Star Sea·Light Year

Since then, the two have hardly seen each other.Although Meng Tian knew that this was the result he "wanted", but this reality made him very painful.

Mingming lives together, not only want to hear that person's voice, but also miss his light smell very much.Every morning when he gets up, there will always be breakfast for one person on the table, and when he comes back at night, there will always be two puddings in the refrigerator.

Even if he knew that in order to completely sever this annoying relationship, he should throw them all away, but... he did it himself, how could he have the courage to do so?He was even a little reluctant to eat, and wanted to keep these foods forever...

As long as the weather is fine, he will go out for a night run every night.

"He" also likes to run.The first time he went to talk to "him", "he" was running by the school lake alone, and he had seen the running figure of "him" through the window of the student union many times.

"Go and ask Wang Ben if he would like to join the student union." Maybe because he saw that he was interested in "him", the chairman of the student union gave him a reasonable excuse.

Although there was no unnecessary expression on his face, "he" seemed to be enjoying himself, so he didn't go directly to talk to "him", but ran beside "him".The breeze blows your hair, and when you run, you will feel a sense of freedom that turns into the wind.He didn't like the burning sensation of the sun shining on his body, and he didn't like the smell of sweat, that kind of unrefreshing feeling made him uncomfortable.

But it also seemed interesting.Especially when he saw "him" a little surprised, he naturally ignored the discomfort of the clothes sticking to his back.

When it stopped, "he" asked puzzledly, "Do you have anything to do with me?"

"I just saw you running happily, so I'm curious and want to try it." When he said "happy", "he" seemed to frown.

"...It's just basic practice, nothing to be happy about."

He stared at "him" for a while, and before turning around to leave, he smiled and said, "By the way, it seems that there is something real. He asked you if you want to join the student union."

When he was about to walk away, he suddenly heard "his" voice from behind: "...I will think about it."

When he turned around and saw "him", he was also looking at him, and remembered that he hadn't introduced himself yet: "My name is Meng Tian."

"……I know."

And yes, he was famous in school.

As a result, he really met "him" at the student union the next day, and he was a little surprised when he learned that "he" decided to join!Probably because "he" gives the impression that he is not interested in such things.

Withdrawing his thoughts, Meng Tian also wanted to go for a run on a whim.

The last time the two of them got together... It was the private fight. Although the opponent's nose was bruised and his face was swollen, they also got punched in the face a few times. Afterwards, because he was worried about being discovered, he kept staring at the grass with some trepidation. ... It's okay for people to know that he was fighting, but Wang Ben was involved by him ... If any unnecessary troubles are really caused, it is all his responsibility.

Perhaps seeing through his worries, "he" said that he would be calmer when running, and asked him to follow "him".

...will indeed calm down.Although my body began to sweat, my thoughts settled down, and the world was so quiet that there were only footsteps and breathing.

He still remembered that the lake under the moonlight was as beautiful as crystal that night.

Following him quietly, Meng Tian suddenly thought, even if they don't speak or look at each other, just two people walking in the same direction silently is a kind of happiness.

Because at such a moment, you don't need to look to know that he is by your side.

"...I thought you never wanted to see me again."

This kind of joyful voice made Meng Tian feel the urge to cry.

"...I'm just busy lately."

"Did we always run together like this before?"

"That's not true,...only ran together twice."

"...That's it."

Meng Tian was a little puzzled by his disappointed tone. He explained: "Because I used to see you running in the afternoon when I was in school, but I don't like getting sweaty. Things that are elegant and popular with girls are suitable for me. "

"...Like a piano?"

"Correct."

"You must be very good at it, but unfortunately I have never heard of it."

"Do you want to hear?"

"Ok!"

He doesn't play in front of others now because he always elicits emotions unconsciously when playing music.

"……All right."

But if Wang Ben said so, he didn't want to refuse. ...Meng Tian suddenly felt a little strange. He didn't think much about it before, but...before that, he didn't seem to have played a tune in front of "him". How did "he" know that he could play the piano?Did you hear it from someone else?

