Jigsaw puzzle

From the first second Li Ran arrived home, he kept following Li Weiguo around in the front hall and back kitchen, restless and unable to calm down.As long as he stopped, he would be swallowed up by overwhelming worry, like a swamp.

Li Ran's mind was buzzing, all kinds of information were mixed together, but all he was thinking about was how Han Yicheng was doing now.

Should he go to work?Going to work... so you won't hurt yourself for a while, right?Can he still concentrate on thinking about things like before?Did I... make his situation worse this morning?

Li Ran absent-mindedly stood in front of the stove to boil water, even though Li Weiguo called him several times, Li Ran didn't hear a word, and finally Li Weiguo ran over and pushed Li Ran himself, and he managed to regain his senses.

"Are you using your mind to boil water?" Li Weiguo asked inexplicably.

Only then did Li Ran realize that he had stood here for a long time without even lighting the fire.Li Weiguo couldn't bear to see the cold kettle standing on the stove, so he lit the natural gas for him, and turned on the exhaust fan by the way.

"It's a good thing your mother is not at home, otherwise I would have to bother you," Li Weiguo clasped his back with one hand behind his back, "If you can't help me, go sit in the living room for a while, and wait for me to get rid of it." Beef, I will accompany you to drink two cups."

Li Ran nodded, turned around and walked back to the living room, pulled a ponytail and sat down, staring out the window in confusion.On the bed in the corner of the living room, there is still a chessboard that is halfway down. Some of the chess pieces are really old, and the patent leather engraved on the front has peeled off. It is not clear what the characters are from a distance.

Ever since Li Ran could remember, Li Weiguo's temper has always been like this, he never gets angry when encountering anything, and stays by his side calmly.Although the sense of presence in this family is not strong, Li Ran is often very grateful.

After a while, Li Weiguo hummed a little song, put a few dishes of side dishes on the table, took a jug of wine from the cabinet, and poured a cup for each of them.

Li Ran had something on his mind, so he drank very quickly, and when he raised his head, it was a small cup.

"You control yourself, don't drink too much later, your mother will have to babble again when she comes back." Li Weiguo's words seemed like a complaint, but his tone was very gentle, and there was a bit of a smile on his face when he said it smile.

"Are you having trouble at work, or did you not catch up with the girl?" Li Weiguo seemed to be asking Li Ran, and also seemed to be talking to himself, "No, if work is not going well, you won't go home and hide, saying Tell me, which girl worries about my son like this?"

When Li Ran thought that the "girl" in Li Weiguo's mouth was Han Yicheng, he subconsciously wanted to laugh. It's a pity that in the current atmosphere, when he laughed out loud, it sounded worse than crying.

Li Weiguo gave Li Ran a sideways look, and didn't insist on him talking, just waited quietly.After a while, Li Ran spoke.

"Do you and my mother feel that it is disappointing to raise my son like this?"

"Ah?" Li Weiguo was taken aback, he didn't expect Li Ran to ask such a question, but he quickly realized that he pretended to be angry and lightly ordered the plate with his chopsticks, "What nonsense are you talking about, it's your fault for not being filial to your father Have you heard it? Are you scolding yourself, or scolding me?"

Li Ran knew that Li Weiguo was playing tricks on him, so he wasn't really angry, so he continued on his own: "I have a friend...you should treat it as my partner. Since childhood, the family has been very strict, and he hoped that his son would become a dragon. As a result, he now Because I didn't meet my family's expectations, I couldn't think about it, and it was useless to persuade me, what do you think should I do?"

Li Weiguo was a little stunned by his sudden words, opened his mouth, and finally said with relief: "If your mother knows that you have found a girl with such character, she will be overjoyed."

At this moment, there was a sound from the hall. Li Ran thought it was Zhang Lingyu who had come back, so he hurried to the door to pick her up, took two steps in a panic, and almost tripped.

Li Weiguo saw Li Ran's reckless appearance, and the smile on his face deepened.He has loved to laugh since he was a child, and the wrinkles that have been drawn on the face of such a person for decades also reveal kindness.

"Your mother is back?" Li Weiguo asked in the room, hiding the wine bottle while asking.

Li Ran touched his calf and walked back: "No, I guess it was knocked on the opposite door to carry a bicycle."

The father and son sat and drank for a while, and then Li Weiguo slowly brought up the topic just now.

"Your mother and I, don't think we've been bickering all our lives, but in fact we haven't had many quarrels," Li Weiguo said while pouring a glass of wine for Li Ran. "You counted it once when you were in college."

"Your mother is not like me. She is smart, beautiful, and can talk. The only difference in her life is that she has never read a book. So she is not reconciled, so she wants you to make up for this and take a stable road. Don't suffer the same loss as her."

Li Ran clasped the edge of the tea table cloth with his fingers, which was his habit when he listened carefully to others.

"I couldn't persuade her at the time, so I asked her whose son she wanted to be like, and what kind of son she wanted to raise you to be promising. As a result, she took a small notebook with me and wrote dozens of names." When Li Weiguo said this, he seemed to be recalling the scene at that time, and laughed again, "I looked at the book, and every one of them was written by great men and heroes. I asked her to pick three out of these people, and let her be willing I replaced you as my son."

"The result? Who did you change?"

Li Weiguo clapped his hands and knocked the chopsticks beside the bowl to the ground: "She didn't choose anyone, and even beat me up."

Li Ran's heart warmed when he heard this, and for the first time in the past few days, he laughed sincerely.

"You and your mother have the same personality. It's true to be nice to others, and it's also true to love to be stubborn. Fortunately, I have such a mediocre personality." Li Weiguo packed up his things, and when he walked to the kitchen, he finally told Li Ran, "Your object If you have such a temper, you two shouldn't be at each other's throats!"

