dawn will pass

Ai Luoping stayed in the same place for a long time, he believed that both of them were in too much grief, they were relatively speechless in grief, and tears flowed thousands of lines in his heart.He turned around, with clouds and mist rising in his eyes, filled with sadness.

The first love in a young girl's life just fell apart, she was so surprised that she didn't cry, she didn't roar, she was so calm and stable, but she was as sad as a faint flame in the snow, and there was little fresh water under the scorching sun, nothing could touch her anymore My heart made me want to protect it with all my heart.

And what Ai Luoping didn't expect was Xiang Shujing's disappearance.

Xiang Zhenyin received a call from the school saying that Xiang Shujing did not go to class.

Xiang Zhenyin came to the place where Qin Rui and her daughter used to live, and missing person notices were posted all over the streets and alleys.

Ai Luoping blamed himself deeply, he didn't expect that the departure that time was actually a farewell ceremony for Xiang Shujing to say goodbye to him.Missing the embankment breaking at this moment, Ai Luoping's long-suppressed affection was fully exposed. All day long, he traveled outside, searching all the places he had been to with Xiang Shujing, so many memories surfaced in front of his eyes, the New Year's fireworks , the laughter by the fountain, the footsteps in the field, the footprints in the creek.But he is still there, where did she go?She was punishing him for his ruthlessness.Ai Luoping smiled bitterly, until the end, covered his face and cried bitterly.

In just one week since Xiang Shujing disappeared, Ai Luoping became skinny and skinny, with sunken eye sockets and haggard eyes, not like a human being, like a patient with terminal cancer, without any nostalgia and vitality for the world in his eyes.

Fang Lin once fell into deep self-blame, but she thought about it again, the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain, after this period, Ai Luoping forgot about Xiang Shujing, everything will be fine.

Everyone hoped that everything would be fine and prayed for Xiang Shujing's safe return.

Ai Luoping thought, Xiang Shujing must have become her beloved knight.From then on, I wandered all over the world, and I will no longer have any nostalgia for this place.This is really a good home for her who has always yearned for freedom.

but.

But when Ai Luoping thought that Xiang Shujing was suffering unknown pain somewhere in the world, perhaps even more difficult than his life, he felt so sad that his heart would vomit, tears filled his eyes.

The effort to find Xiang Shujing's action has been reduced month by month, and everyone has silently given up hope.

Ai Luoping is about to take the college entrance examination.

Under his mother's persuasion, Ai Luoping's life is back on track again.But how could his mother not see the large tear stains on Ai Luoping's pillow every morning, his red and swollen eyes, and the name he chanted when he dreamed back at midnight.She can't say anything, she can only pretend that everything is fine, hoping that Ai Luoping can heal herself.

People are always selfish, they obviously bring misfortune to others, but they still keep saying "for your own good", arrange other people's life as they like with peace of mind, and be indifferent to the harm caused by themselves. Avoid all faults and blindly pursue narrow-minded achievements.

In any case, Ai Luoping's life continues.

As for Xiang Shujing, he went to an environment at a different time and a different place.

Ever since he broke up with Ai Luoping that morning, Xiang Shujing has experienced a desire for the future and the courage to control his own destiny like never before.

She decided to leave here.

But the road ahead is boundless, she knows that this is not a joke, it is not a child's game when she was young, she walked away as soon as she said, but she changed the direction silently halfway, fearing the unknown ahead, so she followed the road and fled back home with a playful smile.

But where?

Xiang Shujing squatted at the intersection, buried her head in her knees, her ears were filled with the breeze, the car lights flashed, the horn sounded, and the strange eyes of passers-by. place, but have no clue.The more time is wasted, the more likely others will find her. The unhappiness she has tried to escape will soon surround her and trouble her. This is the last thing she wants to see at the moment. Suddenly, an address flashed in her mind.

Yes, Elizabeth!

She thought of her long-lost pen pal. No matter what reason Elizabeth stopped replying to her letters, she would take a chance and go to a foreign country, leave everything behind, and stop worrying about the current troubles. .

She touched her mother's hard-earned savings that she had just taken out of the bank in her pocket. Although the amount of money was not much, it should be enough to go abroad. Thinking that she was about to step into a new world, she was suddenly full of energy. , a brave light flashed in his eyes.

