strange love

Although I showed incomparable calmness and open-mindedness when facing my mother and godmother, my heart was in a mess long ago.For two days in a row, I was anxiously waiting for the contact from the first day of junior high school, or to come to me directly.

But whether it is the mobile phone or the doorbell, it has always been quiet.

As time goes by, my heart gets colder.Although I originally guessed that the first day of junior high school would take some time, I still couldn't help but hope that she would figure it out soon.There are only ten days until the end of the summer vacation, but today is the fifth day, I feel a little impatient to wait.

In addition, I just didn't see her for five days and felt that I was going to stop running due to lack of energy in the first day of junior high school.

My mother also understood that I was suffering during this time, and she asked me a few questions in the first two days, but then she saw that I was still sleepy and unable to lift my spirits, so she stopped asking me anything.

It was early morning and evening again, and there was no news at all.No matter how many times I checked the phone and mobile phone, checked the qq, opened the door a few times, it didn't work.

When my mother came back in the evening, I realized that today has passed without knowing it.

"Shocking, it's still five days before I leave school. Is there anything you want to go to play?" When I was having dinner at night, my mother suddenly asked me.

What she said reminded me of what I said before when I was rejected in the first day of junior high school, and I wanted to go on a trip to relax.But even though I waited anxiously, I still haven't been rejected. She wants to take me out to play now, which is really too much.

"No, don't toss about it for five days." I was not in the mood to speak, and my mother looked very worried.

"Shocked, mom understands your current mood. But, life is not only about feelings. You should understand that neither your godmother nor I will be at ease if you look like this."

Of course I understand this truth, but the problem is that it is too difficult to control myself from thinking wildly. "Mom, just take it as a rare time for me to be lazy. I will definitely not do this again when I go to school."

"Oh, as a mother, I still have to worry about my daughter's puppy love, really..."

I don't have much appetite, and after a few hasty bites, I can't eat anymore.

"Aren't I worrying about you too? We're even. I'll take a shower first."

"Ahem, you, why are you worrying about me!" Probably because I've talked too much recently, and my mother is more or less aware of what I've noticed.It's just that she didn't want to tell the truth, and kept it secret every time. "Oh, don't you want to eat any more? I worked so hard to make a meal."

"It's not easy for two people to burn. Instead of thinking about me eating more, you might as well have one more person in the family."

"You kid, you've been talking nonsense more and more recently. Hey, you should rest for a while before washing. You just finished eating."

I was about to say I got it when my phone rang suddenly.I was startled, and quickly took it out to see, who is it not the first year of junior high school?

I yelled without even realizing it, and my mother quickly asked what was wrong, and I had already picked up the phone while walking to the room.

"Hello, the first day of junior high school?" I felt my hands were shaking, and I called her as soon as I picked it up.

What does she mean by calling?Have you figured it out or are you asking me because you still don’t understand?If it is figured out, is it the love of a friend or the love of a lover?What should I do if my friend likes me?

I had a lot of random thoughts for a moment, like a prisoner waiting for trial.However, there was no sound on the phone.

My heart couldn't help sinking, and I couldn't help but yelled again.

"First grade?"

Still no one spoke.

Why is she silent?Is it because I think clearly that my liking for me is a friend's liking, so I can't open my mouth, or is it further thought that it is too difficult to be friends with me who likes her?

My heart was cold, and I fell silent for a while.

This kind of silence is very tormenting for me, but I can't help but hope that she can speak and tell me a different answer.

Then, the phone was hung up.

I just felt that the whole person was shocked, and the last hope in my heart was finally extinguished.

Have you already figured it out in the first day of junior high school?It's just because it's not the answer I hoped for, and it's not what she promised before, so she can't say it to me.

The more I thought about it, the more I felt it was possible, but in the end I was a little unwilling.It was really hard for me to give up without hearing the first day of junior high school and not being explicitly rejected.

I have clearly told her that even if she only has feelings for me as a friend, she must tell me.So what's the point of calling and not saying a word?

But I also understand how much I value me on the first day of junior high school, and how much I think about others.Just thinking about it makes it clear that she must have had a hard time telling me.

I didn't know where the impulse came from, and I called back the number for the first day of junior high school.My mind was in a mess, I didn't know why I called her, and I didn't know what I could say when I called her.

