[First-year student] I am not him

I couldn't bear it for too long, so I made the decision to go to China to find him.

People are often like this, when they think there is no hope at all, they can endure no matter how deep their desire is, for many years, but once they know that this desire is still possible to realize, all the previous ability to endure suddenly disappears It seemed that he became impatient in an instant.

This is how I miss Nuan Nuan.

Kongphop made a phone call to Singto, nominally because of his cousin's concern for his cousin, but the main purpose was to inquire about their current living conditions.

Of course he couldn't directly ask Nuan Nuan how he was doing now, but from Singto's tone of chatting with him, it didn't look like he was gloomy all day long.

From the looks of it, Nuan Nuan's situation shouldn't be too bad.

My heart finally relaxed a little bit.

Maybe it was because I was afraid that the courage I had so easily gathered would fade away again. I didn't give myself any time to regret it. As soon as I got the visa, I boarded the plane to China with him.

I have lived in this city for a year.

But that year has also passed a long time ago.

My language talent is not very good. In one year, my Chinese level has only been improved to the point where I can barely communicate with others.What's more, I haven't talked about it for so many years, and I almost forgot what I would have done.

But fortunately, I knew the address by heart, and when I told the taxi driver, it was still standard Mandarin.

The address of that apartment is in the university town, far away from the airport.

But I would rather spend more time on the road.

Looking at the familiar and unfamiliar street scenes passing by outside the car window, my mind became a mess again.

From the moment I decided to come to him, I forced myself to stop thinking about it.

Even when I was on the plane, I kept suppressing the miscellaneous thoughts in my heart.

But as the apartment got closer and closer, the apprehension and tension that had been suppressed in the deepest part of my heart burst out in an instant, which shocked me into a trance.

Going to meet him, after all these years I thought he was dead.

In fact, I told Kongphop before I came here, if Nuan Nuan really doesn’t want to see me, then we can just take a look from a distance.

Looking at his current appearance from a distance, and knowing that he is really alive and well in this world, that would be great.

But I still can't help being afraid.

I'm afraid to see him living a bad life, afraid that when I was so happy with Kongphop, he was living alone in another corner of the world.

This fear even gave me the urge to turn around and leave.

But I can't.

Escape doesn't solve anything, I already knew that.

Kongphop sensed my depression, and regardless of the strange gaze cast by the driver in the rearview mirror, he stubbornly hugged my shoulders along the way.

It is undeniable that the warmth of his embrace really comforted me a lot, giving me some courage to face the warmth.

No matter how long the journey is, there will always be a time to arrive. No matter how scared I am, the taxi finally stops at the gate of the community.

I haven't seen you for a few years, and everything nearby seems to be the same, but when you look closely, it has changed so much.

The Chongqing hot pot that I used to love most has already opened a foot therapy shop, and maybe there was another business before the foot therapy shop.And the billboard at the entrance of the supermarket on the corner has already been changed, and even the poster at the entrance of the OPPO mobile phone store has changed its spokesperson.

For five years, day by day, I didn't seem to notice any changes, but when I looked back, I realized that the world had been turned upside down.

I have been separated from here for five years, and I have also been separated from Nuan Nuan for five years.

I'm a little afraid that he has changed into another appearance that I am completely unfamiliar with.

Kongphop looked at my dazed appearance, and reached out to hug me, but I dodged it.

"I don't want to be seen by Nuan Nuan." I whispered.

It is precisely because I have confirmed Kongphop's thoughts on me that I don't want Nuannuan to see the picture of us cuddling together.

Kongphop nodded, not too disappointed this time.

I know, he must understand my mind.

The two of us walked slowly into the community.

Even though I have been away for many years, but when I saw the surrounding scenery, the original dusty memory became alive in an instant.

The young saplings that had just been planted in the green belt have now become lush and blooming with small flowers, but the apartment buildings are still the same, neither new nor old, and clothes can be seen drying on the balconies.

