shame

Winter came in a blink of an eye, and the sycamore trees on the campus finally lost their last leaves, looking bare and haggard, like an old man with a disabled candle.

It has just rained, the streets are wet, and the fog is cold, blowing into Xiahe's neck with the wind.He wrapped the scarf tighter, his lips were a little chapped, and he stuck out his tongue to lick it from time to time.

He heard hurried footsteps behind him, and then someone called him.He stopped in his tracks, turned his head, and saw Gao Yalan.

Gao Yalan changed out of her whitish school uniform and put on a winter jacket, her hair was untied and naturally draped over her shoulders.Maybe it was because of running for a while, but she looked flushed, breathing white mist from her mouth.

Xia He asked, "What's wrong?"

She took out 200 yuan from her pocket and handed it to him, saying, "This is for you. Thank you for sending me to the hospital last time."

Xia He stared at the money, and then said: "Your medical expenses were paid by Gu Sheng for you, you can pay him back."

Gao Yalan was a little embarrassed, and said softly: "Then, please pass it on to me."

Afterwards, Xia He put the money into his pocket, which is regarded as a promise.After a transition period of more than a month, Gao Yalan's incident finally calmed down, and now she is not being secretly bullied at school.But her good luck may be more or less related to Xia He, Gu Sheng, Zhou Yu and the others. After all, those people are all famous campus eyebrows.Ever since the day Gao Yalan limped into the classroom, everyone knew that there was someone behind her, so they didn't have the guts to confront her again.

The cold wind blew, and she smoothed down the hair that was caressing her face.Xia He put his hands into the pockets on both sides of his jacket, glanced at her, and asked, "Are you going the same way?"

Gao Yalan nodded: "The same road."

"Let's go that one."

He stopped and took a step.

"Where's your bike?"

Xia He said, "The wheel is scrapped and hasn't been repaired yet."

"Oh." Gao Yalan was a little cautious, while walking, she lowered her eyes to look at the road under her feet and Xia He's shoes.

"I have to take the car in front, how about you?" Xia He asked.

"I also have to take a car." Gao Yalan said, "But after getting out of the car, I have to walk a long way."

"Ok!"

Xia He didn't make any more noise, and quickened his pace.After the car arrived, the two of them got into the car together, found a side-by-side seat and sat down.Xia He habitually took out his MP3 to listen to music, and his face was very calm, although sometimes his heart was in a state of chaos, which could not be seen from his expression.

Gao Yalan asked: "Can you listen to me?"

Xia He looked at her in a blink of an eye, took off an earphone and put it in her hand, he suddenly remembered that he had done this with Gu Sheng before.The song Gu Sheng wanted to listen to was Xu Wei's "Direction".Now Xu Wei has released a new song, and one called "Once Upon a Time You" is very nice.He looked at the streetlight poles flashing past the car window, and thought to himself, does Gu Sheng still like to listen to Xu Wei?

Everyone is very busy these days, day and night reviewing for the exam and then taking the exam again, no one pays much attention to anyone else.Xia He hasn't seen Gu Sheng for two days, despite having classes in the same building ten hours a day.Gu Sheng had just removed the gauze from his hand and was recovering, so he usually either sat in the classroom and slept, or secretly smoked in the corridor.

He thought at night that a certain sentence that Gu Sheng said to him in the hospital that day, whether it was a joke or a bastard, was buried deep in his heart like a seed, and it only took a moment to take root and germinate.

One night, I really missed him so much that I desperately wanted to tell him my feelings, so I took out my phone and called him.But the phone beeped a lot and no one picked up.After calming down, Xia He always wanted to slap himself. He didn't want to scare Gu Sheng. The "love or die" realm in the movie is too illusory in reality.

He wanted to try to see if he was really an outlier.

Seeing him staring out the window for a long time, Gao Yalan said, "The song you listen to is really nice."

Xia He came back to his senses and answered her, "Most of them are Nordic folk songs. I don't understand what they mean, but I like the melody." After a pause, he said softly: "Fortunately, I don't understand what it means... ·”

After the car arrived at the station, the two got out of the car, said goodbye to each other, and left separately.

A few days later in the evening, the setting sun burned the clouds in the sky like a fire, and it was dark, with a scorching light behind it.

Gu Sheng was exercising on the field, Xia He accidentally passed by the corridor, and saw several active figures on the field, one of them caught his attention very much.He stopped and leaned on the railing to watch Gu Sheng play.

