grief

Yi Yan brought Lou Yi out without telling Geng Ye, and asked me to keep Lou Yi. I knew he was worried that Yu Last would forget the purpose of staying with me, and wanted to use Lou Yi as a reminder.In fact, there is no need, since I have chosen to let go, I will let him go.

Even if he doesn't ask for it, I'd like to mention it on purpose. After all, Lou Yi needs a good medical environment.It's just that I don't know if he will threaten me again and not allow me to treat Lou Yi.

……

I finally know why Feather hates being near me.

The ugly "I" in the video is like the evil-looking feather last in the so-called evidence back then. If Lin Bo hadn't shown me the restored picture, I would almost think my own memory was fragmented.

I don't hate or resent, but I feel pain because of Yi Yan's unscrupulous methods, and even more because of Ran Luo's innocence.

……

Yi Yan told me that he and I can only exist as one, to go or stay, to live or die, I choose.

I told him that as long as he was willing to face it with his heart, this kind of choice should never appear in our lives. Obviously, he didn't want to give me this kind of opportunity.

In fact, what he asked for cannot coexist, and it will be realized in the near future.

Thinking of this, I didn't feel sad. Compared with the unbearable feeling after I first learned about my condition, obviously, I have already seen it.

I gave up the idea of ​​telling him about my illness, not sure that he would agree to get along with me out of pity.That being the case, there is really no need to waste feelings and let yourself be more disappointed.

……

I don't have much time, and now it should be regarded as the worst state, I don't want Feather to see my embarrassment and fragility.

Anyway, sooner or later he was going to die, and it was enough that there was still a trace of goodness left in his memory.

I wish he would leave on his own initiative, but he doesn't seem to think so.That being the case, I am afraid that I will destroy even the beauty that is not sure whether it still exists.

……

Yuan Kun asked me, I owed Yuxi a favor, and now it is worth paying with my life.

I want to tell him that even if I pay for it with my life, I will not be able to repay what I owe to Yuxi. What's more, my current situation is caused by myself and has nothing to do with Yuxie.

But Yuan Kun would not want to hear such an answer. I don't know if it is an illusion, but I always feel that Yuan Kun seems to be hiding something.

……

I sometimes wonder what kind of life they would have had if the four of them hadn’t been brought to this city. Maybe they couldn’t be as exciting as they are now, but they are definitely more pure and beautiful than they are now.

However, as long as I think that I will miss the feather last, I am afraid from the bottom of my heart.I can not put him first, but I can't imagine how pale and weak my life would be without him.

I, Ouyang Liling, deserve nothing in my life, but I owe you alone.Feather last, if there is an afterlife, please remember to stay away from me.

We are brothers, we agreed to be together, but the reality forced us to separate. It's not that we don't cherish enough, it's just that we can't escape in human nature|desires.

The diary ends here.

Qiao Yuxi's whole body was shaking, which shocked him too much, and his cognition was completely overturned.

This is not the Ouyang Liling he knew, or rather, this is the Ouyang Liling he knew at first.But he believed that such Ouyang Liling had been swallowed by time, and only remained in his memory.

And Yi Yan, if what is recorded in the notes is true, it means that everything was done by Yi Yan, and he cannot accept it.

The lights in the operating room went out, the doctor came out, shook his head slightly, expressing regret, everyone understood the meaning of the message conveyed by this action, and then came professional words: "We have tried our best, please forgive me."

"You will regret hurting me so much." It was these words that rang in Qiao Yuxi's ear.

He couldn't remember if it came from Ouyang Liling's mouth, but this sentence was like a curse, which made him feel overwhelmed with pain.

Qiao Yuxi slid on the ground, holding her head in her hands, trying to calm herself down.

No, he doesn't believe it, it's all a conspiracy, with guilt as a shackle, a lifetime of bondage and punishment, he must never fall into this trap!

"It's fake, it's all fake!" He suddenly shouted at Yuan Kun.

Yuan Kun understood, and silently picked up the diary he had thrown on the ground: "All of these are true."

"If Ouyang Liling is really so great, why did he record these things?" Qiao Yuxi sneered, "Without these, no one else would know what happened. Isn't it just fulfilling his painstaking efforts."

"Director, I found out that you have never really understood the boss. The boss has endured too much, he is too painful, and he is more depressed than anyone else. He needs to vent. And... the boss has the habit of keeping a diary since he was a child."

"Yu Zhi, what's the matter with you, what happened?" Yi Yan, who had been paying attention to this side, came over.

Qiao Yuxi glanced at the direction of Ouyang Liling who had been pushed out of the operating room, and suddenly pushed Yi Yan away and rushed out.

"Feather tree!" Yi Yan chased after him.

"Don't follow me!" Qiao Yuxi yelled, his eyes were bloodshot, "I don't want to see anyone right now, let me be alone."

