my ten years with you

Bai Xiaonan put away the photo album, turned around and went to the bedroom to get some things and went upstairs, and opened the door of the attic. The light inside was so dim that he could only squint to see clearly.

Ah Wu's posture is exactly the same as last night, it hasn't changed at all, of course, this is mainly because he can't change.

He hung his hands high, his head leaned on his arms, his eyes were closed, and he seemed to be asleep.Judging from his expression, he was not sleeping peacefully, frowning from time to time, as if in pain, and the saliva flowed down from his mouth uncontrollably, staining his chin and bare chest.

Relatively speaking, his front is very clean, without any scars or bruises, which is much better than his red and swollen back.He didn't give Ah Wu medicine yesterday, the swelling will go down much slower.

He is also very beautiful when he sleeps quietly. When he closes his eyes, he can't see the ferocity of a little wolf cub. He looks very fragile, as if he would break if he touched it.

But Bai Xiaonan knew that he was far from being as fragile as he looked on the outside, as long as he was given a little warmth and a little space to breathe, he would be able to recover from the pain, and once again resisted with open teeth and claws.

For a person who has never owned anything in his life, such a life is really tenacious and awe-inspiring.Bai Xiaonan was a little curious, what gave him this kind of strength, or was he just instinctively resisting everything that made him feel uneasy.There is no doubt that weeds are always better at absorbing sunlight than flowers grown in greenhouses.

During the time he was looking at A Wu, A Wu had gradually woken up, he was not sleeping deeply, sensitively sensed that someone was coming, raised his head vigilantly, saw Bai Xiaonan, and yelled indistinctly Bai Xiaonan didn't understand what it was, but she guessed it wasn't a good thing.

He smiled in his heart and could still yell and curse, it seemed that he was in good spirits.

He patted Ah Wu's face, Ah Wu avoided it, and looked at him angrily, as if he had returned to the state of the first day, but both of them knew in their hearts that this was just a bluff, and it could easily bring bad results s consequence.

Sure enough, Ah Wu didn't stare for too long, before Bai Xiaonan could speak, he looked away first, and said something vaguely, this time in a slightly better tone.

"This kind of behavior doesn't seem like an attitude that can be put down." Bai Xiaonan smiled and shook her head, Ah Wu's eyes trembled, and his expression immediately looked hesitant, but he didn't want to give up so soon.

Bai Xiaonan didn't have much patience for him to hesitate today, he lifted Ah Wu's chin, poured the glass of electrolyte water he brought into his mouth, some flowed down his neck, Ah Wu choked a few times, Swallowing heavily, coughing again and again after drinking, his face turned red from holding back, and water appeared in his eyes, which made him look even angrier.

Bai Xiaonan waited for him to finish coughing, then picked up a second glass of water from the ground, and asked, "Do you want more?"

Ah Wu hesitated for a while, then nodded quickly, he was very thirsty and hungry, he could taste the sweetness in the water just now, it should be sugar or something.He didn't want to give in anymore, but first he had to have the strength to hold on.

Bai Xiaonan laughed, and poured the second glass of water down his throat in the same way. Ah Wu was prepared this time, the choking was not so severe, and he quickly finished the second glass.

Bai Xiaonan finally took out a needle tube, Ah Wu's pupils shrank violently, shaking the iron chain and trying to retreat, Bai Xiaonan grabbed his arm and said softly, "Nutrition needle, don't hide."

Ah Wu didn't hide anymore, Bai Xiaonan skillfully injected the needle in, he wasn't worried about what Bai Xiaonan hit, he didn't want to kill himself, he was very clear about this.What he was worried about was that Bai Xiaonan gave him water and gave him nutrition injections again, how long did he plan to keep him here?

Ah Wu was a little flustered, but Bai Xiaonan's next action made him even more flustered. He threw the needle aside and unzipped his pants.

"I just gave you these things, you must have a way to repay me, right? I said I don't support idlers."

Ah Wu looked at him in horror, and made a meaningless resistance in his mouth, which was soon completely blocked in his mouth.

After it was over, Ah Wu coughed very weakly, tears streamed all over his face, he couldn't care less about Bai Xiaonan watching, this kind of pain and humiliation made him just want to cry.I just want to cry, and I can only cry.

"Well, you cried beautifully, yes, next time you think about it and ask me, why don't you cry out earlier and try."

After speaking, he touched Ah Wu's face and left again, leaving himself there, turning a deaf ear to Ah Wu's sobbing.

Ah Wu yelled a few times in a panic, hoping that he could stay, hoping that he could turn around once, but no, he left without even a slight pause.His attitude is as if he has come to complete some task, and he will leave after venting. There is no need to care about the tools to complete the task.