After talking with Li Weiguo, Li Ran fell into that distraught state again.Maybe this time he was too distracted, even when Zhang Lingyu couldn't stop nagging at him at night, he turned a deaf ear to it as if he was deaf.

After calming down and thinking about it, Li Ran didn't think that Han Yicheng was a stubborn person who loves to dig into a dead end by nature.He doesn't like to eat vegetables, but under Li Ran's coercion and lure, he can still eat a whole plate.He is a bit of a clean freak, but he often ignores that Qi Xin is wearing shoes and directly steps on the sofa.

Han Yicheng obviously doesn't like socializing, but he can still calm down and listen carefully to what others have to say.He felt that Xie Feiyang was cheating and betraying his relationship, but he could also listen to Li Ran's reasoning with him, and turned a blind eye in silence.

Han Yicheng seems to always reject others with a cold face, but he is easier to compromise than anyone else.

From this point of view, for the first time, Li Ran felt that Han Yicheng had lost himself in life, as if nothing in the world of mortals could arouse his interest.Han Yicheng's emotions seem to be only concerned with two things, one is his original family who loves and hates him, and the other is... himself.

Thinking of this, Li Ran couldn't sit still.The news was still blaring on the TV, mixed with Zhang Lingyu's worried nagging, and although there were only three people in the living room at home, it disturbed Li Ran with a headache like Noisy Toad Hollow.

He put on his backpack and ran back, closing the door without even saying hello, which startled Zhang Lingyu.

"What happened to him today," Zhang Lingyu took Li Weiguo's peeled edamame and chewed it in her mouth, "Look at this surprise."

Li Weiguo thought that it was rare for him to know more about his son than his wife, and a proud look appeared on his face.

"You don't know that, do you?" He said mysteriously, "Your son, Miss Tan is hitting a bottleneck!"

Zhang Lingyu was stunned for a moment, and then quickly realized that she looked at Li Weiguo helplessly, spat the edamame aside, sighed and said, "You know a fart."

On the other side, Li Ran hurried back to the downstairs of the community. Seeing that the lights were not turned on upstairs, he thought that Han Yicheng was still working overtime, so he secretly felt relieved.

While thinking about how to apologize to Han Yicheng when he came back, he opened the door to change his shoes, walked two steps into the room and turned on the living room light, and found that Han Yicheng was rubbing his eyes and sitting up from the sofa, his forehead was densely covered with beads of sweat.

Li Ran saw that Han Yicheng was still dressed as he was in the morning, with pajama pants under the hoodie, and it seemed that he had never been out of the house, so he stuttered and asked knowingly, "You, you didn't go to work?"

Han Yicheng was originally trapped in the vortex of pain thrown by Li Ran. Half asleep and half awake, Han Jianhong's face appeared in front of him again, with the same disappointed and disgusted expression.

In the dream, Han Jianhong frowned and looked around, as if he was so dissatisfied with everything in the room. In the end, he didn't even want to say a word to Han Yicheng. He just sighed deeply, and then strode away.

Han Yicheng's fingers were clenched together, and it hurt a little. When he was watching Han Jianhong's disappearing back in horror, a resentful female voice sounded beside him.

"Is there nothing you can do well? Tell me, why are your parents so partial to you?"

Han Yanan in the dream was wearing crimson lipstick that Han Yicheng used to think was cool. She showed a pitiful expression, squatted down and patted Han Yicheng and blinked: "How can you do it? You failed both your parents and me. where?"

Han Yanan's eyes were so empty, Han Yicheng was afraid to look at her, so he turned his eyes to her forearm, and found that the whale tattooed before had disappeared.

Just as Han Yicheng wanted to ask what was going on, Han Yanan grabbed his neck and pressed him hard on the sofa.

"Why are you!" Han Yanan asked Han Yicheng with a ferocious expression. His vision gradually blurred, and he couldn't tell whether his sister was laughing or crying. He could only hear Han Yanan asking him over and over again, "Why is it you?" You! Why are you!"

Yes, why me?Why am I the one who is loved by my parents, the one who makes mistakes, the one who disappoints everyone, and the one who survives?

Thinking of this, Han Yicheng gradually closed his eyes, maybe this kind of nightmare has entangled him for too long, and he has already lost the strength to resist.

Just when Han Yicheng closed his eyes and waited to die, Li Ran came out of the bedroom, looked at all this curiously and asked, "Old Han? Are these your family members?"

In the dream, Han Yicheng suddenly lost his mind, he wanted to escape from Han Yanan's grasp like crazy, but for some reason, his hands and feet were like cotton, hanging powerlessly to the side.

"Hey?" Li Ran walked over with a naive smile, and looked at Han Yanan who was strangling Han Yicheng's neck with great interest, "Are you really like me?"

Han Yanan's expression suddenly became natural and warm. She let go of Han Yicheng's neck, put an arm around Li Ran's shoulder, and pulled him to the next room, asking, "Did my brother disappoint you too? Um?"

Li Ran looked back at Han Yicheng hesitantly, and pretended to be thinking seriously: "No? What's wrong with him?"

At this time, Han Jianhong and Ma Xiuju, who had disappeared for a long time, suddenly appeared again, and together with Han Yanan, they dragged Li Ran into the house.Han Yicheng wanted to call to stop him, but he couldn't speak. He wanted to sit up, but his whole body was weak.

Just when Han Yicheng was struggling desperately, Li Ran's vivid and real voice came from different directions, pulling him back from the horrible nightmare to reality.

"You, you didn't go to work?" He heard Li Ran say.