"Yu Zhi, don't be like this, we are all very sad about Li Ling, but..."

"Shut up, don't follow me anymore, otherwise, otherwise..." Qiao Yuxi turned and ran away, he didn't know what would happen otherwise, he couldn't say harsh words to Yi Yan.

Everything was in chaos, he didn't know right from wrong, he couldn't tell who was trustworthy, and he even began to doubt whether he still had the ability to distinguish right from wrong.

For the next few days, he hid in his residence and did not show up. Apart from taking care of Lou Yi, he remained silent and in a daze.

He tried not to think about anything about the past, and he didn't see any acquaintances other than Lou Yi. He told himself that it would be good to keep running away until he forgot everything.

That day, after the doorbell rang dozens of times, he moved despite his reluctance.

It was Ran Luo who came, which was a little surprising, he thought it was Yi Yan.

"Is there something wrong?" Qiao Yuxi didn't intend to let Ran Luo in.

"Can I come in?"

"No need." Qiao Yuxi refused flatly.

"Even if I'm not a friend, I shouldn't be an enemy. What's more, it's reasonable for me, an employed person, to talk to my employer, right?"

"If you have something to say, you can just say it here."

"I thought that your fragility has been worn away, and your heart has become strong enough to withstand even the most severe blow." Ran Luo looked at him and paused, "It seems that's not the case."

"..."

"Give me some time, please?" Ran Luo didn't expect Qiao Yuxi to face him calmly, "If I don't tell you something, I will definitely regret it."

Qiao Yuxi was silent for a long time, and finally nodded.

"I heard that you have read Ouyang Liling's diary, so you must be mentally prepared."

"What do you want to say?"

Ran Luo took out the hard drive and put it on the table: "It contains all the truth you want to know."

Qiao Yuxi sat expressionlessly, without moving.

"You always hope that Ouyang Liling is innocent, and that he is still the one you love. Now, as you wish, Ouyang Liling was framed, and he is still the old Ouyang Liling... I know, so you Still can't be happy, because Yi Yan..."

"Stop talking!" Qiao Yuxi interrupted Ran Luo angrily, "It's just something man-made, nothing worth paying attention to, not to mention... what the truth is has long been less important."

"Even if those diaries can be faked, but this is a video, you can always believe it."

"Believe it?" Qiao Yuxi's wry smile was full of sarcasm. He had been imprisoned for three years because of this irrefutable evidence. Now let him believe it, why!

"Ouyang Liling is dead, he dug his own grave, he is stupid, there is nothing to sympathize with, but you are still alive, he hopes you can live well. But I know, as long as he is still wronged, you will never be truly happy , then his stupid behavior is completely meaningless, so you must watch it!"

"Who do you think you are, why do you order me!"

"I didn't take myself seriously, and I didn't think I could be forgiven by you after cooperating with Ouyang Liling!" Ran Luo became anxious because of Qiao Yuxi's decadence and because of Zhan Yuan's persecution, "But Qiao Yuxi, You are my friend, I don't want to see you suffer, so you must watch!"

"Huh, friend?"

"Enough, Qiao Yuxie!" Ran Luo was very sad, "What you saw in the video is not the truth, the person in it is indeed me, but the other person is not Ouyang Liling, all of this is Yi Yan and Han Wei conspired to design it."

"..." Qiao Yuxi looked at the hard drive in Ran Luo's hand strangely.

"I promise, this one has never been tampered with." Zhan Yuan will find here soon, and Ran Luo is not sure if he can get away with offending Zhan Yuan this time, "If you don't watch it, you will run out of time .This was sent by Su Lingge himself, no one can tamper with his stuff!"

"Su Lingge?" Qiao Yuxi seemed to have suddenly remembered something, and slowly raised her head.

"Su Lingo said, there is no backup for this, if you want to destroy it, it's up to you."

At this moment, Lou Yi handed over a note with only a short sentence: Yu last, Li Ling is innocent, everything was done by Yi Yan.

Lou Yi knew all the truth, but he didn't have the courage to expose it.He was afraid of Yi Yan's revenge, and also afraid that Qiao Yuxi would not believe it. After waking up, he could not get rid of the nightmarish experience in that dark basement for a long time.

At this time, he had to stand up, because the most innocent person had already left, leaving forever.If he still timidly shrinks back and only cares about himself, maybe more people will suffer.

Qiao Yuxi didn't notice Lou Yi's abnormal behavior. He tremblingly clutched the note and turned on the player. Clear pictures flashed one after another, and his heart became colder and colder.

After the video was played, he was still in place, without any response for a long time.

Suddenly there was a loud noise outside, and he was awakened with a start. After finally regaining consciousness, he realized that Ran Luo had left at some point.

Lou Yi touched him, pointed out the door, and beckoned him to go out.