365 Difficult Ways To Live

In the early morning of the day before yesterday, when he saw Mao Yi's diary, Chu Yu turned pale with fright, not because he confirmed the fact of Mu Shangqing's split personality, nor because he was frightened by Mao Yi's weird modus operandi.

What really terrified her was Mao Yi's accusation against Chu Dongren in his diary—Chu Dongren wanted to kill him, and he wanted to kill Chu Dongren.

In this way, the source of that piece of cardboard can be explained, and the purpose of Xia Yihan's approach to her can also be revealed-influenced by Mao Yi, she believes that Superman is an organization that uses people for experiments, and that Chu Dongren is a murderer. The ultimate goal is Chu moving people.

And Chu Dongren and Xia Yihan's whereabouts were unknown at the same time, Chu Yu's back felt chills, no matter how slow she reacted, she could guess that Xia Yihan looked back at the river to kill Chu Dongren, and when Chu Dongren disappeared, he went to meet Xia Yihan.

The two of them, either die one, or die together.

Now in the trial court, Chu Yu faced the two of them, she wanted to turn things around and save them both.

After learning the truth these two days, she rehearsed in her mind over and over again. When facing Xia Yihan, what to say, how much to say, how to say, the consideration of each word, and the use of each word are all issues worth pondering.

To be conservative, she was going to shave the facts of the year, shave off the core parts, and present the parts that hit the truth directly in front of Xia Yihan, so that she could understand the truth and then make a judgment.

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At the trial scene, Chu Yu stated Mao Yi's inner journey to get rid of his darkest and most vicious accusations. She tried her best to make her statement appear objective without any suspicion of favoring any side of her personality.

After Xia Yihan finished listening, her complexion was pale. She was dressed in black today, with the heaviness of mourning, the solemnity of trial, and the unique coldness of criminals. Mixed together at this moment, they are all no match for the fluctuating expression between her eyebrows and eyes. .

She didn't change much, she still had a cold face and frozen eyes, but Chu Yu didn't notice her at all. She was like a fisherman. It can be zoomed in by the buoy so that she can see clearly.

She knew that her thoughts were a little confused at the moment, and she began to waver, because she must recall the scene when Mao Yi taught her to identify the gun type, and even the bombs at the scene were mostly credited to Mao Yi.

To some extent, Xia Yihan is more like Mao Yi's daughter, who inherited his arrogance, his rebellion, his superb IQ, his criminal methods, and his deep-rooted rebellion against the society.

Mao Yi has a lot of resentment towards the society, while Xia Yihan lacks affection for the society. Now that he has accumulated resentment, the pointer has been skewed to the hostile side. To get it back, the only way to get it back is to clarify the truth and try to resolve the resentment.

At this moment, Chu Yu was watching Xia Yihan's eyebrows, feeling every change in her, and didn't speak anymore, wanting to give her time to digest and tidy up, she was more afraid of her bomb than the bomb around her, five years ago Mu After Shang Qing learned the truth, he broke down directly and chose to die with Mao Yi. Now that Xia Yihan learned the truth, how would he choose?

After all, she endured it for four years, scheming, risking the world's disgrace, carving Sophora japonica flowers on the bodies of the five deceased's family members, deliberately approaching the director of the Superman Department, sneaking into the Superman Department, and finally attacking the members of the Superman Department, going mad in a mental hospital, and kidnapping Chu Moving, open trial.

As a result, the basis of truth established by the trial was quite different from what she had judged. How would she accept it?

After a while, Xia Yihan raised his eyes and looked at Chu Yu, "Are you telling the truth?"

"In the trial court, we all tell the truth. I believe that your accusation is the conclusion you have reached after investigation, and it is not fictional. Please also believe that my statement is a fact supported by solid evidence, and there is no lie .”

"Then can you show evidence to explain why Mao Yi's personality appeared in Mu Shangqing's body?"

