Contemporaries

6.

When I knew Ah Yi for 1197 days, we finally became the couple I dreamed of, although it was an underground couple.

I started to love dressing up. I used to not pay attention to dressing, but now I always waste a lot of time in front of the changing mirror.Even my father asked me in a very strange tone when he was eating breakfast, if he had a crush on some girl.

Ah Yi also went back to school to start classes. He is really smart. He also took so many days off, and my grades were almost all over the board, but he was still the first in the school.

I am very glad that those classmates never showed up again. Ah Yi and I still hang out with each other in the name of friends every day. When we are in school, we are allowed to hold hands, except for hugging.As for kissing, I couldn't find a safe place, so I ran aground.

Maybe it’s because I’ve read too many forbidden articles. About kissing, I’ve actually imagined it many times. Sometimes when I was chatting with Ayi in the classroom, I felt that I might not be able to hold it in the next second and pounce on it.

Am I... that hungry?

Compared with me, Ah Yi is much calmer, but I also obviously feel that he has become gentler than before, and he often smiles at me.When I was talking about my homework, I sometimes looked up while I was writing, and I saw him looking at me all the time. When I looked up at him, my face blushed.When we went to eat together, he wiped my mouth a few times, when we bought drinks together, we deliberately exchanged drinks, kissed indirectly and so on.Thinking about this, I feel like I have a lot of treasures in my heart.

We made an appointment to go to the movies together on the weekend, and both of us bought a very unpopular art movie without knowing it. In fact, we didn't care what the movie was showing, just so that the two of us could hold hands like this all the time.In fact, I wanted to kiss him very much, but there was a female and female couple sitting in the back row, so in the end I gave up.

When I came out of the movie theater, it was already dark. I proposed to go to his house, but he refused. He said that he was afraid that his mother would bring other people back and that those people would see me.

I don't really know all about his past, but I don't want him to recall those unhappy things. If he wants to tell me, I'll be happy to listen. If he doesn't want to talk, it doesn't matter.

The two of us were walking by the sparsely populated river embankment, and we walked to the bottom of the bridge hole. I looked around and made sure there was no one around, so I reached out and hugged him. He might be a little surprised, but I still stretched out my hand. hug me.

I stretched out my arms and barely hooked his neck and said, bend down a little.

Although he didn't understand what I wanted to do, he still bent down slightly obediently, and I tiptoed and kissed him on the lips.His lips were soft and had a faint fragrance.I feel that the vines in my heart that have grown for a long time have finally blossomed into roses.

He just froze for a moment, and then kissed me back, which was much more enthusiastic than my previous start.At that moment, I was so excited that all the blood in my body was rushing up, and even my body was shaking.

At the end, I smiled and said to him, in my next life, I must be a boy, at least I don’t need to remind you to bend down before kissing.

He looked at me deeply, smiling like the warm sun in the morning, I heard him say softly, I like you out of instinct, so it has nothing to do with your gender, okay.

I think his words and that smile are engraved in my mind like that, and I will never forget them until I die.

7.

I don't know who did this, who followed and secretly took pictures of Ayi and me.And it was a photo of me and Ah Yi secretly kissing in the park, and it was posted on the school forum.When I was crying in the school bathroom holding my mobile phone, Ah Lai came, he knocked on the door of the cubicle, I opened the door, and the two of us just hugged each other in the small bathroom cubicle.

He said calmly, don't cry, nothing will happen.

I was terrified, I felt my body shaking, I didn't know what was going to happen, if dad and daddy would find out.But I can't say that I don't want Ah Yi to be more troubled because of me. In fact, what I fear most is that Ah Yi will give up on me.

Ah Yi, don't let me go, no matter what happens, don't let me go.I cried and said, as if I wanted to hold onto something tightly.

I heard Ah Yi answer me very calmly, yes.

This matter spread quickly, and I could feel that everyone saw me as if they saw a walking monster, while hiding away and whispering.

I didn't care about these until the school called my dad and dad.

I saw my father sitting on a chair and covering his face and crying. My father looked at me with a livid face and said, break up with him, and then transfer to another school!

I do not want.I shook my head and said firmly.

It was the first time that my father stretched out his hand and slapped me. Since I was a child, my father has always treated me like a baby. When he looked at me, his eyes were full of anger.

Dad cried and grabbed Dad, knelt in front of me and said, Amo, be obedient, Dad and Dad are also for your own good.You can't be together, you know?

Why not, I love him, and he loves me, we don't kill people, we don't set fire, and there is no law that says we can't be together!I couldn't bear my father's kneeling, and I also knelt down, crying and yelling in despair.

But the law did not allow you to be together!Don't you usually watch the news?Don't read?Has history ever recognized such a relationship? !It is illegal to promote such a relationship!Dad scolded angrily and pulled Dad up from the ground, leaving me to kneel there.

Ah Mo, be obedient, father and father will help you transfer schools, your father will also go to settle this matter, you, forget about him.

I don't want it, I can't do it, why not, why not... I covered my face and kept crying.

I don't know where he is, and if he is as desperate as I am at this time.I really want to hug him.

8.

I chatted with my dad for a long time, and my dad finally agreed that I would continue to go back to school to study before completing the transfer procedures.It has been a week since I went to school for the last time, and when I come back here, everything feels so strange.

I saw him when I walked into the classroom, and he was still sitting in the back.It's just that the expressionless face showed such obvious surprise when it saw me, just like when I appeared outside his house that day.

