Jigsaw puzzle

In the year Li Ran knew Han Yicheng, this was the first time he saw him like this, as if he had been haunted by something just now, with cold helplessness revealed from the bottom of his eyes.

Li Ran didn't care about the little conflict in the morning, put down his bag and ran to the sofa in two steps, sat beside Han Yicheng worriedly, took a tissue from the tea table to help him wipe the sweat off his forehead.

Han Yicheng didn't expect Li Ran to come back at this time. At first he thought he was still trapped in a dream, and looked at Li Ran with unbelievable cowardice.

It wasn't until Han Yicheng gradually woke up that he judged from the temperature of Li Ran's fingertips that the person sitting in front of him with a worried face was the real Li Ran.

Han Yicheng hugged Li Ran into his arms and clasped him tightly with his arms, so hard that his whole body trembled slightly.

The weak sense of loss in Cai Cai's dream just now was too terrifying, Han Yicheng did not dare to let go of the real feeling of embracing his limbs now, for fear that the terrifying nightmare would come back into reality again.

Li Ran felt that Han Yicheng's body was like a stove, so hot that he almost burned himself.Han Yicheng has long arms and legs, and once he hugs others desperately, he is as firm as an octopus.Li Ran knew that this was a sign of Han Yicheng's extreme lack of security, so even though he was strangled and had difficulty breathing, he didn't try to push him away.

I don't know how long it took before Han Yicheng gradually let go of his strength. He suffered from severe headaches, but he was still unwilling to let go of Li Ran. Finally, he dragged on and on, and ended up hanging on someone's body, with his forehead touching the depression of Li Ran's collarbone.

"I thought you were gone," he said sullenly.

If Li Ran still had a bit of grudge against Han Yicheng's previous behavior when he first entered the door, he has completely softened it now.Li Ran freed up one hand to pinch Han Yicheng's cheek, and found that there was only a thin layer of flesh that had been bulged out with great difficulty, and he couldn't help feeling distressed.

"Who told you to avoid me on purpose before, why are you pretending to be pitiful now?" Li Ran asked pretending to be angry, "Why are you avoiding me?"

After asking this sentence, Han Yicheng was discouraged. Li Ran felt that the person on his chest seemed to be getting heavier. He was suddenly a little curious, if Han Yicheng raised his head later, his face would be marked by his collarbone.

"I didn't hide from you, I just... want to be the same as before."

"What do you mean it's different from before?"

Han Yicheng raised his head, and as expected, there was a mark on his forehead. He raised his eyes and looked at Li Ran: "I don't know...but I'm sick, and you will...don't get along with me."

Speaking of this, Han Yicheng's expression became confused again, and his voice weakened.Seeing his appearance, Li Ran felt angry and funny: "Do you think I will stop loving you because of this crap? Will I break up with you?"

Han Yicheng was poked at the center of things like this, and turned his head a little embarrassed.In his logical chain, it is natural to be abandoned because of mental illness, but facing Li Ran's questioning just now, it seems that he has failed Li Ran's deep love by thinking so.

"I...", he was momentarily at a loss for words, staring at Li Ran not knowing what to say.

Han Yicheng himself has a lot of white parts of his eyes, and he hasn't had a good rest in the past few weeks, his eyes are red and bloodshot, like an oversized squinting rabbit.Li Ran was almost turned into a puddle of water by his wronged eyes, and he couldn't bear to criticize him any more.

"I didn't find you as my boyfriend because you are lively and cheerful," Li Ran said while pinching the acupuncture points on Han Yicheng's eyes with his fingers, "I fell in love with you because you are gentle and kind. Very reliable, and... handsome as hell."

"You have shortcomings, and I have shortcomings, but don't all people have two sides? If I kick you because of this, it would be too bad, wouldn't it?"

Han Yicheng still hesitated, he thought for a while and said, "You cried that day."

Li Ran was a little helpless when he heard this. He pinched the bridge of Han Yicheng's excellent nose angrily, and rolled his eyes, "Why don't you say that I still cry when I watch movies? Besides, I'm not sad because of you There are shortcomings, but because you will hurt yourself! Who told me that day that you understand, you understand shit!"

"I... forgot." It was the first time Han Yicheng was scolded so easily by others, he regained some strength, and began to crawl into Li Ran's arms again.

Li Ran considers himself an insecure person, but he is influenced by his extrovert personality, so he speaks decisively when he has something to say, and he has not suffered a big loss in the relationship in the past 20 years.

But Li Ran understands the insecurity of people's heart, he can't even imagine how Han Yicheng, who is cold and sensitive, has spent the past 30 years.

After hesitating for a long time, Li Ran decided to say that sentence. He lowered his head and pecked Han Yicheng's eyes, leaned into his ear and whispered, "I'm not your parents, and I don't have any perfect expectations for you. I just want you Just stay with me all the time."

Li Ran thought carefully about Han Yicheng's past on the way here. Before him, only his family members had established a close relationship with Han Yicheng. However, his parents have been persecuting him in wrong ways, obliterating his own personality to satisfy others. expect.

The only elder sister who made him a little wayward also passed away due to an accident. Han Yicheng felt deeply guilty because of this, and subconsciously agreed with the logic imposed on him by his parents.

So when Han Yicheng got along with Li Ran, he would subconsciously copy the model of getting along with his parents, suppressing his own needs to meet Li Ran's expectations. When he couldn't see what Li Ran had clear expectations for him, he would guess what Li Ran wanted, and then Force yourself to do it to gain a sense of security.