Chu Yu stuck her fingernails into her palms, and hesitated for a moment. She didn't tell the story of Mu Shangqing being raped. She started talking about Mu Shangqing being bullied by other children, and she weakened Mao Yi's hatred for society, so Xia Yihan, and even the five family members of the deceased would have doubts after hearing this—how could such a good person have a split personality, and even split into a personality that is completely different from the main personality?

Mu Shangqing and Mao Yi, one is polite, the other is vulgar and harsh, the other is self-restraining and polite, the other is unrestrained, the other is moral, the other is despising the laws and regulations, the other is kind-hearted, and they do their best to help others and give back to the society. With a heart like a snake and a scorpion, he does his best to kill and set fire to revenge society.

How can such completely different personalities exist in one body at the same time?

Different people will have the same confusion when they hear this story, but after seeing Mao Yi's diary, Chu Yu has no doubts about it. She believes that Chu Dongren is the same, and she must have already guessed that Mu Shangqing has a dual personality.

"When Mu Shangqing was a child, he experienced unimaginable suffering. This kind of suffering would be unbearable for you, me, or anyone else. The environment he lived in was too difficult. His family was poor, and he and his mother depended on each other. In order to subsidize the family, Mu Shangqing slept four or five hours a day and went outside to work as a child laborer. This was one of the material hardships.

"Although Mu Shangqing is well-mannered, has good grades, and is a good boy in the traditional sense, his environment—that is, the neighbors in Huaxie Court doesn't like him because he doesn't fit in with others, and he has an introverted and quiet personality. , so he became the target of bullying by Hua Xieting's children, and the adults, because they had prejudices and grudges against him and his mother, also looked at him with rejection. This was mental torture, and the second was.

"Mu Shangqing and his mother depend on each other for life. It is reasonable to say that his mother is his closest person and the pillar of his spirit. However, his mother is too strict with him and often beats and reprimands him. Maybe because his life is too hard, his mother has lost the ability to express good feelings. She seldom cares about Mu Shangqing verbally, telling Mu Shangqing that she loves him very much, but reprimanding and accusing him more, which makes Mu Shangqing form an insecure attachment [1]. When facing setbacks and sufferings, he has no safe emotional sustenance. This is emotional torture, which is the third.

"More than 30 years ago, poor people gathered in Huaxieting, fish and dragons mixed together, and crimes such as stealing, looting, smashing, and beatings happened from time to time. Mu Shangqing met bad guys and dealt him mental, physical, and emotional blows. , This is the fuse, which ignites all the above-mentioned material, spiritual, and emotional contradictions, leading to Mu Shangqing's split personality [2]."

Chu Yu made the "rape" incident quite covert. Only Chu Dongren present should know what she was referring to, but the five family members of the deceased, after hearing Chu Yu's analysis, all looked extremely heavy.

Chu Yu guessed that it was impossible for Mu Shangqing to mention the sad childhood history to Xia Yihan. What he told her must be a beautiful side, for example, he pointed to Hua Xie Ting and said: "When I retire, I will come here to grow vegetables ".

As for the family members of the deceased, although they knew that Mu Shangqing had a split personality and that the other personality was the murderer, they didn't know why he split, and even felt that he was hypocritical and deserved what he deserved, while others had a complete and sound personality. Let him act as a monster, and he must split into a murderer!

It is impossible for Mu Shangqing to tell what happened to him, he chose to hide it and carried it alone, but his past is an important content in the trial, and it is his motive for killing, which cannot be avoided.

Knowing this past now, the faces of He Lan, Borian and others are becoming more and more unsightly, and they are visibly heavy with the naked eye.

Chu Yu organized the wording, and organized the more professional psychological theories into easy-to-understand statements.

"So under the multi-faceted attack of material, spiritual, physical, and emotional, Mu Shangqing felt that he was unbearable and almost collapsed, so he split another personality, that is, Mao Yi, to protect himself and save himself. Overcoming difficulties, Mao Yi is just as he needs, strong, brave, rebellious, and reckless, and every time he encounters hardships, Mao Yi will come out and help Mu Shangqing bear it, so as to help Mu Shangqing Resolve psychological tension and cognitive inconsistencies.