"Sorry, the number you dialed is busy."

"Sorry, the phone you dialed has been turned off." However, I don't need to think clearly about what I want to say.I dialed twice in a row, judging from the second shutdown, I'm afraid it was hung up the first time.

The answer couldn't be more obvious.

I sat in the room for a long time, and when I came back to my senses, I realized that it was dark at some point, and the lights in the room were not turned on, only a few strands of light from the living room leaked in through the crack of the door.

Touching his face, the tears have dried.

I have long thought of the possibility of being rejected, but I never expected to be rejected in this way.Is it impossible to face me if you don't answer my phone, or are you afraid that I will blame her?So can we still be friends?

In dealing with matters related to the first year of junior high school, I found myself becoming more and more at a loss and at a loss.

"Jingjing..." Mom didn't know if she had nothing to do or was worried about me, so she opened the door and came in while calling me. "Why don't you turn on the light?"

She said and turned on the light, and after seeing my appearance, she probably understood what happened, and sighed silently.

Mom went to the bed, sat down beside me, and gently hugged me in her arms.

"First love, it's all like this. You are a good boy, and you are also a good boy in the first year of junior high school, but love is not easy to talk about."

"I know, Mom." I buried my face in her arms, and she patted me on the back gently.

"Well, it's actually good to be friends. You are still young, and no one can tell what will happen in the future. Now focus on studying, and talk about feelings later."

She spoke earnestly in my ear, but my heart became more and more uncomfortable.

"But, what if we can't even be friends?" I thought that if she liked me so much, even if it wasn't her liking for a lover, she wouldn't even be able to be friends.But I didn't suppress my feelings, and when I asked her to think about it, I told her about my liking for her.

Of course she wouldn't feel anything when she didn't understand, but when she really figured it out, how could she continue to be friends with me?

"How is this possible? Let me tell you, even if you reject you on the first day of junior high school because you don't understand what it's like to be in love, you definitely won't want to be friends with you." Mom comforted me patiently, "How did she get along with you?" you said?"

"...She hung up the phone without saying anything, and when I called back, she had turned off the phone."

Mom didn't know what she thought of, and she was silent for a while before she said, "Jing Jing, the first day of junior high school is probably quite chaotic now. You can't force her, or else mom will take you out for a few days to relax, okay? Waiting for you Calm down, and talk about it when you are more mentally prepared on the first day of junior high school."

I'm in a mess right now, and I don't want to think about anything. What my mother said made sense, so I nodded in agreement.

"Oh, don't be so half-dead. Maybe when you come back to the first day of junior high school, you will figure it out again? Mom thinks that she really likes you very much. She can't be with you. She suffers more than you."

She really likes me, but now she is not the same as before.

"However, I have already told her that I like her, and I... I even kissed her. If she doesn't like this, it's useless to like me any more. Now she's separated from me and has other friends, doesn't she You have to be friends with me."

I don't have the slightest confidence in dealing with the first grade of junior high school.And, the more I followed the words, the more I felt that this possibility was great.

"What, you still kissed her?" Mom was a little surprised at what I did, and the voice in my ear was a little louder.

"She doesn't understand what a lover is, I want to let her know..."

"Then you can't take her to watch romantic movies, and literary movies are fine too. Why did you just go straight to it? You said you wouldn't commit a crime, so you haven't committed a crime?"

I was feeling sad, but in the end she told me all about it, I couldn't hold back my tears, and said with a sob: "It's too late to say anything now, anyway, it's already like this..."

Mom sighed, and her tone finally softened again.

"Forget it, forget it, don't think about it. Everything will be discussed when you come back. I will talk to your godmother and we will start tomorrow." She touched my head, "No matter what happens when you come back, you go I apologize to Chudao. Whether she likes you or not is one thing, and you can't spoil other girls like this."

My mother said it was a waste, and I felt even more despicable and shameless, so I couldn't help crying.My mother was so scared that she hugged me quickly and said: "Oh, let's not talk, don't you want to sleep with mother at night? Let's sleep together."

The author has something to say: not only here, but also over there.The IQ of the unconfident Jingzhe also dropped a lot with the waiting, and my mother still made up for it, alas.