lonely city, lonely love

In Anxi's memory, her mother liked her brother very much, because her brother was excellent, and she didn't want to be so timid, thin, and not a little boy.Anxi also likes her elder brother, as if she belongs to an inexplicable worship, her elder brother is always the most beautiful.

When she smiled, there was a small dimple on the corner of her mouth, which was shallow and very beautiful.An Xi looked at her brother's dimples obsessively, like an admirer looking at her idol.

The former brother would take himself to the beach every time, watching the sunset, the golden sun shines on the sand, it is soft to step on, and the brother will always step on it with bare feet, taking small steps, the whole body They were all soft, curved and twisted, and the golden sunlight hit his body, which was coated with a layer of light called warmth, which made people's hearts follow a gentle mess.

An Xi looked at her brother from a distance, her white legs were very strong, just dangling like this, the corners of her mouth couldn't help but rise up.Every evening, my brother would take An Xi for a walk. It was a long road, and there would be many bugs by the river, but An Xi was a person who was afraid of bugs, so An Xiran would pretend to help He chased away the bugs and secretly frightened him.Every time An Xi was so frightened that he jumped up, An Xiran was the one who smiled the happiest, with a flamboyant smile, with his mouth open, and the back molars could be seen.The teeth are extremely white and shiny, and Anxi's eyes subconsciously urge a beautiful smile.The whole person was stunned.

Childhood, childhood with an older brother was really beautiful, doing homework together, going home from school together, fighting together and being scolded by mother, all these are precious treasures for Anxi.

Anxi looked at the house in front of her, and she only needed to walk a few steps to enter. Inside, there would be a mother who smiled at her gently, and said softly, "Anxi, you are back? You made something delicious."

All this seems to be the same as before, but Anxi knows that in this world, only her mother is still living in the past, before her brother left, and she has to recall the pain of leaving her brother over and over again.

This is mutual torture?An Xi didn't know, but she knew that every time her heart felt as if it was being held down, it was extremely uncomfortable.I was stunned for a moment, so I immediately put a smile on my face, and pushed the door open with a smile.As soon as he entered, Ms. He Xi greeted her with a smile.

"Anxi, you're back? I made you your favorite double-skin milk."

This is my brother's favorite dessert. There will be a lot of red beans on it. This is my brother's favorite.Anxi smiled and followed her mother to the kitchen. Because her mother liked Ms. Gu very much, the decoration of the house was similar to that of her cousin's house. It was a cross-decorated European style, and there were many rooms. I don't know why.After Mingming's elder brother left, few people came to the house.

Anxi looked at the thick layer of red beans, the smile on his face was a little bit unbearable, but he still picked it up and tasted it. The red beans were mixed with honey, which was so sweet that it was my brother’s favorite taste. I like to eat sweets, chocolates, and cakes, and I always eat them while watching TV dramas late at night, but I don't get fat at all, which is really enviable.

"What's the matter? Isn't it delicious?" Ms. He Xi froze for a moment, a little cautiously.

"It's nothing, I just think it's too sweet this time?" An Xi squeezed out a smile awkwardly, and said simply, "I want to drink water."

Ms. He Xi immediately gave him a blank look, and poured water with a smile, "You still dislike it being too sweet? I used to always say that it's not good to be too sweet. Who kept coquettishly asking me to buy more?"

This is my brother, not me!

Anxi took out the water glass, took a sip, it was sugar water, and her tired throat started to hurt.After taking a sip, he put it down and smiled, "Mom, I'm going upstairs first."

"Well, don't go out at night, we will have guests today." Ms. He Xi nodded, saying that it's okay, and just handed the double skin milk to An Xi, "Don't eat too much, don't stop eating when the time comes It's supper."

An Xi nodded, and went upstairs, a mother who regarded herself as her brother, a mother immersed in her own world, reminding herself all the time that the people around her were gone.Back in his own room, the only good thing is that An Xi is still sleeping in his own room, and his brother is gone, so everything about his brother at home is locked up.Just locked in my brother's room, next to An Xi's.

There is already a thick layer of dust on the doorknob.She reached out her hand to open it, but found that it was locked. She was taken aback for a moment, An Xi looked at the tightly closed door and didn't speak.

When I went downstairs, I found a servant and asked for the key. Seeing the servant's face as if he had seen a ghost, I didn't care, so I went upstairs, opened the door, and the smell of dust hit my face, and I was suffocating all the time. The taste is like someone strangling his neck in a trance.

"Cough, cough, cough!" Anxi choked, and went in. The things inside hadn't been touched at all. The quilt, clothes, were all placed quietly. If it wasn't covered with a layer of dust, I thought there were still people living inside. Just like that, the spider web was hanging naked like this, and all this told An Xi that no one had visited here for a long time, maybe after that incident, he was the first one.

Going in, saw the photo, it was covered with a layer of dust, and I couldn’t see what it looked like for a long time. Anxi didn’t know the meaning of coming in, but she still came, thinking about her former self, every time when she couldn’t sleep in the middle of the night , would run to An Xiran's bed and chat with him.

At this time, I was really carefree and speechless, even if my mother liked my brother, even if everyone liked my brother at that time, I would not be jealous, because he also liked my brother.Like this warm brother, no one wants his brother to be happy more than him.

He moved his footsteps and looked at the dusty bed, which was still covered with the blue sheets and thin quilts that my brother liked most at that time, which meant that the weather was still very hot when my brother left.

"Anxi, I won't be able to hang out with you in the future."

"why?"

"Because I have someone I like." Happy to share her joy, An Xiran was extremely excited, with a little shyness on her face, brimming with happiness.