Ah Wu has never hated a person so much, and has never been so afraid of a person, and what's worse, he has never hoped for a person so much.He was almost thankful, because he couldn't speak, otherwise he was afraid that he would open his mouth and beg him not to go.

He didn't want to be left in this place, what if he had to spend his whole life like this?What freedom, what escape, is just a joke in the face of reality.

Ah Wu cried in despair, he thought of the only person who had saved him and protected him, but that person was dead and would never appear again.

He died to protect him.

Ah Wu thought desperately, because he didn't want him to be taken away by Bai Xiaonan's people, the people under him would be disobedient, and in the end he would be beaten to death while covering his escape. Scared, he doesn't want to be sold again, maybe he won't die.

Boy, who are you messing with?

Brat, you are in big trouble, Bai Xiaonan is not someone we can afford to mess with.

Brat, don't worry about it, I'm dragging them, so try to run away.

He never smiled at Ah Wu, because of the scar on his forehead, he seldom smiled, because he thought it was scary.But at the last moment, on the last side, he grabbed Ah Wu's ankle and tried his best to show a smile. He said, live well, brat, live well, don't let me die in vain.

Ah Wu cried so hard that he thought more than once, if he hadn't struggled at that time, if he had obeyed the arrangement of fate, wouldn't he have died?

It was he himself who killed him, and the only person who treated him well ended up dying because of him.

Ah Wu thought desperately, maybe struggling is wrong, but obedience is right.Anyway, Bai Xiaonan can treat him as she wants, why not try to make him gentle?

But there is another voice in his mind questioning him in a low voice: What about your freedom, what about your dignity?You gave up all of these, are you worthy of the person who died?

Ah Wu shook his head, trying to get rid of those voices in his head, tell him what to do, who can tell him what to do, so as to make all this less painful?

These random thoughts lasted for several hours. Ah Wu didn't know the exact time, but it felt like a long time passed. One thought occupied all his thoughts, making him unable to think about anything else: he wanted to go to the toilet.

It wasn't until this time that Ah Wu realized in horror that he couldn't even call for help. His voice couldn't even be heard in this room. Come see him again?

At that moment, despair almost overwhelmed him, and then he couldn't help thinking, didn't Bai Xiaonan say that he would forgive him for any mistakes, didn't he mean that he would never give up if he had him?What counts now, do those words still count?

The only person in the world who has not given up on him, who will never give up on him, does such a person really exist?

Ah Wu whimpered and cried, until she couldn't even cry anymore, and fell asleep again, until she was violently shaken awake by Bai Xiaonan.

Although his actions were rough, Ah Wu was almost happy when he saw him, at least he still remembered, at least he hadn't given up.

A Wu said something vaguely, Bai Xiaonan grinned, as if he had heard something very interesting, he patted A Wu's face, picked up a glass of water from the tray he brought as usual, lifted it up Ah Wu's jaw was about to be filled.Ah Wu groaned twice, her eyes softened, she closed her eyes and swallowed after hiding for a while.

Bai Xiaonan nodded in satisfaction, picked up another cup for him to drink, then gave him the same nutritional injection, and finally unzipped herself.

This time, Ah Wu barely struggled, but numbly let him hold his hair and move freely. His chin and the corners of his mouth were already in unbearable pain, and they were getting numb gradually. Every time Bai Xiaonan moved, he would remind him that the muscles that could not be contracted for a long time were weak. What a pain.

Ah Wu didn't know when he burst into tears, but he felt that the last few touches by Bai Xiaonan were quite gentle. After he put on his pants, he looked at him for a while, and even reached out to wipe his tears away.

"Want to go?" he asked.

Ah Wu nodded in a daze.

Bai Xiaonan kicked a bucket in front of him, lowered her head and untied him.

Ah Wu's tears welled up again, and he cried for a while trembling, before taking a deep breath slowly and relaxing the muscles in his lower abdomen.

Bai Xiaonan crossed her arms and whistled twice kindly.

This time it was completely different from being in the bathroom, the sound of water made Ah Wu unable to lift his head, his eyes were blurred by tears, and he didn't want to see clearly anymore, the more clearly he saw, the colder he felt.

Bai Xiaonan patted his face, and he let out a short cry. There was no anger in his voice, and he simply expressed his pain.

In fact, he himself didn't know what he wanted to say, so what else could he say?Scolding, or begging?

Either way, it won't make him feel any better.

So he didn't make any more noise, no matter it was angry or begging, he just shed tears silently.Tears are the only way for him to vent his pain. He can't control it, and he doesn't want to control it.

Bai Xiaonan sighed, stroked his hair, turned and left again.

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It's almost over (self-doubt)