Hibiscus is a promise to you

There is only one semester left before the college entrance examination, and the noise of fighting in the classroom has become less and less, and the tense atmosphere has enveloped the entire campus.In this boring test preparation life, a heavy snow is enough to make the whole campus excited.

It was snowing, Lin Miao stood at the window and watched the scene of the students playing outside the window, and her mood improved a lot.Seeing someone drifting on a bicycle, when everyone's attention was focused on that person, only I saw the two people passing by the window arm in arm, their smiles were still so bright, and I finally believed that everything was not just pretending of.You guys are real and we are never going back.It was you who started it first, and it was you who ended it first. I also believe that your sincere dedication gave me a different relationship. I also know that we just lost to fate.You said: "We are destined to only be girlfriends, although we used to be as good as gays." In my youth, I should give you back the love that should belong to you. It is probably the best to be accompanied by someone.

When your heart is cold, you will naturally give up. When your dream is broken, you will naturally wake up.

No one can wait for you forever, people who have accumulated enough disappointment will naturally let go, love is accumulated, even if you don't love.Miao Miao, is it all fate or my fault, it's me, I made you wait so long, but you can't just give up like this, I thought you understood everything, but you didn't.I love you, I have always loved you, don't you know.

If it is said that Lin Miao's previous life was muddled, then Han Ziyan is not much better. Apart from dealing with Lan Chen every day, she also has to think about Lin Miao. How did it become such an embarrassing situation? How can I not be embarrassed? Woolen cloth.Han Ziyan didn't have many friends in the liberal arts class, and a few of them were casual acquaintances, so she would often chat with Li Wen. Li Wen knew Lin Miao's status, but she didn't know their specific situation.Although Han Ziyan has such a handsome and considerate boyfriend, the smile on her face is getting less and less, and her academic performance is extremely unstable.

One day Han Ziyan chatted with Wang Hui, a junior high school classmate. Wang Hui went to the best high school in the city. Wang Hui said something that touched Han Ziyan deeply. ", Han Ziyan asked: "Isn't that what a man should do? You think too much, don't you?" For a moment, Han Ziyan thought of Lin Miao, for her, I have to work hard, and I will support many people in the future.

At the beginning of this semester, Lin Miao made up her mind to study hard, because she didn't study at all during the holidays, and she didn't write any homework. It felt like school would start after a new year.But the actual implementation is not so easy, there are always such and such things that affect the study, because this semester, I found that I missed Han Ziyan less and less, but Wang Peiru suddenly felt safer than ever when I was by my side, but Here comes the problem. Lin Miao finally found out that she treats her so well. Could it be that she treats Han Ziyan the same way? At the beginning, she comforted herself that she must be too narcissistic, thinking that everyone is like herself, and she likes a girl. After a long time, it became more certain, that kind of friendliness was not like that of Ma Mengjie and Liu Wenlu, and Han Ziyan could be seen from her.In the midst of Lin Miao's constant resistance and entanglement, a subtle change took place in the relationship with Peiru.

Wang Peiru's looks are too outstanding, suitors are coming in a steady stream, of course Wang Peiru refused all of them, asked her why, she said that she couldn't forget her first love, but no one knew her first love, even Lin Miao knew it so well Don't know for a long time.Later, someone found out that Wang Peiru and Lin Miao had a good relationship, so they inquired about Wang Peiru's affairs through Lin Miao, and now Lin Miao quit. Ordinarily, it has nothing to do with him whether he finds a partner or not, but when he heard that Peiru was looking for a partner, he was very worried. It's uncomfortable, even if they haven't agreed yet, those suitors have been pushed away by Lin Miao.

Feelings are heating up, embarrassment is also heating up, Lin Miao doesn't know what's wrong with him, why he cares more and more about Wang Peiru, but he rarely thinks about Han Ziyan, not because he doesn't know, but because he wants to keep her in his heart.Wang Peiru really broke Lin Miao's many nos, don't let people hold hands, don't let people hold hands, don't let people touch herself, for Wang Peiru, there is a feeling that she can't refuse, is it reluctance or need?In short, Wang Peiru gave her an unprecedented sense of security.Perhaps when you needed it the most, there happened to be such a person in your life, so when Lin Miao was most emotionally vulnerable, Wang Peiru just entered her life.