Or maybe he was bumped into by "he" when he didn't know it?

This possibility is very high.Because he often teaches girls in the music room, maybe "he" passed by and heard it occasionally, after all, "he" recognized him before he introduced himself...

That's right, "he" recognized him then.

... Does this mean that when he noticed "him", "he" was actually paying attention to him?

"Actually, I wanted to ask... do you have blood from another country? Because your hair seems to be red..."

"That's right, but I'm the only one in my family who inherited this hair color."

"Born with red hair... It seems to be a very ancient race, right? No wonder the skin is so dazzlingly white... Oh, this kind of thing seems to be due to a genetic mutation, so the tolerance to sunlight is lower than others... Strange... I How do you know..."

Seeing Wang Ben's puzzled look, Meng Tian couldn't help frowning.

——Does "he" even know about this?

But this is not surprising. Unlike him, Wang Ben's main research direction is genetics.But... In this way, many seemingly unintentional actions of "him" are not unintentional, right?

... "He" ... how many things he doesn't know are hidden?

"Hey, it's rare that someone can keep up with your speed!"

A strange man said to Wang Ben with a smile.

...Is it someone you know?

"Yo!"

Wang Ben also smiled and nodded at him.

"He is the friend you mentioned!"

...It seems that the other party also likes to run at night, maybe it is because I often meet new friends so I made friends?

"……Um."

Meng Tian smiled and reached out to say hello.

"Hello!" The other party also nodded, and asked Wang Ben curiously: "You still live in his house? Don't you know where you used to live?"

"Where did you live before...?" Meng Tian repeated in bewilderment.

"Yeah, so you really don't know...Sorry, I thought he was embarrassed to ask you."

That's why I tested him like this...

"Because before he lost his memory, he would occasionally run here at night, so he should have a residence nearby.... If you don't even know, maybe he came here from other places before? After all, the scenery here Better……"

Meng Tian didn't listen to what the man said.He said..."he" would appear here before..."he" not only came to buy desserts, but also lived nearby, but since he had never seen it before, he had never heard of it, so..."He "Maybe it's when he's not around that he comes?

"When was the last time he appeared before he lost his memory!"

Hearing his excited voice, the strange man showed a little surprised expression, and said with certainty: "...it was last winter....It usually appears irregularly, but it comes almost every winter."

...because he goes somewhere else every winter.Could it be that "he" even knew about this? ...Did Zheng tell "him"?

"...Winter?" Wang Ben seemed puzzled, "It will be very cold..."

"Haha, that's right, but you are running in only one piece of clothing in winter, so everyone admires you!"

"...I always feel that it is completely unimaginable..." Wang Ben smiled again after being surprised.

"You are a person who doesn't need to turn on the heating in winter." Meng Tian blurted out unconsciously, and when he saw Wang Ben's somewhat complicated gaze, he immediately put on a relaxed smile, "That's why we all said that you are very cold-resistant .”

"Really..." Wang Ben smiled slightly and didn't say anything more.

... He probably knew about this before, but he didn't mention it.Is it because he doesn't want to pursue the past, or...wants to maintain the status quo...?

But Meng Tian, ​​who knew about it, couldn't remain indifferent.Because he was afraid of hearing about Wang Ben's marriage, he has been deliberately avoiding news of him. ... After he goes back, he will ask the government to help investigate... Could the government actually know about this?

Obviously she doesn't want to pry into that man's heart again, but...but she really wants to know "his" feelings.Instead of listening to him, I want to touch the heart of "him" that I never show.

Even if he regained his memory, he would still choose to leave, but he has been rejected so many times anyway, if he can understand his thoughts, maybe... he will understand him.

—he wanted to understand.

Understood... Maybe one day I can let go.

The piano under the moonlight is as clear as crystal.Gorgeous and mischievous melodies popped out from his fingertips. He played highly skilled pieces, which were more relaxed than lyrical pieces.

