doomed and reversed 1

Packing my things, I discovered that I had grown attached to the small apartment I lived in.The reluctance and desire to continue living here made me sad.But I understand that this is just an illusion brought to me by my original brain.Unknown things always make people feel a little fear, so people instinctively give up the plan to explore the unknown in the primitive desire to seek safety, and turn to clinging to the incomplete.

I wasn't about to give up on my decision to leave the city, but by the end of the night, my uneasiness had grown so overwhelming that I grabbed my phone and wallet and headed out.

I came to a bar in this city.The inside of the bar is really full of feasting lights, dizzying light, deafening music rhythm, everything makes people unable to think, unable to immerse themselves in their own world with peace of mind.But at the same time, it can also let you vent your most primitive emotions.

Thinking of Yubing, I started drinking endlessly, and my sanity disappeared.However, when my mind was still a little clear, the noise that happened not far from me attracted my attention.I looked for the sound and saw a man and a woman tugging. At first I thought this kind of thing was what you wanted, but at that moment, I stubbornly believed that the woman was resisting.

Without thinking carefully, I stepped forward, "Didn't you see that she didn't want to!" The man turned his head to look at me, his face smelled of alcohol, "Don't meddle in your own business, kid!" "I want to! If you force her, I will take care of it!" The man let go of the hand that restrained the woman, and turned his whole body to me, "Boy! What are you doing? Don't you understand the rules here? You are new here!"

His sullen expression, coupled with his strong and tall body, instantly created a kind of deterrence to me.I also noticed that some people around me stopped their movements and looked at me.My feet are about to turn sideways for nothing.When I wanted to leave, I glanced at the woman again, and a familiar feeling suddenly came to my heart.

The woman Yoyo raised her face and turned to me, and I felt a slap in the heart. "Yubing!" I didn't care about the man's murderous expression and the things he was holding up, and walked up to her, "Yubing, are you okay?" Yubing looked at me with some empty eyes, and then slowly replied cleared up,

"A Hai?"

"it's me……"

Before I could finish speaking, she suddenly hugged me, her arms tightly wrapped around my neck, "Ah Hai, don't go, okay..."

I froze, "Let's get out of here first."

But she became self-willed, "Ah Hai, I don't want you to go..." "I won't go... let go first, and I will help you out." "I won't let go..." She kept crying softly, which made my heart soften into one piece.But now is not the time to vent your feelings.

The man behind has already begun to be strongly dissatisfied. "Boy, you are impatient!"

Ignoring that man, I took a deep breath and hugged Yu Bing horizontally.But the man quickly blocked my way. "What are you doing?" I asked angrily.

"Put her down, you dare to take my prey?" "Which is your prey!" Suddenly thinking that if I'm not here today, Yu Bing will be given by this man... I'm afraid for a while.

"Boy, it's still too late for you to give up now, or I'll beat you to the ground!" Unable to bear the instinctive desire, his aura was aggressive. "Forcibly having sex with a woman, you are a crime!" The man was furious when he heard this, "MD! Don't let me go!"

Just as he rolled up his sleeves to greet someone, the police came.The scene was chaotic, I hugged Yubing and slipped out quickly.I don't know where Yubing's home is, so I had no choice but to take her to my home when she was drunk.

In the taxi, she kept leaning in my arms and cried all the way.My mood became more sad and depressed.Is this woman crazy?Going to such a chaotic place alone in the middle of the night.Do you want to make an accident yourself?I suddenly regretted that I helped her overcome her fear of men, so that she lost the sense of crisis that she should have.

"A Hai." Her voice was soft and soft, as if she was whispering.

"What's wrong."

"Don't go, okay? I don't want you to go." Hearing this, my heart stopped, and I suddenly remembered that this woman has a fiancé...

"Yubing, what's his phone number?" "Ah Hai, you can't leave me...you can't leave me." She didn't hear my question clearly, which made me feel a little frustrated.