At this moment, I wanted to rush over and hug him.

The whole class was looking at me, and at him.

During recess, I really wanted to go, but I didn't dare to go there. When I was eating, I really wanted to go there, but I didn't dare to go there.Thousands of pairs of eyes in the school seemed to be watching us, and that feeling was terrifying, as if thousands of needles were hanging on the head, and if one was not careful, it would pierce through thousands of holes.

When school was over, I crossed the alley and ran towards his way home just like I did a few years ago. Maybe, he has been... looking for me.

When I was halfway to the alley, I saw him. He was standing there, as if he had been waiting for a long time.

I ran over and hugged him, I was quite useless, and cried without saying anything.

He said, I wait for you every day, I am afraid that you will not come back.

I hugged him, my heart was full of throbbing, as if this moment would last forever.

I made an appointment with him, for the sake of the other party, try not to be together in school, but this feeling of seeing but pretending not to see it is really bad, and what's worse, I don't know who it is, maybe how many Personally, I started scribbling in ink on my desk and Ah Yi's, saying things like perverts, monsters, get out of school, etc.Our textbooks would be thrown out the window into the flower beds outside, and sometimes the chairs were missing.

But it doesn't matter, when Ah Yi and I went to the flower bed to look for schoolbags, we could stay alone for a while, which was also good.

I still sneaked through the alley every day to accompany Ah Yi home.

During that limited time, he and I were like two people who depended on each other for life. A Yi told me that one of his mothers was indeed heterosexual, but the man he liked abandoned her and got married. She was disheartened He was born in an arranged marriage, but his mother was not happy at all. When he was very young, he drank heavily every day, which made the other mother very unhappy, so he went out to find a woman.Later, maybe his mother still couldn't accept this reality and committed suicide by jumping off the building.After that, his other mother brought different people to the house every day, including men and women.

I hugged him and didn't know how to comfort him, I just said, no matter what happens, I will be with you.

He said, but you are going to transfer schools, aren't you?

It turned out that he knew.

9.

Time passed quickly, and my transfer procedures had been completed. On the afternoon of my departure, both he and I were absent from class.I cried and said, I can't make Dad and Daddy sad, because they love me.He was calm, even nodding his head tenderly.

I promise I will come back to see him.

That afternoon, we hugged each other under the bridge hole where we kissed every time. Even the short farewell, we couldn't be in the sun openly, but those were not important anymore.

I don’t remember what happened after I transferred to another school. I feel like I don’t know how the days passed after I left him. Every day I’m like a wandering soul. wandering soul.

I don't know if he is doing well, if he is there alone, there must be someone bullying him, when I think of this, my heart hurts so much that I can hardly breathe.Finally one day, I couldn't stand it anymore, and instead of going to school after leaving home, I sneaked back to the original school.I stood outside the school gate for a long time, and then sat in that alley from noon to evening.

But he didn't even wait for his figure passing by the alley, he... didn't come home.

I walked to the school along the road he had been walking, and I didn't see anyone. When I was about to go home, I saw a man behind the school wall, sitting there with his head bowed. The short silver hair was stained black in patches by the mud.

I ran over, knelt down beside him, and stretched out my trembling hands to touch his face. His clothes and pants seemed to have been torn by someone, and they were still covered in embarrassment. His hands were used by someone. The rope was tightly tied behind his back, blood and mud were on his face, and the white clothes on his body were already dirty and unsightly.

I didn't know what happened, and I didn't dare to think about it, so I felt so heartbroken that I was about to die.

I touched his face, hugged him, and untied the rope from his hands, but he didn't respond at all, like a soulless corpse.

It wasn't until I called out his name several times that he raised his head little by little, and the gray eyes overflowed with light, but then darkened again.

What are you doing here.He pulled his clothes and stood up while leaning on the wall. I wanted to help, but he opened it with his hand.

I came to you, I miss you.I tried not to cry, not to look at his unsteady feet.The muddy ground under my feet is full of footprints, large and small.

I wanted to reach out and hug him, but I was worried that I would hurt him.

Mo, let's break up.When he said this, it was like answering the teacher's question, without any emotion at all.

I said that no matter what happens, I will always like you.I stubbornly answered irrelevant questions.

You go back, don't come to me again, and I don't want to see you again.A Yi lowered his head, his hair hanging down covered most of his face, and the exposed half of his face showed no expression.

I wanted to hug him, but when I stretched out my hand, he pushed him away.He turned around with difficulty, almost shuffling away with his back turned.I reluctantly followed behind him, just like three years ago, following from a long distance.

When he came to the intersection, he stopped, turned around, looked at me with strange eyes and said, I don't want to be a monster anymore, so please leave my life.

I said, I will always like you!You also promised me that you would not let go!I felt like there was a big hole in my chest, and the wind was blowing in all the time, so when I spoke, no matter how hard I tried, the words were weak and sad.

But I don't like you anymore, I don't want to be a monster, and I don't like monsters either.

There was no light in his eyes, and there was no expression on his scarred face. When I said that, I didn't seem to know the person in front of me at all.

Something was rolling around in my chest, and I stood there stupidly, not chasing after it.

he's gone.

I bent down, kneeled on the ground and vomited. I thought I could vomit blood, but after retching for a long time, I just vomited something else. Maybe I hadn’t eaten for a day, and I couldn’t vomit anything.

Now, I actually hope to spit out the blood in my chest, instead of being half dead like I am now.