lonely city, lonely love

Anxi still can't recall what kind of mood she was in at that time, it was probably a kind of inexplicable discomfort, her brother was snatched away by one person so easily, but so what if she was not reconciled?An Xi still silently helped her brother keep the secret, because the person her brother likes is a man.

At that time, An Xi didn't know what it meant, but even if he didn't understand, it still made people feel trembling. He knew it was wrong.Every time she sees her brother's warm smile and this meaningful smile, Anxi will feel puzzled, why is there someone she likes?

Anxi is only 14 years old, how could she know?

Anxi couldn't remember the day her brother left. She probably went to school by herself. On that day, Anxi and her mother quarreled, and her mother beat Anxi, so Anxi left angrily.The elder brother went out, and the family broke up unhappy, but what he didn't expect was that when he came back, the world had changed.

There is no trace of my brother in the whole world. No matter how much An Xi cries or tosses, his brother just disappears naked. There is not even a funeral. So far, An Xi has not Go see brother in the grave.Because the current An Xi is An Xiran.

As an alternative to a quiet life.

Enough hooked his mouth, looked at the notebook on the table, that should be brother's diary.

Picking it up, there was a thick layer of ash, An Xi didn't care, and left with the wine.After closing the door, he did not return the key to the servant, but came to his room, tidied up the diary, wiped a pile of napkins, and then saw clearly that on the cover of the diary were his notes, ballpoint pen It was engraved fiercely on the inside of the diary's shell, with his own name written in a twisted shape.

Why did my diary appear in my brother's room?

When I opened it, it was my crooked self, which recorded my emotions, such as what the teacher praised me today, what I went out to play today, and what I wrote most was the golden beach, and my brother’s words. Smile.All of this is Anxi's entire childhood.

Turned to the back, it wrote Anxi's mood.

"I had a quarrel with my mother, and she said that my brother is a monster. Why did my brother become a monster when he found someone he likes? In the future, I will also find someone I like, and then bring it to my mother and tell her, I'm not a monster."

The simple words, the crooked look, recorded my anger, which belonged to the childishness, vicious.Anxi couldn't know what kind of mood she was in at that time, she probably hated her mother very much.

Turn it over, and it says, "The diary was found by mom!"

With a sudden heartbeat, the diary ended here. Anxi didn't know what happened to herself at that time, but the answer was right in front of her eyes.The elder brother wanted to keep the secret by himself, so he wrote it in the diary, so the diary was discovered by the mother, and the elder brother's secret was unbearable.

After I left that day, my brother and mother quarreled?All this is your own sake?All this is your own reason?With trembling hands, Anxi discovered the secret, but why did her heart start to hurt violently?

The diary was stuffed into the drawer in a panic, and Anxi stood up. It turned out that this was the case, so she was the culprit who hurt her brother?No!no!It's not!

Holding his head, Anxi squatted on the ground, closed his eyes, the truth of the matter?This is the truth?no!no!But who did my brother like at the beginning?who is it?Lu Xinning?

The chaotic thoughts kept entangled in his mind, which hurt An Xi's nerves.

"An Xi, come down to eat." Mother called out softly from downstairs, An Xi immediately stood up and went downstairs.Seeing the cousin standing downstairs at a glance, An Xi was stunned, "Cousin?"

Gu Anfeng raised his head and smiled at An Xi, "Why are you here too? The internship is over?"

An Xi pulled Gu Anfeng upstairs, her eyes widened, she looked at Gu Anfeng like a ferocious cat, "Cousin, I want to ask you something."

"kindness?"

"My brother, who did you like at the beginning?"

"..."

An Jing kept wandering between the two of them. In the end, Gu Anfeng looked at An Xi, suppressed the smile on his face, and looked at An Xi, as if he wanted to see something, but in the end he found nothing, "An Xi, what are you doing?" gone?"

"Cousin, even if I beg you, tell me." An Xi said seriously, even if it was a secret that had been kept dusted for so long, even if the truth of the secret was not something she could bear, she still needed to know, because , I don't want to live like this.

I lived in the shadow of losing my brother, and lived in the life of becoming my brother.

"I don't know." Gu Anfeng shook his head calmly, and looked at Anxi, the child who grew up by himself. For some reason, at this moment, he felt that this child had grown up, and it was just this kind of growth. It was terrifying, "Anxi, this is all in the past, even if you found it, what's the point?"

Yeah, what's the point?To blame him for not taking responsibility?Or ask, why didn't you die with your brother?An Xi didn't know what she wanted in her heart, but her heart was really empty and terrifying, like a terrible monster, constantly entangled in the depths of her heart.

"Cousin, I'm not a born actor, I can't act in front of my mother every day." An Xi looked at Gu Anfeng's words and said, "This is a knot in my heart, not a kind of torture."

"I know, Anxi, you've been unhappy for so many years." Gu Anfeng sighed, looking at his cousin, this frail young man, this stubborn young man, at some point, in a place he couldn't see At that time, he had already started to live in his own way, "Anxi, it's just that the truth of this matter is too complicated."

"Why?" An Xi didn't understand, and held Gu Anfeng's hand tightly, "Cousin, how could it be? I just want to know why, one day... just one day, my family lost one person. My mother regarded me as my brother, what happened to my brother! Why does the person I like seem to be entangled with my brother again? Why?"

"You said, Lu Xinning knew your brother?"