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The next day, on the way to school by bicycle, Xia He wrapped himself tightly in the cold wind.He is not a 'boy', and he is cold all over in winter.

Passing by the grocery store in front of the school, he stopped the car and went to buy a bottle or two of warm milk.

Back in the classroom, he walked to his seat without saying a word, but after what happened yesterday, a few classmates still looked at him with that kind of eyes like watching a drama.Seeing that Gao Yalan had already arrived, the other party knew the sound of him pulling the chair, but he didn't make any movement and didn't turn his head.He wanted to apologize and find time to explain the unpleasant matter to each other.

So, Xia He put one of the bottles of warm milk from Gao Yalan's back on her table, and said, "I'm sorry."

Although it was abrupt, Gao Yalan understood what he meant.But raising her eyes and seeing the gazes around her, she said awkwardly, "It's okay." Then she put the milk back on his table.

Seeing that he didn't want it, Xia He handed the milk to the person behind him.

At noon, the sun rose to its highest point, the light was bright, but it did not bring any warmth.The icy air lingered around him all the time, piercing and hard to avoid.

Everyone was busy eating, and the entire grade building was empty, occasionally there would be scattered footsteps.After eating, Xia He detoured to the classroom to get a ping-pong racket, and planned to go downstairs with Zhou Yu to exercise his muscles and bones, otherwise his hands and feet would be cold, which would be really uncomfortable.

When he walked to the corridor, he saw Gao Yalan leaning on the corridor alone to bask in the sun, looking a little lonely.

When passing by her, he hesitated, but decided to say something to her.Gao Yalan turned her head to look at him, as if she was also waiting for an explanation.

Xia He felt a little embarrassed, rubbed his hands together, and said: "What happened yesterday... just pretend you didn't hear it, I didn't mean it, that, don't take it to heart."

Gao Yalan stared at him and didn't speak for a long time, as if she didn't go to eat just to wait for him to come over alone.

Xia He felt very uncomfortable when she saw her, and added: "Don't worry, we will still be friends in the future."

After hesitating for a few seconds, the other party suddenly said silently: "Xiahe, what if I say I'm serious?"

Xia He didn't quite understand the meaning of the words, and frowned, showing a hint of surprise: "What?"

This time Gao Yalan didn't speak anymore, she hurriedly avoided his gaze, turned around and continued to face the sun, said leisurely: "It's nothing." After a pause, "You don't mind me, Zhou Yu is still waiting for you below. "

Xia He glanced downstairs and saw Zhou Yu waving at the two of them.So he paced into the classroom, took the racket and hurried downstairs.

But as soon as he reached the stairs, he bumped into Gu Sheng who was coming towards him, and Xie Dong was with him.

Xie Dong wore a fluffy hat covering his round head, looking a little funny.When seeing Xia He, the first thing he said was: "Oh, not bad, people become cheerful when they have a partner."

Apparently this hot-headed misunderstanding didn't know how long it would last, Xia He didn't bother to refute, ignored him, and instead stared at Gu Sheng next to him.

Gu Sheng was wearing a black leather jacket, looking very familiar, not like a student.Normally, he would have ridiculed him, but this time, he didn't say a word, and he didn't even look at Xia He.He just turned his head and said to Xie Dong: "Let's go, don't block his way."

Then the two turned up the corridor side by side and walked in the other direction.Xia He stayed in place for a while, and then slowly went downstairs again when he could no longer hear footsteps.

Seeing that he was walking slowly, Zhou Yu asked, "What happened to you just now? Did you run into a ghost?"

Xia He rolled his eyes at him: "You just hit a ghost."

The two of them walked towards the table tennis table, Xia He thought about what Gao Yalan said just now, and suddenly understood the meaning, his eyelashes trembled, and he suddenly stopped.

Zhou Yu said again: "What's wrong with you?"

He said, "Go Arran seems to have confessed his love to me just now."

"Ah?" Zhou Yu was a little surprised, "Didn't you say that those two were just joking around? What's going on?"

He shook his head, not knowing how to answer.

Zhou Yu asked: "Then do you like her?"

Xia He shook his head: "I don't like it!"

"Then you tell people directly, don't waste the good time of the National People's Congress."

"I said it..." Xia He sighed, "I really hope that what happened last night didn't happen, so there won't be so many misunderstandings."

"Oh, you still want to go back in time?" Zhou Yu teased: "Go ahead and dream." Then he hooked his shoulder and continued to walk towards the table.

For the whole afternoon, facing Gao Yalan who kept silent to him, Xia He even blamed himself a little.I thought that it might be that I cared too much for her, which caused the other party to have this illusion.After all, most people's minds can't bear to be teased, and they will be moved when they touch it.

He still wanted to explain something, but he didn't want to continue, fearing that things would get worse.

At night, the cold air became more intense, and there was fog and wind, which stinged my face very much.

He came to the parking lot, unlocked the bicycle, put on his gloves and wrapped his scarf around it.Just as I stepped up and rode a few steps, under the dim shadow of the tree, I saw a figure of a person.Leaning against the wall, he lit a cigarette in his hand, which flickered on and off.

He yelled, "Gu Sheng?"

Gu Sheng looked up at him, smiled, and joked, "Want one?"

Xia He knew that he was laughing at the fact that he coughed up tears in the hospital that day, so he also smiled, "Don't be funny, I can't learn this stuff." After a pause, he asked again: "You still Are you going back?"

"Wait for you."

"wait for me?"

Gu Sheng said, "Wait until you take me home."

Xia He glanced at the parking lot, "Where's your bicycle?"

"Stolen."

Gu Sheng exhaled a puff of smoke and looked at him: "You don't want to take me back?"

Xia He sneered: "Come on."

