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"S' elder brother often sends postcards and "Bibles" to his home. I asked s why there are so many versions of your "Bible". He said that there are illustrations, annotations by different priests, and audiobooks. Oh, and the videotapes of sermons. S has a Blu-ray player at home, playing DVDs, playing VCDs, and playing videotapes, you should know what videotapes are, right?"

"You know it too? You haven't seen it at your age, have you?" the man said.

I said: "I watched the movie "Sadako", and Sadako crawled out of the video tape. Have you seen "Sadako"?"

The man laughed: "Not only have I watched "Sadako", but also "Sadako vs. Kayako"."

"Oh, the one from The Grudge!" I rubbed my hands together, "You also like horror movies?"

The man said: "There is nothing that can scare me in reality, let's see if there is anything in the movie."

I snorted, leaned back, and smoked against the back of the chair.I flicked the cigarette ash and continued, "Young people nowadays may not even know what an mp3 is." I drew a small circle in the air and said, "I bought that kind of small CD before. , what is it called d? I can’t remember, it’s for listening to music, and there’s a cassette... How cool is it to have a Walkman, there’s a kid in our Friendship House who has one, what does he listen to, “Black Cat Sheriff”! Wasted The few of us in the same bed pooled money to buy a cassette, and asked him to borrow it." I looked at the man and asked seriously, "Do you think Jay Chou sounds particularly unpleasant to you? I wonder what he is singing?"

I really want to know.

The man said, "It's okay."

I nodded: "Yes, you said that if you run the show, you are considered half of the entertainment industry. If you sing, you should have a high acceptance of the form of music." I asked, "Have you heard the latest music?" What's one of the songs?"

The man said: "Let's Learn to Meow Together."

I was so happy that I clapped my hands and whistled: "It's so fashionable."

The man said: "The younger generation always thinks that the elders are old-fashioned, and this kind of thinking is very old-fashioned."

I said: "I have never met any elders. Older customers don't like to look for me. They like to look for Xiaobao. Xiaobao has a sweet mouth, can coax people, can talk, and is clever." I said, "Elders are not old antiques. , the elders just like to swear, beat, and control people. They were controlled by their elders when they were young, and they have become elders. Don't think about why one person controls another person, what right does one person have to control another person , Just follow the gourd, they may not be sure at first whether it is right to do so, but controlling people is addictive, you can’t be angry with your leader, your parents, your friends, but you can be angry with yourself vent on your child, because the child is your child and your property."

I said, "But I'm not the child of any of them, and I'm not the property of a man and a woman. I'm just me... They gave birth to me, and they didn't ask me before they gave birth to me."

I smiled: "I watched a video of the sermon given by Brother S. It was a Chinese-speaking pastor, not Brother S. The pastor spoke softly and slowly. The pastor said that life is a gift from God." , everyone should cherish life, he has a pleasant face and looks very kind, I told S, no wonder the people below agree, he looks educated, and what he said makes sense, it feels like I disagree with him I seem to be uneducated and not social.” I thought for a while, and said, “Religion is actually similar to love, and it’s all about the atmosphere. In that atmosphere, desperate people think they have found hope, and lonely people think they have found hope.” Partner. The person who invented God must be a slave owner. He squeezed the slaves all day long. The slaves couldn’t survive. They lined up to commit suicide one by one, and he panicked. The slaves were all dead. Made up a God, told the slaves that everyone's life is a gift, a treasure, not just picked up on the side of the road, and told them that someone loves them, this person is supreme, and loves very selflessly." I have a look Man, "Do you believe in Buddhism or..."

The man said: "I believe that it will rain, and my mother will get married."

I said, "That's not easy. If you live to your age and still believe in fate, many people have turned to believe in Buddhism."

The man said: "I'm old, but I'm not old enough to think about my own affairs."

What the man said with a smile made me a little embarrassed, and I said, "That's not what I meant." My voice couldn't help but lowered.

The man laughed: "I'm just kidding, who doesn't die, who dies early and dies late, it's just a matter of missing a few meals."

I said, "I sometimes think the same way, but when I think of so many places in the world that I haven't been to, I don't want to die."

The man said: "What about s?"

"S what?" I looked at the man, "You are very interested in s."

