365 Difficult Ways To Live

Seeing Mu Shangqing's diary, Chu Yu was as excited as the silly son of a landlord's family, staring at the screen with novelty on his face, turning into a paparazzi, trying to "digging" between the lines.

Seeing her happy look, Muyu couldn't help but reminded her friendly: "I've read the diary and the small daily records. There is no important information. They are all trivial things, as well as his inner feelings and work-related content. , including his own work, and the process of participating in the investigation of a series of unsolved cases, did not appear in the diary, perfectly avoiding all key points."

Chu Yu's feverish mind instantly cooled down, and that's right, if Mu Shangqing's computer had information about the murderer, the case would have been solved five years ago, and it wouldn't be an old case waiting for them to investigate.

However, she read the diary from the beginning to the end in accordance with the principle of water tightness. She almost cried, her eyeballs were covered with a layer of water mist, which dissipated quickly, but the mark was still left in her heart.

The words are born from the heart, and it can be seen from the lines that Mu Shangqing is extremely gentle. Everything in the world is of all shapes and colors. As long as he has an intersection with him, he will pay attention, care, and discover the shining points of the other party. like.Whether the other party is the owner of the breakfast shop, a rookie who just graduated, a patient with a mental disorder, or a nagging old lady, he can treat him gently with eyes that discover beauty.

It turns out that gentleness can really melt the world, at least it can melt your own world spotlessly.Unfortunately, he failed to melt his wife and daughter.

After reading it, Chu Yu concluded that Mu Shangqing only recorded things when his heart was in full bloom, and meeting new strangers and making new friends would make him feel better, so it was reflected in the diary.

As for things at work, there are work logs and file records, and when working, the nerves are highly tense and the concentration is high, it seems that it is not a happy thing, Mu Shangqing did not mention it in the diary, it is human nature— — After all, who will write in the diary every day, what is the content of work today, what are the difficulties encountered, what methods are used, and what is the final experience.

Even Chu Yu can't do this kind of insane thing!

As if chasing an update, he finished reading "Mu Shi's Memoirs" in one go. Chu Yu's eyes hurt, so he took two drops of eye drops and asked, "Are there any other records like this?"

Muyu also rubbed his eyes, the bloodshot eyes were the proof of her burning lights last night, "It's in this folder, which is dedicated to recording his daily mood and trivial matters in life. There are four documents, one is a diary, three It is a record book, which records which books, movies, magazines, seven folders are divided into categories, including food, people, plants, clouds, night scenes, animals, small stones, and there are miscellaneous photos in it. He especially likes to take pictures , there are various angles, and there is a blank document, which was created last, and I didn’t have time to put things in.”

Chu Yu clicked on the blank document, and what caught his eye was a piece of white. Before Mu Shangqing's accident, he must still want to remember something, but unfortunately he couldn't come back before he had time to classify it.

She looked at the time, it was already noon, and it was time for "visiting the prison", so she put down her work for the time being and went up to the third floor.

Xia Yihan sat cross-legged in the middle of the hall, and the game console was lying on the side. He had fallen out of favor and was about to be thrown into the garbage bin of the cold palace.

Chu Yu walked into the hall along the aisle, and saw Xia Yihan raised his head, staring at her all the way, his eyes seemed to be filled with thick ink, they were so black that they glowed, contrasting sharply with the whites of the eyes, these eyes alone could make the whole face glow with aura.

Chu Yu had just finished reading Mu Shangqing's diary, and knew that Xia Yihan was staring like this because he was happy, and living things did not arouse her interest, and any living thing that could make her concentrate was the thing that caught her heart.

Chu Yu imitated her, sat cross-legged facing her, and said with a smile, "What's the matter, isn't the game fun?"

Xia Yihan nodded, and asked back: "Sister, are you having fun these few days?"

"I'm not fun either, I'm racing against the clock to finish my homework."

The homework is, within 30 days, to attack you and find out the truth.

Xia Yihan's mouth formed a straight line, unable to tell whether he was happy or not, "Did sister go to accompany Uncle Chu?"

Chu Yu kept smiling, remained silent for a moment, and answered in a different way: "Uncle Chu also participated in the experiment. I will analyze the results with him, and you will know your physical condition soon."

Xia Yihan crossed her legs and supported her ankles with her hands, as if she was meditating. She suddenly fell forward and fell straight towards Chu Yu. The position was quite perfect, her head just fell between the two peaks, and the side pillow can be changed for her face , comfortably.

Chu Yu trembled all over, feeling a sudden attack. The tension in his chest, from the strands of his hair to the tips of his toes, was tense.

Xia Yihan felt her tightness, buried her in front of her chest, and said in a muffled voice: "Sister, take it easy, be soft, or it will hurt my face."

Chu Yu: "..."

Although he said no in his heart, his body was still quite cooperative. It didn't take long for him to soften and maintain his original shape, which made Xia Xiaohan's pillow comfortable, satisfied, and the pinnacle of his life.

Satisfied, Xia Yihan lingered in the gentle village, his voice was lazily: "Then after knowing my physical condition, how will sister deal with me?"

Chu Yu's body was no longer stiff, and started to go numb, not because of fear, but because of being tickled by a feather duster, and her exhausted muscles were numb. Fortunately, she was still conscious, and said, "How to deal with you?" ? Let me think about it... cook you food, chat with you, take you to exercise, and keep you in a good mood."

——Give you medicine, accompany you in psychotherapy, take you into the operating room, and do surgical exercises.

Xia Yihan didn't know if he understood, he raised his head, but his chin still refused to leave the "gentle pillow", so he fell into Chu Yu's arms and stared at her.

Chu Yu lowered his head, lowered his eyes, and met her eyes, so close that he could even feel her breath.