Immediately, Gu Sheng stepped closer to him, and when he sat in the back seat, he put his hand on his shoulder.Xia He turned his head and smelled the smell of tobacco in his fingers and a faint smell of alcohol.

He asked, "Have you been drinking?"

"Skipped class in the afternoon and went out for a drink, um, a treat for the brothers."

Xia He didn't make a sound, stepped on the pedal and rode forward.

The wind was blowing very cold, and Gu Sheng was wearing very thin clothes, so he probably gritted his teeth from the cold.He put his face close to Xia He's back, feeling the warmth of his clothes.Xia He could feel his air-conditioning voice behind him, and said lightly, "Put your hands in my pockets to make it warmer."

As soon as he finished speaking, Gu Sheng put his hand into his jacket pocket from behind him.

After a while, he asked, "Is the matter between you and Gao Yalan true?"

Xia He froze for a moment, and replied, "I have nothing to do with her."

"Hmph, don't lie to me, what does it matter if you tell me? You told Zhou Yu already."

Xia He's heart went up and down, and he suddenly felt that he was a little abnormal.

"I didn't say anything to Zhou Yu, it was a misunderstanding. But, believe it or not."

Gu Sheng snorted coldly after hearing this, "Is that why you don't want to tell me the truth?"

A gust of wind blew through, and these words sounded a bit vague, but they still reached Xia He's ears verbatim.He was very surprised, but he didn't dare to show it too much. He thought to himself, can I tell you the truth? ······

Seeing that he didn't reply, Gu Sheng also fell silent.When he reached the intersection, he braked on the ground, turned his head and said to Gu Sheng, "Here we are, is it okay for you to go back alone?"

Gu Sheng sat still, his hands already warming his pockets, and said, "I lost my key, and there is no one at home, can you let me stay at your place for a night?"

Xia He looked at him, from his calm expression, it was impossible to tell whether the words were true or not.He had no choice but to nod and say: "Okay." Then he continued to step on the pedal and ride forward.

On winter nights, there are few pedestrians on the street except vehicles.

Light and shadow flashed across the pupils of the two of them.

When he reached the place, Xia He braked and said, "Come down."

Only then did Gu Sheng pull his hands out of his pockets, and when he went down, his body swayed a bit.Xia He pushed the bicycle into the courtyard, and the lights of the whole building were turned off, making it very quiet.He deliberately stepped on the stairs to make the sensor light come on.Gu Sheng followed behind him, shrunk his neck, patted his thigh and said, "I'm all frozen."

Xia He took out the key from his pocket and opened the door. After entering the house, he was still biting cold, but his heart was much warmer.

He said to Gu Sheng: "Go and soak your feet in hot water, it will be more comfortable."

Gu Sheng stepped into the door, went straight to the sofa and sat down, like a young master throwing his hands away: "Can you fetch some water for me?"

Although Xia He is willing to do anything, not to mention collecting water, but out of some special feelings, he deliberately put on a reluctant expression: "Are you without hands or feet?"

The other party said: "My legs are numb!"

Then, Xiahe went into the bathroom, took out a basin of hot water for him, put it at his feet, and said, "Pour it out by yourself in a while." Then he turned around and went to find clothes to take a bath.

When he came out of the shower, he saw Gu Sheng still soaking his feet in the water, leaning against the sofa and squinting his eyes for a nap.Xia He walked over and touched his shoulder with his hand, saying, "Don't soak your feet."

Gu Sheng opened his eyes, the eyes reflected the light, deep and concise, it seemed that he could see his heart through the pupils, but he seemed to be unable to see anything.

"Help me down." He lifted his foot up and said.

Xia He sighed, bent down to pick up the basin, then walked into the bathroom to empty it, and then found a foot cloth and threw it on him, "You don't need me to wipe it for you, do you?"

"If you want, I don't mind."

Xia He turned and walked away with an impatient expression on his face.

Gu Sheng said, "Is that why you bother me so much?"

He suddenly stopped, turned his head, and looked at the other party just as the other party looked at him just now.

Gu Sheng stood up, there was no joke or publicity in his eyes, instead he was serious, with a sullen face, and approached Xia He.

Xia He had never seen him like this before, so he was a little surprised for a while.

Gu Sheng walked up to him and got very close, so close that he could feel the warmth of his cheeks.Xia He took two steps back, turned his face away and walked away: "Go and drink some water to wake up the bar."

"I'm not drunk, Xia He."

Gu Sheng said, "You hate me, don't you?"

He endured it, but his heart was instantly shattered, just like the glance after looking through the autumn water, the step when the love is separated by mountains and seas.Everything can be disintegrated, because I really want to care, but I can't do anything.

"Don't say that, I don't hate you."

He turned around, and Gu Sheng walked up to him barefoot again, "Xia He, tell me, I want to hear you tell the truth."

Xia He stared into his eyes, not avoiding for the first time.

"What do you want to hear?"

"Stop pretending, you know what I mean."

"I..." He hesitated to speak, his throat seemed to be stuck together, and he could clearly hear his own heartbeat.

Gu Sheng suddenly raised his hand to touch his face, with some force, but Xia He didn't pay attention, his mind was in a mess, and he was very scared. He had never been so scared.

Gu Sheng leaned close to him, kissed his lips, and sucked hard.The jerky kiss made Xia He frown deeply.

He stretched out his hand to push the other person away, looked at him and said, "Are you crazy?"

Gu Sheng restrained his panting, and said, "I waited for you on purpose. My car was not stolen, and there were people in my family. I planned it beforehand, and I just wanted to embarrass you."

"Why are you doing this?"

"There is no reason, you hate me, you don't even want to talk to me, do you think you are noble?"

Xia He's eyes were red, he looked a bit embarrassed, and said silently: "You don't know anything."

After he finished speaking, he avoided him, walked into the room, and closed the door.