Hibiscus is a promise to you

After the last encounter in the movie theater, Lin Miao hadn’t seen Han Ziyan for a long time, and even the back view that she could occasionally see before was gone. It can be ignored.Now the cold reality is slapped on the face, and he tells himself viciously: it really is like this, the past, the past, memories, everything is doomed, everything is over.

Lin Miao will never comfort herself as before. She used to think that maybe she has her own difficulties, but she can't tell herself, so she has to learn to wait.Now I am suddenly relieved, and when I am tired, I can see clearly that that person is living a good life, that person has no self in his heart, and that person has really become that person.The optimistic and cheerful Lin Miao seems to have returned to the time when she graduated from elementary school. The difference is that at that time, she didn't know why she was so sad, but now she knows why, because she lost her love.

Lost in love, so Lin Miao began to study desperately, ignoring all kinds of things happening around her, because only in this way can she constantly enrich herself and stop herself from thinking about her.Strange to say, when Lin Miao was about to let go, the chances of bumping into Han Ziyan while walking on the campus were even greater, but this time they would no longer be "friends of nods", but would just glance at each other and walk away. Ma Mengjie and Liu Wenlu asked her many times, but she didn't say why, so they only knew that the two good friends had a falling out.Wang Peiru knew why, occasionally, when walking with Peiru and meeting Han Ziyan, she would say hello to Peiru politely and then hurried away.

Peiru also felt particularly embarrassed. She was the one who knew the most, but she couldn't say anything, because Lin Miao said one day, "I can't hold on anymore." That was the second time I saw her firm eyes. It was the same look in her eyes once when she was about to walk down with Han Ziyan, but now she was firm and a little unsteady, this time Wang Peiru didn't understand her.

"Teacher, I want to tell you something, I want to sit in the last row"

"Why, the students sitting in the last row are students who don't study every day. Why do you give up on yourself?" In the eyes of the head teacher, Lin Miao is not a particularly outstanding student, but she is smart and at least an obedient child, but she feels that she has not paid much. With all my efforts, there has been no breakthrough in my results.

"No, I want to sit in the back and study hard by myself."

"So do you think someone sitting in the front has disturbed your study? Or has the discipline in the class gotten worse recently?"

The head teacher can always think of the things in the class. Lin Miao can't say that because she is broken in love, she is not in the mood to study while sitting around her classmates. "No, it's my own problem. I just sit in the back for a few weeks. After a few weeks, I will sit back after I adjust, okay?"

"That's fine." The class teacher agreed without asking too much because Lin Miao was a good boy.

Sitting in the last row for the first few days, Lin Miao was still in good condition. She listened carefully in class and fell asleep after class. After returning home, she finished her homework and read extracurricular books. Fortunately, everything was back on track.It's just that life is back on track, has the heart come back?

Sitting in the last row is not uninquired, but there are quite a few people who come to "visit" me. They often come to chat with me after class. Because the thermos is on the windowsill behind, so when Ma Mengjie and Liu Wenlu come to fetch water after class Just come and play for a while before returning to your seat.Wang Peiru comes here often, and the pretense is to ask questions. Who knows that every time she has not finished a question, she will break the topic and chat. Hehehe, I don’t know you, little girl, unless you are urgent Otherwise, I wouldn't take the initiative to ask questions, not to mention having to go around half the class.Gradually, Lin Miao did not feel as uncomfortable as before. At least there is still such a group of friends who will never leave. No matter what happens in the future, there will be new friends in the future. It is much more comfortable to think about it this way.

It has been two weeks since I sat in the last row, and the lovely Chinese teacher finally found out that something was wrong. She deliberately came over to chat with Lin Miao during her self-study, probably because she thought she was being abused... For her concern, Lin Miao was very moved, never got along with a teacher like a friend, and used to think that those famous sayings of "being both a teacher and a friend" were bullshit, but now I have a teacher who I can talk to.Later, she probably remembered the person in the last row, so her eyes always drifted there, sometimes she walked straight to the end with a stack of papers, completely ignoring the two class representatives sitting in the front row, hehe Hee...does she think I'm special?Lin Miao was secretly in love with herself.

For a long time afterwards, Lin Miao was always a Chinese teacher in her life.During that time, Lin Miao added the Chinese teacher's WeChat account, and occasionally went home together after evening self-study, and went out to eat together, of course they were all so pure.I learned her famous saying from WeChat, "Gossip about the gurgling water, quietly watch the mist and mist and mist". I don't know what happened, but I was probably shocked by her talent. Writing argumentative essays, and her writing is almost like a romance novel. The Chinese teacher talked to her several times, but she didn’t understand how to come up with such a style. , Lin Miao replied weakly, "I have read too many romance novels", and glanced secretly, the Chinese teacher's expression was really funny, frowning didn't look angry, nor did she look like laughing, could it be that she was still frightened? "噗嗤" the Chinese teacher couldn't bear it anymore, and actually suppressed a embarrassed smile. Now Lin Miao was embarrassed. She read romance novels even though she knew she was in her third year of high school, and even wrote the composition like that, "Teacher, I was wrong. "Oh, Lin Miao quickly admitted his mistake.

