nameless flower

10.

When he woke up, Pei Shangxuan found himself lying in a piece of white.Subconsciously thinking that he was really dead, he first looked down and saw the hanging needle on his wrist, then looked up and saw the hanging bottle.

Only then did I know that I was in the hospital.

The surroundings were so quiet that even a needle could be heard falling on the ground, but there was still the faint sound of someone breathing.Pei Shangxuan turned his head slightly to the right, looked at the person lying on the other hospital bed, and then almost jumped up as if he had been electrocuted.

Fortunately, he remembered in time that there was still an infusion needle on his wrist, so he sat up slowly, carefully moved to the hospital bed, and looked at him carefully.

The man was sleeping lightly with his eyes closed, his brows were tightly furrowed, as if he was having an unhappy dream.Pei Shangxuan gently touched his hair and face.

It was a face that was too similar to himself.

It was so similar that he could almost see his future from this face.

Including... love.

Perhaps his actions disturbed the sleeping person. He watched Tang Shanhai open his eyes and looked at him without any surprise, resentment, or hatred in his eyes, but full of peace and concern, and even asked:

"Are you awake?" There was an indescribable tenderness in the voice, as if he was addressing a friend he had known for a long time, "Is there any discomfort?"

Pei Shangxuan looked at his pale face and bloodless lips, his trembling hands were almost speechless, he grabbed Tang Shanhai's hand vigorously, and said word by word:

"Why don't you scold me? Don't you hate me?"

Tang Shanhai shook his head with a smile:

"You didn't do anything wrong, at least for me, you didn't do anything wrong, why should I hate you?"

"But I stole Chen Shen!" At least in your eyes, isn't it?Pei Shangxuan rushed forward eagerly, wanting to explain but didn't know where to start.

"No, you're wrong," the man lying on the hospital bed turned his head to look at the scarlet ceiling, "You didn't snatch Chen Shen away, he never belonged to anyone—nor mine."

Pei Shangxuan opened his mouth wide and didn't know what to say for a while.

"Everyone is an independent individual, Shang Xuan," he said again, "There is no one who belongs to anyone, everyone belongs only to himself. Chen Shen means that he belongs to himself, just like you, like me, belong only to himself. He chooses who is by his side, it is his freedom; you choose to be by his side, it is also your freedom; I choose to leave..." Tang Shanhai looked sideways at Pei Shangxuan again, and gently patted his head, "It is also □."

"But, if, if I don't show up..." He wanted to say something anxiously, but was interrupted by Tang Shanhai again.

"Even if you don't show up, someone else will show up; there is a problem between me and him, it's not that you won't be exposed if you don't have this problem, in fact, it's been exposed for too long, and he and I both I'm ignoring—or, I'm the only one who is ignoring." Tang Shanhai coughed twice, and cheered up again, "He has always been like this, since the first day I knew him, he will be here I stayed by my side for so long, it should mean that I never cared about him or restricted his relationship. Now, relying on this alone is no longer enough. "

"No! It's not like that!" Pei Shangxuan held his hand tightly and said eagerly, "Chen Shen and I are fake, I'm not with him, he just wants to test whether you still love him! He said you were so cold to him, no matter what he did you didn't respond, he was so anxious, but there was no way..."

Tang Shanhai let out a chuckle, and grabbed his arm with his backhand: "Shang Xuan, tell me, did you sleep with him, and more than once?"

Pei Shangxuan immediately extinguished like a fire that had been poured with a pot of cold water.Not even a trace of blue smoke could come out.

"So it doesn't matter if all this is fake or not?" The smile on his face narrowed, "Chen Shen has always believed that body and love are separate, he can sleep with anyone he wants, but he claims There is only me in my heart, such words—" Tang Shanhai looked at the young boy seriously, "If it were you, would you believe it?"

Looking at the unresponsive Pei Shangxuan, he added another sentence:

"Even if you believe it, will you accept it without any grievances? If he is the one you love."

All Pei Shangxuan could think of was Xie Xun.

He couldn't even imagine that when Xie Xun hugged him, he had just hugged someone else intimately. Even after they had broken up, seeing him with Gao Baojing, he felt so worried that he wanted to spit out his internal organs. pain.

So he couldn't answer at all.

There is no way to say a word for Chen Shen.

Because he knew that he definitely couldn't do it.

He looked at Tang Shanhai, and felt his heart-piercing pain from the tightly clasped hands of the two.Concealed under the expressionless mask is a heart that has been riddled with holes.

Blood was spurting from every wound in this heart, so that he was powerless to react or resist.

Tang Shanhai is such a person.

He will not show weakness to an enemy—even if the enemy is, his lover.

"Actually..." Pei Shangxuan said with difficulty, "Maybe you can tell him your feelings and thoughts... maybe he will change... his way."

Tang Shanhai shook his head, as if angry and funny:

"I've known him for so long, but he has never been a person who would change himself for others." He looked at Pei Shangxuan with mockery in his eyes, "Do you know how many lovers he had in college?"

Seeing Pei Shangxuan shaking his head, he spoke again:

"Nearly one hundred. It's not limited to men and women." He smiled, "I've only heard him complain about how many lovers he has had. It's annoying to be controlled and restrained. What right do you have to think about it? Change my life, I really can't see it anymore, so I left and I didn't beg him to stay, so I've been listening for four years." Tang Shanhai met his eyes, "If you, you would still What are the expectations for changing him?"

"The reason why I have maintained such a long relationship with him is because I don't talk too much, don't point fingers, and don't criticize his principles and lifestyle, so we never quarrel." Nodding, as if affirming what he said, "Really, we have been together for four years and never quarreled."

"You love him, don't you?"

"I love him more than anyone else in the world." Tang Shanhai said with a smile, "But in this world, if you love someone more, you win."

Finally someone opened the door and walked in.

When Pei Shangxuan saw Lin Tao, he was stunned for a moment; when he saw Qin Ming, he was even more surprised and speechless.

First of all, I was surprised why Lin Tao looked so much like Xie Xun;

Then I understand...the Tang Shanhai I saw at the parking lot last time...is actually the man in front of me who has exactly the same face as Tang Shanhai and himself.