She stood up slowly, having already conceived a plan in her mind that she was about to execute.

First, go to Beijing and take a plane to Los Angeles, USA.

The paper money in her pocket was hard, which made her brave.

She secretly made up her mind that no matter what difficulties there are in the future, she will be fearless, overcome all obstacles, and finally find Elizabeth.

The girl's innocence and courage are vividly displayed in her body.

Step by step, she walked firmly and irresistibly towards the local train station, her footsteps could not stop, as if a soldier was going to the battlefield, to the enemy, and was about to change from a soldier to a soldier, to fight the enemy bravely, and solemnly completed the throwing of his head, The mission of shedding blood.And isn't Xiang Shujing just like shouldering a heavy responsibility?

She is so serious in fulfilling the task of fate, sacrosanct.

Although, she never thought about how she would live when she was penniless after going abroad, young people may really have infinite possibilities.

It was almost late at night when we arrived at the train station. Except for a few people wandering around, the huge station was empty, and the cold wind invaded Xiang Shujing's skin.

Fortunately, the lights here stay on all night.

Xiang Shujing quickly bought a train ticket to Beijing, and she waited.

The hotels outside the station were too much for her. After bumping into walls everywhere, she saw the homeless men huddled in a corner of the station, yes, isn't she just homeless now?After she silently defined her new "identity" in her heart, like them, she walked to a corner that was not easily noticed by a billboard, and squatted on the ground, feeling helpless and at a loss.

Xiang Shujing looked at the billboard in front of him.

Before he could react, tears flowed down the contours of his face.

The ill-fated fate can be regarded as a portrayal of the first half of her life.She buried her head between her knees and sobbed silently.

Running and worrying made her extremely tired, and she fell into a deep sleep unconsciously.

In the dream, she seemed to have returned to her childhood.The parents are together, even if the father is a harsh and unreasonable father, and the mother has not provoked outsiders, the family at least looks like a family.Xiang Shujing felt very satisfied.There is also Ai Luoping, who often visits his home, and his parents will treat him well, bringing out fruits, snacks, everything, and the two happily watch TV and enjoy a good time.

Xiang Shujing was still awakened by the sound of footsteps coming and going. Since the place where she hid and slept was quite remote, and most people were in a hurry, few people noticed the girl curled up in a ball.The corners of Xiang Shujing's eyes were flooded, still reminiscing about last night's dream.

Walking out of the small corner covered by the billboard, she looked at the huge timetable in the center, which showed that it was 5:2 in the morning.Her train leaves in 2 hours.She silently went back to the corner, hugged her knees helplessly, her mind went blank, and she stayed like this for [-] hours.

Until the ticket check, she numbly handed over her train ticket, and walked up to the entrance without looking back.

She remained expressionless until she got in the car.

When the train began to set off with a long roar, Xiang Shujing stared straight at the gradually changing scene outside the train window. After leaving, Xiang Shujing thought whether to go back or not , those people I left here, what kind of stories will happen in the future?

She sat there blankly, as if forgetting to even breathe.

The mother who is a new mother hums and sings to lull the baby to sleep, the young man makes up for the drowsiness that has not been completely eliminated when he got into the car, and a girl who is about the same age as Xiang Shujing quietly reads a book, between heaven and earth, Everything is vivid and colorful, only Xiang Shujing is stunned, really like a hermit, out of place, with an insurmountable gap between heaven and earth.

Beijing arrived soon, but Xiang Shujing's heart was not disturbed at all.

With the flow of people, Xiang Shujing got off the bus, and she walked out of the station step by step. When she saw the blue sky and white clouds that she hadn't seen all night, she felt a little missing in her heart. She began to look at this extraordinary city, full of traffic, bustling city, It was so different from the small city she was in before. She thought that she had finally broken through that cage and opened up her own world, but why didn't she feel the slightest happiness?

Now she is carrying a schoolbag, wearing ordinary attire, and her hair is a little messy. She is not like a child who ran away from home, but a well-behaved, honest girl who cannot attract the attention of others.