In daily life, Li Ran was joking and joking with him every day, and would unintentionally correct his habit, but when it came to major matters, Han Yicheng would go back to his old path.

"Just want me to be with you...?" He repeated, trying to understand Li Ran's meaning.

"Yeah." Li Ran nodded solemnly, and added: "Just stay with me in good health."

"But I'm boring."

"Then I'm still being hypocritical~"

"I have a mental problem."

"My dance studio is about to close down! Come on bro, is this a miserable convention?"

"Ah?" Han Yicheng seemed to remember something suddenly, "How is your dance room going?"

"Don't worry," Li Ran smiled, "If I fall down, won't I get someone to take care of me?"

Han Yicheng was discouraged again: "My salary is not much."

"Anyway, I won't be able to get along with anyone else, we have to make do no matter what, understand?"

"Ah."

"Did you really understand this time?" Li Ran confirmed it with worry, "Didn't you fool me like last time?"

"Ah."

Han Yicheng was in a daze, slowly digesting the information Li Ran gave him bit by bit.Although he has a first-rate understanding of other matters, when it comes to emotions, he will become extremely dull.

What does unconditional understanding and companionship represent?Can you accept your flaws?He likes me... the way I am?

"Are you cold?" Li Ran asked suddenly.

Han Yicheng finally changed his tone: "Huh?"

"Your head is so hot that you can fry an egg, right?" Li Ran touched Han Yicheng's forehead and sighed, "It must be a fever, and your brain may be burnt out."

Han Yicheng was still immersed in Li Ran's confession, chewing on the meaning carefully, just as he figured out some clues, Li Ran pressed him down, curled his lips a little depressed and didn't speak, let go and Li Ran stood up and walked into the room.

"Hey," Li Ran was about to call Han Yicheng to stop, when he realized that Han Yicheng was dragging his feet in the direction of his bedroom, and then the corners of his mouth rose wildly, he ran to the TV cabinet to touch a thermometer, kicked it in his pocket and ran back to his bedroom, abnormal Consciously get into the same bed with Han Yicheng.

Han Yicheng pushed him and signaled Li Ran to let him find a quilt: "I have a fever."

"What are you pretending to do?" Li Ran smiled and stayed with Han Yicheng and refused to go out. He bit Han Yicheng's shoulder greedily, "Who was holding me so desperately just now? I almost strangled me."

Han Yicheng had nothing to do with him, and at the moment his body was weak, he could only pull Li Ran off his shoulders, face to face, looking at him helplessly.

Li Ran has seen Han Yicheng put on this expression before, but every time he sees Han Yicheng showing such an expression, he is secretly very happy, and there is a little pride hidden in his heart.

Relying on this pride, Li Ran leaned forward to kiss Han Yicheng. The other party's lips were a little dry and flaky due to lack of water, but he patiently smoothed them away with his tongue. Leaving Han Yicheng's lips.

Han Yicheng's face was very red, and he didn't know if it was because of the fever or because of the kiss just now.He struggled to sit up, but Li Ran pulled him back to lie down again.

"Where are you going?"

"I'm going to take medicine."

Li Ran recalled how Han Yicheng was busy working in front of and behind the bed when he was sick last time, and felt that he was very incompetent, so he quickly took out the thermometer from his pocket and threw it to Han Yicheng.

"Take your temperature yourself, and I'll get you medicine."

Han Yicheng responded, and obediently "hit" himself with a temperature gun. He glanced at the temperature, put the thermometer next to the pillow, and heard the sound of rummaging through boxes and cabinets outside.

"It's under the TV cabinet." Han Yicheng reminded the outside.

As soon as he finished speaking, Li Ran came in with a bunch of small boxes, stared at the instruction manual for a long time, and then put the pile of small bottles in front of Han Yicheng, and patted the table very coolly: "Take your medicine!"

Han Yicheng obediently finished one bottle with a blank expression, and just when he asked for a second bottle, Li Ran remembered about the thermometer.

"How old are you?"

Han Yicheng answered reluctantly: "39 degrees."

Li Ran was stunned for a moment, picked up the back of the thermometer and checked it, and found that Han Yicheng missed by [-] degrees.

"This... Do I have to go to the hospital, can I just take medicine?"

Han Yicheng shook his head: "It's okay."

"Why are you okay?" Li Ran touched his forehead again worriedly, "Your brain is much more precious than mine, and you have to save it to contribute to the country. It must not burn out."

Han Yicheng smiled for the first time in several days, and he shook his head helplessly: "It's really fine, aren't you accompanying me?"

"Hey," Li Ran sighed, and got back under the quilt again, grabbed his arm and put it in his arms, "Do you think you are mature or naive? You are usually so calm and alone, but you are just like me." Competing in matters of affection, just like a child."

"I... have no experience."

"If you are inexperienced and you are not obedient, you will think about it all day long!" Li Ran said while pinching Han Yicheng's waist.

Of course Han Yicheng was happy to be scolded at this time, he dazedly moved towards Li Ran, narrowing the distance between them.

Li Ran was also sweating a little due to his high temperature. He moved left and right, and suddenly felt a strange feeling.

In order to confirm his suspicion, Li Ran secretly raised one leg, and pressed his knee against the position between Han Yicheng's thighs, the result was exactly as he expected.

"You...how can you still be hard when you have a fever?" Li Ran's eyes widened in surprise, "I didn't realize that you are such a brazen person?"