lonely city, lonely love

Silence, always silence.An Xi and Lu Xining are like two TV sets with the sound turned off, only movements, going back and forth ridiculously, everything is stuck in the throat.In the end, neither of the two people spoke, one was sitting on the sofa, and the other was lying on the bed.

The wound on the forehead was a little painful, but Anxi didn't care. It was probably because the weather was too hot and the wound was a little inflamed, but this was not important anymore.Closing her eyes, An Xi thought about the past, everything that happened in the past, recalling is really a terrible thing, because, when you close your eyes, you will realize that the past has not been gone for a long time, just in your own Beside, close at hand.

An Xi's name came from An Xiran, probably because her parents really liked her brother so much, so she hoped to have another child like her brother.My brother is really a person worthy of everyone's love, a quiet and warm big boy, with a pair of beautiful eyes, as bright as stars in the sky, when he smiles, his eyes are curved and long Her eyelashes are like two small fans, flickering, covering everything in her eyes.

Gentle as jade, the boy in the white shirt is the warmest trace in Anxi's childhood memory.But this boy, one day, left him unexpectedly, stripping his life from him, as cruel as if he hadn't done it before.When I came home from school, I thought I could finally go out with my brother this week, but when I got home, there was no sign of my brother inside.

The mother smiled, and treated herself gently as usual, and gave her the things that my brother liked so forcefully, "Anxi, are you tired? Stop studying. Come and eat fruit, there is your favorite Durian.", "Anxi, I have already told the teacher about your afternoon class, there is no need to tutor, let's go out and have fun.", "Anxi, do you still want to play basketball at night? Chat with your mother Bar."……

Fear, helplessness, Anxi was only a 14-year-old child at that time, and finally cried, holding his mother's hand, looking up, helpless and thin, "Mom, I am Anxi."

The mother smiled, touched Anxi's head, nodded, and said very kindly, "I know, I know, my Anxi is the most obedient. Hurry up and do your homework."

My elder brother disappeared, and I lived like my elder brother.This was Anxi's childhood. Later, his father came to him in the middle of the night and told Anxi one thing, that is, his brother's departure. The blow to his mother was too great, so he subconsciously forgot about his brother.

Anxi didn't understand why this happened, but at that time, she was too young, and the wound was too deep, and she was so profoundly incapable of seeing what had happened to her heart.With red eyes, she looked at her father, "Dad, when will Mom get better."

"Anxi, when you grow up, you will understand that some wounds will never heal for the rest of your life." Anxi deeply remembered that his father simply sighed, his eyes were deep and cloudy, like a deep well, There are countless silts that have fallen silent inside.

Anxi doesn't understand, but she has to understand, day after day, mother really forgets her brother, but Anxi is not sick, every time her mother regards herself as her brother, her mind will be awakened , as if being mentioned again, don't forget brother, brother left.

Unknowingly, the wounds that had been poked open over and over again began to fester deeply.Finally, Anxi had the idea of ​​leaving. She called her cousin late at night and cried helplessly until her cousin came to her home. Everyone kept this matter secret, but this kind of disguised Quietness is simply a kind of torture for An Xi.

"Anxi, when you grow up, you will definitely leave." Cousin looked at Anxi, the calmness in his eyes remained, but behind the mist was endless distress.

"Cousin, I will be admitted to your university in the future." Anxi blinked her eyes and said seriously.

"kindness."

These memories were brought up again, trembling in pain, God knows how long it took him to forget all of this, but why did this man remind himself again?An Xi hugged her head with a splitting headache, and finally opened her eyes, which were terribly empty.

A long, long time ago, every time I had a nightmare and woke up, my brother would sit on the bedside and read a book, then looked back at myself and smiled, "Did you have a nightmare?" Under the sun, the white sweater became The best memories are frozen in this picture.It's like the memory of a yellowed movie, extremely bitter.

An Xi looked at the empty bedside, and slowly got up, as if he had alarmed Lu Xinning outside, his eyes shot over, "What's wrong?"

"I want to go home." An Xi looked at Lu Xinning seriously, with a terrifying emptiness in his eyes.

Lu Xinning looked at Anxi and clenched her hands involuntarily. After a long time, a voice came from the back molars, "Why? You still want to leave me?"

"Lu Xinning, don't you want to know everything about my brother?" An Xi smiled, her pale face, pale lips, everything was pale and terrifying, this person seemed to be blown away by the wind, "I'm going back now, I want to find out the truth about the past."

Lu Xinning pursed her lips, looked at An Xi, stretched out her hand, and wanted to hug the boy, but she held back, "An Xi, it's not important..."

"Important." An Xi looked at Lu Xining stubbornly, Shu Er smiled, "I know, for you, this past love, for me, this past nightmare. It's different."

Lu Xinning was speechless, looked at An Xi, unable to stop him, and finally nodded briefly, "I'll take you back."

"I'm alone." An Xi refused, quietly as if she had changed.

Lu Xinning watched Anxi leave, and the moment she closed the door, she became irritable, kicked the coffee table over, and the anger spread all over her body at an astonishing speed.

An Xi smiled when she heard the voice inside the door, and left without stopping.Looking at the sky outside, it was gray, just like my mood at this time.

"mom."

"An Xi, are you ready for the internship?" Her mother's voice was also extremely gentle, and An Xi knew that it didn't belong to him.