Walking along the familiar cobblestone path to the building I once rented, I looked up to the upstairs.

At that time, I lived in the room on the second floor near the east. When I looked up, I could see the balcony where I loved to bask in the sun.

Even though I have been away for so long, the place still looks full of vitality. There is a pot of Chlorophytum Chlorophytum on the balcony, with plump leaves hanging down, which looks very cute.

I didn't know that Nuan Nuan also likes to grow flowers, but seeing that he has this hobby, I feel very relieved.

The place where Kongphop and I stayed was at the side entrance of this building. When going to that apartment, we seldom pass by here.

The reason why I brought him here, of course, was that I was afraid of really meeting Nuan Nuan head-on.

Before confirming his situation, I dare not meet him easily.

"Nuannuan, Singto, why can't you stand up here?" A clear female voice sounded behind us.

I turned around and saw an unfamiliar face.

Generally, students live here. It has been five years, and of course the students here have changed wave after wave.

This girl is presumably their current neighbor.

A very familiar scene, when looking for him, he also only saw his neighbor.

And what attracts me is still the girl's name called the exit.

She called him Nuan Nuan, not Night.

Does this mean that his heart has been opened a lot?

My nasal cavity couldn't help being a little sore.

Unlike the seven or eight-year-old child, this girl could tell the difference between Kongphop and Singto at a glance: "Aren't you Singto? You...then you..." She pointed at me hesitantly.

Probably also felt the difference between me and Nuan Nuan.

Kongphop smiled at her, and politely greeted her in blunt Chinese: "Hello."

The girl quickly responded: "Hi...do you want to go upstairs? I can take the two of you there to find them. I don't know if they are at home. If not, you can go to my place and wait. I live opposite them."

Kongphop frowned with a smile. He couldn't understand such a long list of Chinese, so he could only look at me for help.

I quickly rejected the girl's offer: "Thank you, but... can you please not tell them that you have seen us?"

The girl was stunned for a moment, and just about to agree, she suddenly stretched out her finger hesitantly and pointed behind us: "But...you seem to have no time to escape."

I shuddered and turned around stiffly.

Not far from us, Nuan Nuan and Singto just turned the corner of this building together.

Singto held a bag of potato chips, picked up a piece and handed it to Nuan Nuan's lips.

Nuan Nuan was looking down at the camera in her hand, and subconsciously opened her mouth.

Singto withdrew his hand back with a smirk, then passed it over again, and repeated the same trick while Nuan Nuan opened his mouth.

Nuan Nuan frowned suddenly, reached out and grabbed Singto's wrist, sent the potato chips to her mouth, and gave him a hard look by the way.

Such a natural movement seems to have been done thousands of times.

Along the way, I imagined countless reunions, but I never thought that Nuan Nuan would appear in front of me like this.

Relaxed and radiant, not at all as I had imagined.

He hasn't seen me yet, but I can't control the corners of my mouth.

But the vision gradually blurred.

The girl didn't see me, and she was still explaining: "Recently, the main entrance is being repaired, so everyone passes here, otherwise I can help you hide for a while today, you want to surprise them, right?"

I am speechless.

Nuan Nuan's footsteps also gradually slowed down.

He also saw me.

I wiped the tears from my eyes fiercely, not wanting to miss every detail of his face.

Singto took the camera in his hand knowingly, reached out and patted him on the shoulder.

Nuan Nuan just stared at me for a long time before finally bending the corners of her mouth towards me.

His smile was like a switch connected to my body, I couldn't help running towards him, holding him tightly in my arms.

"Sorry……"

I don't know if I should say this sorry, but at this moment, I can't think of any other words: "Sorry, I'm late."

I'm late, so many years late.

His hands slowly landed on my waist, and I felt a little wet on my shoulders.

"Brother." After so many years, I finally heard this sentence, "I have been waiting for you to find me."

Whether it was that night when I was five years old, or now.

"Fortunately, I finally waited."