Meng Tian didn't meet Wang Ben's gaze, he thought, his gaze now is as fascinated as he is watching "his" graceful figure when shooting an arrow.

"...do you know how to play other instruments?"

Hearing his confused voice, Meng Tian raised his head in surprise but puzzled.

"Why do you ask?"

"Because the timbre is a little different from what I remember. I thought... 'I' have heard you play other instruments? It's like a soft and dreamy sound like spring water..."

Meng Tian looked at Wang Ben in shock.

"...Why would you..."

He never mentioned it.It turns out that the "qin" mentioned by "he" does not mean "piano"...

"I don't know..."

Wang Ben said with a wry smile.

Yes, he doesn't know.Even he himself didn't know about it.

……when?Or was it possible that they had met "him" before he knew him? "He"...been to his house?

Meng Tian gritted his teeth. ...How much did that man know about him?Why didn't he know that before?

Another spacious room houses a large ancient musical instrument.He seldom plays her, because he is more intolerant of pain than ordinary people, so the sharp pain in his fingers will make him dare not touch anything after playing a piece, although there are special things to protect his fingers, but wearing that He always felt that the timbre would become less pure.

Opening the thick curtains, the moonlight poured in, and she also emitted a soft light.Before playing her, he had to let his own sink.Although he knows that there is no so-called god, her tone is too pure and holy. If he can't calm himself down, the music he plays will contain noise, so for him, this is actually a ritual to communicate with her.

...is also examining your own heart.

"...Only the curtains here are opaque."

The people behind were a little confused.

"Because she is very delicate, she must be treated very gently. ... Wait a minute, I haven't played for a long time, I need to adjust the tone."

"Ah."

Every string had to be calibrated, and tuning alone took nearly an hour. ...is a very troublesome instrument.

"Wait for me a little longer, I need to change clothes."

"it is good."

Although with a puzzled expression, Wang Ben nodded.

He changed into a formal suit that he rarely knew how to wear, and even tied up his hair carefully.

"..." Wang Ben didn't speak, but kept his eyes on him, probably because it was the first time he saw him dressed like this.

The sound of music like water flows quietly in the night, facing the continuous pain from the fingers, the beautiful and pure voice washes away all the filth in the heart.

Even though it hurts, she will still be fascinated by her voice.

——Just like this relationship.

"...Is this the voice..."

Meng Tian didn't look back, he was a little afraid to hear the answer.

"...Mmm." Wang Ben's voice trembled. Although his back was facing him, Meng Tian felt that he was sobbing in a low voice, but just like him, he tried his best to restrain his voice from leaking out.

"He" really knew.

Memories about "him" flowed through his mind like water bit by bit.

It is not accidental to let him walk under the shade of the trees, you will know that he often drinks strawberry milk, and that he does not like things that are too sharp... I also remember his birthday, although I will give some strange gifts every time, but... …all of them are pink things that look like girls would use.

"He" also always said that strawberry milk and sweets are only eaten by girls.

"He"... do you want him to...

Because if that's the case, there's no reason why they can't be together, right?

……is that so?

He wants to ask "him".But now, "he" is hiding.

"Why do you know?" Meng Tian couldn't help asking this question even though he knew that this person couldn't answer it.

"...Sorry, I don't remember."

He couldn't ignore the obvious choking sound.

"……why are you crying……"

"...Because I feel...you may also like me..."

"...that's just an illusion."

When his hand touched the lifelike carved petals and vine leaves, the sharp pain made him gasp coldly.Wang Ben immediately walked over quickly and grabbed his wrist.

"What happened to the hand?"

Meng Tian curled his knuckles, he didn't like people to see his fingerprints, because the texture of his fingers became distorted and ugly after years of playing the strings.

"It's nothing, how can it hurt after only playing for a few minutes, so how do I practice."

"Then let me take a look."