One hundred days before the college entrance examination, the head teacher held a long class meeting and had a deep exchange. He said: "Don't check Weibo every day, chat on WeChat, and do those things that you can do at the age of 80." What do you still want to do when you are young?" In a word, Lin Miao woke up, no matter what important things are, they are trivial things in front of the college entrance examination, so Lin Miao worked hard like never before. She didn't know what she was working hard for, she just felt that If you don’t work hard, you won’t have a chance. Maybe it’s because you don’t want to let your loved ones down, maybe it’s because you don’t let someone down, or maybe you have more troubles recently, so you want to keep yourself busy.When I am tired from studying, I go to the playground for a few laps, and when I am sweating profusely, I feel that I am still alive. Seeing so many people walking and running on the playground, will there be them?Maybe, she will also have someone to accompany her to relax when she is tired from studying.

Although Han Ziyan appeared less and less in his life, but remembering that she has become an indispensable part of his life, this is something that cannot be changed, and there is nothing he can do. There is a sentence in "Evil and West Poison" that says, "When you can no longer have it, the only thing you can do is to make yourself not forget." Although I am no longer in your life, but forgetting you is afraid that you will never forget it in your life. Maybe.

Sometimes Lin Miao also feels that she is a scumbag, there is only one person living in her heart, and she wants to occupy the person in front of her.People can't get used to it, maybe Wang Peiru was too kind to herself before, so it makes people feel that she should belong to me alone.When she saw her walking very close to other classmates and often fighting and fighting after class, Lin Miao felt uncomfortable. She was obviously not yours, but possessiveness came inexplicably.During the evening self-study, Wang Peiru deliberately changed seats to come to Lin Miao to study, and asked and chatted with Lin Miao, but Lin Miao responded coldly. Wang Peiru knew Lin Miao too well, and Wang Peiru knew that she was in a bad mood today.So she didn't ask Lin Miao what happened. In her eyes, only Han Ziyan could make Lin Miao's mood fluctuate, but this time she thought she was wrong.

Lin Miao has a bit of a cold recently. When she came to the classroom in the morning, she found a box of 999 cold spirits on the table. She knew who put it without asking. Maybe she was the most careful. She was really guilty at that moment, but her pride made her choose Be silent and pretend nothing happened.Wang Peiru thought that she would be fine after a few days when she was in a bad mood, but what she didn't expect was that she was still so cold that people couldn't get close to her, which made her heart ache.Lin Miao didn't study all night in the self-study that day, she was in a daze, and didn't want to go home after the self-study, so she asked Liu Wenlu to go back first and sit in the classroom for a while, but Wang Peiru didn't know what was going on, so she insisted on sitting. Accompanying her by her side, Lin Miao originally wanted to sit and think about what happened recently, but how could a person sitting beside her think about things.So Lin Miao kept saying: "You go back first, I will go back after sitting down for a while"

Wang Peiru's temper also came, so she said: "It's okay, I'll accompany you", so the two sat in a stalemate.In the end, Lin Miao gave in first and said, "Then go home."

Wang Peiru said: "Then I will send you out the back door, and then I will go back to the dormitory."

Lin Miao said, "No need", without any emotion.

Wang Peiru didn't know what was going on that day, and kept following her without listening to her, which made Lin Miao more and more upset and walked faster and faster.As I was walking, I heard the people behind me crying, and suddenly felt that I was such a jerk, that I didn't do their business, and made them cry.This was the first time she cried in memory, and when she thought about it carefully, she knew nothing about other than knowing that many people liked her, and she never said anything about her thoughts, nor did she cry.Lin Miao stopped and turned to look at Peiru's face full of tears, so sad and deeply powerless.I want to ask her why she is crying, is it just because of her indifference?I want to give her a hug, I want to comfort her, but I can't say a word, I can't make a movement, I just watch her cry quietly like that.In the end, it was Wang Peiru who broke the embarrassing atmosphere, "Be careful on the road, I'm going back to the dormitory first." After speaking, she turned around and left.Lin Miao was stunned, and suddenly regretted why she didn't keep her, and she was full of self-blame, because she knew that if she didn't ask what happened just now, she wouldn't tell Peiru how to ask Peiru in the future. Heavenly King Peiru acted like a normal person, talking to Lin Miao as usual, as if nothing happened last night.

The vigorous college entrance examination ended unconsciously. I didn't tear up the books in excitement, and I didn't get excited all day long. I just tidied up the books quietly, as if they were on vacation, and put the books together in an orderly manner. , Organize the papers that have been done in an orderly manner.Parting is sad, but Lin Miao chooses to go to school to spend the last day seriously, to meet people who may never meet again, there is no hugging and crying on TV, as if everyone has discussed it, but it is just going to be It's just a weekend.

When I met Han Ziyan during the speaking test, it wasn't that I didn't say hello, but I just greeted him like an ordinary friend. It was obvious that we were about to part, but it was still so embarrassing.It can be heard that Han Ziyan's tone is full of regret, but what can be done about it, those who should come will always come, and those who should leave can't be kept.