"Psychological tension refers to the anxiety in the face of suffering, and the inconsistency in cognition is the result of Mu Shangqing's struggle between the environment and morality. As I said just now, the mixed flowers and flowers are the result of social At the bottom of the gathering place, the people here were vulgar and narrow-minded, short-sighted, and swearing. Everyone here should know Mu Shangqing, know that he is polite, gentle and kind, and he is not like someone who came out of such an environment.

"But in fact, the influence of the environment on him has long been engraved into his bones, rooted in his subconscious. The people around him are vulgar and swear all kinds of dirty words every day. Mu Shangqing is polluted every day. People who are selfish, exclude and bully him, although he did not resist, but there is resentment in his heart, but the education he received from childhood told him to be polite, to be united and friendly, not to swear, not to fight, to be Good boy.

"We can divide Mu Shangqing in that environment into three levels【3】. The first level is Mu Shangqing who is affected by the environment. Like the people around him, he is vulgar and selfish, narrow-minded, and swears. The third level is Mu Shangqing, who is guided by morality and education. He is gentle and polite, and strives to tolerate others; while the second level, sandwiched between the two levels, is struggling with the environment and morality Mu Shangqing, on the one hand, he wants to get closer to the moral Mu Shangqing on the third level, and on the other hand, he wants to appease the vulgar Mu Shangqing on the first level, and appropriately meet his demands.

"It was difficult to reconcile the contradiction between environment and morality. Mu Shangqing was already out of control, but one day, he met a bad person, and his second level, which was the self-awareness responsible for coordination, was completely defeated. The vulgar Mu Shangqing was out of control. He ran out and became a personality of his own. After getting rid of the first level, the second level moved closer to the third level, so what appeared in front of our eyes was the well-mannered , Mu Shangqing, who abides by the moral code, because the first level, the vulgar Mu Shangqing, that is, Mao Yi, has been separated out and completely split."

"Let me sum it up. What you mean is that the combination of the second level and the third level is Mu Shangqing, and the first level is Mao Yi, who is a murderer, right?" The light in Xia Yihan's eyes, after just The flickering and dissociated, gradually become firm.

Chu Yu nodded: "You can say that too."

"So," Xia Yihan looked at the five people on the trial bench, "You five want to take revenge and kill Mao Yi, but you also killed Mu Shangqing?"

Facing the death question, the five defendants remained silent, and the scene was once again silent.

Chu Dongren raised his eyelids, looked at the five of them, opened his mouth with difficulty, and wanted to speak again.

Chu Yu took the first step and didn't give him a chance, "Presiding judge, the situation was a bit complicated at that time."

Xia Yihan's attention was attracted by her, he looked at her again, raised his eyebrows, and motioned for her to speak quickly.

Chu Yu took a deep breath and collected himself.A few days ago, along with Mu Shangqing's body, they found five knives, which were confirmed to be murder weapons, but only four of them had Mu Shangqing's blood on them.

Now, she has roughly guessed what was going on at that time.

She raised her head, looked at Hu Bin, who was the first person on Chu Dongren's left, and nodded to him with a firm tone, "Hu Bin, I would like to ask you to speak next, and describe what happened on the night of November 11 five years ago."

Hu Bin's expression was complicated. He turned his head and looked at Borian and He Lan who were facing him. They nodded to him, but Xue Jinping and Gong Yanhua were on the same line as him, so he couldn't see their faces.

Soon, Gong Yanhua's voice came: "Speak out, there is nothing to keep secret now."

Xue Jinping, who had been delirious all this time, suddenly spoke out, her voice was very steady, as if she had returned to normal: "Say it, I'm ready to bear the consequences."

With the permission of the others, Hu Bin sighed and looked at the roof of the temporary courtroom through the screen of his mobile phone.

"Five years ago, under this roof, Mu Shangqing...had a trial."