"What's wrong?"

"Shouldn't read novels"

"Why shouldn't you watch it?"

"Because of the third year of high school"

"Then you should watch it except the senior year"

"kindness"

"kindness?"

"Hey, I said, teacher, you set me up." Looking at Mimi's smiling face, this teacher must have no good intentions.

"Be stupid and rely on others"

"You're stupid." Lin Miao regretted it as soon as he finished speaking. After all, he is also a teacher. Even if he has a good relationship, what he said is a bit inappropriate. Besides, there are other teachers in this office. Just when Lin Miao was deeply regretting , the Chinese teacher spoke.

"It's not impossible to read romance novels. I still appreciate your literary talents when the composition is written like that. But, you should be 'fooled' in the face of the college entrance examination, right? Great writer"

"Oh, don't dare to act"

"Be humble and be humble"

"Thank you"

"loquacious"

"Thanks for the compliment"

"Looking for a fight"

"Teacher, I was wrong"

"Go, go, go back to the classroom, I don't want to see you"

"Okay, it's just what I want." Lin Miao muttered carefully in the last half of the sentence, and looked up to see that the teacher's face was gloomy, so run away quickly.

Lin Miao went home with Liu Wenlu every evening after study, because Zheng Wenjuan's mother insisted on studying with her in the third year of high school, and it was useless for Lin Miao to refuse, her mother was determined, what a coincidence, my mother I just rented the house in the staff building (because some teachers sold or rented the house after they retired), but luckily I didn’t live in the same unit as the teacher who knew me.The school has two doors, the front door and the back door. Lin Miao and Liu Wenlu go home from the back door every day, passing by the playground, so they have to run twice a day at night. They agreed to stick to it until graduation, but they persisted for a month. , Facts have proved that Lin Miao left halfway through everything he did.It is said that Lin Miao still really wanted to meet the Chinese teacher because she could "molest" her, but Liu Wenlu was particularly afraid of meeting her, because she had nothing to say, and Lin Miao couldn't tell others that she wanted to meet the teacher, probably Liu Wenlu thought she was crazy.However, Lin Miao's loud voice often betrayed her, and Liu Wenlu's teeth itch every time.For the first time, I sent my homework to the office after evening self-study. It happened that the Chinese teacher was on duty that day, and then the Chinese teacher said, "Go back and pack your things, wait for me, let's go together", and then Lin Miao went back to discuss the matter. Tell Liu Wenlu that Liu Wenlu was about to run away with her schoolbag, but Lin Miao dragged her back, and then Lin Miao was stared at. Lin Miao thought to herself: Just stare, I am happy anyway.The second time, the road was too dark and Lin Miao was wandering, but she tripped over a stone. Lin Miao was so angry that she didn't notice someone behind her. Liu Wenlu heard the people behind her laughing, and turned her head to see that it was a Chinese teacher. After the awkward greeting, Lin Miao was happy again, and immediately abandoned Liu Wenlu, chatting with the teacher.The third time, when Lin Miao chatted with Liu Wenlu, Liu Wenlu got too excited about what she was talking about, and said cantaloupe as "xiang ga", which made Lin Miao laugh out of breath. Turning around suddenly, the two of them were terrified. Needless to say, Lin Miao laughed too loudly and his voice was too unique. Now Liu Wenlu couldn't bear it anymore. Every day after self-study, she hurriedly dragged Lin Miao home. How could Lin Miao think so fast? Going home, it's hard to relax, so the two often fight on the way.

After reading the story of Du Jin and Zhou Ming, Lin Miao was worried that something would happen to her Chinese teacher, but soon she slapped herself hard in her heart, what was she thinking, even though she admitted that the Chinese teacher was good-looking It's good, but I just like to worship and worship, and it's troublesome enough for people to know that I like a woman, and this woman is still a teacher... Sigh, I don't want to think about it.

April 11

She had to pay online for the exam, and she suddenly found me again and asked me to pay for her, but I still couldn't refuse, so I agreed unconsciously, and then she sent a text message saying "Thank you wife, okay..." When watching When I came to these words, I thought a lot. This is the word I haven’t heard for a long time: she hasn’t forgotten it; I only say it when necessary to make me happy; I was moved; I was not moved,

I just smiled silently in my heart, not knowing what I was laughing at.

April 11

They turned a year yesterday.

