doomed and reversed 1

My location is opposite to her office, so when I raise my head and turn it slightly, I can see her face slightly sideways.A serious woman always has a magical charm, and this sentence is so vividly reflected in her.Whenever I am a little tired from work, I will look up at her, so that my tired body seems to be full of strength again, with a new sense of excitement.

On this day, I came to the company early as usual.Unexpectedly, I found her figure. In the company in the early morning, it was only me and her. I enjoyed that feeling very much.However, it seems that since I knew she was my manager, her gentle side in my impression has left me. She is more like an ice beauty, a strong woman.

The faint sense of distance in my heart began to be felt more and more deeply.It seems that the excitement from instinct will one day be defeated by the depression from reason.

"Chenghai." "Huh?" I was lost in thought, but I didn't notice that she had come to me.

"Manager." Obviously, I have pronounced her name thousands of times, but in the company, in the early morning of this day, for a reason, I called out the title that stood between her and me.When I communicate with her again, I feel more wronged than missed.Her expression froze, as if she didn't expect my reaction.But it quickly returned to normal, "Let's have a meal at noon, are you free?"

"Eat together?" I asked subconsciously, but soon regretted it.

"Well, thank you for what you did for me before." Hearing this, I felt a little disappointed but still had some expectations.

"Okay..." Later, I looked at her charming back in a daze, until she sat on the office chair and raised her head to look at me with some doubts.

She told me to wait for her in the parking lot first, and I complied.Standing in the bright underground parking lot, I was a little nervous thinking that I would be with her next.Just as I was pacing around a little restlessly, she appeared.

"Cheng Hai, here." She waved to me.I took a deep breath and walked towards her quickly.Cars drive on the road. "How are you doing recently?" She broke the silence first. "It's okay." I just miss you very much. "That night... I'm sorry." I didn't look at her expression, "It's okay, it's just that you... where did you go?" "At home." "Oh."

The atmosphere in the car seemed to have stagnated because of my question. "Here we are." "Oh."

When I came to the restaurant, when I raised the glass of red wine, she suddenly spoke. "You called me later?"

Her words made a man's voice appear in my head.With a sudden tug in his heart, he unconsciously exerted force on the hand holding the wine glass.I thought, my face must have been ugly at that time.

"Are you okay?" She looked at me,

I forced a smile, and took a deep breath as lightly as possible, "Yes, but... someone else picked it up." Halfway through I said it, I felt like my tone was that of a man who suspects his wife is unfaithful.Then he paused, "I thought I made a mistake at the time!"

"That's my fiancé."

"Fiancé?" I could feel my body trembling, my breathing was getting heavier, and I could also feel the heat on both sides of my face, shyness, shock and sadness, rushing to me at that moment.But when I noticed that her expression started to become complicated, reason made a choice faster than me, I can't let her my feelings for her exist...I can't let her know that I have actually..." His voice was very charming."

She was taken aback when she heard the words, and then smiled, "Yes, a gentleman... In today's words, he is still a warm man..."

"It's hard to find a considerate man these days." I said perfunctorily, with my usual tone.

"I don't agree with your point of view, Ah Hai." Hearing her call me Ah Hai, my heart stopped beating, and then I looked at her body language carefully, feeling extremely lost in my heart. She thought of me as her best friend, right? ...at least a good friend...or someone who helped her...

"What?" I asked with a fake smile on my face.

"Because just by my side, there are two warm men." At that moment, her eyes seemed to be soaked in water, soft and full of affection.I was a little dazed, when the waiter came, "Hi, what is your order." The stranger interrupted suddenly, which brought my sanity back to my senses.

"Your father is going to be jealous." "What..." "There is one more man who makes you feel warm." I replied, thinking that I was shaking a humorous burden, and I thought that my behavior was in line with me in her world role in .

She pursed her lips and looked at me, "My father passed away when I was very young." Her tone was sad and disappointed, but at that time I could only feel her sadness.

"I'm sorry... I don't know..." "It's okay... let's... have dinner." So, I finally failed to know who the other warm man was in her words.

So, my first "date" with her ended in all kinds of complicated emotions.And... I don't think anyone would like that kind of complexity.

I want to quit my job again.

"Are you resigning?" she asked, staring at me.

I nodded, "I already applied when I was the former manager..." Then why was it not approved? "Her tone was a little cold and even slightly interrogative, which made me a little nervous.

"Maybe my letter of resignation was written too simply." I held my hand tightly under the table.

"What did you write?" "Manager... This is my resignation letter, please approve it." Realizing that she had been changing the subject, I had no choice but to bring the question back.

Finally, her cold mask loosened a bit. "Ahai...isn't it good here? Didn't you adapt to the environment here from the very beginning?" "Manager..." "Call me Yubing." Hearing this, I was a little embarrassed and cramped. The look in her eyes made me dazed for a moment, I seemed to see affection from it, but soon my reason came to give me a blow, how could such a thing happen?

She already has a fiancé, and she still likes her fiancé so much.She has no reason, and there is no possibility of her falling in love with me. In her heart, I have always been a woman... The more I thought about it, the more I felt uncomfortable, so I hardened my heart, "Manager, this is my personal pursuit. I don't like the environment here, it's too cold...I can't feel a trace of popularity...The codes in front of the computer screen are also making me feel tired now, I want to do something else..."

"I'll raise your salary...to bear with it for a while, you can better pursue the life you want."

"Yubing, the former manager told me what you said." She was taken aback for a moment, wondering if I had read it wrong, and her face turned pale for a moment.After a long silence, she finally opened my resignation letter.I have been observing her expression as she reads the letter, but nothing has been gained... She is more mature than I imagined.

Well, I accept your resignation letter. "In the past, I might really have left and thought I had succeeded, but after going through the previous few times, I also noticed the ambiguity in her words." Why don't you let me go? "If she only treats me as a friend, why does she act so forcefully, or... In fact, she has always been a strong woman. But even so, what is the reason for her to keep me? She was a little flustered and seemed a little at a loss , but this was only her instant reaction, she quickly regained her composure, "I think the reason I gave is the same as the previous manager, the company does not want to lose an excellent employee like you. "

The cold and stylized tone suddenly extinguished the anger in my heart.I looked at her, and it seemed that something was slowly changing in my heart. "Yubing... As a friend, don't you want me to find the life I want? Why do you block me like a stranger?" My sudden soft tone seemed to drive away the tense atmosphere just now, At this moment, she and I are just like two close friends, talking about the future.

She bit her lower lip, but still didn't look at me, she just looked down at the desk calendar, "Ah Hai, if this is a decision you made after careful consideration...but you know your current salary...actually Being in City A is the dream of many people...I'm afraid you will regret it later...Are you really sure?"

"I'm sure..." "Okay..." She nodded with some difficulty, picked up the pen at the side, and wrote something, "You are approved." I stood up, "Thank you..." To go At the door, I paused, "I bought a plane ticket for the day after tomorrow..." After speaking, I opened the door and left.