The man said: "He sounds dangerous and mysterious. Anyone like this is not interested? He looks good, right?"

I said, "You look good, very good."

s thin face, eyebrows are neither thick nor thin, eyes are neither big nor small, pupils are very black, eyes are black and white, nose bridge is straight, mouth is neither thin nor thick.Everything is just right.Just enough to dilute his overly fierce eyes. When he is not speaking, the corners of his mouth are almost unreasonably tight. He can laugh, love to joke, and say pornographic jokes and childish words.Once, we were walking at night, taking a short cut from Guizhou Road to Four Seasons Square, passing through many small alleys. When we passed one of the alleys, we walked under some bamboo poles where our trousers were hanging. S immediately grabbed me and said, you jump.He jumped first himself, and I said, why.He said, haven't you heard that if you walk under the crotch, you will not grow taller.I laughed half to death, and I said that I had passed the puberty early, and I would definitely not grow taller again.He pouted, and jumped again.I said, you are so childish.He said, you control me.He strode in front of me.At that time, I heard that he had a bit of an accent and a bit of attitude.What attitude? The "old-fashioned" attitude, for example, when I said my eyelids kept twitching, he went to make tea and put wet tea leaves on my eyelids. I ate raw leeks. After I arrived in Taipei, I didn’t know what was going on. I had nightmares for days. He took me to the temple to get rid of the shock.I think he must have believed in Santa as a kid.I didn't ask.I was afraid that he would still believe it. If I asked, he would be disappointed.

I went on to say: "S looks like his father, too much like him, exactly the same, he probably didn't grow up when he was a child. His father is quite handsome, who was popular in Taiwan at that time, let me think about it, Qin Han? Qin Xianglin?"

The man said: "Liu Wenzheng."

I said: "S's father seems to like Hu Yinmeng. There are many videos of her at home. I watched one. At first she came out on a horse. The horse was a white horse. She was wearing a white dress. She was blue and her hair was so thick. So dark."

I thought: "Does Liu Wenzheng sing?"

The man nodded.

I touched my wrist: "Children in the future may not even know what paper money or watches are."

The man said: "Nowadays, watches can also measure heartbeat and blood pressure. They are very advanced. The times are advancing."

I pointed to myself and said with a smile: "The two of us, you seem to be young, and I seem to be your age."

The man said: "Young people nowadays like nostalgia."

"It shows that the times we live in are terrible."

"Bad?"

I said: "There are terrorists everywhere. When I read the news every day, I feel like I am reading global obituaries. Housing prices are still so high, things are getting more and more expensive, demolition is happening everywhere, and high-rise buildings are being built. It feels very cramped and My childhood memories and youth memories are all gone. A person without memories will feel that he is incomplete, as if he is missing a part. Without the past, there is no present, and the future cannot be seen. There are more people who can fit in, and I feel that I have no space for myself. In the future, young people have no dreams about the future. Just looking for a job and making a living is very hard, so I have to miss not having to work to make money. When you only need to cope with the exam... As long as you study the exam, at least you will pass it, and failing it seems to be no big deal, with so many exams, life seems to have many opportunities and many choices."

The man listened and nodded. He looked at me, looked into my eyes, and said softly: "In the 32nd year of the Republic of China, my father heard that the mainland was fighting the Japanese very hard. He thought To help, I arrived in Fujian by boat. There happened to be a group of guerrillas from the Eighth Route Army there. Eighth Route Army asked him where he came from. He said he was from Taiwan. He was fighting in the interior and wanted to help. They suspected him of being a spy for the Japanese and locked him up with a prisoner of war. That's where he became my father. I don't know whose child it was, maybe a female prisoner of war It may have belonged to a fleeing village woman.

"He was locked up until the end of the war. On the day the emperor surrendered, it was rumored in their camp that all prisoners of war and spies would be shot. He took me and a few Fujianese and ran away. We ran back to Tainan. He married Married, no children, then...

The man took a breath and continued: "He was taken away. They knew that he had gone to the mainland to fight and suspected that he was a Communist Party. They locked him up for seven days. After he came back, he went crazy. He first suspected that our neighbors had reported He went to chop people with a kitchen knife. After my mother locked him up at home, he suspected that my mother had reported it.