It hurts so much, I thought I forgot it after so long, it still hurts to see their photos, this is the first time she posted a photo, yes we have nothing to do now, and I am not qualified to comment on others, but I always She was complaining about what her previous feelings were, whether she had ever been sincere, and then I thought that I was just one of her former ones. I thought too much, and I fantasized that she did it for me. Maybe she thought In the future, she has to let go. The reality is that she really fell in love with Lan Chen.From today onwards, I don't have to live in dreams anymore. She didn't have me in her dreams, really didn't. Even if I did, it was just a passing moment in her life.Really tired, you made me fall in love with you for a few days, love you for seven years, and miss you with the rest of my life, we really have no destiny.

The above is Lin Miao's autobiography.

Then a paragraph was posted on the confession wall of the campus:

I have been in love for so many years, and now I am slowly accepting the fact that you left. Maybe there is no fate. I'm afraid I'm going to break my promise, maybe I figured it out, I still have the rest of my life, and you are very happy now, so I have no reason not to bless you.Thank you for the dream-like happiness, and now I wish you happiness.

This time Lin Miao didn't cry, because the tears had dried up, and she was so numb to no feeling after two years, Lin Miao didn't know whether she was relaxed or never forgetting.Wang Peiru was also surprised, seeing their photos, why Lin Miao was so quiet this time, as if nothing happened, and she was still doing what she should do.When Wang Peiru was about to open his mouth to ask something, Lin Miao said, "I've already put it down."Lin Miao is so distressing at this moment, she is a child but has the mind of an adult, she is very tired but still so relaxed, this time I will never give up again, Wang Peiru reached out and hugged Lin Miao, Lin Miao did not push back Well, maybe both of them need such a hug, or maybe Lin Miao can already accept people other than Han Ziyan. In short, this hug is so warm, why is there any reason to push it away?

After that hug, the relationship between Lin Miao and Wang Peiru became closer. When Liu Wenlu and Ma Mengjie were not there, Wang Peiru was always with her. The figures walking in and out of the campus were particularly beautiful, and Han Ziyan was jealous.

"You've almost forgotten me, right?" This was what Han Ziyan suddenly said to Lin Miao one day.

"No, we'll always be friends, won't we?" What right do you have to say that I've almost forgotten you, and it's you who make me feel so cold.

Lin Miao couldn't help but send Han Ziyan a "Merry Christmas" at Christmas. It hasn't changed after all these years. Even sending a text message makes her heart beat violently, but in return there is no news.On the first day of the new year, Han Ziyan got news. It was not the expected "Happy New Year" but some nostalgic and sad words. It seemed that she was looking through the past and facing her former lover. Some weird feeling, who ever cared so much.

"Congratulations, you finally have someone to replace me." Lin Miao was sleeping at noon one day, when she received a text message from Han Ziyan, she fell asleep instantly.

"That's what you thought."

"Hee hee, show me what you did."

"what did I do."

"Nothing, nothing, everything is fine."

"You don't need me at all now, so why do you care that I have others, and besides, there is no one."

"It's just that you feel that friendship and love can never be the same, nor can they be replaced."

"That may disappoint you. I have never treated you as a friend. After seven years, my relationship has become less pure. I will never give to my friends."

"It's because it's been seven years, seven years, I thought that the relationship between us no longer needs to be maintained by contact."

"So, if you don't contact you now, you feel that someone has replaced you. Well, I think you don't understand what I mean. I mean, I don't see you as a friend or a relative, but another One, and then one day I suddenly realized that there would be no results at all, so I chose not to insist on it.”

"If you don't insist on it, you feel that you should be ordinary friends? Then you can be like the public, right?"

"Then what do you want me to do. If one day you break up with Lan Chen, of course I don't mean to curse you, will you treat him like an ordinary friend?"

"Don't know how to put it, it's probably different."

"Why is it different? Whoever said that we can still be friends after we break up is simply impossible. Besides, I didn't treat you like ordinary friends. It's just not as good as before. If you hadn't told me that everyone Have your own social circle, otherwise, how will you get out of society in the future, do you think I will become so-called friends with my classmates?"

"If it's far away, it's far away, there's nothing you can do."

"After all, there is still no result, and I won't bother you anymore."

"Excuse me? Don't you feel bad when you say this?"

"What do you think, I'm not hard-hearted."

"I don't know what to say, I just want to tell you that I will never leave."

"hope so."

Maybe we should forget that we didn’t believe in the beauty of first love before but it had no results, and now we finally believe it. First love can only be used as a memory, but that kind of beauty will never have results again. It’s so beautiful, but let it go go.

Before the holiday, Lin Miao went to the office to count the answer sheets, and she knew at a glance that it belonged to her, because the sentence "Unless the loess and white bones, I will guard you for a hundred years without worry." Did you think of me when you were young? That was what you wrote to me back then.When Han Ziyan called, she just exchanged some pleasantries and nothing else happened.Friends are nothing more than ordinary, these are powerless things.

The past is thick and light, the color is as clear as it is, and it is already light.

After years of sorrows and joys, it is as pure as a mirror and has been quiet.