We are still children in front of life, in fact, we have never grown up, and we don't know how to love and be loved.So while you are young, why not let it go, everything is still the same, everything is fine.If it's inevitable, I think we can take it easy, right?Just when Lin Miao figured it out, Han Ziyan finally stopped running away and wanted to save everything.That day, she was doing what she always did, which was to read the messages in her and Lin Miao's space, and those past events came to her eyes one after another. When she was sad and upset, she occasionally came to her own space to vent, obviously wanting to say something , and finally turned into a line of lyrics, the person I love the most and hurt the most, how much struggle she has gone through, her grievance and sadness seem to be right in front of her eyes.Looking at the messages in her space, in fact, there are still many people who care about her. How many things happened in the two missing years.

"Can we go back to the past?"

"Is that really the case?"

Looking at Han Ziyan's message to himself, full of pleadings, how can such a humble Han Ziyan make people not feel bad, and will they blame her?The answer is no. To be honest, Lin Miao never blamed her, because she couldn't bear it, no matter what she did to him, no matter what she did, Lin Miao could accept it.But the question today is not whether it is strange or not, but can it really go back to the past?Can such a broken relationship be restarted?Lin Miao was scared. Although she had waited for so long, she was just waiting to be together again, but when this moment really came, she was so rational.

"Is there a better way than this?"

"It's really gone." Han Ziyan's powerless words suddenly made Lin Miao feel like a sinner who wanted to be together but couldn't.

"I'm sorry" at this moment, Lin Miao just wanted to say sorry, and that's all she could say. Apart from this, there was really no more suitable words to reply her.

"I'm sorry? What are you sorry for? I'm just not reconciled. We've gone through so many years and experienced so much, and it ended like this. I really don't want me to be gone at the beginning of your youth."

"sorry"

"I just wanted us to get closer before I left, you know how scared I am of being away"

"For so long, we have all changed, many habits have changed"

"Then we can get used to it again, I believe time will prove everything"

"Why don't you talk anymore?" After waiting for a long time without Lin Miao's reply, Han Ziyan couldn't help but speak again.

"Don't know what to say"

"Have we become so strangers that we have nothing to say?"

"I'm sorry, I don't know why." In addition to saying I'm sorry, Lin Miao really didn't know what to say in this chat. Probably only such indifference can refuse more thoroughly. We won't be able to return in two years Once upon a time, now we can only take one step at a time.

Am I one step too late?You have finally matured, but we are far away.You rejected me and gave up on me, I can understand that it was my escape that made us what we are now, and I have no right to ask you to wait for me.But Miao Miao, I also have difficulties. I have suffered so much in the past two years. Every night, I hope that when I open my eyes the next day, we will be graduating, so that I can explain everything to you clearly, and we will be together. can be together.It's a pity that fate is always playing tricks on people, with repeated misunderstandings and quarrels, we ended up like this.I don't expect you to forgive me, and I no longer expect us to be together again, I just hope you live well, take care of yourself in the days without me, let's not waste our upright youth, and cherish every day.

Lin Miao's refusal, Han Ziyan's confession, fate really made a big joke.

High school life was completely over, Lin Miao finally couldn't help her brother to stay in the city to go to university, and Han Ziyan really went out of town as she said.Neither of them was idle during the holidays. They got their driver's licenses and went on a trip to relax.When school was about to start, Lin Miao saw Han Ziyan's circle of friends. She said that she would leave on August 8th, so she asked her out for dinner by accident: "I'm leaving in two days, let's go out for a meal."

"Okay ^_^"

The last time we met before school started was at the most familiar Shangdao Coffee.It was still embarrassing to meet each other, there were not many topics, but there was a lot of laughter, probably to cover up each other's embarrassment, and also didn't want the other party to see her fragile side. She picks up the food, but Lin Miao doesn't say much, and she shows her signature response—smile, just like when we first met, she smiled and didn't say anything, but she already knew it.The relationship can't go any further, maybe we can only maintain an ordinary relationship that can no longer be ordinary, such a result is not reconciled, but what can we do?When we parted, there was also a faint "goodbye", and just like that, eight years were over...

Looking back at the distant figure, Anhao.

Han Ziyan: I like you, but I have never told you personally.Later, there was no reason to bother, and I decided to forget everything, but I kept recording.

Lin Miao: The initial vigor and vigor, and the final song ended.You go, don't look back, I will be reluctant, as long as you regret it, I will still have no hesitation, right?

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Maybe this chapter is the ending, or maybe I will continue to write, I am entangled...