my ten years with you

Ah Wu lost the concept of time.

Every second is like a century to him, cold, hunger, fear, all senses make the time seem so long, but Bai Xiaonan's appearance is not regular, he has no way to judge the time by how often Bai Xiaonan looks at him , and every time he appeared, he felt that he had lived alone in this world for a lifetime.

Life is too long, and the only thing he can deceive is Bai Xiaonan's arrival.

His coming means humiliation, but it also means the only tenderness he can get.

His life is barren, and there is nothing wrong with this sentence.During this seemingly longer time than eternity, Ah Wu tried to find a reason to be strong, but finally found sadly that he did not.

Except for the last sentence left by Brother Scar, there is nothing worth nostalgic about in his life.

As for Bai Xiaonan, he is a liar, he said that he would never give up, but in the end, as long as he resisted a little, he lost the patience to be gentle.Ah Wu thought desperately, if he could treat himself a little bit better, maybe he would not struggle anymore, just a little bit, let him find a little bit of meaning for himself to live.

Bai Xiaonan closed the computer and glanced at his watch. It has been three full days since he locked Ah Wu upstairs by himself. This kid is really stubborn. I don't know if it has anything to do with the gag he gave him. .

He went upstairs, opened the door, and adjusted the lights in the room slightly brighter.Ah Wu didn't fall asleep this time, he raised his head quickly when he heard the movement, and when he saw who was coming, a tear flowed quietly from his eyes.

The teardrop silently slid down his cheeks, Ah Wu's eyes were a little red and swollen, but it didn't affect the delicacy of his brows and eyes in the slightest, on the contrary, there was an even more irresistible beauty.

His face was pale, he knelt on the ground weakly, he was forced to raise his hands high, most of the weight of his body was hung on his wrists, and there were several red scars on his snow-white body, all of which made him look even more Touching and fragile, it makes people want to be cared for, but also wants to be completely destroyed.

Bai Xiaonan stared at him in a daze for a minute, then he slowly walked over, Ah Wu looked at him desperately, as he approached, the water in his eyes became thicker and thicker, Bai Xiaonan gently raised his hand to touch him His face, as if he had been crushed, tears poured out, crying silently.

Bai Xiaonan stroked his hair, unbuttoned the back of his head, and took out what was in his mouth. Ah Wu thought his face was already numb, but now it hurt even more when he moved. Bai Xiaonan rubbed his chin for him, slowly Slowly help him practice opening and closing his mouth.

When he was almost able to control his facial muscles, Bai Xiaonan unzipped his trousers with one hand, and asked softly, "Have you figured it out?"

A Wu cried and nodded, Bai Xiaonan untied one of his hands again, A Wu tremblingly helped him untie his belt, and opened his mouth in tears.

Bai Xiaonan pressed his head, didn't use any force, just helped him grasp the rhythm, Ah Wu's body was a little shaking from crying, but he was careful not to bite him, although he was still very unfamiliar, but he closed his eyes and did it very seriously.

When the apex was about to arrive, Bai Xiaonan gently raised his head, letting him open his eyes to look at her. Ah Wu opened his eyes, the eyes were dim with tears, but he no longer resisted.

Those tear-filled eyes were astonishingly bright, Bai Xiaonan looked at his face and let out a long low sigh.

Bai Xiaonan closed his eyes, as if he was reminiscing, but also seemed to be caught in some inexplicable emotion. He slowly opened his eyes, and released Ah Wu from the handcuffs and restraints on his knees. Ah Wu shook twice, Arms waving forward trying to grab something, he fell forward.

The imagined pain didn't come, Bai Xiaonan caught him in time, he put Ah Wu on the ground, Ah Wu fell to the ground without strength, unable to move any more, only a few tears in his eyes.

Bai Xiaonan knelt down and looked at him. After a while, he raised the corners of his mouth and smiled. Ah Wu looked at him tremblingly, almost pleadingly, only to see him laughing: "It's ok, brat, don't you eat hard?" Eat soft, right? If I had known earlier, I wouldn't have had to be so nice to you."

Ah Wu closed her eyes, shook her head silently, and sobbed softly.He hugged himself on the ground and made himself very small, like a baby in the mother's womb.

No, that's not the case.Not because of this.

But he was too tired, his cheek muscles were stiff and painful, besides, he couldn't think of anything to make Bai Xiaonan believe him.Trust that he didn't give in out of fear and pain.

Bai Xiaonan observed him for a while, then gently picked him up, her hands were very light, but her tone was not polite at all, and she simply said: "You can rest first tonight, and call me in a proper manner tomorrow morning, what should you do? You know it."

Ah Wu opened his mouth a little, then closed it quickly, and was quietly hugged by him, his face was pressed against Bai Xiaonan's chest, Bai Xiaonan didn't bow his head, feeling his chest was a little wet.

