doomed and reversed 1

I was in a trance that day, my whole body was limp, and I let the doctor fiddle with me.My head was heavy and I couldn't think.Sometimes nausea and vomiting.I think my body really needs some work out.But the culprit who caused all this disappeared after sending me to the hospital.At the beginning, I comforted myself, thinking that maybe there was something wrong with Yubing's family, but gradually, I stopped thinking about it that way.

It's not that she doesn't know my mobile phone number, let alone the hospital I'm in, but she hasn't heard from her for seven days.I also thought about calling her, but I was always afraid that she was busy, afraid of disturbing her, and afraid of calling myself, as if I was blaming her for making myself like this, of course I didn't blame her at all, just waiting like this After seven days of indecision and hesitation, I suddenly realized that she had disappeared from my world for so long.

It would be a lie to say that I was not disappointed. I even felt like questioning her, but I told myself that it was unreasonable. Later, I was discharged from the hospital. One month after I was discharged, I missed her more and more.I miss her smile, the fragrance on her body, her cool but soft hands, her calling me Ah Hai, and everything about her.

At that time, I had a faint thought that I had some kind of affection for her beyond a friend, but I just couldn't accept this idea, but subconsciously, I admitted it.I get up early at four o'clock every day and go out for a morning run.Many times, I was thinking, what would it be like if she was by my side, and at this time, her soft and quiet figure would appear in front of my eyes.

I think I was poisoned, poisoned by her.But this kind of thinking is just the accumulation of a month. Compared with the passage of time day by day, my mind is not that complicated.I just miss it, stay in a daze for a while, and then devote myself to work.

In fact, as time went by, when I felt that my complicated thoughts had settled down, I called her.But it was a man who answered the call. I was flustered at the time, so I hung up the phone immediately, my eyes were open in a daze, and at dawn, I couldn't think of anything, as if I was blocked everywhere, I didn't want to think, and I didn't dare to think.

As time went by, I earned more and more money, and gradually my life was filled with other things, and her weight in my heart seemed no longer so important.I also wanted to sell the apartment I was living in and go somewhere else and do something else.I'm starting to get a little tired of coding all day long.Just do it, I submitted my resignation, but this time the response was quick, and I was called to the office.

"Manager." "Are you going to resign?" He picked up my resignation letter and showed it to me.

"Yes." "The company doesn't treat you well?" "I wrote it all in the resignation letter."

He looked at me, then opened my resignation letter. "The world is so big, I want to see it? Is that why you handed it over?"

I nodded.

"You know the company's operating procedures. Without you, we have to spend extra energy to make up for it. Cheng Hai, you are an excellent employee. Your departure will cause even greater losses to our company. "But I did—"

"Well, I'll raise your salary by 40.00%." ​​"The manager isn't the reason for the salary, I'm really just—"

A phone ringing interrupted what I was about to say.The manager looked at me and motioned softly for me to leave first.The words he was about to say were cut off, and he had no choice but to hold back an unknown anger in his heart.And since that time, my approval has been delayed, which makes me extremely depressed.But thinking that it might be that the resignation letter was written too hastily, I had to write another one seriously.

But this time I still failed, or rather, I didn't hand in my resignation letter.Because, the manager changed, a new manager.

It was raining lightly that day, and the weather was a little cool.When I came to the company, I found that everyone looked solemn. It took me a while to find out that the manager had been replaced.

"Cheng Hai, why did you come here?" "It's fine if you're not late." I said indifferently.

"That's not like your style...you still want to resign" I glanced at him, nodded, and then asked casually, "How do you know about my resignation?" "You went to the manager's office several times I saw you took your resignation letter last time." I nodded, but I didn't expect them to pay attention to what happened around them and their colleagues. "However..." He blinked at me, "You don't even want to raise your salary by 40.00%?" His words surprised me even more, "How do you know this?" There may be a question in his tone , which made him a little embarrassed for a moment, he cleared his throat, and said in a false way, "I heard that too..."

It is said that?It sounds like it's not very practical. Unless it was passed on by someone else in the manager's office that day, it's impossible for anyone to know such details after the conversation.But when I think about how everyone is humble to each other, I really can't imagine that there are ordinary people's intersections in private. "

However, why are everyone's expressions so weird today? "In order to ease the embarrassment just now, I changed the subject. He paused while catching the water, then straightened up and turned to look at me, "You don't know, do you?" ""What? "Seeing my puzzled look, he was also sure that I didn't know.

"Oh, yes! You haven't joined that group yet!"

"group?"

"We created a group in private... Cough! But you are determined to resign, and there is nothing to mention about the group."

I nodded, "So what's going on in the group? The company is laying off employees?"

"Where is... the manager is about to change, the new manager will arrive today..."

Just as I was about to respond, I heard movement outside. "The new manager is here, let's get out." "Okay." He poured out the water he just picked up, and threw the disposable cup into the trash can.I originally planned to do the same, but when I thought that I was about to leave the company, I dismissed the idea and went out directly with a cup.

"Hello everyone, I'm your new manager, Mo Yubing..." I didn't hear the words clearly and I don't remember them. I only know that when I heard the word Mo Yubing, my mind went blank with a buzz.He shook his hand and spilled the water in the glass.

"Cheng Hai, are you okay?"The commotion here caught her attention.I hurriedly lowered my head, I don't know why, I just didn't want her to see me.Her heart was beating wildly, her thoughts were in a mess, her voice was a little colder, a little strange, but still familiar.

"Cheng Hai, are you okay?" My colleague slapped me. "It's okay." I smiled reluctantly.

"Is there a problem with the two colleagues over there?" Maybe it was our whispering that caught her attention again, after all, everyone was listening quietly.

Everyone was looking at us, I wanted to lower my head even lower, but that would be counterproductive, so I had to raise my head and look at her, "No, thank you." When she saw that it was me, the surprise in her eyes also flashed, But he disappeared immediately, and only recovered his poker face, continuing to talk freely.

Very disappointed, but also a little bit of joy.So I did not hand in my resignation that day.