If at this moment, a raw chicken leg is placed between the two of them, it may be cooked in an instant because the temperature is too hot, and it will become fried chicken in seconds, with crispy skin and tender meat.

Chu Yu could hear his own heartbeat, like a cat whose tail was stepped on, not only jumping wildly, but also scratching hard, trying to break out of the cage.

Xia Yihan laughed, her eyes were already bright, but when she bent her eyes, the light in them compressed and gathered, and the water sparkled.

"Actually, it's very simple to keep me happy. Just be with me every day."

Chu Yu's eyelashes moved, "That's all you ask for?"

"I ask a lot, you want to be with me, make me breakfast, choose the color of my sweater, help me put my ponytail into a ponytail, lead me across the street, ride me, and help me at night Charge the hot water bottle, put me in bed, and tell me American Horror Story."

Because of talking, Xia Yihan's chin rested on Chu Yu's ribs and moved up and down, comparable to a humanoid massage machine.

Chu Yu: Oh, congratulations on raising a daughter, or a granddaughter.

It's a blessing from God, she didn't do anything, and she was promoted to be a mother, or a little more aggressive, she was directly promoted to the grandma generation.

Grandma Chu pinched the back of Xia Xiaohan's neck, lifted her away, stood up at the same time, and pulled her up too: "Go, go down to eat."

At noon, six people squeezed into a table, and the atmosphere became awkward again, forming a three-legged confrontation, dislike each other—Chu Yu had a grudge against Chu Dongren, Mu Yu was wary of Xia Yihan, and Xia Yihan was fascinated by Chu Dongren's attitude, and Chu Dongren was infatuated with Chu Dongren's attitude. Pay attention to Xia Yihan's every move.

One meal turned into a harem plus spy war drama. They are obviously a group of closest relatives, and they are related to each other, but when they look at each other and smile, they either smile with skin but don't smile, or smile with skin without smile, and they almost lose their skin. And the meat laughs so hard that the wall is separated.

But fortunately, although the atmosphere is delicate, everyone has something on their minds. After eating, they are busy with other things, and they don't care about confronting each other. A table of people hurriedly finished the meal, and then turned on the battle mode.

Mu Yu continued to check Mu Shangqing's belongings, from daily necessities to electronic documents, to see if there were any clues that had been overlooked in the past.

Song Qingyang went out, met with the team leader Gu Miao, and went to Huaxieting, Mu Shangqing's birthplace, to investigate and visit.

And Chu Yu took Xia Yihan to the research department on the fifth floor, and together with Fang Datuo, examined Xia Yihan in terms of neurobiology.

This time, she wanted to pass the inspection once and for all, so she didn't let Chu Dongren show up, fearing that something might go wrong again, which would make little Xia urgent to urinate.

After the inspection, Fang Datuo sorted out the data and prepared a comprehensive analysis together with the last data.

Under the high pressure, Fang Datuo and Chu Yu worked overtime, and they came out two days later. Chu Dongren wanted to join, and Chu Yu thought he was a big man in the industry, so he didn't refuse. The three of them were in the office of the research department. , form a circle, and circulate the analysis diagram.

Fang Datuo: "First of all, at the genetic level, we can see that the methylation level of the MAMO gene is relatively high, but SLC6A4 (serotonin transport gene), NR3C1 (glucocorticoid receptor gene), OXT and OXTR (oxytocin The degree of methylation of the receptor gene) was not obvious."

Generally speaking, methylation means that the gene has less expression. The MAOA gene is closely related to crime and is located on the X chromosome. The monoamine oxidase A encoded by it has the function of degrading neurotransmitters such as dopamine and serotonin.

And Xia Yihan's MAOA gene has a high level of methylation, that is, its activity is low, and it cannot complete the degradation of dopamine. In childhood, if she was abused or experienced some adverse environments, she may have serious symptoms due to her sensitive constitution. Antisocial behavior, becoming a patient with antisocial personality disorder.

Chu Dongren is very interested in Xia Yihan's brain condition, and also joined the analysis team, "From the task state scan results, the PFC (prefrontal cortex) is abnormally connected to the amygdala, and the excessive control leads to the amygdala's attention, perception and learning of emotions. Something went wrong, there was emotional dysfunction."

Fang Datuo nodded: "Yes, and her striatum has a strong connection with the PEC, and she has a high reward dependence, which means that she will force anti-social behavior in order to pursue rewards."

It is manifested in Xia Yihan's body, that is, he keeps inserting knives and carving Sophora japonica flowers.

Chu Yu didn't look at the analysis chart, and crossed his hands, his thoughts drifted to Xia Yihan. According to the analysis results, he thought of her various criminal behaviors.

Fang Datuo continued to discuss in depth: "However, although she has a high tendency to rely on rewards, when we presented her with money, food, emotions and other stimuli, her dopamine release did not increase, nor did she gain pleasure. feel."

Although Chu Yu was in a trance, he was still listening, and he couldn't help frowning: "According to the current results, her problems are irreversible, because it is a problem of brain structure, not neurotransmitters, which cannot be solved with drugs. Stimulation, also can not make her have any response."

That means that although Xia Yihan relies on rewards, she only relies on crimes, throwing knives everywhere, and other rewards, it seems that she can't stop her from "quitting crime".

"No," Fang Datuo looked at her, his eyes shining brightly, "Although her response to each stimulus did not change significantly, we found that her dopamine release was at a relatively high level during a certain period of time. .”

Chu Yu listened, touched a few dopamine level curves, and tried to recall the content of the experiment that day.

Fang Datuo smiled slightly and couldn't help reminding.

"At that time, you were in the lab all the time, you were her dopamine!"