dawn will pass

After wandering for more than half a month, Xiang Shujing finally found the place on the address.

Xiang Shujing thought that she would see the imagined Elizabeth, with blue eyes and pure white skirt, smiling at herself, showing a smile brighter than the sun.

But fate plays tricks.

There was already a desolation there, as if the owner had been away for a long time, weeds were overgrown, and he confronted Xiang Shujing coldly.

She panicked.

The grievances accumulated from the long journey came to her heart at once, and she thought: Since the end point no longer exists, isn’t her pursuit for so long a joke?

Stupid joke.

She squatted down, buried her head in her knees, and burst into tears.

A shrill, cold, indifferent cry.

Nothing can warm her heart at this moment.

When a person shuttles through the desert with strong beliefs, overcomes hunger, thirst, poisonous snakes, and even all the pain caused by the scorching sun, and finds that the oasis in front of him is just a mirage, how can he not despair.

The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment.

Xiang Shujing was in such a broken mood.

She vented her dissatisfaction and ups and downs over the past few days with crying.

She gritted her teeth and gritted her teeth to experience all the pain. She thought that she would be invincible after going through such a unique life journey, but this kind of change directly and simply broke through her psychological defense. Unprepared, under this almost fatal blow.

Los Angeles in March suddenly snowed heavily in her heart.

In this vast white world, she lost her direction and herself.

5 month.

And Ai Luoping is still preparing for the college entrance examination.

May is the time for sprinting. There are many exams and homework every day. Ai Luoping is busy like a high-speed spinning top, and has no mind to think about other things.

Fang Lin was very satisfied with this, she thought: As long as Ai Luoping lets go of this ridiculous relationship, the future will be bright and bright.

Ai Luoping never imagined that, if he thought that Xiang Shujing was enduring pain at the other end of the world, traveling alone and living in no fixed place, he would definitely have trouble sleeping and eating, and hated what he had done.

But they seem to be separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, countless light years, and a distance as long as a whole universe.

He didn't know that she was not doing well. He acquiesced that she had become a chivalrous woman in the book, found her own paradise, and started a new life. sad.

Ai Luoping gradually let go of his self-ashamed heart, and began to believe that Xiang Shujing's life would be better under Fang Lin's persuasive temptation, and he would fight his sword to the end of the world without any worries.

With peace of mind, he prepared to fight his back and cross the watershed in life, the college entrance examination.

Los Angeles, a restaurant, kitchen.

It was noon, and there was a lot of fuss, with the sound of collisions of large and small tableware. The head chef directed his hands to run back and forth. The waiter who was carrying the plate threw the plate into the pool in front of a girl, and the splash of water wet her forehead. Hair hanging down in front.

"Bquick! Therearemany!" A ferocious kitchen steward came over, pointing at Xiang Shujing and urging him non-stop. Xiang Shujing seemed to be under militarized management, of course not on the training ground, but in this corner In the kitchen, work hard.

Since a few months ago, Xiang Shujing was unable to find a pen pal. After many twists and turns, she found out that Elizabeth had already moved away. Due to the rush, the last letter was not received in time, and it may be that Xiang Shujing's address was lost. , the two have lost contact since then, so the original address is desolate, and it looks like no one has set foot there for many years.The cash carried by Xiang Shujing could no longer support her to continue living, so she looked for a job everywhere, not hoping for a high salary, just asking for food and housing, so that she could have a chance to survive in a foreign country until Now, almost impoverished, Xiang Shujing never thought about going back, or regretted her decision a little bit, regardless of the future and the past, she just wanted to get on with the present and keep going, otherwise she would ignore the future.

Sweat dripped from Xiang Shujing's forehead, and he took one dirty dish after another with leftover food in his hands, and scrubbed it with all his might. Fortunately, the people in the kitchen saw her as a little girl, and were very tolerant to her. She began to scold her steward, but actually restrained her temper a little bit. If someone else moved slowly, she would be picked out by the steward and yell at her.

In the evening, Xiang Shujing dragged his tired body to the sink to wash up. The sink was outside the back door of the kitchen, and there was a small room next to it. To live, that is, to be able to eat the extra dishes in the kitchen, to drink drinks that are about to expire or have expired, and to sleep in a brick hut that is piled up with debris but barely habitable, this is enough.After washing, she walked into the hut and found her "bed" by the moonlight. It was nothing more than a soft old thin blanket with a few holes in it. A white quilt was washed in Xiang Shu. In Jing's eyes, everything is just right.

Lying on the thin blanket, Xiang Shujing didn't think about anything, completely emptied herself, and fell into a deep sleep like this every night, until the next morning, the kind cleaning auntie, a fat, white and clean A middle-aged lady knocked on her door, and she got up in one go, quickly completed all the preparations, and started the day's tasks, with endless dishes and the sound of the steward.

