Even if that person is Nuan Nuan, I can't do it...let him go away.

I hugged him tightly, almost with all my strength.

Kongphop's stiff muscles relaxed little by little, and he turned his face to me: "Arthit?"

The coldness on his face seemed to have subsided a lot.

My eye sockets are hot.

I was afraid to see his indifferent expression, but I couldn't say anything subdued, so I could only slap him like this, feeling like a fool.

Kongphop let out a long sigh, turned around, and hugged me with his backhand.

But his eyes are still looking at me seriously: "Will you still want to let me out in the future?"

I subconsciously shook my head violently.

Perhaps, even if Nuan Nuan really robbed me, I wouldn't really be willing to let him go.

Kongphop lowered his head and stamped on my lips, and continued: "Actually, it's my fault... After so long, I still haven't given you a sense of security. I should have told you clearly."

I opened my eyes wide.

He continued: "Arthit, listen, I only love you from the beginning to the end, only love you alone. Nuan Nuan left at the beginning, probably because he realized that there was no love between us. I didn't want to say these things originally, Because I feel that this is too disrespectful to Nuannuan, but I ignore it and don't make it clear, which will make you worry about it all the time... I thought you could see my sincerity."

I can't help being a little surprised.

This is a completely different version than what I thought it would be.

I have always felt that I was just his second best choice. Now that Nuan Nuan is back, it is only natural that he would be shaken.

It's just that I don't know which one is more important to him, the days and nights that the white moonlight spends with us.

"Although it would make me appear even more heartless to say it, from the beginning to the end I really only love you. Love is not something that can be let go. Even if you drive me away, I won't leave." He His hand slowly moved up, supporting the back of my head, "You have to know, if you want to give me to him without hesitation, I will also be sad."

He was so indifferently ignored all the way, but suddenly heard such a series of words that are more exciting than confession.

My brain seemed to be unable to accept so much information for a while, and I couldn't help being a little dazed.

I stared at him blankly: "I thought..."

He raised his eyebrows: "Why?"

I shook my head.

I know that now that I just learned about Nuan Nuan's recent situation, it's not a moment when I should be happy, but his words still made my heart soar.

The person I love has always only loved me.

I have hypnotized myself countless times, telling myself that his past is not important.

But in fact, I obviously care so much about whether the person he loves the most is me or not.

Over the years, even in the closest moments, it seems that there is an invisible stone in my heart, but I dare not reveal it.

At that time, I thought, since Nuan Nuan is gone anyway, it would be hypocritical for me to worry about it.

But those cares will not disappear because of hiding.

If it wasn't for Nuan Nuan to reappear, this knot might follow us for the rest of our lives.

The person who needs to tie the bell to untie the bell, as Nuan Nuan said, this is the fairness of fate.

I knew my eyes must still be red, but I couldn't help laughing.

Seeing my smile, Kongphop was visibly relieved. He tilted his head and curled his mouth towards me: "Just figure it out. When you're ready, I'll accompany you to find Nuan Nuan."