He carried Ah Wu back to his room, and threw him on the bed somewhat roughly. The wound behind Ah Wu was still not healed, so he let out a low pained cry, and bit his lips tightly.

Bai Xiaonan didn't leave immediately, Ah Wu raised his head and looked at him expectantly, only to see Bai Xiaonan smiled disdainfully, and said mercilessly: "Do you want me to comfort you? Think about what you can exchange for it. You don't deserve my kindness to you for no reason."

The tears in Ah Wu's eyes filled his eyes just as soon as he put them away. He tried not to let himself cry, and looked at him almost in shock, disappointed, but unwilling to believe, his lips trembling slightly.

Bai Xiaonan looked at his ridiculous look, didn't give him time to think, snorted, turned off the lights and left.

Hearing the sound of him closing the door and the sound of his footsteps walking away, Ah Wu turned over and lay down on the bed in despair, pulled up the quilt to cover himself, there was a lamp by the bed, but he didn't turn it on.

He had never despised himself so much.

Bai Xiaonan easily let him understand that he was far from being as strong as he imagined.

The next day, Ah Wu sat up when the sky was just getting dark. He thought it was amazing. He slept very deeply every day when he was tied up and hurt all over. Finally, he was put down and lay on a soft bed. On the bed, covered with a quilt, he could stretch his arms and legs freely, but he couldn't fall asleep.

He didn't know what was wrong with him, it seemed that since he came here, even his own body began to disobey him.

Ah Wu's head was in a daze, he touched his forehead and felt that he might have a fever, but he didn't dare to lie down any longer, so he got up and went to Bai Xiaonan's bedroom.

It's still early now, he can go there and wait for Bai Xiaonan to wake up, or wake him up at dawn, he doesn't want to take the risk of being seen.

As soon as he sat up, Ah Wu realized that his fever might not be low. Although the injuries on his back and thighs had healed a lot, they still hurt when he touched them. There was also that unspeakable part. There were too many, he didn't notice, now other places are gradually getting better, and the feeling of foreign objects there is very obvious.

Ah Wu frowned, reluctantly got off the ground, opened the door and probed to make sure that no one was in the corridor, and quickly rushed to Bai Xiaonan's room, this time he didn't knock on the door, he guessed that Bai Xiaonan wouldn't get up so early, he didn't want to be surprised wake him up.

He wasn't sure if Bai Xiaonan was angry when he got up, but he thought it wouldn't be too good.

After entering the room, Ah Wu quietly pushed open the door of his bedroom, making sure that he was still asleep, his chest rose and fell in an orderly and slow manner, he was slightly relieved, went in and sat at the foot of his bed.

When Bai Xiaonan woke up, Ah Wu was sitting on the ground, sleeping soundly with his head on the edge of his bed.

Bai Xiaonan raised her foot and kicked it lightly, Ah Wu moved her head forward and woke up abruptly. When she turned around, she found that Bai Xiaonan was propped up on the bed and looked at him with an intriguing smile. She immediately sat up straight and watched nervously. he.

Bai Xiaonan's peach blossom eyes are very beautiful when he smiles, and he looks affectionate to everyone, but his temperament is too cruel, even with such beautiful eyes, he still makes people chill when he smiles.

"I asked you to wake me up, what are you doing here, □□?"

His tone was somewhat teasing, Ah Wu blushed, lowered her head slightly, and replied in a low voice: "I woke up too early, and fell asleep before I knew it."

"You didn't treat yourself as an outsider."

Bai Xiaonan's tone was too sarcastic, Ah Wu's face turned green and pale, he clenched his fists and gritted his teeth without saying a word.

He didn't speak, but Bai Xiaonan wasn't angry at all, and lay on the bed, throwing off the quilt, and directly under the quilt was his strong and strong body, and he always slept naked.

"Since you couldn't wake me up in time, shouldn't you come over and make up for it?" Bai Xiaonan said leisurely, and gestured with her eyes.

Ah Wu looked at him, knowing that this was a normal reaction every man would have in the morning, and he hadn't touched it before, but he couldn't help but blush.

He froze on the ground without moving, and Bai Xiaonan didn't hurry to rush him, but just looked into his eyes firmly, watched him slowly stand up from the ground, knelt tremblingly by the bed, and silently closed his eyes.

Bai Xiaonan sat up, and this position was easier for him to control. He grabbed A Wu's hair without too much force, but he could still feel A Wu's instant tension.

"You have a fever?"

The body heat and ruddy complexion of the person in front of him are abnormal, thin sweat is dripping from his forehead, his lips are slightly peeled, and a few strands of bangs stick to his forehead, giving him a sickly aesthetic feeling.

Bai Xiaonan didn't know if he was crazy. He never admired the so-called morbid beauty before. He didn't even like younger people. His preferences used to be very straightforward. Men wanted smooth muscles and women wanted big breasts. Fair-skinned and beautiful, he prefers active and experienced lovers in bed.

The appearance of A Wu broke all this.

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