In fact, the restaurant she worked in was not very large. There were three or four waiters, three cooks, a cleaner, a steward, the boss, the proprietress, and a temporary worker who washed the dishes.The boss is about to enter old age, but he is in good spirits. Although his children are not around, he still enjoys his life, and he is as good as the boss's wife.The waiters are all young people, many of them come here because of part-time jobs, and they are not familiar with each other. There is only one girl who calls herself Amy, who is about 20 years old and fits all the characteristics of a Caucasian person. She is a permanent resident in this restaurant. The waiter, Xiang Shujing was particularly impressed with her, because she seemed to take special care of her when Xiang Shujing first came, whether it was instructing her not to talk back when the manager scolded her, just bow her head silently and admit her mistakes. Occasionally, she came to help her wash the dishes after work at night. From what Xiang Shujing knew, Amy seemed to have a sister who was about the same age as herself. Xiang Shujing couldn't figure out other reasons. It's about the same as her sister, and naturally takes care of her a little more.

Xiang Shujing is still grateful to this big sister who keeps giving her warmth from the bottom of her heart.

Time flies, like a white horse passing by, and the blink of an eye is a long-term day.

And after all, when we are facing the long river of time, even if we have nostalgia, we will jump down without hesitation in the end, spinning rapidly in the eddies and undercurrents, until we are dizzy, until we are washed away for a long, long time, as if we can still I remember the decisiveness back then, but I have long forgotten how this step today has come slowly.

Just like in the past, Xiang Shujing and Ai Luoping both turned 6 years old, and their lives are almost completely attached to each other, and they are inseparable.

Another example is this year, when Xiang Shujing and Ai Luoping both turned 26 years old, they were at the peak of their lives. When they were in high spirits, the two people’s lives that were once tightly connected gradually began to deviate in the new year eight years ago. As time passed, the gap became wider and wider. Deep, so deep that they can't mend each other anymore.

Even Ai Luoping's life is perfect without Xiang Shujing. Ai Luoping, 26 years old, with his wife and children by his side, healthy parents, and a salary that does not worry about food and clothing, enjoys a life that only a few people can enjoy. At that time, and he had almost forgotten the harm he had brought to a girl many years ago. Under the respectful teaching of his mother, he had already tried to let go of the past entanglements, and tried to believe that Xiang Shujing was doing well now As time passed, the figure of Xiang Shujing was completely wiped from his heart.A person who has no sense of guilt should live a good life, not to mention that Ai Luoping has always been in the excellent list.

In the blink of an eye, Xiang Shujing went back and forth for 5 years.

From the original Los Angeles to today's San Francisco.

With the energy to survive in a foreign country, Xiang Shujing is finally no longer the girl who only knows how to wash dishes and listen to the lessons of management. 26 years old means more mature. Amy introduces a better woman to Shujing. Work, with perseverance and hard work, Xiang Shujing did a good job.Later, Xiang Shujing found out that Amy's sister passed away unfortunately when she was a child. Amy and her sister had a deep relationship. Coincidentally, as an Asian, Xiang Shujing's eyebrows and eyes looked a bit like Amy's sister, so Amy believed that Xiang Shujing was The angel arranged by fate allowed me to see my relatives standing next to me again, and the extra care was born because of this.Xiang Shujing was a little sympathetic to what happened to Amy, but instead of sympathizing, Xiang Shujing might as well work harder in return, which is why she worked very hard and moved from Los Angeles to San Francisco within 8 years.

Xiang Shujing likes to go to San Francisco's Chinatown in his spare time, order a bowl of ordinary noodles in that small but beautifully decorated Chinese restaurant, savor it carefully, and miss the taste of his homeland.

Homeland, not old home.

Xiang Shujing still stubbornly refuses to say that she misses the past easily.

Like Ai Luoping, only in the dead of night did he dare to open his heart, reveal his heart to the silent darkness, and shed a few tears of complicated emotions.

What Xiang Shujing didn't know was that Ai Luoping had a better life than she imagined.She felt that even though Ai Luoping was a father now, there was still something left in her heart for her, and she was even waiting hard for her.Every time he thinks about this, Xiang Shujing takes a deep breath for a long time before he can hold back the desire to go back.

Unforgivable, when his mother passed away, the handful of salt that Ai Luoping sprinkled on the wound was painful.

Xiang Shujing still learned how to face it with a smile.

If there is no accident, the lives of the two of them may live in peace and harmony until a hundred years later.

Ai Luoping lived with peace of mind and forgot all the unpleasantness of the past.

Xiang Shujing deceived herself into thinking that Ai Luoping put her in the deepest part of her heart, worshiped her day and night like a god, and missed her secretly, so she didn't regret it.

So fate made a joke.

A joke that turns things around.

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