When Wang Ben became stubborn, it didn't make sense at all.

"No. You let go quickly, I hate it when people touch me."

At this time, he usually plays his temper, or pokes "his" weakness.

"Even if you hate me, watch it."

"..." Meng Tian lowered his head weakly, his tears dripped uncontrollably on his trouser legs, leaving dark marks one by one, he asked self-deprecatingly, "So what?"

Probably frightened by his emotional tone, Wang Ben didn't speak, but he didn't let go either.

"If I'm really in pain, can you just see it?"

"...I will never let you do this again."

The soft touch from the back of his hand made him turn his head like an electric shock.

"I'm sorry... I won't do this again in the future..."

Seeing his red eyes, Meng Tian couldn't help feeling sad, even the courage to break free from him disappeared.

"I'll leave."

Wang Ben suddenly laughed.

"……why?"

"Because you have a reason why you can't accept me, I think it's better for me not to appear in front of you. It's enough to know that you don't like me."

"Is it because you don't want to stay with me..."

Meng Tian stared into his dark eyes.He has always liked his eyes, the color like the night, which can clearly reflect his shadow.

Wang Ben half-kneeled beside him, his hands wrapped around his hands gently, and carefully pressed his forehead against his legs.

"...For me, as long as I can stay by your side, I am very happy. But I don't want to make you sad...As long as I stay by your side, you have to put on a gesture of rejection, so...I want to leave .”

Meng Tian was slightly stunned.Feeling the man's broad shoulders trembling, his uncontrollable emotions erupted like magma, so he could only lower his head and cry.

"……sorry."

he murmured.He wanted to apologize to "him", because he had always been willful and reckless, and he never understood "him"'s feelings.He only thinks about his own affairs, but treats "his" most important thing as an excuse.

...It even involved this person who shouldn't have suffered these things again.

"Sorry……"

But he really loves this man.

He pressed his wet cheek against the man's smooth black hair, and his tears wet his hair, perhaps also flowed into his hair, slid down, and stayed with his tears on his legs. Next imprint.

His fingers also stretched out, turned half a circle in his palm, and intertwined with his fingers.

If you tell him like this that you want to be together, this man will definitely stay and stay with him.

But that doesn't work.

Can't do that.

Because that man has reasons why he cannot accept this relationship, and in this case, he also has reasons why he cannot start this relationship.

Even if he loses his memory, he is still "he".

"Wang Ben... If you want, you can stay, and I will give you this house.... During this time, I... am really very happy. I can eat the snacks you made for me, and those delicious food Meals...it's really like a dream....From now on...I won't appear in front of you again, I'm not saying this because I'm angry...but...I'll go to a new place and try to make myself Live happily, and now I can sincerely hope that you will be happy too."

Meng Tian closed his eyes and rubbed his hair lightly, deeply remembering his smell in his heart again.

"Did you know...the existence in the universe, and even the universe itself has its own memory, the farthest planet from the earth is about 138 billion light-years away, that is to say, these messages received by us are important to them It is said that it is an old thing 138 billion years ago, and 138 billion years... It is also a long, long time for stars. When we know their existence, maybe they have been annihilated and exist in other forms. But these memories are proof that they existed."

"...but in this way...you can only talk to him in the past forever."

"Maybe this is the distance between me and you....I only know a little about you in the past now, and when you remember everything, you will understand why I did this. If at that time, you still think that only Only when you are with me can you be happy, then find me... But if you choose to be with someone else, please don't let me know."

Wang Ben didn't speak, but nodded weakly.

After staying quietly like this for a while, Meng Tian raised his head, if he stayed any longer, he might lose the courage to leave again.

Wang Ben held his hand tightly.

"In the end... can you leave a memory for me? I won't do anything that would embarrass you, can I?"

Meng Tian could not refuse his plea.

"it is good."

The warm palm was attached to his lips, and Meng Tian saw Wang Ben close his eyes, and press a kiss on the back of this hand with all his heart.