"I didn't want you... Yubing, didn't we agree?" My eyes suddenly filled with tears, and I finally made up my mind, but you have a fiancé... Besides, you still love him so much... I'm just a friend who helped you... In your eyes, I'm just a transgender person... Your identity, it's impossible to accept me rationally... Why don't you let me go... Don't If you want me to tell you that I like you, will you let me disappear from your world with fearful eyes?Mo Yubing...

"How can there be a good agreement?" She straightened up suddenly, looking at me with red eyes.I looked at her and almost cried, but held back.

"Where is your home? I'll take you back." After adjusting my emotions, I spoke.

She looked straight at me, bit out three words abruptly, "Lin Chenghai..."

At that moment, I only felt that she was not drunk, but the next moment, she was limp in my arms again.Her deodorant made my sanity collapse for a while, but I finally helped her into my home.Putting her on my bed, I lost my strength.Drunkness infects me again, and I feel drowsy.

I am a bit of a clean freak, even in a blur of will, I still sent myself into the bathroom.But after I took off all my clothes, I found that there was no hot water, so I had to take a cold shower.This brings temporary relief to my body but further robs me of my sanity, I'm so tired and the alcohol is eating away at my willpower, I just want to find a place where I can't think of anything and go to sleep go.

But cold water can't make people comfortable after all. I can't stay in the bathroom all night. What's worse, when I was about to open the door of the bathroom, I suddenly realized that I didn't take my clothes.It's okay to go out naked when I'm home alone, but now there are other people in the house, sleeping in my bedroom, lying on my bed.

I took a few steps back, came to the mirror, looked at my body, fell into confusion for a while, and then looked at the clothes I had left aside. . .Or, I put on the clothes I took off, go to the bedroom to get a change of clothes, and then come back and take a new shower-yet. . .

Thinking of the temperature of the water just now, I couldn't help shivering, it's winter—finally, I gritted my teeth, took the bath towel beside me, wrapped it around my important parts, opened the bathroom door carefully, walked to Bedroom—I found that she was sleeping quietly on her side. I sighed with relief, then moved slowly with my own hands and feet, opened the closet, and slowly took out the clothes from it.

But when I turned around, a pair of hands hugged me from behind.My body froze, and the movements of my hands stopped. "Ah Hai." Her voice was lazy, and the coolness oozing from her fingertips spread to my somewhat fiery body through the thin bath towel.

I was extremely nervous, "Yubing,,, are you up?" The person behind me didn't answer my question, but just moved closer to me.At that moment, I deeply felt that a woman's body is so soft.My breathing started to become a little faster, and my heart beat faster.

"Yubing,,, let go of me first,,, I haven't put on any clothes yet." I could feel the temperature coming from my cheeks, it was burning hot.

"Don't,,," her tone seemed to be intoxicated after drinking, with a hint of coquettish willfulness.We were deadlocked for a while, and I felt that my little sanity was constantly being lost.When I felt a strange change in a certain part of my body, I quickly started to break free from her hand.

But at that moment, her strength was surprisingly great. Thinking about it now, maybe it was because she was instinctively unwilling to break free at that time.Just like that, the bath towel wrapped around my body was pulled down by mistake due to the dispute between the two.I was dazed for a moment, but soon, I bent down to pick it up.However, she stepped on it with her foot.

"Yubing, move your feet." My voice began to tremble, and embarrassment and shyness robbed me of my reason for a while. In front of her, I was naked and at a loss as to what to do.But she picked up the towel with her foot and kicked it aside.As if the action brought her pleasure, she laughed softly.

I stared stiffly at the scattered bath towels not far away, and thought of her who was still behind me. I closed my eyes obediently, and held the hand of the clothes tightly. "Ah Hai." At the moment when she was about to hug me again, I got into the closet, and then quickly closed the closet from the inside.Immediately afterwards, regardless of whether the clothes were properly worn, they were put on indiscriminately.