However, this ordinary person is a soul who refuses to compromise with fate, his eyes are like torches, and he scans forward, showing no fear.That's right, after being away from home for so long, Xiang Shujing didn't have any uneasy factors such as fear, but the unavoidable confusion in her heart always entangled her heart slowly like a vine.

She still had to keep going calmly.

Taking a taxi, arrived at the international airport, and when he got his first air ticket in his life, Xiang Shujing couldn't believe that everything was real. He was really at the airport in Beijing, and he was really about to go to the United States. Do you want to leave the place where you have lived for 18 years forever?Xiang Shujing suddenly hoped that the dream last night was real, and now is a dream.

But the reality does not allow her to do so. The few RMB left in her pocket forces her to think clearly about all problems and overcome all difficulties.

She sat on the bench beside her, watched the people coming and going before her, and finally began to seriously think about her future plans. At this moment, she seemed to have changed from the wayward girl yesterday to a little more responsible.But not enough.

She still needs to grow.

She quietly waited for the arrival of the last moment, and stepped to the other side of her belief - another world under her feet.

At the same time, Ai Luoping is still in the warm home, unaware of Xiang Shujing's decisions these days.

Those closest to him can see that Ai Luoping's wound has not healed, and since he has never let others worry about him since he was a child, he naturally knows how to lick his wound by himself and not easily show his weakness.

That is when the night is quiet, there is nothing to say, the unreserved loneliness, mixed with tears, diffused bit by bit in the endless night.

He has no religious beliefs, and before going to sleep, he knelt down piously in front of the window sill countless times, praying silently, hoping that Xiang Shujing would return as soon as possible, safe and happy. Go bravely on the established trajectory of life.

And Xiang Shujing was far braver than he imagined, she went so far that Ai Luoping would never guess.

Many, many days later, Ai Luoping finished praying and lay down. When he was half asleep and half awake, Xiang Shujing's feet had already set foot on the land of Los Angeles.The absence of large or small luggage, tired look, and blank expression quickly made Xiang Shujing the most eye-catching among the crowd coming and going.

It's exactly 4 p.m. in Los Angeles.

Xiang Shujing was obviously not jet-lagged and was in a drowsy state, but the strange environment around her cheered her up.

She thought, while it was still daytime, let's find Elizabeth according to the address first.

She found a place where no one was around, looked around a few times, and then dared to take out the little money left in her pocket to count.

Qin Rui didn't have a lot of savings during her lifetime, and she traveled to Shujing for several days, and her diet was quite harsh, but the cost of travel expenses still made her heart skip a beat. The price of train tickets and air tickets took up a lot of money Part of it, Xiang Shujing's money is less than five hundred yuan.

She was determined to leave home from the very beginning, and the belief she had held so firmly along the way seemed a little insufficient at this moment to support her to continue walking.She shook her head, shook off all negative emotions, and put the money back silently.

The top priority is to find Elizabeth as soon as possible. Fortunately, I still have that address.

Xiang Shujing took it out, and the spark of faith burst out in her pure eyes again.

A foreign country, unfamiliar place, everything hinders Xiang Shujing's footsteps.From the subway to the bus, Xiang Shujing wandered the streets and alleys of Los Angeles, even chasing after him to ask for the address, relying on his body to express his intentions as best as he could.On nights when it was lightly raining, Xiang Shujing huddled in a corner, watching the raindrops dance, often in a daze until he fell asleep, and when he woke up, his face was full of tears.She was tired, but persisted, thinking that Elizabeth was at the next intersection, and she had to persist in walking in front of her to make a good impression on her.

Xiang Shujing will also think of Ai Luoping, think of those times together, from the childhood to the recent youth, the Xintong road he walked step by step, Ai Luoping's unsmiling, serious demeanor when studying, and the ability to give lectures. Concentration made Xiang Shujing miss him uncontrollably every night when no one cares about him, in the quiet and deserted time, until the dead of night, when the distant bell rang twelve times, she stayed where she was like a lost Cinderella , waiting for the prince to send her glass slipper, but after all, she couldn't wait.Now that he has taken this step, he has to continue to walk bravely for many steps in the future.

She can only, just quietly accept the arrangement of fate, and never want to make any resistance.