After a while, Gao Yalan also walked up to him, followed his gaze, and asked, "What are you looking at?"

Xia He said, "On the court."

"Are you looking after Gu Sheng?"

She turned to him and asked,

He turned his eyes to meet hers, "including him."

Gao Yalan smiled: "Aren't you going down to play with them?"

Xia He said: "I don't play well, and I'm afraid of the cold."

Gao Yalan smiled, and the two of them didn't speak for a while, Xia He continued to stare at the figure on the court, not caring about the girl beside him at all.

Suddenly, Gao Yalan said: "Xia He, do you like Gu Sheng?"

In an instant, the thorns in Xia He's heart grew densely.He turned his face to look at her, a little flustered in his eyes.

"is it?"

He swallowed his saliva, and didn't intend to continue making up the pretense: "How do you know?"

Gao Yalan said: "I can see that every time you and Gu Sheng are together, I have noticed that your eyes are always staring at him habitually. There are some things that the insiders don't understand, but the onlookers know clearly. And, I know this feeling..."

Seeing that Xia He's eyes were still full of panic, she hastily added: "Don't worry, I won't tell anyone."

The next moment, Xia He turned his face away from her, pretended to be indifferent, and tried to change his concept: "How could I like him? I'm not... I'm not gay, besides, he is so ridiculous A person who I like, no one will like him."

Gao Yalan was silent for a while, feeling that she had talked about the wrong topic, then she said 'I'm sorry' and walked away.

When there was no one around, he looked away, his heart beating wildly.

During evening self-study, Gao Yalan secretly handed him a note, which said: "I'm sorry about what happened in the afternoon, I didn't mean to say that, if not, you can take it as a joke. Are we still friends?"

Xia He silently read the note twice, and suddenly had other thoughts in his mind, so he made up his mind, changed a new piece of paper, wrote four words on it and handed it over.

But just as the note was thrown on Gao Yalan's desk, it was picked up by another hand covered with chalk dust.Xia He was completely immersed in his contradictory psychological world, and he didn't even notice that the teacher had already walked in front of him.

The young substitute teacher opened the note, glanced at it, and then read out: "I like you!" Then he asked Xia He, "Do you like classmate Gao Yalan?"

So in the next second, everyone exploded in a daze.Gao Yalan blushed, if there was a crack in the floor, she would sneak in it regardless.

Xia He looked fearless and remained silent.

The teacher put the note in his pocket and said, "Go to class first."

Although I met a kind teacher this time, I didn't tell the teaching office, but quietly talked about the topic of 'talking after graduation' to the two.But even so, after whispering among the whole class, the news spread to everyone.

Xia He regretted the impulsiveness at that time very much. He didn't know when it started, it was difficult for him to calm down and think about more accurate countermeasures.

Lying in bed at night, just about to fall asleep, the phone suddenly rang leisurely.He touched his face and took a look, it was Zhou Yu calling.Needless to say, in the middle of the night, he must have learned some news and was busy teasing him.

So the first sentence after connecting, the other party said: "Congratulations!"

Xia He frowned helplessly: "Congratulations for what?"

"Stop pretending, you kid. Everyone knows it, okay. You told me last time. What's the point of your fascination? It fades away in two days. What's the matter, remember confessing?"

Xia He took a deep breath and sat up, looked out the window at the vast night, and said to Zhou Yu: "You can say whatever you want, it was a misunderstanding, I wrote it for fun."

"I don't believe it!" Zhou Yu said: "I've known you for so many years, I don't know who you are, you never play casually. Tell me, Gao Yalan agree?"

"What did you promise... I'll go and explain to her tomorrow that I really don't like her."

"Hey, don't be like this, it makes people lose face. She is a slim, beautiful girl, and people who want to chase her are lined up. If you really didn't do that kind of thing, don't pretend It's not good for people to humiliate people face to face. Do you know?" Zhou Yu said again: "And, what is your status in school? Everyone knows that you are handsome and good at studying. I can't get through with Gao Yalan, after that, Gao Yalan won't be bullied to death by your little fans."

Xia He was speechless, although Zhou Yu was used to gossip, but there was some truth in what he said.Besides, only Gao Yalan and herself know the core of this matter, and he is the one who brings trouble to the other party, so he really can't let Gao Yalan shield himself from the wind.

He said to Zhou Yu: "Don't worry, I know how to deal with it. Stop talking, I'm going to sleep."

"Okay, good night." Zhou Yu sighed: "I thought there was a show to watch..."